la déception par-dessus l'agitation

No apology can appease my displeasure. I've had enough of people throwing away what I worked hard for, I'm not taking any more of it. So fed up with that kind of people. What am I to do? I don't know but I will not allow them to do this to me again. Not, never, no more.

I'm getting a new life next school year. It's going to be my last and I have to live to the fullest, fuller than I have in my four years in college. Yeah, it's embarassing. Next year will be my 5th year and I'm only enrolled in a 4-year course. Haha! C'est la vie. I missed an enough lot already and I'm not missing anymore of what I missed; I'm never gonna go miss it again. I will not be damned to stagnation like I have been these past years. I will go to places I've never tried going to before, I will take some people with me but if they refuse to yield to me or come with me for company, I will go alone. I will not be stopped. My free spirit have been held back long enough. I could have flown high already if it wasn't for people trying to hold my feet down to the ground. Ok, I know I've been saying the same thing every start of the year and years come and go with me not having achieved half or any of what I set myself achieving.

Ouraito! So much for the drama. I'm still excited about seeing "Happiness" again..

Weeeeeeeeeh!!!

Shiawase

I tried but they're hopeless. All my efforts are wasted. They don't know how much this means to me and they will never know. They have this love for throwing away easily what other people worked hard for. Friendship is not a factor. I expect too much from people who would not even bother to stop for a while and appreciate. So overrated. I've done something too but now I'm trying to make up for it but everything is plain futile. I have not totally lost faith but I do not know how long and how much I can stand. Am I just wasting my time? But I'm still happy. Looking forward to seeing and talking to "Happiness" again. Weee.. Been waking up from dreams of him lately... Suweeto!! Haha.. Thinking to much, am I? Love it! Love it!

New Found Happiness

I found a new "Happiness". He's mine but I don't own him. I like him but he doesn't know. I rarely see him and talk to him but every encounter makes me happy. That'd what I would call him, Happiness. Haha! Reminds me how my friend calls her crush "Buhay" (life). Just thinking of his sweet smile (that I've seen for only a few times) makes me smile. I'm so happy (Sing with me, sha-la-la, it's so nice to be happy!). I don't mind not having the chance to have him for myself because just knowing he exist makes me feel alive. How long this feeling would last, I don't know but I'm loving it while it does. Nothing can depress me right now. I love my Happiness! Weeeee!

Alright! I won the Design-A-COS-Shirt contest and got 900-bucks richer! I'm so happy. I treated some of my friends with some snacks. And we had fun, as usual. We also went to meet the other guys at the faculty hall and took some pictures. It was fun and stupid to take pictures in the hallway and create small traffic among busy people passing by. That moment was so precious that reality hit me. I won't see most of those faces anymore next year. I'm happy but I can always have some little space for Senti mode. Time ran too fast. It's already been four years and I still can't get enough. We've been through a lot together and looking back I can see how this people affected my life in both good and bad ways. I love my friends! I wanted to graduate with them but fate brought me where I am now and some of the things that happened and other friends that I met would have not happened if I am not here today writing this blog. We may think otherwise, but life goes on with all it's fairness. We do not always see it the way it would have wanted us to but being unfair is the very sense of the fairness of life. Life's fair and I love my life and everything that's coming my way... =)

I went to see the concert for Bro. Andrew tonight at the Museum Complex and it was simply enthralling. The Chorale sang and a past dream awoke in me. I always wanted to join the DLSU-D Chorale but think I'm too lazy to actually join and attend rehearsals. Also, performers from the Conservatory of Music of St. Scholastica's College came to play music and I envied how good they played their instruments. I used to play the piano but that was some 15 or 16 years ago and it's been a long time that I've already forgotten. I'll be studying it again one of these days and hopefully I'll be as good as those Conservatory people.

Happiness! Happiness! Happiness! Can't wait to see him again. Awww...

Purely J Collections

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Location:	DLSU-D Grandstand

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