Drowning Sorrow

Can't you tell? I just finished crying when I took this. Crying for reasons that I can't really tell. But may be, the day just got the best of me. Hehe.. It was really nice that Mac let Moki stay with me for a while. It feels good to give/get a hug when you're lonely. I was trying my best to cheer a friend up and he must've absorbed all the energy I tried to share with him and left me with almost nothing.

It's not really all bad today. Did something stupid with Pau-pau, trying to hide our faces with our arms. I thought the Genshis were busy but Jerome said he saw us. Hahaha. I ate this Chicken Teriyaki from Mootown that looked like Steak. We met another Graphics apprentice, we'll start layouting tomorrow. Renan confirmed that I will be going to Graphika Manila too. Woohoo! I got to see and talk to Shiawase, Greg's the witness. Nikko's uploading the birthday photos. Yay, can't wait. Did this recording for Justine's project, and I think my voice sucked. The polvoron and the siomai.. Thanks, Greg! Carlo's already home from Australia and I'll be getting my yearbook soon. Yay for Carlo! Well, he gained weight and grown mature with the mustache. He looks like a dad. Haha. I saw my BCS tropa today, Wilbert and Anne brought this really cute, wrinkly male Pug they named Bruno, which reminded me about Andrew who has this female Pug that his family named Pogi? Haha. I know it's funny. Been taking these pictures for "dubbing". Before I forget, I got this really sweet reply in for one of my posts from a stranger. Thank you, Ate! I really appreciated it knowing the only people who regularly reads and replies to my posts are Shaira and Pau [Thank you din sa inyong dalawa!].

We'll be having our retreat soon. Eh, ano naman? Wala. Religious activities such as this has lost its meaning for me the day I shifted. I remember how they never let me take my last Recollection with BCS. Ang lungkot. Last sem, I had Reco with these cold people I have for classmates. Now, I have to spend two or three days with them in one place. Huwaaaaat!? Hehe. Anyway, ang saklap because I have no other choice. Grrr... Never mind.

Anyway, I am hoping I could have at least one costume made. Kahit isa lang muna, since the major event is in September pa. I want to have a high school uniform [I'm copying that one from Dream of Doll] in time for CS Protocol in August. Yay, I'm watching Suvasa next Friday. Sana lang isali ulit ako ni Oniichan para... MASAYA! Ahaha.. I'm sure Vince will be there too and then I could talk to him about our next plan. I really, really want to play again. I want to join KTS again. Sana lang makasama na ko sa jamming and practice. Hehehe. Hmm.. Thesis, okay naman. The only thing I'm worried about is my Vb.net. I fear too early that my HF life will be short-lived because of this one. Wag naman. Please! Heaven forbid it. Things seem to be too light for me this year parang something big is coming next semester. Good or bad, I know not. Natatakot lang talaga ako.

Sige, yun lang. I'll be posting the whole set of these photos when I get to somehow edit them.

Mas maganda pa ako sa umaga at sa inyong lahat!

Raining Inside and Out

"I love walking in the rain, 'cause then no-one knows I'm crying."

I love the rain. Sarap mag-emote. My friend's been walking around this afternoon crying. But nobody knew. He just told me. I asked why he didn't tell me because I wanted to cry too. Maybe he cried for the same reason that I wanted to cry. Something inside hurts. In my head, I wanted to tell him that if only I was the one he chose, he wouldn't have had to cry. But then again, I never heard what I wanted hear. He gave his heart to someone else and the moment I knew, I didn't bother to tell. But we're good friends and I have a new reason, someone else to cry for, to cry about.

It's raining inside. It's nothing big having to walk in this rain with friends but when everybody's got to go their own way, you have to go your own way on your own. At the end of the day, you have no choice but deal with the rain on your own, alone. I tried to wash away the pain with the rain but all the more I got hurt. I can't deny what my eyes have seen, and there's no denying the feeling when I saw it. Fun is a good cover. It hides everything, at least it stops me from crying for a while but no umbrella or shelter can cover me from this kind of rain. I wish I could have fun forever, then I wouldn't have to cry. I wish I can freely cry, then I wouldn't have to hide my tears in the rain.

It's raining outside, and it's the second time this month that I went home soaked but who cares? I love the rain. Sarap mag-emote.

KISSU!!!

Yosh!

Instruction: Everyone who will check this album is asked to join in. All you have to do is make up a story for every photo or write scripts. These photos are "pseudo-yaoi" so please be wholesome with what you will write. Comments, suggestions even violent reactions are encouraged. Enjoy.

Let's play.

P.S. They ain't gay.

Ningen-tachi [06-July-07]

Trip lang habang wala pa 'yung birthday pictures, hehehe...

Isang eksena sa jeep habang binabaybay namin ang kahabaan ng Emilio Aguinaldo Highway, patungo sa aming tahanan..

Scene 1:
Paul: Ows, talaga?
Liane: Ang ganda ko talaga!
Ramon: Kunwari di ko alam na may camera...
Nico: Oh, my...

Scene 2:
Carla: Ano bang pinag-uusapan ng mga 'to?
Louise: Oo nga eh, 'di ko maintindihan. bakit gan'to ang buhay?
Marc: *mutters something in French*
Charles: Look there's a camera. Wait, I'm fanning eh..
Margarita: Di ako kita.
Ramon: Kunwari 'di ko talaga alam na may camera. *emote*emote*

Aus Keinem Grund Den ich Weiß, Außer ich Will Sie Deshalb Viel...

Sie.. Warum Sie dumm sind? Erkennen Sie nicht, dass ich Sie bespreche? Habe ich keine Chance? Erzählen Sie mich bitte. Wenn Sie und lesen dürfen, dieses und Sie zu übersetzen, verstehen schließlich. Bitte sprechen Sie mit mir. Ich will wissen, weil ich den Mut nicht habe, Sie gerade zu Ihrem Gesicht zu erzählen. Bitte. Ich will Sie jetzt erzählen, dass ich Sie deshalb viel mag. Erzählen Sie mir, wenn Sie den gleichen Weg fühlen, während ich mache. Ich habe Wollen, Sie zu halten, und Sie wie viel zu zeigen, das ich mich sorge.                                                                                      

That must've been weird. They are just things I can't say straight. Hehe..

I do not have anything to write tonight except that I've just seen that Highschool Musical video from Jecoup's Multiply and I really, really want to see it. But Tough luck. We're cable-less. *sigh*

Wednesday is Harry Potter day, There's no way I'm missing that.

LUMOS MAXIMA!

SUVASA (10th year anniversary DLSU - DMS)

Start:	Jul 20, '07 7:00p
Location:	Souk Café Terrazas Robinson’s Place Dasmariñas Cavite

Suvasa Art happenings and Souk Cafe together in celebrating the
10th year anniversary of the
De la Salle University- Dasmariñas Mountaineering Society

Performances by:
Bananafish
BLEND:ER
Canopy High
Cotton Panty
Crucio
Curtain Call
Elemento
Fingertrap
Inconnu Ictu
Lakbay Lahai
Nyabinghi
Outlaws
Salagubat
Ugong

*Tiangge* henna* performance* foodtrip*poetry* drum circle*

Free entrance

10 years of responsible and committed climbing

This is ILLOGICAL

I am Mayuri Kurotsuchi. I am Szayelapollo Grantz. I am Inui Sadaharu. To analyze is my pleasure - and for that, I care not if you were turned to ash. Bwahaha! Ashi ne? I was just talking to my friend about some personal stuffs [that you aren't going to know unless you ask me personally,  kokoro no ichijou] and I told him that I am currently studying some "specimens" and gathering data and... Ahaha. Never mind. I just felt like saying those thing. well, I don't really have anything that much to write. So...

Aww.. My friend's got a girlfriend, just last Friday. Aww.. Sweetness! He told me just now. It just happened out of the blue. They both felt the same way for each other, they admitted and then.. Now they're together. What the... I envy them. I wish the same thing could happen to me. A friend's been telling me to make the first move since it doesn't really matter who says it first. The point is that you say it but I'm scared. I'm not a person who can talk about my feelings freely. And I'm not so touchy though I stealthily take my chances. Hehehe. My gut's been telling me things but my head tells me otherwise. [The last time I tried, some two or three years ago, I was late. He said he felt it too before but I was too late. He's already with someone else] It's hurts to be rejected but it hurts more not being able to say it. And I've been thinking of the consequences. He may feel the same way or not. If he does, we will end up together but if not, what could possibly happen? I can still be friends with him and pretend like nothing happened but chances are he likes someone else and he will start avoiding me and I'll be sadder than I am now. Aww.. Kanashii! I wish he knew but he has no idea. I wanted to touch him, hig him, kiss him. But I can't be to careless or I'll be too obvious.

I wanted you to know I love the way you laugh
I wanna hold you high and steal your pain away
I keep your photograph; I know it serves me well
I wanna hold you high and steal your pain
[[broken.seether]]

You may be getting tired of me talking about my love and the stuffs that goes with it but it's better than having to read my I-hate-the-world posts. Hehe.

Fact: Shiawase is NOT my only happiness now.  Meow.

My cousin came today. I invited her for my birthday and she came two days late. That idiot, hahaha! She thought the party will be next week but, well, it was last week. I've been planning to introduce her to my friend who likes her since New Year but it's seems like they aren't destined to meet. Haha. They were chatmates, they were textmates but they have never met. How.. Nice. Hehehe. She left with my brother to watch Transformers. I wanted to come and she was going to pay for my movie ticket but I don't feel like leaving the house today and I haven't taken a bath yet. I just told her to bring me something when she gets home.

I'm calmer now than when I was writing my last post, though my heart still feels like it's going to tear when I think of what I've been thinking. Anyway, I've been reading some astrology stuffs since the other night and I just came across something about my star sign that says I'm crabby.  Wala lang. Crabbiness [Grouchy; ill-tempered.] can be cute sometimes, and it does sound cute. Hehe. That's why I love these stuff. They tell you things you already know, things you do not yet know, and things that you want to hear, be it good or bad. Ah-just-simply-lavet!

Man, I'm broke but chances are presenting themselves to me again. I think i'm joining CSPC's logo-making contest. Hahaha. It's my last year anyway, I have to take every opportunity that comes my way. $__$ La-la-la.. Ahoho!

Yay, we're watching Harry Potter on Wednesday and invading Pau-pau's [the nick, c'mon!] crib on Friday. My, my.. I'm so busy. Nyahahah!

I'll be harvesting the dragon fruit soon. I'll bring one to school so the others can experience it too. If you haven't seen a dragon fruit before, well, it's heart-shaped, it's red outside, white and full of tiny, crunchy seeds inside. It's delicious and I love it. Can't wait.

I need a makeover. Badly. If you have only seen me two to three years ago, you would have wished I stayed that way. The way I dressed and carry myself is way different back then. The clothes I wear, eyeliners, accessories. I was a rock star. Ahaha. Look at me now. I need a new look, I'm getting sick of my current look but... I don't like shopping for clothes like my brothers 'cause I'd rather buy food with the money, and I don't like fixing my self and getting dolled up because it takes so much time. What on earth am I suppose to do? Blah! Heh!

*sob*sigh* I want a new phone [iPhone, K800 or N93 will do], I want a violin, I want a piano,  I want to cosplay but I need money. Huwaaaaah!

Can I sing to you? Can I sing for you? Can you be the song I sing?