Camwhoring at its finest. I'll be uploading more soon...
Saturday, March 11, 2006
Plugging
Nothing much to blog about, I just want to plug my blog that seem to have no other reader than my friends and a very few people that I know.
http://prisoner-of-eternity.blogspot.com
Friday, March 10, 2006
Answer to my life
It helped watching Jewel in the Palace and Spiderman 2 tonight. Things are being made clear to me now as I write. Some month ago I wrote something about a dream I have with this Marilyn Manson song and evil things all around. The song was entitled Obsequy, the Death of Art. Let me tear it piece by piece: Obsequy refers to a funeral rite of ceremony. All this time I've been trying to cure myself. As much as I've wanted to prove myself I'm immobilized by fear. I'm unconsciously dying because of being helpless against my inner demons. I am freaking work of art but I'm letting this world kill me. How the unconscious mind works is just unbelieveable, I just have to decide now what I will do about it now that I know what's wrong with me. I get locked in chains but I always did my best to break free, I keep still with all the commotion around me and think, but I wasn't aware that I lie awake in my death bed as I do it. Now, what has Jang-Geum and Peter Parker has to do with all these? They always had a choice and they choose what they will make out of life and not let life decide for their lives. I'm letting life control me instead of the other way around. I'm so dumb. The stars says it, and I'm plotting out my future plan, my next line of defense. After the exams next week, that will be my battle plan, think* think*
He called me! Who? An old friend. Nothing special but I'm really glad to hear from him.
Yeehah! Last round of payment and it'll be over but I'm still having a hard time saving. Look at this: almost 400Php spent on two projects only. I have 5 subjects, 2 of which didn't require much spending, one wasn't that expensive but these two projects are way too off the budget. I can't believe how some people can be simpletons and prefer to spend a lot rather than exploit resources, make use of talents, improvise. Alright, they aren't dumb but they're using their very common common sense too much. What could have I had with 400 bucks? Man that was really annoying. I don't think I can let that happen again. I'll try my best 1)not to procrastinate learning, 2)make sure to expand my resources and 3) take charge. I'm not so considerate about telling things about other people in a journal that anyone in the world can read but this is the only place I can shout out my not-so sentimental sentiments. Yeah, I think I'm better than other people on some things and I just can't understand why they have to be so themselves. I wanna tell them to think outside the box, go to outer space, visit your favorite planet, specialize on something aside from being simple. Yabang ko, I know but I just can't take it. No, no, no...
Ayt, now I'm so sleepy. No school tomorrow but a lot of sorting-things-out to do. I'll be figuring out what has to be figured out and get SMUG all the way, Hehe...
He called me! Who? An old friend. Nothing special but I'm really glad to hear from him.
Yeehah! Last round of payment and it'll be over but I'm still having a hard time saving. Look at this: almost 400Php spent on two projects only. I have 5 subjects, 2 of which didn't require much spending, one wasn't that expensive but these two projects are way too off the budget. I can't believe how some people can be simpletons and prefer to spend a lot rather than exploit resources, make use of talents, improvise. Alright, they aren't dumb but they're using their very common common sense too much. What could have I had with 400 bucks? Man that was really annoying. I don't think I can let that happen again. I'll try my best 1)not to procrastinate learning, 2)make sure to expand my resources and 3) take charge. I'm not so considerate about telling things about other people in a journal that anyone in the world can read but this is the only place I can shout out my not-so sentimental sentiments. Yeah, I think I'm better than other people on some things and I just can't understand why they have to be so themselves. I wanna tell them to think outside the box, go to outer space, visit your favorite planet, specialize on something aside from being simple. Yabang ko, I know but I just can't take it. No, no, no...
Ayt, now I'm so sleepy. No school tomorrow but a lot of sorting-things-out to do. I'll be figuring out what has to be figured out and get SMUG all the way, Hehe...
Wednesday, March 8, 2006
Miss out
People can be so mean. I read an article about a text chain that went out yesterday saying that Cogie had an accident and is currently in ICU. Thank God that nothing of those were true. I would've have broken down if I got that text, thank goodness. When will I see him on my tv screen again? Will ever get to meet him? Awzee... I can find much on him right now and I really miss him, I huess have to dream on as usual...
Nothing I can do now but wait. I pray that I get to be a part of him somehow but I can't even find a way. I had the chance to make an impression but I was unaware that that was it. I really like him! Waaah! He's older than I am but I really like him. He's not your boy-next-door but I like him. Fate must have a better plan for us but... Ewan! I should've torn that page for him. I think that was Feb28 when the class was in the library, he approached me about the questionaires for the project, I showed him my notes, I was thinking if I will tear that page but my mind wasn't working. I'm not sure how I looked but my head was just out of order. While he was reading the questions, I was there thinking if something was written at the other side of the page and if I will tear it but at the same time I was blank. I was so close... Heck! I should've been more alert. Grrr... I hope to see him this summer or next sem or just whenever. Don't get me wrong, I'm not in-love, just crushing on R.J. right now. More dreaming on for me until that special day. Maybe I'm just not praying hard enough or it's gotta have to wait or, though I don't wanna think about it, it will never happen. Heaven forbid it... :-(
I remember someone telling me I'm intimidating and scaring people off. Must be the way I look, how bad do I look? Must be the way I walk, definitely not the way I talk. Maybe because I look stern, I'm often seen alone alone somewhere staring on to oblivion, reading a book, staring blankly ahead, I used to walk with ear phone with hands in my pockets, eyeliner (too lazy now for get up). I don't think I'm pale to look like a ghost or horrific to scare people like a monster behind the door. I don't bite but there is definitely something wrong about me. I'm aware that I give the people an impression of being a snob but is it that bad to intimidate people? Gees... Got nothing else I can say about the subject. Oh, well...
Nap time! See you on my next poet, if that'll ever be possible, hehe...
Nothing I can do now but wait. I pray that I get to be a part of him somehow but I can't even find a way. I had the chance to make an impression but I was unaware that that was it. I really like him! Waaah! He's older than I am but I really like him. He's not your boy-next-door but I like him. Fate must have a better plan for us but... Ewan! I should've torn that page for him. I think that was Feb28 when the class was in the library, he approached me about the questionaires for the project, I showed him my notes, I was thinking if I will tear that page but my mind wasn't working. I'm not sure how I looked but my head was just out of order. While he was reading the questions, I was there thinking if something was written at the other side of the page and if I will tear it but at the same time I was blank. I was so close... Heck! I should've been more alert. Grrr... I hope to see him this summer or next sem or just whenever. Don't get me wrong, I'm not in-love, just crushing on R.J. right now. More dreaming on for me until that special day. Maybe I'm just not praying hard enough or it's gotta have to wait or, though I don't wanna think about it, it will never happen. Heaven forbid it... :-(
I remember someone telling me I'm intimidating and scaring people off. Must be the way I look, how bad do I look? Must be the way I walk, definitely not the way I talk. Maybe because I look stern, I'm often seen alone alone somewhere staring on to oblivion, reading a book, staring blankly ahead, I used to walk with ear phone with hands in my pockets, eyeliner (too lazy now for get up). I don't think I'm pale to look like a ghost or horrific to scare people like a monster behind the door. I don't bite but there is definitely something wrong about me. I'm aware that I give the people an impression of being a snob but is it that bad to intimidate people? Gees... Got nothing else I can say about the subject. Oh, well...
Nap time! See you on my next poet, if that'll ever be possible, hehe...
Tuesday, March 7, 2006
Tease me
Currently listening to: Three Doors Down - Here Without You. There's something about this song that I love. My sentimentality's taking over me. Must be that they used this as a tribute song to the late Eddie Gory Guerrero and I di have this thing about death and appreciating it's after effect though I haven't and I have no plans yet of experiencing losing someone to death. I'm shifting to senti mode. Speaking of which, I'm downloading old love songs right now. I'm not sure what got into me and I'm into this kind of trip but... I just love listening to them.
Eternity. There's this movie coming out this moment, not sure, from GMA Films called Moments of Love. I find it interesting because I love movies with that kind of theme, not necessarily love stories but, well, about love not knowing any boundaries, surpassing even time. I plan of seeing the movie when it comes out, of course I am 99% sure that I'm going alone. I have no one to see it with. I still haven't talked to my crush and I feel like time's running out. Though it's not so bad because I seem to meet new people, know others better and gain more friends. I feel most specially fond of BIT22, my classmates in Local Area Networking. They are so happy to be with, they make me feel highschool, I enjoy just sitting in a room with them. Well, I do love my new blockmates in BIT23 and being with them is fun too (liek this morning at the MAH kubo, there was endless teasing and laughing, and they, we are having LOADS of fun) but I feel more at home with 22. I forgot to write about what took place yesterday during Lab, the boys were singing to me that song from American Pie and asked if my name was taken from there, there was even beat boxing and dancing. Hehe... I'm 19 but I felt 15.
I haven't checked one of my favorite blogs, Freaking Fabulous'. It's a ctually a photo blog and I love his photos. Not sure if he takes them himself but it's not the only thing he puts there. He also puts surveys and a lot of cute things. I love his latest post. I love these kind of stuffs.
JULY
1. Always broods about the past and the old friends -> very true.
2. Approachable -> oh, yeah!
3. Caring and loving -> you bet!
4. Concern about people's feelings -> di lang halata.
5. Difficult to fathom and to be understood -> that's why they call me weird.
6. Dislike nonsensical and unnecessary things -> ehem.
7. Easily consoled -> i guess.
8. Easily hurt but takes long to recover -> do you they know?
9. Forgiving but never forgets -> memories...
10. Friendly -> oh well!
11. Fun to be with -> you tell me..
12. Guides others physically and mentally -> inborn.
13. Hardworking -> not always.
14. Has reputation -> and it means a lot to me.
15. Homely person -> there's no better place.
16. Honest -> uhh...
17. Judge people through observations -> yes, I do that.
18. Likes to be quiet -> most of the time.
19. Loves to be alone -> bliss.
20. Loves to be loved -> don't you?
21. Moody and easily hurt -> ouch!
22. Never looks for friends -> they look for me.
23. No difficulties in studying -> unless I feel lazy.
24. Not aggressive unless provoked -> be warned, rawr!
25. Not revengeful -> aw... you think so?
26. Overly concerned -> not really... it can be fake.
27. Prone to having stomach and dieting problems -> GUILTY, your honor!
28. Puts in effort in work -> most of the time.
29. Quiet unless excited or tensed -> I think so too.
30. Secretive -> Ssshhh!
31. Sensitive and forms impressions carefully -> *wink*wink*
32. Sentimental -> Emo, sigh!
33. Strong sense of sympathy -> .....
34. Tactful -> more of introverted.
35. Takes pride in oneself -> SMUG!
36. Temperamental and unpredictable ->Grrr...
37. Treats others equally -> bait ko naman?!
38. Very emotional -> EMO! EMO!
39. Waits for friends -> *big wide smile*
40. Wary and sharp -> Very true and I love it.
41. Witty and shaky -> Beat me.
So I didn't get to do that transcription 'cause they've finished doing it yesterday. My only problem now is the conflict in exam schedule. I'm bored and lazy. I think I'm done with almost everything. Lemme see... The Socio video is already edited, DBMS project's finished, Eco project and presentation is over, LAN long quiz this Friday but no project, and oh... Data Struct! I need a running Selection Sort program in C. I already asked Alvin for help, it's his forte and he's the best programmer I know though he's not officially a programmer just yet. Pre-reg tomorrow, 2nd to the last Socio meeting, thank God!, sit-in and seeing R.C -> best part of the day. School's almost done, yay!!!
I'm planning to study piano again after being stagnated for like 12 to 13 years. I may not have my own piano but atleast we have keyboards now. It's not the kind that you see on concert but it'd be good enough for practice. There's a lot of song I want to play and it's about time to re-learn what I love doing. It's part of the reinvention and personal makeover that I'm giving myself. I started exercising again last night. No dieting for me but there'll be exercise, definitely and one of these days, a haircut, a li'l makeup, dress change, earrings I'm getting one after habing none in 3 years!), treatments (I'm gonna try spa this summer and maybe derma too). Oh, di ba? I'll think I'll be able to renew myself and come back this June (next schoolyear) feeling and looking new.
That's be it for tonight. Catch you on my next post, if that's even possible. Kisses!
Eternity. There's this movie coming out this moment, not sure, from GMA Films called Moments of Love. I find it interesting because I love movies with that kind of theme, not necessarily love stories but, well, about love not knowing any boundaries, surpassing even time. I plan of seeing the movie when it comes out, of course I am 99% sure that I'm going alone. I have no one to see it with. I still haven't talked to my crush and I feel like time's running out. Though it's not so bad because I seem to meet new people, know others better and gain more friends. I feel most specially fond of BIT22, my classmates in Local Area Networking. They are so happy to be with, they make me feel highschool, I enjoy just sitting in a room with them. Well, I do love my new blockmates in BIT23 and being with them is fun too (liek this morning at the MAH kubo, there was endless teasing and laughing, and they, we are having LOADS of fun) but I feel more at home with 22. I forgot to write about what took place yesterday during Lab, the boys were singing to me that song from American Pie and asked if my name was taken from there, there was even beat boxing and dancing. Hehe... I'm 19 but I felt 15.
I haven't checked one of my favorite blogs, Freaking Fabulous'. It's a ctually a photo blog and I love his photos. Not sure if he takes them himself but it's not the only thing he puts there. He also puts surveys and a lot of cute things. I love his latest post. I love these kind of stuffs.
JULY
1. Always broods about the past and the old friends -> very true.
2. Approachable -> oh, yeah!
3. Caring and loving -> you bet!
4. Concern about people's feelings -> di lang halata.
5. Difficult to fathom and to be understood -> that's why they call me weird.
6. Dislike nonsensical and unnecessary things -> ehem.
7. Easily consoled -> i guess.
8. Easily hurt but takes long to recover -> do you they know?
9. Forgiving but never forgets -> memories...
10. Friendly -> oh well!
11. Fun to be with -> you tell me..
12. Guides others physically and mentally -> inborn.
13. Hardworking -> not always.
14. Has reputation -> and it means a lot to me.
15. Homely person -> there's no better place.
16. Honest -> uhh...
17. Judge people through observations -> yes, I do that.
18. Likes to be quiet -> most of the time.
19. Loves to be alone -> bliss.
20. Loves to be loved -> don't you?
21. Moody and easily hurt -> ouch!
22. Never looks for friends -> they look for me.
23. No difficulties in studying -> unless I feel lazy.
24. Not aggressive unless provoked -> be warned, rawr!
25. Not revengeful -> aw... you think so?
26. Overly concerned -> not really... it can be fake.
27. Prone to having stomach and dieting problems -> GUILTY, your honor!
28. Puts in effort in work -> most of the time.
29. Quiet unless excited or tensed -> I think so too.
30. Secretive -> Ssshhh!
31. Sensitive and forms impressions carefully -> *wink*wink*
32. Sentimental -> Emo, sigh!
33. Strong sense of sympathy -> .....
34. Tactful -> more of introverted.
35. Takes pride in oneself -> SMUG!
36. Temperamental and unpredictable ->Grrr...
37. Treats others equally -> bait ko naman?!
38. Very emotional -> EMO! EMO!
39. Waits for friends -> *big wide smile*
40. Wary and sharp -> Very true and I love it.
41. Witty and shaky -> Beat me.
So I didn't get to do that transcription 'cause they've finished doing it yesterday. My only problem now is the conflict in exam schedule. I'm bored and lazy. I think I'm done with almost everything. Lemme see... The Socio video is already edited, DBMS project's finished, Eco project and presentation is over, LAN long quiz this Friday but no project, and oh... Data Struct! I need a running Selection Sort program in C. I already asked Alvin for help, it's his forte and he's the best programmer I know though he's not officially a programmer just yet. Pre-reg tomorrow, 2nd to the last Socio meeting, thank God!, sit-in and seeing R.C -> best part of the day. School's almost done, yay!!!
I'm planning to study piano again after being stagnated for like 12 to 13 years. I may not have my own piano but atleast we have keyboards now. It's not the kind that you see on concert but it'd be good enough for practice. There's a lot of song I want to play and it's about time to re-learn what I love doing. It's part of the reinvention and personal makeover that I'm giving myself. I started exercising again last night. No dieting for me but there'll be exercise, definitely and one of these days, a haircut, a li'l makeup, dress change, earrings I'm getting one after habing none in 3 years!), treatments (I'm gonna try spa this summer and maybe derma too). Oh, di ba? I'll think I'll be able to renew myself and come back this June (next schoolyear) feeling and looking new.
That's be it for tonight. Catch you on my next post, if that's even possible. Kisses!
Monday, March 6, 2006
Konti na lang...
I missed my afternoon nap and now I'm so sleepy. I know I should've gone the other way at the back of MAH after class and I could've avoided my classmate. I had no choice but go with her and even spent than I planned to today. I was expecting an hour or two but thinking that we started 2pm and it was almost 5 and we're not yet finished. I ate a few snacks but getting dizzy because I haven't eaten lunch yet. How could I have forgotten something so essential to survival, elusion. It just sucks to be sleepy, this early. I'm not sure if I have things yet to be done. It just darn sucks.
I think I'm a bit paranoid. I have this feeling that something I said was being taken on differently than I intended it to be. I hope I'm wrong 'cause someone will be seriously hurt, and embarrassed and it wouldn't be me.
Oh, my! This week's Computer Organization meeting seems to be the last time this sem that I will see R.C. Our Data Structures class have ended and I hardly see him now on the corridors. Haaay, ano pa nga ba... Leave it to fate!
I love Kim Sam Soon! The story's getting better everyday esp. today's. Awweee! Love it! Wala lang, basta love it!
I still have work tomorrow 'cause I'll be working on our interview transcription/ documentation. I'm planning not to show up in class but that would mean an absent, might as well take it, I just wish it wouldn't take that long so I can get some sleep or maybe I'll sleep first before I do it. Oh, I still have to work on my report tomorrow. This will be the last time I'm gonna do things this way, I hope it will go out fine tomorrow. Oui! I'm gonna see R.J. tomorrow. I hope to talk to him, dunno how but I still wish to talk to him.
I need energy. I need power. Just two more weeks, this week and next week. Konti na lang! Tyaga, tyaga!
I'm having second thought in joining the outing. I want to swim but I want to rest too. I hope they do it on a pool, I prefer pools than the sea. I love the sunset, yeah, but things about the see scares me. Like tiny lurkers on the sand, those jellyfishes that get washed up on the shore, sea slugs... It just creeps me out plus it's dangerous to go night swimming on the sea. Swimming, swimming...
I think I'm a bit paranoid. I have this feeling that something I said was being taken on differently than I intended it to be. I hope I'm wrong 'cause someone will be seriously hurt, and embarrassed and it wouldn't be me.
Oh, my! This week's Computer Organization meeting seems to be the last time this sem that I will see R.C. Our Data Structures class have ended and I hardly see him now on the corridors. Haaay, ano pa nga ba... Leave it to fate!
I love Kim Sam Soon! The story's getting better everyday esp. today's. Awweee! Love it! Wala lang, basta love it!
I still have work tomorrow 'cause I'll be working on our interview transcription/ documentation. I'm planning not to show up in class but that would mean an absent, might as well take it, I just wish it wouldn't take that long so I can get some sleep or maybe I'll sleep first before I do it. Oh, I still have to work on my report tomorrow. This will be the last time I'm gonna do things this way, I hope it will go out fine tomorrow. Oui! I'm gonna see R.J. tomorrow. I hope to talk to him, dunno how but I still wish to talk to him.
I need energy. I need power. Just two more weeks, this week and next week. Konti na lang! Tyaga, tyaga!
I'm having second thought in joining the outing. I want to swim but I want to rest too. I hope they do it on a pool, I prefer pools than the sea. I love the sunset, yeah, but things about the see scares me. Like tiny lurkers on the sand, those jellyfishes that get washed up on the shore, sea slugs... It just creeps me out plus it's dangerous to go night swimming on the sea. Swimming, swimming...
Friday, March 3, 2006
I like you
I've been away for two days and I had a lot to tell.
Thursday. Guess what I did to get the name of that guy with a broken arm... Hehe... I read his ID and if I read it right, his name would be Robert. I hope the way I did it was not too obvious 'cause I took the chance when I saw the other irregular students checking on their grades to take a peek. Robert was all I saw and when I looked at the grading sheet to see his whole name, I found out that his whole name is Robert Joseph. Searching him on the school website's People Search he's from BSE41, which explains why I saw him talking with someone I know who is also coming from the same class. I was trying to catch glances from behind the whole period. He transfered to seat behind me when Matt presented their project using a laptop computer. I would have prefered him to sit beside me and talk to him but seems like it will never happen. I don't know what but there's just something about him that I like. Argh!
Friday. I had the chance but never took it. A classmate asked me to sit at the chair in front of him for the exam and it was one seat away from R.C. but I didn't take it. That classmate of mine is going to copy because he said he didn't review so I chose not to take it and thinking it through. It wouldn't really have taken me closer to R.C. because it's as far asn I already am sitting an aisle away from him. Something good happened though. I was waiting for the paper that Fort asked my former classmate to answer and I saw R.C. along in the corridor, seemingly waiting for someone in one of the classrooms near our DSA classroom. He must be waiting for a friend or a girlfriend but who cares? I loved staring at him from, like, a few feet away. I'm happy with that but the dilemma is this: since out DSA and Economics exams chedule is in conflict, which one should I take? If I choose to take DSA, I will see RC for the last time, hopefully for this sem only and miss seeing R.J. and if I choose Eco... Awww! I don't wanna miss a thing! This will also be the last minor subject I'm gonna take with my former blockmates, and not sure if there's any major subject and R.J. is a graduating student and R.C. will only be a Sophomore next year. I'll leave it to destiny for now, and think about it when the day comes. I hope to talk to them [kahit sandali lang, kahit isang beses lang] before this sem ends. I really, really like them. Di na ko makikipila sa ibang may crush kay R.P. the chinito makausap ko lang sila. Waaah!
There's this someone I know who found my blog through searching and I wanna give her a shout out. Not sure if she's dropping by to read regularly but just letting me know that she found out about my blog makes me happy. Thank you! Thank you! Shout outs to you! You know who you are! I'm not really sure if I should say her name but really, THANK YOU! Comment ka naman jan! Thanks!
I've blocked 2 freaks from sending me messages this week. One was this old man who sounded like he was tryingto find a bride over the net and the other one was a Filipino guy who said, "Musta" that I didn't really know who the hell was. Yeah, I'm bad-mouthing people as a form of defense mechanism. I can't beat 'em up personally so I say bad words. I'd say high to the Pinoy if he was cute but he isn't. He looked like a... I don't wanna insult other people with a word intended for only one person but may describe a whole community. I'm just so disgusted. I was like: "EEEWW!", "ITSURA?!", "K*PAL!", and "POTAH, ASA!". I just see people as slobs when I don't like how they look like. Yeah, I'm discriminate when it comes to looks because I believe you don't really have to have much in life to look good or look human. You don't have to look dirty just because you can't take a bath but there some people who looked like they've never ever taken a bath in their entire life no matter how clean they are with themselves. Remembering that face I saw from Friendster gives me creeps. I'm not saying he's ugly but... I think I'm gonna throw up. Forgive me for my fugliness in attitude but I'd rather have Chaka doll on my Friendster than that creature... Eeeewww!
Something beautiful naman...
Cogie! Cogie! Where are you? If I must say this everday, I will then: I haven't met you but I miss you. They've been hiding him for a long time now. No new pictures in Penshoppe, no tv appearances though there are sightings of him written on papers. I guess this is another thing that have to be left to the stars. Just want him to know that my heart beats for him. Actually, he shares it with BSB and crushmates are on the sides. Hehe... Love you, Cogs!
Debt-paying is almost over! Haaay! Yeah! There is a big chance that I will be joining the class outing. I wanna go night swimming just like last year. Awww! I love taking pictures. I can't wait.
I'm doing good in Freestyle. Haha... I've only played with Jerome and I can't wait to play with the rest of the guys!
Time for Free style!
Thursday. Guess what I did to get the name of that guy with a broken arm... Hehe... I read his ID and if I read it right, his name would be Robert. I hope the way I did it was not too obvious 'cause I took the chance when I saw the other irregular students checking on their grades to take a peek. Robert was all I saw and when I looked at the grading sheet to see his whole name, I found out that his whole name is Robert Joseph. Searching him on the school website's People Search he's from BSE41, which explains why I saw him talking with someone I know who is also coming from the same class. I was trying to catch glances from behind the whole period. He transfered to seat behind me when Matt presented their project using a laptop computer. I would have prefered him to sit beside me and talk to him but seems like it will never happen. I don't know what but there's just something about him that I like. Argh!
Friday. I had the chance but never took it. A classmate asked me to sit at the chair in front of him for the exam and it was one seat away from R.C. but I didn't take it. That classmate of mine is going to copy because he said he didn't review so I chose not to take it and thinking it through. It wouldn't really have taken me closer to R.C. because it's as far asn I already am sitting an aisle away from him. Something good happened though. I was waiting for the paper that Fort asked my former classmate to answer and I saw R.C. along in the corridor, seemingly waiting for someone in one of the classrooms near our DSA classroom. He must be waiting for a friend or a girlfriend but who cares? I loved staring at him from, like, a few feet away. I'm happy with that but the dilemma is this: since out DSA and Economics exams chedule is in conflict, which one should I take? If I choose to take DSA, I will see RC for the last time, hopefully for this sem only and miss seeing R.J. and if I choose Eco... Awww! I don't wanna miss a thing! This will also be the last minor subject I'm gonna take with my former blockmates, and not sure if there's any major subject and R.J. is a graduating student and R.C. will only be a Sophomore next year. I'll leave it to destiny for now, and think about it when the day comes. I hope to talk to them [kahit sandali lang, kahit isang beses lang] before this sem ends. I really, really like them. Di na ko makikipila sa ibang may crush kay R.P. the chinito makausap ko lang sila. Waaah!
There's this someone I know who found my blog through searching and I wanna give her a shout out. Not sure if she's dropping by to read regularly but just letting me know that she found out about my blog makes me happy. Thank you! Thank you! Shout outs to you! You know who you are! I'm not really sure if I should say her name but really, THANK YOU! Comment ka naman jan! Thanks!
I've blocked 2 freaks from sending me messages this week. One was this old man who sounded like he was tryingto find a bride over the net and the other one was a Filipino guy who said, "Musta" that I didn't really know who the hell was. Yeah, I'm bad-mouthing people as a form of defense mechanism. I can't beat 'em up personally so I say bad words. I'd say high to the Pinoy if he was cute but he isn't. He looked like a... I don't wanna insult other people with a word intended for only one person but may describe a whole community. I'm just so disgusted. I was like: "EEEWW!", "ITSURA?!", "K*PAL!", and "POTAH, ASA!". I just see people as slobs when I don't like how they look like. Yeah, I'm discriminate when it comes to looks because I believe you don't really have to have much in life to look good or look human. You don't have to look dirty just because you can't take a bath but there some people who looked like they've never ever taken a bath in their entire life no matter how clean they are with themselves. Remembering that face I saw from Friendster gives me creeps. I'm not saying he's ugly but... I think I'm gonna throw up. Forgive me for my fugliness in attitude but I'd rather have Chaka doll on my Friendster than that creature... Eeeewww!
Something beautiful naman...
Cogie! Cogie! Where are you? If I must say this everday, I will then: I haven't met you but I miss you. They've been hiding him for a long time now. No new pictures in Penshoppe, no tv appearances though there are sightings of him written on papers. I guess this is another thing that have to be left to the stars. Just want him to know that my heart beats for him. Actually, he shares it with BSB and crushmates are on the sides. Hehe... Love you, Cogs!
Debt-paying is almost over! Haaay! Yeah! There is a big chance that I will be joining the class outing. I wanna go night swimming just like last year. Awww! I love taking pictures. I can't wait.
I'm doing good in Freestyle. Haha... I've only played with Jerome and I can't wait to play with the rest of the guys!
Time for Free style!
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