Why does everything have to be struggle? All the time it's the same thing, it's a fight or flight situation for me. I seem to be intentionally disappointing my self. What I dreamt of to be perfect ends up to be such mess. My self-esteem is evaporating and I'm drying up. I'm running out of restraints and patience, losing my calm, I feel like bursting out in fury. I need to rejuvinate somehow. Somehow...
Someone just plucked my last nerve yesterday. Sayang, I almost hit him but he caught my arm and someone passed behind him. One more word from him and I'll make sure I break his nose. I've kept my rage long enough. Just one more offensive joke, wherever we are, whoever you're with, you will get hurt. But worry not, I'll send myself to the University Discipline Office afterwards if you wish it, as long as I get my revenge. It'll be worth dirtying up my record. If he only knows that I've already murdered him inside my head. I imagined myself beating him up, battering him to death. He laid bleeding, and his existence is at my mercy. Hahaha!
This is evil but I'm just being true. I'm angry and I will tell it as I feel it.
wilbert? lolz... wag ka na mag alala... nabatukan na sya nung tropa ni marlon tapos pag harap nya dun binatukan ko din sya... heehhe... magkasunod na wapak yun sa batok nya... at tinawana na sya ng todo nila... ;)
ReplyDeletegrabe, nanggagalaiti pa rin ako hanggang ngayon...
ReplyDeleteito naman... nagbibiro lang yun... wag mo ng dibdibin
ReplyDeleteayoko ng ganung biro eh, nababastos ako at napapahiya ako. di ako natutuwa saka dati pa ko napipikon dun. nagpipigil lang ako ng galit. makapagbiro lang, di na nag-iisip...
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