Cacoethes scribendi

~An insatiable urge to write.

I wanted to write down my memories as if I'm taking them away forever. But I'm neither writing them down nor am I letting any of them go. I wanted to put them all down into words for  all the world to read, then maybe they'll know what I always kept, what I always wanted to say but the world's too busy with their own lives to care, to stop for a while and listen. I wanted to find peace in those memories, be it a happy or a lonely one, but they just render me helpless with no other choice but get hurt. They inspire my existence; Bad memories toughen my outer shell and crush my insides to a mush. Happy memories protect me for a while from all the harshness but the shield never lasts for as long as I wanted. My drifting into things that never happened, and can never happen, cannot be helped; Dreams. It's the reality that I chose to exist in. I dream too much. I wanted the world to understand but there seems to be no such thing as telepathy. It's either you tell them (whisper or shout), you show them or you don't tell them at all. You would know by now, I have no explanation for the disorganization of my thoughts. I'm not used to having anybody to listen to me, nor telling things in an orderly way. I just tell them as I remember them and if you think you're confused about what I'm trying to say in this paragraph... Well, I am too. ^___^\/

Nothing much to do this Holy Week. Good thing my brother was able to borrow a bluetooth from his friend, and I uploaded everything from my phone. Just finished actually, been uplaoding all afternoon. Boring though, once you're done, you're back to being idle. I'm starting my OJT on Tuesday. Uhm.. Had fun at Ozine last April 1 and, by the way, the photos are already available at the photo section. More conventions to attend to this summer. And yeah, we had a gig scheduled for April 12 and 28. Still haven't gotten my prize. Ahaha. Planning for future CosPlay. Aww. And yay, we're going to Val's house on the 14th. There's a party but I'm not sure whose. Hehe. We're just invited so we're going. Practicum meeting on Tuesday. Hmm..

Alright, my friends and I are planning to go to Mindoro this May. Woohoo!!! I hope I can save enough money so I can join them. If ever, we'll be staying at a friend's house and all we have to spend for is transportation and food. I'm looking forward to nature tripping, the hot spring and the virgin river. Ahaha. Oh yeah! Makakaalis na rin ng Cavite after how many years! Ahaha. To those who wanna join us, friends, yo!, text me or send me a message. Wala pang date, we're still planning but if you think you wanna come with us, you know how to reach me. Ayt?! Outing tayo! Out of town na 'to! Yahooo!!!

My friend gave Shiawase a new name, Pag-ibig. Sa'n ka pa, Happiness na eh Pag-ibig pa. Ahoho..

I didn't make so much sense now, did I? Ahaha. Well, I don't have to. Blogging is about expression, no matter how senseless the thing you want to express. And to those who get annoyed reading posts that don't satisfy their taste.. Who told you to read anyway? Ahaha.

A blessed Holy Week everyone!!!