*see Misa's Song in the Music Section for the details
~btw, I didn't rip this this one, I just found out over the net...
Why do I have to get things that remind me of how lonely I've been all these years? I have just finished reading Mitch Albom's Five People You Meet in Heaven. Haha, I forced Scott to lend me that one. Haha, well I'm kidding. It just happened that we're talking about books and I mentioned that I want to read that book and he, on that day, has it in has bag, and the moment he brought it out, I snatched it from his grip and put it in my bag. Hahaha.. Typical Levy evilness. I just got excited. Next up, I'm borrowing Alain's copy of Harry Potter and the Half-blood Prince. I could've read this one years ago because a friend lend me a copy of his e-book but I don't really like reading novels from the computer. I prefer reading a real book seating on the floor, or lying on my stomach or just lying on my bed. I love reading books and that's the way I love to have it read. Haaayy..
So, what now? Still reading Bleach and Death Note Manga. The problem is I just can't read it when I want it because of the poor internet connection at home [DSL is so slow and seems like where the only subscriber in our area who's experiencing that problem. Those PLDT people are so... ] and I have some things to do in my OJT workplace so I can't just read manga when I want, also there have been network problems lately.
Why is it so hard to save up money these days? I need money but money doesn't come. Why does the money make the world go round today? I wish I wasn't born middle class. I would definitely prefer to live a sad life as long as I'm rich. Haha.. Well, I can take all the sadness the world is yet to give since I've been dealing with that almost all my life but poverty.. F@*&%! I'm so tired of this kind of life. I hardly get what I want like I don't deserve them. I have to wait and wait even if I know that nothing that I'm waiting for will ever come. I know in this life we have to work to get what we want but still...
What makes Thursdays special? Ehem *clears throat* New episodes of Bleach and Death Note are released online. Like today, just finished watching Bleach 123 and Death Note 28. Haha.. Bitin and I'm not so good with waiting. I get uber excited. Haha. I'm so excited that I've been waking up 2 or 3 days straight from dreams about Shinigamis. Yeah, both Bleach shinigamis and D+N shinigamis. Hahaha! This is really normal in my case, it always happen whenever something excites me too much. My reiatsu's spilling reckless. Ahoho!! Can't wait for Thursday next week and the week after that... Ahoho.. And I'm already reading the manga, and I'm nowhere near halfway of the series so.. ala lang. I just want to say that one. Hahaha! By the way, my friends found a set of original Death Note stuffs sold half the price it's being sold in Comic Alley and when they one of my friends bought one during Ozine fest. I'm definitely getting one for myself too, not today but after Mangaholixx. This is pure obsession Kurotsuchi Mayuri style! Ahaha! I'm finally starting to talk with my co-workers, OJT is getting more fun. They too love anime so this will be very enjoyable. Well that's be it for tonight. I don't have much to say, really. So.. Yasumi Nasai, Minna!!!
BANKAI!!!
Start: | Apr 28, '07 |
Location: | Severino Delas Alas Hall |
Believe it or not, I'm busy. Hehehe.. Just too happy that I can't wait to share this: I've watched the 2 Bleach OVAs [Memories in the Rain & The Sealed Sword Frenzy], planning to watch the Death Note Movies and.. Can't wait till Bleach: Memories of Nobody is out. I gotta see that one.
Wala yun lang. Hehe...
BANKAI!!!
Tonight, love is rationed
Tonight, across the nation
Tonight, infects worldwide
~ Beat Crusaders
I love that song. It's one of the opening songs of Bleach. I haven't seen the object of my objsession [Shiawase] for a while now and I doubt that if I am ever to see him again, it will be anytime soon but, hey-hey-hey, I'm still happy. One of my many loves is keeping me alive right now, Anime. Buhahahaha!!! AHLAVET! Just finished watching the latest episode of Bleach and Death Note, now I'm reading the manga. I feel my reiatsu [spirit force] rising. Addict mode activated. Buhahahaha!!! Now I'm more indulged in my fantasies than ever. I gotta have those stuffs. *evil grin* And yeah, just like before, I've fallen in-love with an anime guy. Darn Renji Abarai's red-haired bad boy [tattoos.. ooohh!] sexiness!! Ahahaha! He's red-haired like Tooya from Ayashi No Ceres but is very different in a lot of ways but I love them both. And yeah, my kawaii shounen, Ryuuga/Ryuuzaki/L. I love the psychedelic cuteness. Yeeeeeeeeh... So adorable!! Can't wait till Mangaholixx. I will by me some stuffs to satisfy my obsession and... Ahohohohoh!!
OT: I'm finally doing something for my OJT and I'm enjoying the company of my Genshi-friends. Lahvet-lahvet!!
Yeah, I know. People find it weird when I prefer falling for a fictitious character than a real one but hey-hey-hey fantasies are more reachable and manageable than having to get hurt when I can't have the real [alive/human/tangible.. hahaha!] guy that I want. Plus, it seems like nobody wants to bring me back from the confines of my imaginary world, but I don't really mind. I guess, I would have to settle here for the rest of my life until someone actually comes for me. My great, wide somewhere isn't really something you can find that easy, and nothing you can explore with a map, and nowhere you cannot get lost in. Unless I let you in, you can never find the keys and come in to get me and unless you tell me you want to save me I would not need the saving. For now, I'm satisfied [with this state of mind].
BAN... KAI!!!
It's just so sad how one can't do anything to cheer up someone they cared so much about. How you can't be the one to make them happy or when not one word you say can ever make them feel better. How so long you wanted to be someone's own source light when they are in a gloom but most of the time, you're just a light shining out the window of a neighbor's room. How you wanted to be the one to lift him up when he's down but you're existence is just that of a mere companion; And how he'd prefer to be with someone else instead of you. If only you could be needed because you're the one they need and not because you're the only one there. How you wish you could stay because you know you're the one wanted they there and not just because you wanted to be wanted...
Fragments...
Man, I'm being so emo!!!
Nothing much, really.
Started my OJT last Tuesday. Already had 40 hours, 200 more to go. Har-har. I'm still idle, I stare at the pc, sleep, listen to music, sleep, do a little photoshop-ing, and sleep. Yeah, you think that's easy? I almost died of boredom the first day.
Almost done with our first contest entry and I doubt if we can finish the three. Aww..
I've been missing "Shiawase". I've been thinking about him a lot. Haven't seen him since... well, never mind. It's not like I'm even part of his life. Awww...
Yay, lovin' Death Note and Bleach. Crunchyroll rocks!!! So much better than Youtube. I got tired of Jigoku Shoujo so I stopped at episode 7, but I still want to cosplay her. Ahihi.. L is so cute, I so love him! *sigh* He died at Episode 25, so I'm still mourning his death. My friends didn't like the dubbing GMA did of Bleach. Haay, wawa. Good thing, I don't have to suffer their disgust. Haha. Reading subs is better though I wish I can also hear it Japanese while I read the sub. Hik-hik.
I hang out with my Genshiken friends during lunch at we go home together in the afternoon. What OJT experience can get better than that? Ahaha..
We went to Val and his sister's post-grad party. Well, we ate and sang karaoke and had a few drinks. Sayang only a few of our friends came though his other friends are there too. I was one of the first to go home, and.. well did my Crunchyroll marathon. Ahihi..
I guess that's about it. Gotta go for now. I don't have much to write anyway. Bye!!!
Start: | Apr 20, '07 9:00p |
Location: | Mag:net Café Katipunan AGCOR Building (In front of Mirriam College) 335 Katipunan Avenue Quezon City |
Been suffering from Separation Anxiety lately, like a kid not wanting to leave mom's side. Well, this isn't about my mom. It's about my alma mater. I have been so attached these past four years and I just woke up one day not wanting to leave. I love my DLSU-D. I've made so much memories at every corner of La Salle I've been. Like at the Alumni Hall, where I met my first ever friend in the university and, the Batibot near the admin building where I first met my Genshiken friends, and ERH101 where I had my first class with my BCS batchmates. I can't imagine myself leaving. Like my OJT, I wanted to have it somewhere far from from Cavite but something made me think about spending my last summer outside La Salle. Good thing, that no matter how much I wanted to work for Anino, I didn't get the job. I didn't feel bad at all. I would have if I didn't get to do my OJT at ITC and have to take it somewhere else. My heart's bound to DLSU-D. I can't explain. I love my alma mater so much, I can kiss the ground. And it's where I met most of the people I hold dear, like my Shiawase. I doubt if I can ever have him but atleast something links us together. My friends, my memories that are so precious.. I'm on my fifth year next school year, and I feel so happy yet lonely at the same time. I'm being so clingy but that's just how I am when I love something so much. I never want to let go, I will never let go.
-=Sa aking picha pie, ayoko nang mahiwalay... Para sa'yo, handa 'kong magpakamatay=-
sino ako, ang tanong mo
ako ang iyong konsensya.
kung wala ka no'n..
malamang di tayo magkakilala!
sa'n ako nanggaling at sa'n ngayon nananahan?
sagot ko, sa iyong pagkatao
sa iyong kaibuturan.
ngayon, kung sa tingin mo ay wala kang pagkatao, baka nga hindi ka tao
teka, eh ano ka pala?
pati tuloy ako nagtataka..
tao naman ang iyong anyo at iyong pag-unawa
bakit ka nagpapadala sa kahayupan nila?
naghahanap ka pa rin ba ng sa iyo'y magsasalba?
sa kadahilanang iyan, kaya ako nilikha..
magpapakilala ulit ako sa'yo..
ako ang iyong konsensya..
ako naman magtatanong,
ngayong alam mo na,
magtatanong ka pa ba?
[ Conscientia by : Levy Eiva Serdoncillo, 2007 ]
~An insatiable urge to write.
I wanted to write down my memories as if I'm taking them away forever. But I'm neither writing them down nor am I letting any of them go. I wanted to put them all down into words for all the world to read, then maybe they'll know what I always kept, what I always wanted to say but the world's too busy with their own lives to care, to stop for a while and listen. I wanted to find peace in those memories, be it a happy or a lonely one, but they just render me helpless with no other choice but get hurt. They inspire my existence; Bad memories toughen my outer shell and crush my insides to a mush. Happy memories protect me for a while from all the harshness but the shield never lasts for as long as I wanted. My drifting into things that never happened, and can never happen, cannot be helped; Dreams. It's the reality that I chose to exist in. I dream too much. I wanted the world to understand but there seems to be no such thing as telepathy. It's either you tell them (whisper or shout), you show them or you don't tell them at all. You would know by now, I have no explanation for the disorganization of my thoughts. I'm not used to having anybody to listen to me, nor telling things in an orderly way. I just tell them as I remember them and if you think you're confused about what I'm trying to say in this paragraph... Well, I am too. ^___^\/
Nothing much to do this Holy Week. Good thing my brother was able to borrow a bluetooth from his friend, and I uploaded everything from my phone. Just finished actually, been uplaoding all afternoon. Boring though, once you're done, you're back to being idle. I'm starting my OJT on Tuesday. Uhm.. Had fun at Ozine last April 1 and, by the way, the photos are already available at the photo section. More conventions to attend to this summer. And yeah, we had a gig scheduled for April 12 and 28. Still haven't gotten my prize. Ahaha. Planning for future CosPlay. Aww. And yay, we're going to Val's house on the 14th. There's a party but I'm not sure whose. Hehe. We're just invited so we're going. Practicum meeting on Tuesday. Hmm..
Alright, my friends and I are planning to go to Mindoro this May. Woohoo!!! I hope I can save enough money so I can join them. If ever, we'll be staying at a friend's house and all we have to spend for is transportation and food. I'm looking forward to nature tripping, the hot spring and the virgin river. Ahaha. Oh yeah! Makakaalis na rin ng Cavite after how many years! Ahaha. To those who wanna join us, friends, yo!, text me or send me a message. Wala pang date, we're still planning but if you think you wanna come with us, you know how to reach me. Ayt?! Outing tayo! Out of town na 'to! Yahooo!!!
My friend gave Shiawase a new name, Pag-ibig. Sa'n ka pa, Happiness na eh Pag-ibig pa. Ahoho..
I didn't make so much sense now, did I? Ahaha. Well, I don't have to. Blogging is about expression, no matter how senseless the thing you want to express. And to those who get annoyed reading posts that don't satisfy their taste.. Who told you to read anyway? Ahaha.
A blessed Holy Week everyone!!!
Start: | Jun 16, '07 |
End: | Jun 17, '07 |
Location: | SM Megamall, Megatrade Hall 2 - 3 |
Start: | May 12, '07 |
Location: | Araneta Expo Center at Araneta Center Cubao, Quezon City |
Start: | Apr 28, '07 5:00p |
End: | Apr 29, '07 01:00a |
Location: | hindi ko alam... |
Start: | Apr 21, '07 2:00p |
End: | Apr 21, '07 8:00p |
Location: | Windgate Villas Clubhouse, Visayas Ave, QC |