Memories Keep You Near

He's gone, not departed but gone away
That must be why I can't feel his presence anywhere anymore
He was brought here only to be taken back away
We've been together for a moment but those moments are gone
Should've held you that last time you were with me
Given more time, I'd tell you they were wrong about you
I guess I won't being seeing your bright eyes and sweet smile for a while
Your soft hands, the way you silently speak with your stare
I never understood what you were trying to say but I'm sure I heard you
Thanks for showing me that gentle side that others have refused to see in you
Memories keep you near
It's all that's left and lingers here
I miss you so much
And I will miss you now more than ever now that you've gone

Hope to see you down the road again, Kawaii Boy

Up The Summit And Back [Mt. Cristobal Edition]

November 21, 2007

A'right! Late post, DC internet kagabi eh. Mabilis lang 'to...

I finished my diagnostic, twenty-five lap run on time. Beat that! Hahaha. They are right when they said, "Bagong achievement". Looking back, I almost died trying to finish last climb's fifteen-lap run in an hour, and I had to do it twice [two consecutive days, seventeen laps the first day because we we're deducted 2 laps because of some mischief the others did, and fifteen the next day. Whoa]. I did the 25 laps in an hour and a half. Actually, may sobra pang ilang minutes. Yeah. This time, I'm more conditioned than my first two qualifying runs. Good things, I've already established my own pacing. Walk-jog-sprint. I'm confident now that I can make it through the Induction Climb Diagnostic Run. Woooh! Mt. Cristobal here I come! Well, the weather's expected to be a bit rainy and I know very well that mountains are more slippery than slippery wet floors, and being steep, the possibilities of falling and rolling is very high. I can never forget how beat up my butt was when I took the role of Rolling Star at Pico de Loro, even had that long scar on the right side of my forehead. Sayang, I should've taken a picture. Tinalo pa no'n ang scar ni Harry Potter. Some asked how I got that wound the morning after, all I could say was, "Inuntog ko sarili ko" and fake a smile. I went for a scrub at DENR the moment we got down because the other day's been a muddy day and slept right away when I got home. I was so exhausted, I slept more than 15 hours. That climb was our worst. I really hope I've seen the last of my rolling days. Happy akyat, yeah!  Aw, kulang pa nga pala budget ko and I have no supplies yet. I have packing problems, 6L beybeh! Hahaha. Wala lang.

I went to Charles' birthday yesterday and it's fun. All the good food, the singing, the international greetings, bonding wiht friends. Hahaha. Nosebleed, may authentic Japanese na guest. Hahaha. Their Japanese family friend was there, and with everything she said, all I understood was Otanjoubi Omedetou. Woooh! That was so cool, mehn! There was a bit of problem before we left because some  tried to avail alcohol and it's not allowed since most us are minors. Yes naman, minor pa ako! Nyanyanya!!

I just have to survive this week and I'll be happy climbing this weekend. Hahaha. Buti na lang 'di pa ako nano-nosebleed at mina-migraine sa Physics 2 at VB 6.0. Yosh! And, I finally got to talk to His Gayness, actually, I was supposed to meet him this morning at 10am but laziness took over. I mean, I had to wake up at 8am so I can leave at 9am and arrive at 10am, and after the meeting I will have to wait for hours for my next class? No way, man. Sleeping is the core of life. Hahaha. Sayang nga lang, I missed a gig. Nyabinghi played at CLA this morning. I wanted to go but precious sleep wouldn't let me go. Next time na lang ulit, promise! Hehehe.

About my last post: I don't really hold grudges but, of course, I AM LYING. Hahaha. The black list is getting longer but worry not, idiots. I won't bite you. I don't like human junk food, they're tasteless and spoiled, just like you. Greetings,  puny earthlings. I come in... Peace? Hahaha

Dolphin shows on November 23 till January 6 at Metrowalk. Libre n'yo naman ako. Hehe. UP Gakuensai this Saturday and H3 this December. Woooh! Di ako makakasama! Hahaha. COS and Genshiken General Assembly this Friday. Hmm.. Ano pa ba? Next post na lang. Maaga pa pasok ko bukas at may quiz din ata kami. Hahaha. Sige, goodnight!

It's packing time!

Killing Without Malice Aforethought

Time to die, poor mates.
You made me what I am.


I'll never fight again.
This is how it ends.


Sweet raptured light,
It ends here tonight.

Erinnerungen in einem Blitz ::

First of all, if you don't think my new layout is cute, navigate away from this page now, lock yourself up in your room and go kill yourself. Hahaha.

I was going to write about my newly-found third best speaker, Roy Alvarez, next to Romi Garduce and Lourd De Veyra but I can't get myself to write anything decent or proper. I am usually talkative in writing my blogs both in English of Filipino but today... I can't get myself to think straight again. I'm not dysphoric, distressed or anything. I just can't write anything, but look at that, I have already written something. Hahaha.

So, I attended the LS Launch last week, which was by the way a success, and I didn't really mind having to miss class. It was worth it. Also had our physical training. Ahaha. Unbelievably, Codename: Zaido Gold thinks I've improved. Hahaha. It's about time, isn't it? Also, most people think I've lost weight during semestral break. Hahaha. Hopefully, I get to finish that 20-lap diagnostic run within alotted time. We're climbing Mt. Cristobal, yeah, yeah, yeah! I'm so looking forward to doing that steep trekking, eating lunch on the trail, cooking and eating outdoor gourmet again [We're having crispy kangkong!], seeing the view on top the mountain, highspeed descent, and then sidetripping [he-hey! saan tayo, mga mehn?]. Woooh! I hope nobody rolls this time. Hehehe. Everybody thinks our Pico de Loro climb is the worst climb. I'm having KFC Hotshots for packed lunch. Hahaha. Sugoi! I haven't packed yet, I wish I can pack lightly this time, though quite impossible since I'm bringing six liters of water, plus my other outdoor essentials. Hahaha, goodluck. Cristobal, w8 lng u, der na us. Hahaha.

As of the moment, things are going on fine with my back subjects. I can feel it, I'll pass it this time though I still haven't fixed that little "bug" with a certain stupid, gay-ass teacher. I'll get you, just you wait. Bwahaha!

Yay, I dyed my hair. And it's been three years since I last had my dye. Woooh! I love it. Hahaha. Wala lang.

Open up, Dig way down deep. I think I do that digging deep part very well but been missing out on that opening up part. Sorry, as much as I wanted to try and trust other people with my true feelings, I can't. I was not taught to show my feelings, no matter how sincere they are, or maybe I am, but I never learned. I missed out on a lot of chances because of that. I mean, think of having the person you like/love so much infront of you, assumably vulnerable ready for the taking, needing your gentle touch, wanting your care and attention, all you had to do is move. I just can't. So many opportunities came and went. I still couldn't do it. I can't get my arms to move to give out that big, warm hug, I can get my lips to say those loving words, my minds does all the doing without anything actually happening. Everything happens in my head. I write want I want to do, I write want I want to say without really addressing anything to anyone. I was born and raised that way, and it's something I am so not willing to change and it's better that way 'cause it keeps me safe from rejection, and objection, and scrutiny due to "wrong" behavior and wrong grammar. Weird, neh? Hahaha.

Why do I feel like being caught in the crossfire? There's war between two worlds and here I am standing in a place between those two worlds? Oh, no.. Please don't let them shoot me! Hehehe. Hoy, ayusin niyo mga buhay n'yo! *mutters in robotspeak: escape. must escape. retreeeeaat!* Lolerz. Hahaha.

Bords, I got a lot of activities scheduled for November and December. Hahaha. Ayos. Not sure though if I can attend every, single one of them. Goodluck ulit.

This just in, baka daw sa Mt. Pulag ang Induction Climb. Kamown! I looked up itineraries over the net, and man! Pulag is so expensive to climb. And being up North in the Cordillera Mountain Range, makes it cold, verrry cold. I'm a tropical person and I easily freeze in the cold Christmas breeze, what more up the mountains? I remember how chilled I was back at Manabu and Pico de Loro. It's gripping cold up there, my jaws are shaking, my teeth are gnashing. Paano naman ako no'n? Hahaha. Goodluck ever.

Aww, Batulao! Hehehe, hopefully, we can finally push through with this one. Can't wait to finally scale Mt. Batulao. Sayang lang, if ever, maraming hindi na makakasama. Nakakalungkot. I think it would be more fun if the whole team could go. Miss you, guys! I hope to climb with you again.

I really think I'm forgetting something, just not sure what. If you know, please remind me, people. Hehehe

Oh, there! I'm planning to design a site. Hehehe. Wala lang. Not sur eyet since it's only a plan. I'll try to pencil it in to my busy schedule. I've already looked up simple but stunning web designs and hopefully I can use them as model. And now that we're being taught Flash, I can make it equally stunning as those others that I have seen. Hehehe. Goodluck na naman.

You've had your time, let me have mine. Goodnight, everyone.

November 28, Born to be Wild. GMA's newest show. Finally, a wildlife show. Aww, I won't be missing NGC that badly anymore. Banzai!!!

wag kang bibitiw bigla, magsabi ka muna!

My time to DYE.

Out of last night's randomness, I decided to dye my hair. It was supposed to be white blonde but the hair color wasn't bleached enough, and something was wrong with the mixture so it turned out yellow blonde but I still love it. Of course there was a price to pay... The bleach was too strong that it ruined my favorite blue Colorado Springs t-shirt. It had spots where the color had faded. Darn. Now, I can't wear it when I go climbing. I will miss its comfy, cottony feel. Hehe. I can still wear at home but... Oh, well. My other friends think it I did it because I'm planning to cosplay with the same streak, others think it's cool, some we're teasing me Rogue during the training. Hehehe Wala lang. It's been years since I last dyed my hair. Next up, ear piercing.

SUGOI!!!

By the way, how would you react if I went to school with blonde hair? hehe I'm planning to dye my hair blond, as in my whole head. Hehehe ayos ba?

Sacred Geometry

Nakahanap na ako ng 3rd Best Speaker para sa akin. First si Romi Garduce. Sana makahingi ako ng kopya nung presentation nya nung nag-speaker sya for DMS. Second, Si panginoong Lourd De Veyra para sa Palad. At ngayon, si Roy Alvarez. Siya ay karaniwang mapapanood sa boob tube bilang mamamatay-tao, rapist at kontrabida, pero kung napanood mo siya magsalita, ang cool niya kanina. With feelings, with passion, and with conviction. Yeah! Mas lalo siyang cool, di lang dahil isa siyang environmentalist, kasi he's into the supernatural din. Psychic. Di niyo yun alam noh? Napapanood ko siya, sa mga shows na tumatalakay sa mga bagay na otherworldly. Astig talaga. Anyway,  sobrang ayos ng  event kahit medyo may konting delay dahil sa gulo ng palakad ng mga namamahala sa Tanghalan.  Dahil sa kagustuhan kong matapos ang pakikinig sa napakainteresante at importanteng  pagtalakay ni Sir Roy  tungkol sa unti-unting pagkasira ng mundo at  kung anu  ang pwede nating magawa para mapigilan ito. Umabsent ako. Hehehe. Excused naman ako dun sa isa kong subject pero dun sa isa. Di na lang siguro. Na-miss ko na rin naman yung quiz kaya itodo na. Di ko maiwan. Mga 3:30 na nakapagsimula yung program tapos mga alas kwatro, umiinit pa lang ang usapan. Hindi na kailangang  pag-isipan. Tinapos ko na yung symposium. Yeah! At Di naman ako nagsisisi. Hehehe. Ayos, first time kong nakitang sumayaw si Darwin or siguro dati ko pa sya napapanood pero di ko lang siya nakikilala.  Nakita ko na rin in person si online buddy, Mheo na akala ay pinagbawalan ko siyang  kumuha ng litrato. Hehehe, sorry for the  bad vibes! Ang taray ng accent ni Bella habang nagho-host kanina. Medyo in gloom si Madame Weizel kanina sa kadahilanang di ko alam. Si kuya Ros naman ay medyo napraning  ata  kay Sir Roy dahil sa sinabi nya tungkol sa Sacred Geometry. Hahaha. Sayang pala at di ko nasabihan ang mga  kapatid kong mountaineers tungkol pa  naman sa environment ang topic. Nakakuha ako ng freebies. Hahaha. Tapos nun tumakbo na ako papuntang oval para... Tumakbo pa rin. Hahaha. Yeah.

Ayos. Nag-improve daw ako sabi ni Zaido Gold. Hehehe. Ang bilis nga namin kanina. Ayos. Kakayanin ko na siguro yung 20 laps ng Diagnostic Run. Ahahaha, Cristobal, w8 lng u, der na us. Blah! LOL hahaha. Sana makapag-sidetrip since Quezon naman yun, kahit Lucena siguro. Hahaha. Sa bagay, may ie-explore naman kami sa may bandang Banahaw pagkababa. Coolness!

Breaking the Rules

Oops! Sorry, just couldn't wait. Hehehe! Yosh-ness!

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