The light.. is out

Okay, so my life is kind of a settled and monotonous routine that is hard to escape or as www.thefreedictionary.com defines it, a rut.

I know I said a lot of stuffs like date with destiny, purpose, and how you'll never know what you'll find unless you find out for yourself, but, hey, I changed my mind. It's fun to watch a race but not as fun if you're actually in it. Maybe next time I'll actually join the run, and train for it, and have my name registered. I was having last minute thoughts, and it took me hours to make up my mind to finally not go. But it's all behind us now, right? So I missed it today, there are a lot more races coming in the future that I can join or support my friends in. And I'm kinda not city-smart, I had to ask a few people before I can make sure what route to take to get to my destination.

Anyway, I'm off to dayhike today. Biglaan lang. Sobrang biglaan. Got planned just now, a few minutes ago that's biglaan adventures are usually the greatest adventures, right?

Okay, off to bath now and meet Joan in Dasma and climb Batulao. Buh-bye!

The light, the light

Everyday is a date with destiny.

I was having second thoughts about coming to tomorrow's race but something, somehow tells me that I have to go. You know what they say: nothing ventured, nothing gained and you'll never know if you don't try, or in my case, you'll never know why you feel like you really have to go there unless you really go there and find out for yourself. Again, I'm not joining the race though my Mom thinks I should have, so I could lose some weight. But, hey, you know how it is, you know how I am too lazy to run, just as lazy to go there and have my name registered. Well, I'm still having second thoughts but I will go anyway. The thought of going there excites me but imagining what could have been, what could be happening because I was not there to see for myself will kill me with regret.

Surprise, surprise. What surprise has tomorrow got in store for me?

We'll see and find out tomorrow. Air hugs, people!

Thoughtful

Haven't heard from him for a while until last night. Got this text message from him and right after reading it, the TVC popped out of the TV. Hehe.

Anyway it was still nice that he texted. He apologized for being so busy, but he didn't really have to. It's not his job to check on everyone, everytime, and not even to update them unless they ask him to. He has no business apologizing, he doesn't owe anyone anything. He has a life of his own; we may be a little part of it but I think it's too much to ask. I mean, he was kind enough to take us in as his friends, and it's already means a lot to me, but to keep everyone posted, every single one who is supporting him.. Whoa. That's an aweful lot of love. Remind me to thank his Mom and Dad for bringing him into this world and raising him well.

And I was going to watch it anyway, like I always do. No matter how sleepy I already am, I try with all strength to stay up and see BTBW every week, not missing one episode ever since it started [except for that one time that we had brownout]. I've been hearing rumors that he'll be replacing one of my favorites hosts of my favorite show but I hope not. I love him, and it would make me happy, big time, if he becomes part of the show but having to replace one of them.. Oh, no. Please. That would break my heart.

So much for that. I just though I'd write about this because.. I dunno, 'cause I want to? Hahahaha.

Much love to Rastamann. See you when I see you again.

Head in the game

As if it's that easy?

I don't even know what the game is. You can't keep your mind on something when that something don't even exist or at least not yet. They say you have to put your heart into something in order to succeed but it cannot be helped that you lose your head when you break your heart with life's frustrations and failures, and because of that you lose your sense of direction and you can't find just where to place your heart. Makes you think how much life can reek no matter how much you know how life is so great. Guess I have no choice but to think again, and again like I always do until I get my head thinking straight again and I'll know what to do. Oh, heavens.. I could use some divine intervention [not that everyday isn't but] 'cause I need some help about a lot of things esp. my weight.

I went back to school today to claim my alumni card and meet my friends. Man, it feels good. It feels good to see sunlight again, hehe. Went to hangout with friends esp. those I have stopped hanging out with since before I left school, my friends at the publication, and my mountaineer friends [had a little meeting to plan the activities of the group for the rest of the year]. It was nice having to talk to people other than those here in the house with us. We're actually kinda crowded here my aunts and my cousins are here with us. And I'm kinda locking up myself in my room because, well, I'm not really into crowded, uh, crowds?, even if they are family. Anyway, all the planning we made got me so excited and looking forward which reminds me, I need to already *drumrolls* Find a job. Woooh. The money I got from my first job is almost gone, partly because I lent my Mom some of it and I'm not really sure when she's paying it back] and with all the trips and tours and adventures we're planning, I will need money to be part of it all.

What should I do? What do I want to do? What can I do?

I, myself, am wondering. I need to straighten my head, only then can I straighten up my life. Once you find your center, you are sure to win, says this song from Mulan, but I was thinking: should we know first where the top, the bottom, the left and the right first before we can know the center? This sounds kinda literal but it makes perfect sense to me ['cause I'm the one who said it] that you should first know the place before you can find the center, kinda like using a map; you should know first what you want to do, write a clear, accurate map of it in your mind and you use your heart as a compass and everything else, like your feet, your hands, your character, your talents, are just the tools to help you get there. See, I use to think I wanted this particular thing I used to like to do as a career but seeing how it didn't work out for me at first attempt, I just don't want to fall flat on my face again. I'm now doubting if I can actually live doing that thing. I don't really like keeping things that remind me of my failures, no matter how much it means/meant to me. As much as I wanted to take a big step, I don't know what to step on to. I think it's kinda pathetic, I am pathetic.

Aaliyah said, if at first you don't succeed, you can mess it up and try again, pick yourself up and try again. Mariah and Whitney says, you will when you believe. Celine says, don't surrender 'cause you can win. Miley says, you control the game, so let them know your name. And the Divas say, if the minds keeps thinking you've had enough, but the heart keeps telling you don't give up. I say, I don't really know if that works for me.

If only there was someone, who could give me that push off a cliff and wait for me from below as I plummet to my death, and catch me like a trampoline so I can bounce back up and land safely on my feet.. Well, until that comes, I think I'll stay at the edge and think about when and where, and how to take my plunge, and how to actually survive it.

I had so much fun today, kept my mind off some things for a while. Just like what Cosmo always says: Good times, good times.

I'm at it again tomorrow, after then it will take me some time before I can pay them a visit again. Oh, and I still haven't written that blog about TNF last Sunday. Oh, well. It's getting late, I'll make time for that later.

Nyt-nyt, world!

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Thrill of The Trail

The North Face Thrill of the Trail
January 18, 2009
Evercrest Golf Club and Resort
Nasugbu, Batangas

First adventure of the year. Well, I didn't really run. I was just there to watch and support and take picture, and see Garduch-sama but he wasn't there. Anyway, I still had fun and I'll be coming back next again next year. And maybe I'll run? Hehe we'll see. More about this event later, I'll blog it. I promise.

Next up, The Happy Run next Sunday.

Gotta catch some Z's now. Good day!

Mooovies

Time goes by slowly when you're not doing anything. And if I wasn't waiting for Born to be Wild, I would have been asleep by now.

Now what? I can't think of anything else to write so... Let's talk movies.

What's in store for 2009?

Andrew Lloyd Webber is planning a sequel for Phantom of the Opera and Gerard Butler may be playing The Phantom again. Ooh, looove.

X-men Origin: Wolverine starring Hugh Jackman is also coming this year. Harry Potter and the Half-Blood Prince. Ice Age 3, I don't remember the whole title but it has something to do with dinosaurs. Hopefully, the second installment of the His Dark Materials Trilogy comes out this year too.

Chandni Chowk to China, one of the very few movies that have been allowed to shoot at the Great Wall of China. If I remember it right, it's about an ordinary cook [I think] who became a Kung Fu master because he apparently is a reincarnation of an ancient hero. Or something like that, Just heard it from the news. Kinda common for a story line but I heard it's good and I think this will be a good movie to watch.

Underworld: Rise of the Lycans. This made my brother giddy. I am a huge fan of vampire movies but I didn't really get to watch any of the Underworld movies. Well, I am kinda more into male vampire. Hehe. Eitherway, vampires versus werewolves are always interesting.

Pink Panther 2. I haven't seen the first movie so who cares? I don't. Hahahaha.

Push, starring Dakota Fanning, is about kids with special abilities. Sounds X-men-y but, hey, we love mutants, so definitely a gotta-watch.

Confessions of a Shopaholic, based from a novel by Sophia Kinsella. Not really sure what this is about but Eugene likes it, so I believe it's good.

Friday the 13th. I guess the title speaks for itself. It's a horror movie. I gotta see this one.

Pause. I haven't been to the theatres for a long time. But hopefully, I get to again this year. That's why I'm writing this movie blog, so I'd remember what movies I could possibly get to see when I actually get to go to a cinema this year.

Gomorrah. I think I remember hearing about thisin the new. It got good review so most probably this is a good movie. This is about the flaw, the weak part of Italy's crime scene. If you like detective movies, maybe this one's for you.

Jonas Brothers: The 3D Concert Experience. Well, I'm not into them but they're cute [esp. Nick] so maybe, just maybe, I'll see this movie. Or maybe I'll just wait for it to be shown in Disney Channel. Hahahaha.

Watchmen. I heard Fox and Warner is having trouble about the showing date but who cares right? We love graphic novels [though I haven't really read it]. We love superheroes. And we definitely love movie adaptations, so I will watch this one too. Btw, movie poster available at comingsoon.net, just in case you're intrigued.

Monsters vs. Aliens. I have no idea what this movie is about but it's made by DreamWorks so it's certainly good for people of all ages. Plus it's 3D. Who doesn't love 3D? I know I do.

The Fast and the Furious. No idea about this. Not a fan. See it for yourself, if you are. XP

Dragonball Evolution. I don't know. I've seen the old movie of Dragonball, and I was a child then so I admires it but if I am to see it this time, I really don't know. I hope they make this one a good one, with the effects and all. Not sure if I'll even try to see this.

Hanna Montana The Movie. I can sing better than her [] but I love the series. Maybe I'll love this movie too. We'll see.

The Soloist. A drama about musicians. Music is a good enough reason to see this movie and maybe I will.

Star Trek. Not a fan of Sci-Fi so I'm not really sure what to expect with this. I leave it to you.

Wild Child. A teen flick, or so it seems to me since it's about a 16-year-old brat that is sent off to a foreign school where she meets foreign people who eventually changes her blah-blah-blah.

Angels and Demons. If you liked The Da Vinci code, both the book and the movie, them you must also see this one 'cause I will.

By the way, you won't really get much from this post because one, these are the only 2009 more movies that I'm familiar with and there are more movies to watch out for this year, and two, you don't really have to listen to what I'm saying. It's just my opinion and I can't even give out real review and recommendations. I just wanted to write something to kill time though I don't want to write anything personal right now. You chose to click that link and read this entry so deal with it. Hehehehe

Night at the Museum: Battle at the Smithsonian. I haven't seen the first movie though I have seen the trailer of this movie and it's definitely a fun movie to watch. See for yourself.

Terminator: Salvation stars Christian Bale. I'm not a fan of Sci-Fi and I haven't seen the other installment of Terminator [or maybe I have but I was too young to remember]. There's also a series shown in AXN every Wednesday, The Sarah Connor Chronicles. If you like futuristic movies, and you love robots, maybe you should see this sequel. And you, kids, enjoy, okay?

Up, from Disney-Pixar, is a movie about a man who dreams to travel the world, and fulfills his life long dream by tying his house to thousands of balloons. I've already seen the trailer a[yay 3d] and I think I like this movie and I just might see it.

Land of the Lost. Time travel and dinosaurs. I think I'm liking it already.

The Haunting in Connecticut. Based from a true story, this is a horror movies that follow the tradition of The Exorcist and The Exorcism of Emily Rose. If you're into ghosts, possessions, exorcism, and a lot of screaming, you must watch this movie.

Transformers: Revenge of the Fallen. I'm not into sci-fi and robots but Transformers is an exception. I dunno. I loved the first movie, I bet I'll love this one too. Revenge is Coming. Nice Tagline. Coming June 26, 09.


More familiar movies. G. I. Joe The Rise of the Cobra. Reminds me of childhood but I don't remember anything more.

Final Destination: Death Trip 3D. Wow. I just hope this live up to the gorey images death of the installments that came before it.

Fame, reminds me of that song that says remember my name, Fame, I'm gonna live forever, is about the student of the High School of the Performing Arts in New York. Other than that, I know nothing else. Hehe

Toy Story. Yay, more 3D animation movies!

Man, this is getting old. Good thing, I'm almost done. Hehehehe

Astro Boy. Haven't seen the anime but, hey, this is interesting.

Saw VI. Okay, more gore. Not really a fan of carnage movies [almost hurled at Cannibal Holocaust--I prefer seeing any kind of meat cooked] but if you think watching gore is makes you hardcore then watch this on your own. I can watch this at home when they show it on cable but I'm never going to go to a cinema just to watch this movie. And movies like this lose the horror, the suspense and the thrill when you hear all those noisy, screaming movie-goers. I'd rather watch movies at home and alone. Oh, well.

The Fantastic Mr. Fox, another children's story movie adaptation. Can't wait to see this film and can't wait to finish this post.

Cats & Dogs: The Revenge of Kitty Galore. It's been a long time since we saw the first movie and who knows what surprise is waiting for is in this sequel.

New Moon. I still have no idea why Twilight is such a hit because though I'm a big fan of vampire movies, I still haven't seen the movie nor read the book and I am sure I won't be knowing why this sequel will be a hit anytime soon.

Alvin and the Chipmunks: The Squeakuel. I have not seen the first movie and I have no idea what we could actually expect in this installment. Hahahaha.

The Princes and the Frog. It's an animated comedy, it's a musical and it's from Disney. Reason enough to watch.

Nutcracker: The Untold Story. Hey, it says untold, how should I know what it's about? Hahahaha. Just watch out for it.

Glad that's over. I am so never writing this again. At least not until next year.

Born to be Wild. Actually, kanina pa. So I gotta go. Goodnight, world!