Sturm und Drang

I feel homesick. Sick of home? Hahaha. I am in a building called a house but this is not my home, not when I have no peace here. My diwa is somewhere else, far from here. I've been bound here all my life. It took me years to set my spirit, that so long haunted this place, free. Now that I have known what adventure tastes like, I am so itching to travel and taste, drink, breathe and live adventure again but "factors" are holding me in, holding me back. I will shun them away from my life, given the choice but I can't. They always hold me by the neck, like a leashed dog tied on a post. I can walk away a few meters but can never really get away. If I could only find the key and completely free myself and break these chains, I'd be out exploring the world by now.

Why do I always look for you? Why do I always go to places where I feel you'd be but you were never there? Has distance and time taken you away from my life forever? Is it time to let my high hopes of seeing you again go? I'll let the part of my heart where I keep you sleep for now. I'll write my memories of you in a note and keep it away. Maybe I can live without that part you took with you for a while. Until you come back, that part of me will lay to sleep...

The bitterness, the intensity, the upheaval is finally subsiding. I'm calming down.  Konti na lang. Hahaha.

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Waaah~ Bukas na ang Ocean Park sa Manila! Samahan nyo ko, punta tayo! Kamown. Now na. Astig talaga si Garduch-sama. Awww, you're so cool! Idol. Punta tayo dali! Sa TV ko lang napapanood yung mga aquatic animals na yun eh. Awww, Graduch-sama, bakit di mo ako sinama? ASA. Hehehe. Lalo tuloy akong nasasabik na explore-in ang mundo ni Mother... Nature. Hehehe.

Kung totoo lang sana ang mga genie, kung totoo lang sana ang Illusionism, kung totoo lang sana ang magic... I'm finally growing old and up. Nawawala na ang hiwaga sa mundo ko. Pati yung imaginary world at story na gusto kong isulat at i-drawing, nasasapawan na. Clouded by what I know, feel and experience now. Ang magical childhood ko nagmimistulang fairytale book na lang na naisasantabi. TAE.

Onga pala, Mr. Endless, and cute mo today kahit na... Naku, wag na nga!