Sunday, May 4, 2008

Piece by Piece

It's coming back to me.

I am now being reminded of things that I haven't really forgotten but kept aside for a long while. 

Right now, as I write, I am also watching Pinoy Meets World. They featured Greece in this episode. It suddenly came back to me I loved Greece. I loved Greek Mythology. I always wished to go there and live the magic that Greece feeds my imagination with. How I loved staring at those pictures of Greece [and some parts of Ephesus, Turkey] that my Oma [Grandma] sent me when they went there some years ago. Oh, yeah, I still have that tourist guide book and the pcitures including those from other parts of Europe. seeing those things on tv, it's like going through what Tamahome went through in one of the Fushigi Yuugi OVAs, getting one part of my memory back. It's the my past being revisited, a piece of the puzzle back in place.

I was watching SOP this afternoon and there was this violinist named Lucia [I forgot her surname]. Astig. I remembered LeStat played the violin too. I wanted to play the violin too. The violin sounds like weeping to me, and for reason that I find strange, it appeals to me. It's calling me... Basta. I just love the violin and it's part of my plan this year to learn the violin and buy myself one. Bahala na.

I'm also picking up the keyboards again. It's been a long time but it's all part of the process. Relearning, rediscovering one's self, exploring new things, bringing back the old self and converging it with the new and becoming the same old brand new ME. Gulo ba? Basta yun na yon.

About writing, the words are finally pouring down on me again. They're coming down but still haven't enough to help me bear my Child of the Art. But I'm not rushing, I want to take everything one piece at a time, and I'm not losing faith that I'll get my lost self back in time to make RAMPA again, one last time before I leave my college life forever. I'm moving on, moving up but for now, I have to get Lieve and Reigusu back.

So.. I still haven't gotten my enthusiasm for going out back yet. I just want a good book to sit back and enjoy with in my lazy afternoons and sleepless nights. Which reminds me, I should start buying books now. And add more movies to my movie collection. I love the movies I have but can't help want something new. The movies I haven't seen in theatres, I have to buy. And those rare movies, I have to go and search video shops all over the city for them just like I did when I went to look for my 1968 Romeo and Juliet. Hahahaha. And books, yeah, books. I've read quite a lot of books already but own none of them except for that Macbeth that I had my mom buy for me because I needed it for school when I was in highschool, and the Phantom of the Opera I got from Booksale last year. I need to... I want to collect book though I don't really know where to place them once I acquire them. But I will, it's part of the "cool change".

I will write about my plans for a "Cool Change" one of these days. I promise.

I'm also starting to fix my room again after a few months. Hehehe. It usually takes months before I fix my room after I fixed it once. I've already finished with some parts, and the only one left unfixed now is my closet. Hehehe. Yeah, it's hard for me to keep my closet tidy and I'm too lazy to tidy it up regularly and it's not like anybody's going to see it. Just me and my mom since she's the one who does the laundry, irons the clothes and folds them, and brings them in my room. And come on, I don't even like making my bed. Hahaha. It's my bed after all and I'll sleep on it at night as I left it in the morning. I'm just messy. Hahahaha.

It's been raining these past few days but it's just cloudy for me. The last time I had myself soak in the rain was when went to the Ellet Camp at Pulag. I kinda miss walking in the rain like I usually did the rain would catch up on me. Hopefully, I'll get to walk in the rain again and remind me again that "I'm alive".

As much as I'd like to talk some more, it's already 1am and I have a class at 10am later. I'll just get back at you all when I get back. Jaaa!

It's a good morning and I'm smiling now.

6 comments:

  1. that's good Levy, at least the change is starting. :) there will come a time when the sun will fully rise on your face, and it's quite soon. :) I know the feeling, believe me. ^__^

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  2. emo. haha! wii kami inulan sa potipot! ansaya mabasa habang basa ka na hehe. :P

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  3. Napanood mo na ba yung La Corda D' Oro? Ako din pa rang gusto kong matutong magviolin, at oo, napanood ko din yung poreynger na yun, astig!

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  4. I really hope so. I miss the warmth and the heat, I miss how it reminds you how you miss the rain...

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  5. wahaha onga inulan nga daw kayo, pictures?

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  6. wah di ko pa yun napapanood. cge pag nagka-oras check ko yun. ako rin talaga... susubukan kong aralin yun this year promise...

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