Samhain

Someone is missing...

I am missing someone.

Are you missing someone too?

Is that someone missing me?

Is there anybody missing me?

I was thinking about it the other night, how it all started. It was weird. I remember just staring at that face, thinking that something was weird about it. Yeah, I remember stealing glances without any intent other than finding out what was strange about it. That face would stare back and I would try to avoid it. I remember looking at that face without actually remembering how it looked like back then but I love that face now. Every word, every stare, every action is all making sense now. I just hope I'll be given more chance to be with the person who bears that face, to touch the heart owned by that face, and be loved by that heart. Huwaaah! 'Sensya na, miss ko lang talaga si Kawaii Boy!

It's that time fo the year again. The most depressing time of the year, next to Christmas, for me. All I can think of is death, loneliness, eternity, pain and beauty. Yes, I think it's beautiful. Dark things inspire me, and the gloomy feeling this season is bringing me is so inspiring. It's finally coming back to me. Hopefully,  I can get back at writing dark poetry again, creating dark arts again, making dark music again. Hahaha. This darkness feel so enlightening. Wala lang.

Nice. Midyear Workshop na bukas. Laguna, here I come! Ayos, taga-hugas daw kami ng kinainan, sa'n ka pa? Hahaha. I am hoping that it will be an enjoyable experience. I am currently emotionally disrupted and the last thing I need is a fun moment turning into a disaster. I haven't packed yet, not sure what to bring for tomorrow. I still haven't unpacked the pack I packed for our supposed Batulao climb, umaasa pa rin ako. Hahaha! Dear Chopsueys, maga-outing pa ba tayo? Kamown! Sobrang bitin na ang excitement ko. Awoooh!

Shayne called me through YM just now, hahaha. Wala nangungulit lang.

Everybody hurts sometimes. Everybody needs a hug sometimes. Wala lang ulit. 'Wag na magtanong baka sumakit ang ulo 'pag nagpaliwanag ako. Isipin na lang natin na, as usual, may dahilan kung bakit nangyayari ang lahat. Kamown! Sana lang matanggap ko ang mga dahilan. Para naman sa ibang tao d'yan kahit di n'yo to mababasa, sana mali ako kung iisipin kong kasama ako sa mga bagay na kakalimutan n'yo. Lahat tayo nagbabago, pati ako, pero sana hindi totoo, sana mali ako sa mga iniisip ko, sana nagpapaka-weird lang ako. Hehehe.

Ilang tulog na lang, pasukan na naman. Hindi ko pa rin naayos ang gusot, ang konting lukot. Sana kung hindi talaga ay malaman ko na dahil konti na lang susuko na 'ko... Malapit na... 'Wag naman sana... Bakit naman kasi kung kelan bakasyon ay saka pa nagugulo ang utak ko. Shimatta... t** talaga!!!

Bigger. Brighter. Better.. Are my hopes for the future. Next sem, a new start, new things to look forward to. Ewan! Bahala na. Hehehe.. Wala na akong maisip...