Fallen and Forgotten

I have so much to write but you won't be reading them tonight. There's something I need to do after this post so I'd be writing it some other day. So I'll try my best to share what I could and...

Yeah, let's get on with it.

My gradeschool friends had a reunion some time last week and... they forgot to invite me? Wuddaheck! I'm a so easy to forget? I wouldn't even have known they had it if I didn't see Elaine, when I had lunch with my friend Marj at the Square canteen. My, oh, my... Nakakalungkot naman! Hahahaha NOT! It's not really a big deal since I haven't seen them for years. Like, I last saw them when we went out some two or three years ago. I have the cellphone numbers of some of them but I don't really text them, not even to say hello. I have this attitude of forgetting the people who have forgotten me and I also tend to cut myself off from the world and my friendships when life gets the best of me. I don't really take it against them that they forgot me. Who knows, maybe they had it when I was in Baguio or during the enrolment, and I am having summer classes right now. I can always meet them when time allows it and I don't really miss them. I have the people I love with me right now: Genshi-ningens, DMS, my Chopsuey EMOs... Though, it would be interesting to see them now, after so many years esp. my first love whom, I think, didn't even have the slightest idea that I loved him once. Hehehehe.

I am having ideas again. I think I want to try out for Survivor Philippines. Well, I'm not alone. My brother thinks we want to join too. I survived Pulag, how can I not survive Survivor. The auditions are still in May and I have lots of time to think. Hehehe. Don't I always say that when I have to decide on something? See, this might be that big break I'm waiting for, and imagine me surviving that 39 days, I'll be coming home looking totally different. Hahahaha Just imagine.

I am enjoying the company of my new friends. I'm having lots of fun. Every second spent with them is a happy memory. I feel younger when I am with them, well, not that I am OLD but everybody else/most of them are younger. I want to believe that it's the reason why I'm still here. I am here to meet these wonderful people, I am here to experience what we have together. I have never been so happy. I wish I can always be with these people, do the things that brought us together, keep doing it for the years to come. Waaah~ I LOVE DMS! I LOVE Team Chopsuey! I LOVE La Salle!

Somehow, I think I'm winning. The thing that troubled me for a few weeks now is finally, how do I say this... Uhm, it's fading away, it's melting away, it's dying out. Hahahaha. It is yet to be confirmed but I think I'll be staying one more semester! Hahahaha. Who cares if everybody else have graduated? I am alive so I can live life on my own pace, the way I want it  lived and not to like everybody else. Hehehehe. It's selfish, it's childish but see I DON'T CARE. Hahahaha. I've fallen but I will rise in my own time. Rush and force doesn't do it for me. Oh, well...

Yearend workshop this week. Oh, yeah! I haven't visited the office yet because this week have been a busy one since it's the first week of summer classes. But I will this week because there's something I have to pass. I wrote something for the Literary section, hopefully it gets published. And I was supposed to work with them for the Palad layouting but well... ^___^.v.

I always say that it's time to move but all I ever do is find leverage without actually taking the leap. I don't get anything done but I do have plans. Lots of them actually. I have to force myself to start something and it will all just pour out once I get it going. Huwaaah~ I need to get myself working on the things I have to work on, and fast! Well, I will start on them tonight. I don't want to be that person who says he/she is good at something but have never really done anything like that of what he/she said he/she's good at. Alright, I need your support to do this. 

Kamown. Cheer for me, people!

I'm planning to cosplay Lightning from Final Fantasy versus 13 but we're having a beach trip. Now, what do I do? I have to save money for one of them or hopefully both of them. Awwness...

My, my... Been coughing for days and nights. Aww, man... I'm having a hard time sleeping because I wake up whenever I cough. Kawawa naman ako. Pa-HEAL naman jan! Hehehehe.

I have something on my mind and my thoughts are only of it. It's muddling me but it reminds me that I'm alive. It had my hypothalamus working again. It makes me happy and sad at the same time. As much as I want to write more about this... Bibitinin muna kita lalo na si... alam ko kasing babasahin n'ya to. Hahahaha.

Ito na lang muna, hanggang sa muli...

Nagsisimula na naman ang pagka-torta ng utak ko dahil na naman sa Physics. Sana last na 'to... TANGINA, TAPUSIN NA NATIN TO!!!