Fantasmic Schizophrenia

Have I always been in the dark side only trying to make a torch shine bright that no trace of darkness can be found or am I just being pulled back because darkness know it belongs to me. I maybe developing an alterego. I'd like to call it Kira Complex. I know it sounds absurd, because, well, it has the word Kira, and I got Kira from Death Note but something makes me think I'm starting to become like him. For one, there are some things [I'm not telling, again, so don't ask] outwardly like, or the nicer side of my approves of but something inside me speaks to me telling me otherwise. Well, if you still don't get it, put it this way. Think of the Death Note, and I am Kira. I did the killing, and still I'm working with the authorities trying to run after the killer that they do not know which is actually me. Darn, I'm at loss for words. Mood killer! Well, the logic of it goes something like that. Ahaha.. This paragraph was supposed to be something dark but as you've read, I cannot exactly put my thoughs into words. Even in thinking, I'm not so much of an organized person. This is what you get thinking of too many things at the same time, they get mixed up in my head and... Ahh, well....

Sometimes, stupidity can be really cute.

I went to the mall last Wednesday to buy a school bag. I went to Bio Research as part of my mall routine then ran into two silly kids. Ahaha.. They were arguing whether the creature they were pointing at is a dog or a cat. I found it funny how they can't tell the difference. I decided to interfere and told them it was a dog and pointed at the tag that says Chow-chow, sheepishly smiled and ran away. It was a Chow-chow after all and it doesn't look anything like a cat [Persian Cat]. I know it's the stupid shop's fault because they can't put the tags in the right place. Ahaha.. It was really nothing serious but I just found it funny. It's been a while since I laughed at something childishly stupid.

Yay, I'm done with my Meteor Garden 2 marathon. This summer's been productive and more than the past summers I've had. Not that I actually achieved anything material, not any of my goals but the fact is that my heart's been fed more than enough. All the mangas, the animes and the dramas I've finished have somehow satisfied the discontentment of my lovesick heart and mind. Who'd want to get out when you're locked inside an inner world filled with love. Outside, the reality, Love, for most part of my life, is unrequited, unnoticed, and even, unknown. But, what the heck, who would've known that's where I get my inspiration. I live life for the loneliness of it, I find beauty in sadness, I find peace in the absence of light, I begin life with the word goodbye. Ahaha.. I don't really feel like being Goth today. I just love saying those words. They.. Uhh.. I don't know it just gives a certain color in my life and affects my whole being. I dunno. I, myself, don't understand very well so...

BUCK UP!

By the way, I've finished my first ever manga coloring. Yay, it turned out very good, atleast for my own eyes. Haha, I love my work! I also did some Photoshop tweaking with some of my newest pictures which I took the night before the full moon. Haha.. I love it. Currently watching the anime version of Hana Yori Dango and then...

Wala na! Bwahaha! Yun lang, gotta go!