The Fear

It waits for the day I will let it out,
To give it a reason, to give it its might

I fear who I am becoming
I fear that I am losing the [struggle/beauty] within
I can no longer restrain it
My strength, it is fading
I have to give in

It's the fear of the dark
It's growing inside of me
They won, they will come to life

Have to save, save my beloved
There is no escape
Because my fate is horror and doom

Hold down your head now
Just let me pass by
Don't feed my fear if you don't want it out

Long ago, it came to me
And ever since that day
Infected with its rage but it ends today

[WT]         

Out of Here in No Time

Long time, Multiply, long time...

I'll be leaving here soon. Just the blog, actually. I'm expecting a big change when 2011 comes, and I thought a new blog space would be appropriate. It's not so new, but I hardly used it before, and I plan to use it when I revert back to blogging. The year is almost done, and my journal will be expiring soon. Time for cool change. I'd still be using the Photos section here, neatest I've seen in most sites. I just thought I'd write something before I go.

Well, this won't be the last you'll read of me here, not yet. When I've completely moved to my blog's new home, I'll be back to say goodbye. Imagine, I've been here since 2005 but...

It'll be time to go soon, Multiply.

Levy's Lullaby, Nababalik

Sandcastle. Short, forgot the lyrics haha

Dying Trying

The answers isn't always within one's self.

If it were, we would have already found it.

If it were, we wouldn't need counselors, advisers, and confidants.

Where is it then?

I wish I had it. I wish I knew.

Will update my Multiply site once I figure out what to update it with.....

Not having any luck at this certain something, thinking, maybe, I'm meant to do something else but has no idea what that other something is.

22 Apr 2010

Apir. :-)

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Hope in the New Moon

It is for the stars tell me so...

...

This is like being distracted to make you forget what you wanted to do.

Things would have been easier if I wasn't told things I would believe in, things I would expect that would never really happen. Life would have been a lot easier.

Dreams are now distant memories. I guess I will have to suck up the life they would rather have me live than the 'rather' life I would want to have.

"The chains to my life are strong but soon they’ll be gone. I’ll spread my wings one more time..."

Trust your instincts. Close your eyes and... LEAP!

Weizel Gulfan for Ms. Earth-Philippines 2010

Our fellow Lasallian, Christine Weizel Gulfan, a graduate of AB Communication 2009, will compete for Miss Earth - Philippines 2010 and she needs our support.

To vote for her, go to http://missphilippines-earth.com/vote.php and click Imus.

To know more about Weizel, you may visit her official web page http://weizel.paintingsonthewall.com/

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Coronation night is on April 24 at the Manila Ocean Park and will be telecasted the next day on ABS-CBN.

Show some love and spread the word!

101 + 1

I haven't been here for a long while. Wow. Actually, I'm always here checking out people's posts but haven't done anything here for a long time thanks to my trusty SB journal. It's like coming home, peeping through the window but never going in. Well, I'm here. I have nothing personal to post as my journal [which I named Colin Morgan, one of my favorite foreign actors, whose birthday is the same day that my cousin gave me my journal, hence the name] hogged all the personals. So, I'm sharing --reposting-- something I've read from a friend's blog. I thought it's nice and timely.

Here's a link but you can just scroll down and read on.

      101 small pleasures you can enjoy everyday

1.     coloring (yes, grown-ups can do it, too)

2.     crisp cotton sheets

3.     soft skin

4.     old family recipes

5.     the first daffodils of spring

6.     sleeping in

7.     an exercise endorphin high

8.     window boxes

9.     a perfect cup of coffee

10.   a genuine compliment (giving or receiving)

11.   the way babies smell

12.   a handwritten letter

13.   waking up in a good mood...for no real reason

14.   singing in the shower

15.   finding a couple forgotten dollars in your pocket

16.   doing something nice for your neighbor

17.   a home cooked meal

18.   laughing

19.   movie theater popcorn

20.   playing hookey

21.   a bubble bath

22.   swimming

23.   an afternoon nap

24.   street musicians

25.   your favorite song

26.   saying thank you

27.   helping someone in need

28.   old fashioned photo booths

29.   fresh whipped cream

30.   inspiring blogs

31.   a glass of wine

32.   rainy afternoons

33.   the funny things kids say

34.   a novel you can get lost in

35.   finding the perfect piece of clothing...on sale

36.   clean laundry

37.   the wind in your hair

38.   treating the person behind you at the drive-thru

39.   sharing an umbrella

40.   the smell of lavender

41.   a long walk that clears your head

42.   a bear hug

43.   The Beatles

44.   smiling at a stranger

45.   eating with chopsticks (Chinese food optional)

46.   butterflies

47.   staying in your pj's all day

48.   singing along to the radio and knowing all the words

49.   fresh herbs

50.   ordering in pizza

51.   happy endings...even if they're fictional

52.   flying a kite

53.   puppies

54.   root beer floats

55.   holding open the door...

56.   ...or having someone hold the door for you

57.   fountain soda

58.   white, fluffy towels

59.   sunshine

60.   spending an afternoon at a museum

61.   really great advice

62.   green lights all the way home

63.   the sound of rain hitting the windows

64.   sitting in a booth

65.   holding hands

66.   a great hair day with no effort

67.   building a fort with your kids

68.   when someone falls asleep with their head on your shoulder

69.   fireflies

70.   the perfect taco

71.   geraniums on a windowsill

72.   slow dancing

73.   the smell of fresh-baked bread

74.   cheesy, uplifting musicals

75.   great stories

76.   the smell of gasoline

77.   the cold side of the pillow

78.   love letters

79.   old friends...

80.   ...new friends

81.   a pull-through parking space

82.   a baguette -- crisp on the outside, airy on the inside

83.   when a dog licks your hand

84.   sitting at the counter at an old-fashioned diner

85.   using your favorite dishes

86.   reading your child a bedtime story

87.   Girl Scout Cookies

88.   flossing

89.   kissing someone you love

90.   the smell of onions and garlic cooking

91.   hot chocolate

92.   jumping in puddles

93.   old photographs

94.   birds hopping on the sidewalk

95.   Ella Fitzgerald

96.   a spoonful of peanut butter straight from the jar

97.   your softest t-shirt

98.   a new magazine in the mail

99.   fireplaces

100. having exact change

      101. bacon and pancakes cooking on Saturday morning

+ 1 --Share it and smile. Have a happy summer! Lost, then House, then Destination Truth. GTG!

PS: I'm officially a Glee fan now.

"There’s something out there far from my home, A longing that I’ve never known... Oh, there’s an empty place in my bones, That calls out for something unknown"

Tatantanan na kita. Buh-bye, Crushie!!!

Not giving up my Glasgow dream just yet...

10-8-5-4-4-3-2-1

TEN things about yourself:
1. I prefer literature, movies, TV shows, anything actually, that has supernatural themes and characters with preternatural abilities.
2. I'm a fussy but hearty eater; There are a lot of things that I don't eat but what I do eat, I eat a hell lot.
3. I don't like rules and routines.
4. I'm not a nerd, I just live in pursuit of greater knowledge and prefer to indulge in that pursuit than interact with other humans.
5. I trust my intuition more than I trust anybody, and it hardly ever fails me, and I can be impulsive because of that.
6. I clean my room when I get really, really bored.
7. I have retentive memory; I remember things that most people don't and it upsets me.
8. I'm wild; I can thrive anywhere. I'm so adaptable and flexible, you'd think I actually shed my old skin and wore a different one.
9. I'm a home body but I can only stay in one place at a certain period of time. Given that I can thrive anywhere, I have to keep moving and when I can't because of inhibitions, I tend to hurt myself trying to get out of where I've been boxed in. You know what I mean.
10. I believe I am close to mastering the Art of Doing Nothing, hehe.

EIGHT ways to win your heart:
1. Doing the things I love with me.
2. Be my inspiration, let me learn something from you.
3. Be fun. Share my craziness.
4. Look me eye-to-eye with your pretty, pretty eyes.
5. Have that veil of mystique about you, make me want to learn more about you.
6. Don't make me mad.
7. Be honest, be yourself. 'Wag maging mapagpanggap XD
8. Libre mo 'ko, hahahaha!

FIVE things you wish you could say to FIVE different people right now:
1. When you some back, I'd still be here, one of your biggest fans. Loving you since '92!
2. I don't really care about politics but I'm still voting. Who? I'm all for the greater good and lesser evil. There's no person in this world, politicians included, who doesn't have at least one skeleton in their closet. Even if they have controversies about them, proven or not, still doesn't say everything about them. It's just one thing. They say a lot of things but we can't really prove them. They say they'd do this and that, but if they really are to, they would already have. Now, if these things can only be done once they're in position, let's put them in position then. It's all about putting your faith and trust on someone. So.. Bahala na. Haha, that was mouthful but I hope it made sense.
3. Sa mga kaibigang tila nakalimutan na ako: Sana maalala n'yo naman ako.
4. Mama, Papa, Lolo't Lola: Pengeng pera. Hahahaha.
5. I'm going away to see the world... soon.

FOUR things you do before you fall asleep:
1. Write about the day on my journal.
2. Play my current favorite song before I shut down the PC.
3. Let my mind fly until I'm sleepy.
4. Close my eyes

FOUR things you see right now:
1. The better future waiting for me if all my plans work
2. Myself traveling to see the world
3. Mosquitoes trying to get to my eyes
4. The blinking cursor staring stupidly back at me waiting for what I'll write next

THREE songs that you listen to often:
1. Heartless, The Fray
2. Bad Romance, Lady Gaga
3. What If, AJ McLean

TWO things you want to do before you die:
1. Do all the things I want to do before I die.
2. Write my last will and testament, haha.

ONE confession:
1. I'd rather spend money on food than beauty and fashion, though I will get haircuts as often as I can.

I had a dream of you again but this time... MAS MASAYA :">

t(oO,)t

March 2010

Lights, Camera, Action!

Turning your vision for the future into action is a key theme of this transitional month, which begins with the inspirational Pisces Sun in your 9th House of Higher Truth, and ends with it in enthusiastic Aries and your 10th House of Career.

A link between the ideal and the real is made on March 10 when initiating Mars turns direct in your 2nd House of Resources. Its forward shift in courageous Leo energizes you with motivation and material to fuel your ambitions. Investing in creative tools and education will enhance your competence and increase your confidence to earn money and make a difference in people's lives.

Provocative Pluto's tense square to the Libra Full Moon on March 29 in your 4th House of Roots exposes unresolved issues and unfulfilled desires. It's a forceful reminder that change is the natural order of things.

Keep in Mind this Month
No matter how far away your dreams seem, acting boldly now can close the gap more quickly than you expect.

123...

Saturday, Feb 27th, 2010 -- You might be surprised at how creative you can be now if you just give yourself permission to daydream. On one hand, you are open to receiving more images from the shadows of your own subconscious. On the other hand, it may become confusing as the boundaries between your fantasies and the real world grow thinner. Don't worry; the wisdom of your imagination won't steer you wrong today if you let it take you on a magic carpet ride.

Sunday, Feb 28th, 2010 -- You may be running around more than you expect today, thanks to the Full Moon in your 3rd House of Short Trips. You could have an idea about what you want to do or where you want to go, only to discover that it's going to be a bit more complicated than just picking up and heading out. Don't worry if it feels like you are spinning your wheels without making much progress, for things may fall into place suddenly, opening the way ahead.

will abstain from any kind of communication for the next few days. Will be back when my head clears off. Bye, World!

............................................................ wala.

What would I not do to go to Caramoan? Waaah! http://www.pinoymountaineer.com/2010/01/announcing-1st-philippine-summer-youth.html

WALA!

Jollibee Thanksgiving Lunch

Jollibee Thanksgiving Lunch
Intercontinental Hotel Manila
January 28, 2010

SARAP!

Nice seeing you again...

There was something about the way you smiled when we saw each other and shook hands.

Time seemed to have stopped, everybody else slowed down except for us. When I was way past you, I could've sworn you looked at me from where you were.

That fleeting moment made up for the time I haven't seen you, that time I was silently and subconsciously broken. It took away my doubts on how I feel about you.

You may not know it but you have a certain magic that you can make everything better by a simple smile and saying even the simplest of words. I am sure now, I like you more than ever.

When I'll see you again, nobody knows for sure but I'll be looking forward to that day when it comes.

***

Haven't written here in a while. I kind of made a journal of the Starbucks Planner my cousin gave me. There's less room there but my innermost, most personal feelings are safer there.

Till my next post

rearranging the stars...

Human Lasallian Star

http://www.dasma.dlsu.edu.ph/announcement/lasallianstar.asp
The Human Lasallian Star Shines Once More.. This time even BIGGER and Better.

Earth Hour 2010

Start:	Mar 27, '10 8:30p
Location:	Planet Earth

World Wildlife Fund is proud to announce Earth Hour 2010 will take place Saturday, March 27, at 8:30 pm. National Monuments including Mount Rushmore, the Empire State Building, the Las Vegas Strip and the Golden Gate Bridge have already pledged to participate but it's your involvement that we really need.

The effects of climate change are visible in every ecosystem where we work, jeopardizing 50 years of conservation successes. Thousands of species including polar bears, tigers and marine turtles are in serious danger.

With your support, we have worked tirelessly to bring the international community, governments around the world and corporate leaders to the brink of breakthrough action on climate change in 2010. That's why it's so important we demonstrate our unity on climate change action, right now.

Last year, nearly one billion people--including an estimated 80 million Americans--united to make a difference in the fight against climate change. It was the single largest mass action in human history. This year we need you to grow it.

Please join millions of people around the world in turning off the lights for Earth Hour to raise awareness and demand action to fight climate change. Have your voice counted at EarthHour.org and learn how, united, we can make a difference. You'll also have access to videos and toolkits to help grow the movement as well as fantastic ideas on how to make Earth Hour a special event in your home, community or business.

Join Now

Thank you for your continued support. Working together, we can overcome one of the greatest challenges facing our planet.

Sincerely,

Keya Chatterjee
Director of International Climate Policy
World Wildlife Fund

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It's on my birthday, who knows, I might get lucky!

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--First saw this from Joan's blog. I thought, why not try it. Good luck

Crossing my fingers, holding my breath with eyes tightly shut and hoping the universe conspires with me...

Eye on the prize... Eye on the Patron VIP tix... WAH! This is frustrating...

Chateau de Pierrefonds ♥

Waaaaaaaahhh!!!

Start:

Feb 27, '10 8:00p

I am sooooooo gonna be there! WAH!

Apology 1.1

Now that I think of it, I've bailed out on a lot of people these past few years. Maybe I change my mind more often and easily than I should. I guess the only thing I can do about it is...

Apologize. I don't stick to one place or my word for a long time. But, see, in my defense, I will not defend my self. Just so you know, I have a list of people I can, and want to blame but I will not blame them. I can write for you to read the probable causes why I am like how I am right now but that will defeat the purpose of my apology. Up until a few minutes ago when I was talking to a colleague through a microblogging site, I could only think of excuses. To tell you honestly, I am still thinking of excuses as I write these lines. I am changeable. If anything is to blame, it's that quality but I am resolved not to apologize for things that I am not really sorry about, and I am not sorry for being what I am. Being changeable is what makes me Me. My point is, I am not sorry for being so changeable [even for my own good] but I am very sorry for how my attitude has affected people. I am 'inconstant as the moon' [as Shakespeare puts it], but my 'variability' works for me but I understand that what works for me may not always work for everybody else, so, if you were one of those people that I've hassled, intentionally or not, I am really sorry. One way or another, some way, somehow, I will make up for the things I've done. 'Til that day comes or even if it doesn't, I just hope you'd all just try to understand, and love me even for my imperfections.

Well, as the title suggests, this is only the beginning. This is my first sensible post for the year and hopefully, isn't the last. I've wronged many people, and I hope I don't have to list you all down, just so you'd know I'm sincere. It is so not Me, to apologize but in my own, little way, I, too, wish to start the year right. With this I end this post.

Happy new year, Everyone.

Not trying to get my groove back, working on getting a new one. RAWR, 2010!!