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A good day to lose your lust for life; You live but merely exist.

It wasn't just grains of sand that I was letting slip but something bigger. I had the choice but I'll let it pass. I may never get the chance again but, maybe, I'll just think of it as something that wasn't meant for me. See, they called me again. This time, I did not answer the phone intentionally. Never even attempted to try and attend the appointment set for me. I was thinking of calling back but thinking of the right words to say is giving me headaches. Today is just like one of those days when I suddenly crave for something and then lose the appetite for it so suddenly too. Imagine how I survive with this unstable state of mind. My moods change with phases of the moon, affecting my focus and enthusiasm. How rational. You just find the drive to strive one day and lose it the other. You find this set of circumstances where you can grow, you seek approval without having to ask, get very little to none of it, ... Blah-blah. It's like fighting against the very thing you cry out for. Loving something without giving you heart. Parang ganun. Ewan.

I could use some divine intervention. Well, not that I don't believe that everyday's a miracle but, see, the force is just not with me today. I dunno where they are. Like, the light that followed me around, lately nowhere to be found. Weird.

We had plans for today but, as usual, some plans fail. At least these are the plans you can always reschedule and do again some other day. Wala. Nakakatamad ang araw na ito. Walang buhay. Walang sigla. Parang not enough vitamins.

Well, I have nothing much to write again today. Just thought I'd finish this post. I'm meeting some people to pass the work I've done today and go somehere right after. I'm a bit panicky actually. So much to do at the same time, too many people to meet after the other and their needs to attend to, I'm so late for my endeavors. Tinatawagan na nila ako sa cellphone. Tapusin na natin to. Hahaha

I guess I'd go now.