Miss out

People can be so mean. I read an article about a text chain that went out yesterday saying that Cogie had an accident and is currently in ICU. Thank God that nothing of those were true. I would've have broken down if I got that text, thank goodness. When will I see him on my tv screen again? Will ever get to meet him? Awzee... I can find much on him right now and I really miss him, I huess have to dream on as usual...



Nothing I can do now but wait. I pray that I get to be a part of him somehow but I can't even find a way. I had the chance to make an impression but I was unaware that that was it. I really like him! Waaah! He's older than I am but I really like him. He's not your boy-next-door but I like him. Fate must have a better plan for us but... Ewan! I should've torn that page for him. I think that was Feb28 when the class was in the library, he approached me about the questionaires for the project, I showed him my notes, I was thinking if I will tear that page but my mind wasn't working. I'm not sure how I looked but my head was just out of order. While he was reading the questions, I was there thinking if something was written at the other side of the page and if I will tear it but at the same time I was blank. I was so close... Heck! I should've been more alert. Grrr... I hope to see him this summer or next sem or just whenever. Don't get me wrong, I'm not in-love, just crushing on R.J. right now. More dreaming on for me until that special day. Maybe I'm just not praying hard enough or it's gotta have to wait or, though I don't wanna think about it, it will never happen. Heaven forbid it... :-(



I remember someone telling me I'm intimidating and scaring people off. Must be the way I look, how bad do I look? Must be the way I walk, definitely not the way I talk. Maybe because I look stern, I'm often seen alone alone somewhere staring on to oblivion, reading a book, staring blankly ahead, I used to walk with ear phone with hands in my pockets, eyeliner (too lazy now for get up). I don't think I'm pale to look like a ghost or horrific to scare people like a monster behind the door. I don't bite but there is definitely something wrong about me. I'm aware that I give the people an impression of being a snob but is it that bad to intimidate people? Gees... Got nothing else I can say about the subject. Oh, well...



Nap time! See you on my next poet, if that'll ever be possible, hehe...