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I haven't seen him almost 2 years and now I'm obsessing. I saved all of the picture of him that I got from his Friendster and from ex-girlfriend's on my pc. What can I do, he's so dreamy, cute's and he's singkit. I have more reason now to go to SM more often which reminds me... I'll be going there to buy my stuff for this school year, too bad lang he stopped schooling na definitely because of that witch he used to love. Heck! Okay lang, tropa naman kami and I can never be more delighted by just staring at him. Ewan, but he's so lovable when I saw him yesterday, ang sarap nyang titigan. I don't intend to go beyong boundaries anyway. I learned to adopt to how the love cycle by just satisfying my eyes with eyecandies, I don't wish to really keep them for myself except for Cogie pero there's nothing wrong with dreaming on 'di ba, malay mo, malay ko, sinong may malay? Hahaha... Buti na lang talaga things didn't go as planned. I was supposed to lead my cousins in a mall pilgrimage but luckily I didn't... Long story, basta!



Bryan's coming home this August and told me to come since I was the only one who didn't come last year. Well, nobody told me but it's my fault 'cause I let someone steal my phone. I'm definitely coming. The band broke up because I got tired, I quitted and... Basta! I'm sure that was one of the reasons. No idea but I miss them more than I miss my other band. Maybe because I still see those from my other band in school but still... I prefer the music I make with ViS than ES, I think I established tighter bonds with ViS [esp. Bryan 'cause we share an almost same level of frame of mind though he can be a little twisted] than with ES though I've known them longer. I quitted ViS because got tired of having to go to Dasmarinas every weekend and even after school to practice, my time with them are the darkest days of my college life because I was failing my Math and ComProg, I was having problems with my personal life while I quitted ES because I had to do most of the work that has anything to do with requirements, I was getting tired of the band in general, I got tired of having to wait, I felt like becoming the underdog [which I didn't really feel with ViS]. Don't get me wrong 'cause I enjoy the company of all the people from both bands but they're still different. I can't help but compare 'cause I miss ViS so much. We only had one gig but they're still the best band I ever had and will ever have. This is the 2nd time I quitted ES but this time it's for real. I tend to loathe poeple when they get too close or when I see them more often than I wish to. Sorry, I'm just a female human species trying t express how I feel. Closeness can be the greatest allergen that'll ever hit me. I'm so sorry... As much as I wanted to write more of the comparisons and differences, it just woldn't be fair. I can be a little bias but I love them all! Mwah!



I feel good. Nothing in the world worries me and it had been this way ever since summer classes ended. My spirits are high. I have learned to accept facts and theories that I would usually brood on. I'm not getting any younger and it's about time to grow up. Things just aren't the way they are when I last saw them and all I can do is look on and look up and hope for the best. I don't wanna and just can't say goodbye but I'd definitely love to see everything I used to love and own somewhere down the path where I left them when I get to set foot on the same road again. I hear loudly what my heart cries out for but I know I have to fight against it. It can and surely will wait if they know they are for me. There are just so much that I want today that I will not let myself miss out on them and with that some things will have to be put aside even if they have the same value to me than those I chose to take first.



Seeing yesterday's PI Fast Track Auditions, I'd say RnB has become the standard of singing like an Idol. Darn it! I don't like RnB that much, and if I knew earlier, I would have tried a song of that same genre and could've had a better chance btu anyway it's just a short cut audition, the main audition is still on June 3 and this is only the first Philippine Idol and I can still try until I'm 28. It's more prestigious than Pinoy Pop Superstar but auditioning for PPS is more difficult, not sure if I'd want to try it again [but I still can 'cause I'm not yet 22].



Finally, I uploaded something on my Deviant Art!