Supah summah

I know what I said. I haven't forgotten. But they're just words. I still hear a loud throbbing inside my chest after all the decisions, the resolutions I've made. No more entertaining thoughts of him, no more pheromone sniffing. I can't have myself getting hurt everytime the truth strikes me. I can't let this sickness continue eating me from the inside but it's just like letting go of something you never got hold of, and how is that ever possible? He's under my skin but how do I get him off? It's wrong, I know. I know. I just don't know what to do about it. Heaven, please don't let me see him again. Not, no more. PLEASE.

Dear Diary, I have to kill him inside my head. How do I? Do I stab him? Do I beat the hell out of him? Or should I just forget the whole idea, let it go and let the feeling kill itself? I hope we can keep a comfortable distance. Or better if he permanently keeps away. This is a lot more difficult than having to apologize for something you did on purpose. Fotcha. Si Shiawase kasi eh... Si Kawaii Boy kasi eh... Sana kayo na lang ulit ang pino-problema ko para mas masaya... Waaahuhu~

*five second breather ~ breathe breathe breathe* 

Okay, four more days. Still haven't packed, still haven't bought anything. Can't decide what to bring yet and how to pack them. That good vibe still ain't flowing yet, still not feeling it. Dunno why. Seems like something's not right, or maybe something's missing. Ewan. Maybe it's just me. I'm sure I'll be feeling it soon. Till then...

Nakita nyo na ba yung summer ID ng GMA7? Awww, bakit wala dun si Garduch-sama?

Cool ng bagong movie ni Jackie Chan, kasama si Jet Li. Yay! I'll definitely go see that movie when it comes in theathres. At andun pa si Dada [Crystal Liu] ng Condor Heroes. Astig talaga. Movie trips na naman ako nito. Yeah!

Yup, I said it's time to move but I'm still on standby, hybernate mode. Ideas, and inspiration come popping inside my head but can't find my hands to move and write them down. Blah! I'm am such a lazy ass. My, my...

Tama, mali sila. Japanese ang may gawa ng Hanazari no Kimitachi e/ Hana Kimi kaya't panong naging orginal ang Taiwanese version? Nauna lang sila gumawa ng series pero ang Japanese version pa rin, kahit anung gawin nila ang original. Go JAPAN! Yeah!

Kakalimutan na kita, iiwasan, lalayuan kung kinakailangan. Wag ka na rin lalapit sa akin. Pinahihirapan ako ng presensya mo. Mas mabuti na ito. Just so you know, you're making sick to my stomach, causing a pain in my heart. Fotcha.

Orayt. Summer trips on my list. Ayos. Ayos. Kailangan ko lang mag-ipon. Ipon. Ipon. Waaah~

Ano na?! Tinatamad na ako...