Saturday, July 7, 2007

Ephemeral Equanimity

July 7, 2007, 777. They say this day brings some kind of luck. What kind of luck is there for me today? I know not.





My mind misgives some consequence yet hanging in the stars. So Shakespeare. I have not yet recovered from last night's euphoria and emotional rampancy. It's raining and I'm drenched.  I am restless. I move about the silent chaos that stirs from within my soul. My heart hangs by a thread. I thought I've forgotten but this feeling is so familiar, I cannot suppress. I am waiting for something to fall from the heavens for my fate is in the stars. 

My point is? NAGSESELOS AKO and I can't help it. Sh*t! I've been dealing with it playfully but I do not know how much longer I can hold it off. My emotion is as volatile as a computer's Random Access Memory. My feelings are so unstable. Blah-blah. Whatever.

Are you staying stuck in the past because you're afraid of what might come next?
Don't. A great opportunity awaits you, but you have to be the one to make the first move.
The universe will rise to meet you.
 

Some powerful feelings can't be ignored.
Just keep in mind that your emotions are part of a bigger picture...

Never mind. They are just random readings that I get everyday. It is so like me to believe what these things say. They make more sense than thoughts and feeling I'm trying to understand and look some sense from. All right, I know. I'm doing it again. Retreating into myself. You should be able to tell that my favorite expression is, "I feel...". You could read back every single post I've made. Well, I'm just that. I'm more attached to my feelings than I'll ever be attached to anything else. Hehehe.. Wala na 'kong maisip.

Wawa. Dran-kun got sick yesterday. He really wanted to come and join the party but his cousin said he caught flu. Get well soon, Dran! By the way, I've uploaded the videos to my  Sharkle account. It's hard to watch it here in Multiply because Quicktime is needed. So if you're interested to see them, just check the links below:
Pointes 'n' Flexes @ Freshmania : http://sharkle.com/video/132272/
Manequin - Anak [Cover] @ Freshmania : http://sharkle.com/video/132274/
My Birthday Song : http://sharkle.com/video/132270/
Slicing my Birthday Cake : http://sharkle.com/video/132271/

And then... Wala na talaga akong maisip. Good night na lang, everyone.




 ~ ima suguaitaiyo ~
               
               
               


15 comments:

  1. if I may add, it feels like something is wrong. really wrong but I dunno what. i hope you can tell me. Onegaishimasu!

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  2. feels like Honey and Clover all over again huh?

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  3. I wish it's just that. You have no idea but there's something more to it than just feeling sentimental over Honey and Clover. Lots more..

    you have no idea...

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  4. Honey and Clover is not just sentimental, I actually learned a lot from it (especially when you pay attention to every detail).

    It's frustrating when the last few years of my life is full of cliches (and some pretty lame ones).

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  5. I know. But it seem to have plucked every single string in my heart.

    "Any great truth can - and eventually will - be expressed as a cliche - a cliche is a sure and certain way to dilute an idea..." - Solomon Short

    I think cliches are made so that people wouldn't have to think so hard since things will already be obvious but what about your life being lame and cliche?

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  6. Want to learn a lot more? Better start watching season 2, ehehehe...

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  7. well, they keep popping all over the place and I'm stupid enough to fall for them. I'm just a little frustrated that I thought it would relieve me a little by saying it or writing it down.

    I'm being careful not to let my impulses have the last say so I guess I'm ok.

    And I'm 5 episodes into the season. ^_^

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  8. I hope you were relieved. ;-P

    Btw, how were you last Friday? You said you were agitated and didn't look so fine when you left.

    Season 2 is a tearjerker. Trust me.

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  9. I'm just agitated when in fear of getting scolded again upon getting home, wishing that I could stay in somebody else's house so I won't have to be worried hehehehe

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  10. You weren't scolded were you? Hehehe

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  11. they just complained about not having to know where I was at the time. ^_^ (lowbat kasi ako eh hehehe)

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  12. I bring it every day, it's just I forgot to untangle it from the end of my bed hehehehehe

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  13. You plug the charger not tangle it.. Bwahahaha

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  14. I know what a charger is, hahahaha
    I was just too lazy to put it into the proper place at the time, hahaha

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