Now, I'm having second thoughts.
My stomach is churning in revolt and my head is spinning in slight lightheadedness. Here I am, stuck in the middle of indecisiveness whether to fight through or to fly away and escape [read: quit]. My brainwaves are currently in distress. I've always wanted this, I'm at the last leg, or at least I was when I last checked. I have been complaining how slow time moves now it's moving in a rate that I have no control of. My heart is pounding as if it'll tear its way out of my chest and I am lost in doubt. I've never been so unsure about something I wanted so bad esp. when I've tried so hard and gone as far as I have to to reach the "prize".
I'm only a few steps, a few days and a few bucks away.
The excitement has been keeping me up all night the past few nights. Now, the uncertainty will keep me up tonight and I have a lecture to attend to tomorrow. Land Navigation with Leave No Trace... Maybe I could go somewhere and get lost and just disappear with no trace. Ropemanship... Knot-tying... Maybe I could just hang myself and rid myself of my worries. Hahaha.. So emo!
I tried to sleep but the clock is stuck on thoughts of you and me.
Yes, I still am stuck in thoughts of YOU. But I won't be discussing it here. Wait for my next post. Hehehe, Ciao!
My stomach is churning in revolt and my head is spinning in slight lightheadedness. Here I am, stuck in the middle of indecisiveness whether to fight through or to fly away and escape [read: quit]. My brainwaves are currently in distress. I've always wanted this, I'm at the last leg, or at least I was when I last checked. I have been complaining how slow time moves now it's moving in a rate that I have no control of. My heart is pounding as if it'll tear its way out of my chest and I am lost in doubt. I've never been so unsure about something I wanted so bad esp. when I've tried so hard and gone as far as I have to to reach the "prize".
I'm only a few steps, a few days and a few bucks away.
The excitement has been keeping me up all night the past few nights. Now, the uncertainty will keep me up tonight and I have a lecture to attend to tomorrow. Land Navigation with Leave No Trace... Maybe I could go somewhere and get lost and just disappear with no trace. Ropemanship... Knot-tying... Maybe I could just hang myself and rid myself of my worries. Hahaha.. So emo!
I tried to sleep but the clock is stuck on thoughts of you and me.
Yes, I still am stuck in thoughts of YOU. But I won't be discussing it here. Wait for my next post. Hehehe, Ciao!
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