It's been a week since we had our second training climb. I was going to write about it a few days ago but like the time when I tried to write about the first one... Tinamad ako. I already have a few things on those posts' drafts but... Well... Hahaha.
A lot had happened in a span of one month. Time flew faster than assumed it would. Nagsasawa na naman ako sa buhay ko. Blood circulates, the Earth rotates; The same despicable things are happening all over again. I'm getting so tired of it, again. I'd rather be locked up in Pandora's box where there is Hope than in a big red box [though the box isn't always red] in the presence of aural tumult. I cannot stay where I don't belong, and I do know where those places are. No particular place but in the company of particular people emitting negative energies. I don't want and I will never take credit for anything especially where my existence isn't acknowledged.
I don't exist. I never existed. I will never exist.
That's how some people have been making me feel. I've lost my place or maybe I didn't have any to start with. I know how it feels to be unwelcomed, if there's one feeling I am well familiar with, it's this one, and I don't want to feel that way again. If I have to get away from those people to protect myself, hell, I will. I have somewhere else to go, and I can't go back somewhere where you've lost your place or where you never had a place to go back to. And I have other friends, I have new friends. I have new people, other people who makes me feel more welcome than I ever felt with those I've known for a longer time. Who needs old friends when there's no belongingness. Hehe. Emo. =P
Kyuu! Kyuu! Haha. Ayos. Despite the cyclic emotional chaos I am currently experiencing, September has been a BLAST. Hahaha. New faces, new friends, new experiences, new crushes... A LOT OF FUN. Let's see... Maine's birthday, my first climb at Mt. Manabu, Palad Seminar esp. that day with panginoong Lourd de Veyra [Hehe, napapanot], BioPC General Assembly [Gig na 'di natuloy at Thriller], All the trouble I had to go through just to get a medical certificate, OSS Students' Week, Rappelling, Thesis Defense? Haha, First Aid Training [Ang saya mag-bandage], Veggie Con [Music, stickers, food], KTS 10? Haha, 2nd Minor Climb at Mt. Pico de Loro, Pre-climb and Post-climb meetings, HF Staff meetings, Hehehe.. Ayus-ayos 'di ba? Hanging out with the Genshi ningens, time with my DMS batchmates, tambay mode with my HF people. Moments, mga bagong prospects, Haha. Ang saya. It makes me feel thankful for over-staying. If I graduated on time, if I never had problems with my academics, I wouldn't be experiencing these things that I am experiencing right now and I wouldn't be writing this post. Haha. I've posted something like this before but I don't really mind having to post the same thing all over again just to let people know I'm happy with what's happening. I believe in the reason of things, I believe everything happen for a reason. Things must've happened for these reasons. I believe that everything have been wrought for us even before we're conceived and born in this world. Fate. Destiny. This must be mine. Things happened so I can be here to write this right now, and you there to read this. Haha. Ayos, neh?
My, oh, my, kaumay... Haha. September brought about so many changes. Why did I so suddenly start thinking of this person [na itatago natin sa pangalang KAWAII BOY]. Weird. I used to think that something was weirdly wrong about him then when I got to spend a few moments with him, I began to see him in a different light. I was able to overlook his queerness, and notice his cuteness and the gentleness that, I think, people around him look past to. I maybe acting out on impulse again but... Well, I find it weird how I abruptly felt this way, and how I so suddenly want to see him and talk to him again. Nakakalungkot, I can't find him anywhere. Miss ko na ang batang 'yon. Huwaaah!! Bakit kasi... Nyaaah! Ewan! Ewan! Woooh! Basta... Kainis... Miss na kita... 'Asan ka na baaaah?! =(
Semestral break na in a few weeks but I bet I won't be bored. We're having a climbing trip, outdoor outing, me and my batchmates, and I'm bringing some friends too. Oh yeah, also, I'm attending the HF midyear workshop. So, yeah, 'di ako masa-stuck up. Hahaha. I'll be out with friends this sem break. Save up, save up. Haha with only a few school days left, I have to do my best to save up for the upcoming trips. I'm so looking forward to spending the holidays with friends and sana kasama din si Kawaii Boy. Awww...
I should be writing my article for Wit Bread. Yeah, I was asked to do it, and I said yes and right now, I can't think of anything to write. I already have something started, an old material that I started some two or three years ago, and some friends adviced me to finish it and pass this one. Well, I hope I can come up with something tonight so i can pass it on time. Good luck sa 'kin. Apir.
Switch mode. *imagine-in mo na lang may sound effects*
Kahapon ng hapon, habang binabagtas ko ang kahabaan ng covered walk sa gitna ng LDH at FCH buildings...
Napatigil ako.
May tumawid na isang uri ng butiking mukhang salamander. Gapang. Gapang. Nang nakatawid na s'ya, nagpatuloy ako sa paglalakad patungo sa opisina ng Heraldo Filipino. Ano'ng meron tungkol sa butiking 'yon?
Wala lang. Naikwento ko lang. Nakakatuwa kasi. Hahaha.
A lot had happened in a span of one month. Time flew faster than assumed it would. Nagsasawa na naman ako sa buhay ko. Blood circulates, the Earth rotates; The same despicable things are happening all over again. I'm getting so tired of it, again. I'd rather be locked up in Pandora's box where there is Hope than in a big red box [though the box isn't always red] in the presence of aural tumult. I cannot stay where I don't belong, and I do know where those places are. No particular place but in the company of particular people emitting negative energies. I don't want and I will never take credit for anything especially where my existence isn't acknowledged.
I don't exist. I never existed. I will never exist.
That's how some people have been making me feel. I've lost my place or maybe I didn't have any to start with. I know how it feels to be unwelcomed, if there's one feeling I am well familiar with, it's this one, and I don't want to feel that way again. If I have to get away from those people to protect myself, hell, I will. I have somewhere else to go, and I can't go back somewhere where you've lost your place or where you never had a place to go back to. And I have other friends, I have new friends. I have new people, other people who makes me feel more welcome than I ever felt with those I've known for a longer time. Who needs old friends when there's no belongingness. Hehe. Emo. =P
Kyuu! Kyuu! Haha. Ayos. Despite the cyclic emotional chaos I am currently experiencing, September has been a BLAST. Hahaha. New faces, new friends, new experiences, new crushes... A LOT OF FUN. Let's see... Maine's birthday, my first climb at Mt. Manabu, Palad Seminar esp. that day with panginoong Lourd de Veyra [Hehe, napapanot], BioPC General Assembly [Gig na 'di natuloy at Thriller], All the trouble I had to go through just to get a medical certificate, OSS Students' Week, Rappelling, Thesis Defense? Haha, First Aid Training [Ang saya mag-bandage], Veggie Con [Music, stickers, food], KTS 10? Haha, 2nd Minor Climb at Mt. Pico de Loro, Pre-climb and Post-climb meetings, HF Staff meetings, Hehehe.. Ayus-ayos 'di ba? Hanging out with the Genshi ningens, time with my DMS batchmates, tambay mode with my HF people. Moments, mga bagong prospects, Haha. Ang saya. It makes me feel thankful for over-staying. If I graduated on time, if I never had problems with my academics, I wouldn't be experiencing these things that I am experiencing right now and I wouldn't be writing this post. Haha. I've posted something like this before but I don't really mind having to post the same thing all over again just to let people know I'm happy with what's happening. I believe in the reason of things, I believe everything happen for a reason. Things must've happened for these reasons. I believe that everything have been wrought for us even before we're conceived and born in this world. Fate. Destiny. This must be mine. Things happened so I can be here to write this right now, and you there to read this. Haha. Ayos, neh?
My, oh, my, kaumay... Haha. September brought about so many changes. Why did I so suddenly start thinking of this person [na itatago natin sa pangalang KAWAII BOY]. Weird. I used to think that something was weirdly wrong about him then when I got to spend a few moments with him, I began to see him in a different light. I was able to overlook his queerness, and notice his cuteness and the gentleness that, I think, people around him look past to. I maybe acting out on impulse again but... Well, I find it weird how I abruptly felt this way, and how I so suddenly want to see him and talk to him again. Nakakalungkot, I can't find him anywhere. Miss ko na ang batang 'yon. Huwaaah!! Bakit kasi... Nyaaah! Ewan! Ewan! Woooh! Basta... Kainis... Miss na kita... 'Asan ka na baaaah?! =(
Semestral break na in a few weeks but I bet I won't be bored. We're having a climbing trip, outdoor outing, me and my batchmates, and I'm bringing some friends too. Oh yeah, also, I'm attending the HF midyear workshop. So, yeah, 'di ako masa-stuck up. Hahaha. I'll be out with friends this sem break. Save up, save up. Haha with only a few school days left, I have to do my best to save up for the upcoming trips. I'm so looking forward to spending the holidays with friends and sana kasama din si Kawaii Boy. Awww...
I should be writing my article for Wit Bread. Yeah, I was asked to do it, and I said yes and right now, I can't think of anything to write. I already have something started, an old material that I started some two or three years ago, and some friends adviced me to finish it and pass this one. Well, I hope I can come up with something tonight so i can pass it on time. Good luck sa 'kin. Apir.
Switch mode. *imagine-in mo na lang may sound effects*
Kahapon ng hapon, habang binabagtas ko ang kahabaan ng covered walk sa gitna ng LDH at FCH buildings...
Napatigil ako.
May tumawid na isang uri ng butiking mukhang salamander. Gapang. Gapang. Nang nakatawid na s'ya, nagpatuloy ako sa paglalakad patungo sa opisina ng Heraldo Filipino. Ano'ng meron tungkol sa butiking 'yon?
Wala lang. Naikwento ko lang. Nakakatuwa kasi. Hahaha.
Kain mode. Gutom na 'ko eh. Haha!
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