It may be a bourgeois idealism, but without money I am immobile. I can't blame myself for being born a middle class citizen but I definitely won't let myself die a middle class. I plan to live a higher level of life. It may take some time, even years, but I'll be working on it. I'm too ambitious, self-righteous, self-efficient and plain selfish to stay where I am. And I do get tired of things easily and I crave for constant change, badly. Love moves in mysterious way? Yeah right, but so does money. In short, wala akong pera. Heck! This reminds me of the days before I had the money to buy my BSB concert tickets. The need isn't actually that bad but I'm just a bit stressing about how I can't have the things I want when I want it or as soon as I can. Heck talaga!
Perhaps they think I'm being autistic but I just don't wanna grow up and grow old. I'm nto intellectually impaired, just so attached with my inner child and makes me feel so left out. My cousins for example, even the younger ones are busy about grown up things. This child needs children for playmates and not young fashion zombies obsessed with meeting people, getting a lovelife. Seems like, the things they care for do not bother me a wee bit. Must be that our real life situations are very different but why the drift?
I won't be getting earrings this time of the year but I'd still be pushing through with the henna tattooing. If I get to Lucena on time, I'll be having it with Boris. I'm not really sure when the fiesta is and some issues will cause some probable delay that I do not actually need because I'm in it for vacation and I don't think I can use any of it. The one of my reasons I want to go there is to see someone I won't be seeing for a long time or maybe ever again. I just wanna say goodbye, though we'd still be texting but I don't think, with the way my life is going, that I'll be going that road anytime soon after today. Bahala na!
I did this survey from BlogThings.com out of boredom and I think the results are kind of cool.
| Your Linguistic Profile:: |
| 50% General American English |
| 30% Yankee |
| 10% Upper Midwestern |
| 5% Dixie |
| 0% Midwestern |
BJ and Tyler won Amazing Race 9. Romy Garduce and the 1st Philippine Everest Team made it to the summit and is going down now. I wanted to join DLSU-D's Mountaineering Society when I was still a freshman, and even now but I don't have equipments and I'm too lazy, but it's on my to-do list that I want to accomplish before I die. Jewel in the Palace is in its last 3 weeks. No movies for me, for now. The movies I'll be missing will be added to my collection when they get released on video and I go o shop for VCD but that won't be anytime soon, and I know that. Shark tale premieres in HBO this May 28 but I'm afraid I won't be seeing it 'cause I expect to already be in Lucena by that time. I'm building this theory that some of the people I know, whose names will not be mentioned in this post due to insignificance, are simply LIARS. Hahaha... It's not confirmed yet but through patient observation and constant paranoia, I therefore conclude that they are. Hahaha, again.
@Boris : Di ko yun dream boy. Nagpapaka-obsessed lang ako sa cuteness nya kasi ang tagal naming di nakita. Bassist namin yun dati. Nga pala, see you sa fiesta! Kelan ba makukuha ang yearbook? Yung Philippine Idol eh franchise ng American Idol na isa sa magagandang paraan para ilagay ang sarili sa kahihiyan. Sana walang makakilala sa 'kin pag punta ko ng SM, pero enjoy, susubok pa ko ulit hanggang di pa ako 28! Hehehe...
@Renan : Bakit mo naman naisipang lumipat sa I.ph, anong meron?
I can't believe I'll be wearing plus size from now on. It isn't actually that big 'cause it's Filipino size and the standard is only that of CD Jeans but 2XL is still plus size. And because I have to get a new pair of uniform to fit me for this school year and the budget's a bit short, I won't be buying a new bag. I'm blaming the same people for all these. They are so far away but their problem is affecting my way of living. They do not understand that I live for backpacks, I love 'em, I gotta have 'em and I'm so looking forward to buying a knapsack. I hate how money and my relatives have to ruin my plans, my obsession, my happiness. This feels exactly just like last Christmas. I'm not asking for too much, just a good house for my school supplies that feels like one obedient monkey hanging on my back. I sound pathetic but this means so much to me and nobody cares. Ha-ha from me, for me... *sigh*
I can accept how things don't always go my way but it doesn't really have to happen this often and why on the simplest of things that I want. BUWISET!
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