Preoccupation

I have been mindlessly gnawing on whatever I can get my hands on from the dining table or the fridge or even the store today. Wala. I just feel like eating and I'm not even hungry. Haha fixation.

Loving Nag-Iisa, Wala ka na, a song off Noel Cabangon's new album, Himig Nating Pag-Ibig. Been learning it since last night, and somehow, I'm getting the hang of it. And I will take a video of myself singing that song one of these days. Hehehe Levy's Lullaby #4. Yosh.

I need to buy new videos for my collection. Ugh, I've been watching my older movies; It's still good but I wanna see something new. I mean, I wanna buy those movies I loved watching before. I just need to wait till summer school starts and I can save money to buy them with. Sugoi.

I've decided, I'm finally selling my phone so I have money for our major climb and I'll be saving up this summer so, hopefully, I can buy a new one, a brand-new one. Hopefully. *sigh* I already got my first thousand bucks and I'm still another thousand and a few hundred bucks short. Hahahaha. Buh-bye, Vlad... Eight more days... Sana may sumobra para makabili ng souvenir at konting pasalubong. Bahala na. Oh, and I'll be writing about my climb and contributing it for HF 5's Literary section. Hehehe creative non fiction naman eh, kaya aantigin na lang natin sila sa ganda ng Pulag. Maaakyat din nila ang Pulag sa pamamagitan ng pagbasa ng kwneto paglalakbay na isasalaysay ng aking panulat. Ayos.

Joanne is organizing a vacation climb slash photoshoot. Yay! I told her I'm in and she made me Scribe. Hahaha. I'm so excited. Climb then beachineering. Sosyal ang summer ko. Good thing, I'm having summer classes and I'll be having the money I need in time for the trip since it's still at the end of the May. Hindi naman tatamaan ang Mangaholix. Buti kasi I'm planning to finally have my cosplay debut. I'm planning to do Ilya. Pag di ako nakapag-cosplay nito baka di na ko mag-attempt na mag-cosplay pa ng iba. Hehehe I'll be ready with my own props then, not the tent though. Now who wants to go with me and carry the tent? Hehehe. We'll be on vacation for 3 to 4 days but details are tentative. So, just let me know and I'll keep you posted. *wink*

I'm starting to think. Not that I never learned to think before but, I mean, see, it's my "last" semester this summer in school and before the second semester ended, I already had plans. But now, I'm having seconds thoughts about those plans. I don't wanna be like those people I know who let their work get in their way off having fun. Like,  have this friends who wants to attend conventions but can't because she doesn't want to skip work, I have another friend, who's a former bandmate who's also working but can't even do the things he loves to do, and usually does because his work is in the way, and another friend whom I always invite on outings who always turn me down because he [thinks] is always tied to someone or something, hahaha poor child. They are only a few from a lot of people that I know with the same sitch. I don't wanna be like them and one more thing I don't like: leaving the house wearing business attire. Hahaha. Maybe, hopefully, I find a work that will suit my lifestyle, my personality, and my own schedule. I don't wanna be like those other people who can't enjoy their lives because they're working for their living or just working on something. Sana pagtapos ko, may opening sa ITC. Masaya dun eh. Hehehe.

Responsibilities and rewards. See, I don't really care anymore. Forget about appreciation, foget about concern, and even friendship... I live for the life I want and not for the service my life is to you. Tah-tuh!

Can't feel the summer just staying stuck at home. I have to go somewhere. Waaah~ I don't think makakasama ako sa sidetrip sa Baguio or Bakun after the climb. Enrolment kasi. Waaah~ Makakasama ako sa Yearend. Teka, when is the yearend? Hehehe Wala pang updates but definitely kasama ako.

Magsusulat na ulit. Guguhit na ulit ako. Magpi-pinta na ulit ako. Aawit na ako ulit. Tama na ang pahinga. Tapos na ang pag-bwelo. Time to move.

Let's do this.