It's either you have one or you don't have any.
I remember reading something from someone else's blog about not having everything. Well, you can have everything have you wanted to but should you want to but to excel, one has to be preferred over the other. Do everything but concentrate only in one thing in order to perfect it. Or something like that. Hahaha. What I'm trying to say is, there are a lot of things I want to do, but I can't do or have all at the same time. Certain things will have to be chosen over the other and that other one will have to be set aside for a while. I know I said I'm making the most out of my last six months in school, and that's what I'm going to do though it isn't really the way I had it in mind when I first declared Carpe Diem. Well, they still are the same things with little changes, like wanting to go somewhere but taking a different route. In the past year there are things that I would usually do and there were things that I haven't done in a while while I was doing those other things. This time I'm doing the things I haven't done for a long time and stop doing for a while those things that I've been doing. I'm not sure how some people will think about it, but, see, we decide for ourselves, and only we know what's good for us and what will make us happy. There are events I'm attending to, there are others that I'm not. Things that I'm ging to do and other things that I'm not. See, choices. I think this is just about it for me.
I've noticed that I've been blabbering the same things over and over again but, well, most likely, that is what I wanted to say. I want to elaborate but that take some of my effort and I think it's best to keep things vague and let things unfold itself to the spectator that will witness its revelation. Blah, basta ganun yun.
Anyway...
Can you be happy for anybody, esp. close friends, when they were given the opportunity for which you were never even given a chance to try for? I just think it's kind of unfair. I mean, I was not even given an explanation for why I weren't given a chance to try out for something that I wanted that time when I wanted it, now your friends get it, and you don't know how to react. It just keeps you thinking whether you're underqualified, overqualified, well, I'm sure wasn't late, or they just think I don't fit their 'standards' that are, in my taste, more on aesthetics than in ability and skills. And I'm not just sayng this because I hate what they did, but they've lost that fire that I used to admire them for. Who/what am I talking about? Secret. Hahahaha. As usual, no name-dropping here.
So, I am buying myself an early birthday present next week. And I'm really excited. Hahaha. Wala lang. Not sure yet what I want to do on my birthday, I might throw a party like last year or I might not. Well, I have no plans yet but whatever happens, it will happen whatever it is. Haha.
Okay, choices. In relation to what I said in the first paragraph, I might break a promise I made to a friend. Not that I want to intentionally break but I might break it. There are things I have to do and if I want to do those things I might have to miss that day that I promised to be there. It is her special day but, see, it's a choice that has to be made. Bahala na.
I'm still keeping my watch on Mr. B. But this will be the last time he will ever be talked about in my online space though the war I've waged will go on. Watch out, I'm still watching.
Okay, I'm hungry again, I miss REAL meat, and it's getting late again.
Lord of the Rings: The Return of the King on SNBO tonight. Gotta watch though I would have preferred that England episode of Pinoy Meets World with Drew. I think they're showing it next week.
Oh well, Good night everyone.
I remember reading something from someone else's blog about not having everything. Well, you can have everything have you wanted to but should you want to but to excel, one has to be preferred over the other. Do everything but concentrate only in one thing in order to perfect it. Or something like that. Hahaha. What I'm trying to say is, there are a lot of things I want to do, but I can't do or have all at the same time. Certain things will have to be chosen over the other and that other one will have to be set aside for a while. I know I said I'm making the most out of my last six months in school, and that's what I'm going to do though it isn't really the way I had it in mind when I first declared Carpe Diem. Well, they still are the same things with little changes, like wanting to go somewhere but taking a different route. In the past year there are things that I would usually do and there were things that I haven't done in a while while I was doing those other things. This time I'm doing the things I haven't done for a long time and stop doing for a while those things that I've been doing. I'm not sure how some people will think about it, but, see, we decide for ourselves, and only we know what's good for us and what will make us happy. There are events I'm attending to, there are others that I'm not. Things that I'm ging to do and other things that I'm not. See, choices. I think this is just about it for me.
I've noticed that I've been blabbering the same things over and over again but, well, most likely, that is what I wanted to say. I want to elaborate but that take some of my effort and I think it's best to keep things vague and let things unfold itself to the spectator that will witness its revelation. Blah, basta ganun yun.
Anyway...
Can you be happy for anybody, esp. close friends, when they were given the opportunity for which you were never even given a chance to try for? I just think it's kind of unfair. I mean, I was not even given an explanation for why I weren't given a chance to try out for something that I wanted that time when I wanted it, now your friends get it, and you don't know how to react. It just keeps you thinking whether you're underqualified, overqualified, well, I'm sure wasn't late, or they just think I don't fit their 'standards' that are, in my taste, more on aesthetics than in ability and skills. And I'm not just sayng this because I hate what they did, but they've lost that fire that I used to admire them for. Who/what am I talking about? Secret. Hahahaha. As usual, no name-dropping here.
So, I am buying myself an early birthday present next week. And I'm really excited. Hahaha. Wala lang. Not sure yet what I want to do on my birthday, I might throw a party like last year or I might not. Well, I have no plans yet but whatever happens, it will happen whatever it is. Haha.
Okay, choices. In relation to what I said in the first paragraph, I might break a promise I made to a friend. Not that I want to intentionally break but I might break it. There are things I have to do and if I want to do those things I might have to miss that day that I promised to be there. It is her special day but, see, it's a choice that has to be made. Bahala na.
I'm still keeping my watch on Mr. B. But this will be the last time he will ever be talked about in my online space though the war I've waged will go on. Watch out, I'm still watching.
Okay, I'm hungry again, I miss REAL meat, and it's getting late again.
Lord of the Rings: The Return of the King on SNBO tonight. Gotta watch though I would have preferred that England episode of Pinoy Meets World with Drew. I think they're showing it next week.
Oh well, Good night everyone.
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