I Was Made to Hit in America

The SM-Beck Event was a blast! The theme song Hit in America is still ringing in my head. Loads of fun with my Ka-Genshis, picture taking, sushi.. Whooo! We met new people like Nagi-sempai and Mikki-sempai of KamuiGroup, Himitsu Heki an Anime/JPop band and I get to take a picture of myself with Sam Concepcion. Beck is Hero TV's new anime series about a boy and his band, Beck Mongolian Chop Squad. They have bigtime dubbers: Jet Pangan of The Dawn, Raymond Marasigan of Sandwich, Yael Yuzon of Spongecola, Teddy of Rocksteddy.. Etc. I won't get to watch this.. Man, I miss my cable. I used to ignore Hero TV, now I want it so bad.. Sigh..

Yay, exam na.. Nosebleed and eyetwitch na naman ito. Physics pa naman ang una.. Galing ko pa naman sa Math.. Whoooooooooyyaaaaaaaaahh!!!

Yesterday's happening heralded something good for Genshi. I can see it.. Genshiken's second term will be bigger and better than this semester. Next sem.. Yay, exciting! Plus we'll be attending loads of conventions and events.

Ang saya.. My friends, batchmates, cheatmates, tropa, kuffatids are graduating na. March 15 and 16 ang practice nila tapos March 22 ang grad. Iwan na ko.. Awww.. Sige, ipag-martsa nyo na lang ako. Kita-kits sa daan, gimik tayo sa unang sweldo nyo Ahuhuuuu...

Yay, taglish! Pasensya na, my language faculty is not working so well today. Whoooooooh!

3rd SUVASA Art Happenings 2007

Start:	Mar 23, '07 7:00p
Location:	Terraza Dasma (car park), Robinsons Place Dasmariñas

FOOD + MUSIC + POETRY + VISUAL ART + PHOTOGRAPHY + TIANGGEAN

performances by: Elemento + Good Leaf + Ugong + Transitory + Inconnu Ictu +
Clockwork Orange + Nyabinghi + Canopy High + Crucio + Cotton Panty + Barrio
Morning Glory + Lakbay Lahi + Helga

together with Cavite Young Writers Association (with open mic poetry)

Presented by: Souk Kafe
In cooperation with Robinsons Place Dasmarinas

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Dunkelheit von seiner Seele

Something is so attractive about him but at the same time something about him scares me. I imagined talking to him to be another kilig-of-a-lifetime moment but it became something like staring death in the eyes. His darkness, his mystery overwhelms me. He is nothing I've ever prepared myself for, out of my league. Fear of him strikes me but all the more I want to get close. I've always wanted to meet someone like him. I want to get to know him more. And I will, you know I have my ways..

I've been hanging out with younger people too much lately. Overfamiliarity is becoming a problem again. They think they can do this and say that just because you're with them almost everyday and you're close. Heck with those kids! I admit they are fun to be with but too much exposure causes annoyance. Better keep a little distance. They are too annoying for their own good. Kids.. Grrrr..

Exam week's up and after that a few week's vacation then OJT.. Whooooooooh! So much to be done, so little time..

Should I stay or should I go? I'm undergoing another fight or flight situation. Demons.. They're everywhere. I wanted to do something, I can do that something but they're holding me back. Doubt, doubt, doubt.. How do I kill doubt? I wish I can read people's mind. Hold me back or push me further?

Wednesday is the Day!

I wanted to see him.. My search for my lost ID lead me to him. I didn't get to talk to him but I get to go here he is, stealthily. Haha.. Stalker mode. Oh, and hyper mode too. The happiness because of "HAPPINESS" has taken over me but.. Sigh.. I almost bumped into him twice but I don't think he noticed me. He didn't recognize me. Awww.. But it's okay 'cause I'll have my chance and I just know it. =)

la déception par-dessus l'agitation

No apology can appease my displeasure. I've had enough of people throwing away what I worked hard for, I'm not taking any more of it. So fed up with that kind of people. What am I to do? I don't know but I will not allow them to do this to me again. Not, never, no more.

I'm getting a new life next school year. It's going to be my last and I have to live to the fullest, fuller than I have in my four years in college. Yeah, it's embarassing. Next year will be my 5th year and I'm only enrolled in a 4-year course. Haha! C'est la vie. I missed an enough lot already and I'm not missing anymore of what I missed; I'm never gonna go miss it again. I will not be damned to stagnation like I have been these past years. I will go to places I've never tried going to before, I will take some people with me but if they refuse to yield to me or come with me for company, I will go alone. I will not be stopped. My free spirit have been held back long enough. I could have flown high already if it wasn't for people trying to hold my feet down to the ground. Ok, I know I've been saying the same thing every start of the year and years come and go with me not having achieved half or any of what I set myself achieving.

Ouraito! So much for the drama. I'm still excited about seeing "Happiness" again..

Weeeeeeeeeh!!!

Shiawase

I tried but they're hopeless. All my efforts are wasted. They don't know how much this means to me and they will never know. They have this love for throwing away easily what other people worked hard for. Friendship is not a factor. I expect too much from people who would not even bother to stop for a while and appreciate. So overrated. I've done something too but now I'm trying to make up for it but everything is plain futile. I have not totally lost faith but I do not know how long and how much I can stand. Am I just wasting my time? But I'm still happy. Looking forward to seeing and talking to "Happiness" again. Weee.. Been waking up from dreams of him lately... Suweeto!! Haha.. Thinking to much, am I? Love it! Love it!

New Found Happiness

I found a new "Happiness". He's mine but I don't own him. I like him but he doesn't know. I rarely see him and talk to him but every encounter makes me happy. That'd what I would call him, Happiness. Haha! Reminds me how my friend calls her crush "Buhay" (life). Just thinking of his sweet smile (that I've seen for only a few times) makes me smile. I'm so happy (Sing with me, sha-la-la, it's so nice to be happy!). I don't mind not having the chance to have him for myself because just knowing he exist makes me feel alive. How long this feeling would last, I don't know but I'm loving it while it does. Nothing can depress me right now. I love my Happiness! Weeeee!

Alright! I won the Design-A-COS-Shirt contest and got 900-bucks richer! I'm so happy. I treated some of my friends with some snacks. And we had fun, as usual. We also went to meet the other guys at the faculty hall and took some pictures. It was fun and stupid to take pictures in the hallway and create small traffic among busy people passing by. That moment was so precious that reality hit me. I won't see most of those faces anymore next year. I'm happy but I can always have some little space for Senti mode. Time ran too fast. It's already been four years and I still can't get enough. We've been through a lot together and looking back I can see how this people affected my life in both good and bad ways. I love my friends! I wanted to graduate with them but fate brought me where I am now and some of the things that happened and other friends that I met would have not happened if I am not here today writing this blog. We may think otherwise, but life goes on with all it's fairness. We do not always see it the way it would have wanted us to but being unfair is the very sense of the fairness of life. Life's fair and I love my life and everything that's coming my way... =)

I went to see the concert for Bro. Andrew tonight at the Museum Complex and it was simply enthralling. The Chorale sang and a past dream awoke in me. I always wanted to join the DLSU-D Chorale but think I'm too lazy to actually join and attend rehearsals. Also, performers from the Conservatory of Music of St. Scholastica's College came to play music and I envied how good they played their instruments. I used to play the piano but that was some 15 or 16 years ago and it's been a long time that I've already forgotten. I'll be studying it again one of these days and hopefully I'll be as good as those Conservatory people.

Happiness! Happiness! Happiness! Can't wait to see him again. Awww...