Yuushin ::: Dashing Forward Bravely

Finally met Romi Garduce, got his autograph, got a photo with him. He was the only one there and not the whole Everest team. They fetched him during his lunch break. Thanks to Andrew, a HF Photo Staff, I have a hi-res photo with him and of him and I'll post it as soon as I get to copy it when he uploads it. I have a few here in my phone with which you'll have to settle for now. But wait, that's not all!!! Ahaha! Didn't I say today's gonna be a happy day? Of course, it's been. I never thought it would ever be possible but it was. I did it, it's the first time but I bet this won't be the last. Ahoho! I asked Shiawase-niichan if I could take his picture and he said yes and even smiled and joke about asking him his autograph. Hehe, why not?! Ahahaha! Again, thanks to Andrew for lending me his camera! Aiyeee! Happiness! Nanka shiawase! Matamata!

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Well, oh, well.. The news about my friend's sickness was exaggerated. Thank heavens! He just had a check up and found out that he had fats covering his heart that makes him tired easily and sometimes giving him hard time breathing. He was adviced to jog and exercise and go dieting, and he's not allowed to drink alcohol anymore. Haha. Wawang lasenggero! I was glad when I saw that he was well, I even joked about him being still alive. Haha. Well, that's how we are. Haha, laughtrip. It's been a while since I last went to hangout with my BCS friends, most of them are former BCS' now. We were together this afternoon and we went home together. My friend gave us a lift home, and I had a fine nap inside the car, thanks to the flow of traffic. I started my day being sleepy. I was thinking too much last night I didn't get to sleep much. My friends thought I was just sad when I came to school. Maybe I didn't look too fine but it's really nothing. I was just sleepy, REALLY sleepy. I'm almost done with reading my Phantom of the Opera. after then, I can finally start digging for another book to read in the school library. Man, I haven't been in the school library for a while. The last time I was there was... Well, I can't remember. Doesn't matter. I'll be back there anyway.

I've decided, I can never be as sure as I am now. Todo na, paninindigan ko na 'to. I'm gonna be a climber, a trekker, an outdoor person. Save up, save up. Work out, work out. Oh, yeah! It's just like what Garduch-sama said this afternoon... Well... I forgot what he exactly said but I'm going to give Mountaineering a GO [I'm a fighting dreamer]. Kung ka-career-in ko or not, well.. We'll see when I get there. It's about time anyway. I've been a homebody since birth and the world ahead, outside, is calling for me. I wanted to go to faraway places but I've never really done any traveling. Everything I heard from Garduch-sama gave me push on pursuing my exploration of unchartered territory and satisfy my wanderlust. I just one itsy-bit of problem, time management [And, oh, My finances. Hehe..]. I hardly manage to juggle my time between Genshiken and HF, now there'll be DMS. Aiyeeeh! I want them, I love them all or else I wouldn't waste my time and energy trying to be there, doing what I am supposed and asked to do.  I just hope hey won't make me choose. I know what I will choose, having to make a choice, I will stick with it. I am for Happiness. I believe happiness is for me. What do people really want? What do I want? I want what all people wants, to be happy and have happiness. Ahihi... Sa'n ka pa? Adik kay.. Si... Ahh... Waah.. Si..! Ahaha! Sabi nga ng friend ko kanina, "College has been the best five years of my life [Pareho kaming overstaying na sa college, malapit nang ma-deport. Hehe]", Sasabihin  ko naman sa inyo ngayon, "Having meet him *ehem* and you my friends have made my 5-year college overstay has been worth all the stay"... ECHOS!!! Five years... Uhm.. I'm reminded of that Sugar Hiccup song about someone having been waited for five years but never came back. How sad! But, hey, it's got nothing to do with how I'm feeling right now. I just thought of the five years I've been in studying. What if I'd have to stay another year. There are lots of reason to stay but it's not like my schooling will be paid for by those who's been paying for it for me since I started. What if I still want to stay? What if I meant to stay for another year? Or more than a year? What if I start working part time next sem? Or what if I start now? Hmm.. Makes me think.. If I don't graduate on March 2008, I will not get the title of IT Pioneer of DLSU-D. But who cares about titles? I mean, my other friends/people I know have been in school more than half a decade and they're enjoying their college life. What if I also want that kind life? Hakuna Matata. Some of them work for themselves, I can do that too. I can make another resolve like when I applied for HF, only this time it's about staying. Even if I don't make it to March 2008, I'll keep fighting. If they won't pay for me anymore, I will pay for myself. I will live my life to the fullest extent, like I always do. I will take every opportunity that comes my way and I will make the best of it. But if I do make it, I will never stop in my pursuit of pure happiness, satisfaction, comfort, full life and love. This is my resolve. O, 'di ba SOLVE?! Hehe..

I refuse to think about it but it feels like I'm losing this particular place in people's lives that I always thought would always be mine. I dunno. I'm not letting it get me since most of my anxiety starts in my head. I think too much. It's in the hypothalamus, I know but.. Well, I'm not in the mood for feeling left out and out-of-place because I'm too happy to feels sad right now. This is a happy day. These will be my happy days. I'm happy and I hope this idea won't get in the way of my being happy. Ureshii wa!!!

I forgot, madami nang nagrereklamo sa liit ng font ko. 'Sensya na. 'Di bale 'pag nagpalit na ko ng template. Hehe.. Ja!

The space for *fill-in-the-blank* will be empty for now. I will keep my feelings in a shoe box and bury it underground for the moment. If he realizes that what's inside that box is meant for him and digs it up for himself and I will very happy. But if he doesn't, I guess I will have to be happy for him.

I'll be gone for two days, Retreat mode. Would I come back reformed? Nyaaah! I doubt. Haha. See you all next week!

I want to see where the sirens sing
Hear how the wolves howl
Sail the dead calm waters of the Pacific

Dance in the fields of coral
Be blinded by the white
Discover the deepest jungle

I want to find The Secret Path
A bird delivered into my heart, so

It's not the end
Not the kingdom come
It is the journey that matters, the distant wanderer
Call of the wild
In me forever and ever and ever forever
Wanderlust

I want to love by the Blue Lagoon
Kiss under the waning moon
Straying, claiming my place in this mortal coil

Riding the dolphins
Asking the mountains
Dreaming Alaska
The Earth can have but Earth

Look into my eyes and see the wanderer
See the mirrors of a wolf behold the pathfinder
[[wanderlust.nightwish]]