Erinnerungen in einem Blitz ::

First of all, if you don't think my new layout is cute, navigate away from this page now, lock yourself up in your room and go kill yourself. Hahaha.

I was going to write about my newly-found third best speaker, Roy Alvarez, next to Romi Garduce and Lourd De Veyra but I can't get myself to write anything decent or proper. I am usually talkative in writing my blogs both in English of Filipino but today... I can't get myself to think straight again. I'm not dysphoric, distressed or anything. I just can't write anything, but look at that, I have already written something. Hahaha.

So, I attended the LS Launch last week, which was by the way a success, and I didn't really mind having to miss class. It was worth it. Also had our physical training. Ahaha. Unbelievably, Codename: Zaido Gold thinks I've improved. Hahaha. It's about time, isn't it? Also, most people think I've lost weight during semestral break. Hahaha. Hopefully, I get to finish that 20-lap diagnostic run within alotted time. We're climbing Mt. Cristobal, yeah, yeah, yeah! I'm so looking forward to doing that steep trekking, eating lunch on the trail, cooking and eating outdoor gourmet again [We're having crispy kangkong!], seeing the view on top the mountain, highspeed descent, and then sidetripping [he-hey! saan tayo, mga mehn?]. Woooh! I hope nobody rolls this time. Hehehe. Everybody thinks our Pico de Loro climb is the worst climb. I'm having KFC Hotshots for packed lunch. Hahaha. Sugoi! I haven't packed yet, I wish I can pack lightly this time, though quite impossible since I'm bringing six liters of water, plus my other outdoor essentials. Hahaha, goodluck. Cristobal, w8 lng u, der na us. Hahaha.

As of the moment, things are going on fine with my back subjects. I can feel it, I'll pass it this time though I still haven't fixed that little "bug" with a certain stupid, gay-ass teacher. I'll get you, just you wait. Bwahaha!

Yay, I dyed my hair. And it's been three years since I last had my dye. Woooh! I love it. Hahaha. Wala lang.

Open up, Dig way down deep. I think I do that digging deep part very well but been missing out on that opening up part. Sorry, as much as I wanted to try and trust other people with my true feelings, I can't. I was not taught to show my feelings, no matter how sincere they are, or maybe I am, but I never learned. I missed out on a lot of chances because of that. I mean, think of having the person you like/love so much infront of you, assumably vulnerable ready for the taking, needing your gentle touch, wanting your care and attention, all you had to do is move. I just can't. So many opportunities came and went. I still couldn't do it. I can't get my arms to move to give out that big, warm hug, I can get my lips to say those loving words, my minds does all the doing without anything actually happening. Everything happens in my head. I write want I want to do, I write want I want to say without really addressing anything to anyone. I was born and raised that way, and it's something I am so not willing to change and it's better that way 'cause it keeps me safe from rejection, and objection, and scrutiny due to "wrong" behavior and wrong grammar. Weird, neh? Hahaha.

Why do I feel like being caught in the crossfire? There's war between two worlds and here I am standing in a place between those two worlds? Oh, no.. Please don't let them shoot me! Hehehe. Hoy, ayusin niyo mga buhay n'yo! *mutters in robotspeak: escape. must escape. retreeeeaat!* Lolerz. Hahaha.

Bords, I got a lot of activities scheduled for November and December. Hahaha. Ayos. Not sure though if I can attend every, single one of them. Goodluck ulit.

This just in, baka daw sa Mt. Pulag ang Induction Climb. Kamown! I looked up itineraries over the net, and man! Pulag is so expensive to climb. And being up North in the Cordillera Mountain Range, makes it cold, verrry cold. I'm a tropical person and I easily freeze in the cold Christmas breeze, what more up the mountains? I remember how chilled I was back at Manabu and Pico de Loro. It's gripping cold up there, my jaws are shaking, my teeth are gnashing. Paano naman ako no'n? Hahaha. Goodluck ever.

Aww, Batulao! Hehehe, hopefully, we can finally push through with this one. Can't wait to finally scale Mt. Batulao. Sayang lang, if ever, maraming hindi na makakasama. Nakakalungkot. I think it would be more fun if the whole team could go. Miss you, guys! I hope to climb with you again.

I really think I'm forgetting something, just not sure what. If you know, please remind me, people. Hehehe

Oh, there! I'm planning to design a site. Hehehe. Wala lang. Not sur eyet since it's only a plan. I'll try to pencil it in to my busy schedule. I've already looked up simple but stunning web designs and hopefully I can use them as model. And now that we're being taught Flash, I can make it equally stunning as those others that I have seen. Hehehe. Goodluck na naman.

You've had your time, let me have mine. Goodnight, everyone.

November 28, Born to be Wild. GMA's newest show. Finally, a wildlife show. Aww, I won't be missing NGC that badly anymore. Banzai!!!

wag kang bibitiw bigla, magsabi ka muna!