Watashi wa L desu

marc and kahlil in the background, yeah!

L [Lawliet] meets L [Levy] at 7/11 on June 29, 2007

Magkamukha kami... Kawaii desu ne?!

Ahoho!

Kuya, ito na ung pix...

Updated: July 22, "Weird trip" uploaded.

sorry po na-disconnect ako... send nyo na lang po ung iba, sorry talaga...

^___^\/

Which tree are you?

Let's take a break from rants and raves, and all those usual blog yadda-yadda. Today we're chilling. Below you'll see a table of months and dates, trees and characteristics. Obviously, you should know when your birthday is and look up what tree you are according to your birthday. I got that from my friend, but I took time cutting and pasting them into a table so you should participate. Hello, my effort? Now, I want you to reply to this post by copying what tree you fall in to and then... That's it.. Blah-blah... You can also react... Blah-blah... LET'S PLAY!

                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                       

Dec         23 to Jan 01 Apple Tree	-- missing,       sorry! --
Jan 01 to Jan 11         Fir Tree         Jul 05 to Jul 14	Fir       tree (the Mysterious)       -- extraordinary taste,       handles stress well,       loves anything beautiful,       stubborn,       tends to care for those close to them,       hard to trust others,       yet a social butterfly,       likes idleness and laziness after long demanding hours at work,       rather modest,       talented,       unselfish,       many friends,       very reliable.
Jan 12 to Jan 24 Elm       Tree       Jul 15 to Jul 25	Elm       Tree (the Noble-mindedness)       -- pleasant shape,       tasteful clothes,       modest demands,       tends not to forgive mistakes,       cheerful,       likes to lead but not to obey,       honest and faithful partner,       likes making decisions for others,       noble-minded,       generous,       good sense of humor,       practical.
Jan 25 to Feb 03 Cypress       Tree       Jul 26 to Aug 04	Cypress       Tree (the Faithfulness)       -- strong,       muscular,       adaptable,       takes what life has to give but doesn't necessarily like it ,       strives to be content,       optimistic,       wants to be financially independent,       wants love and affection,       hates loneliness,       passionate lover which cannot be satisfied,       faithful,       quick-tempered at times,       can be unruly and careless,       loves to gain knowledge,       needs to be needed.
Feb 04 to Feb 08 Poplar       Tree May       01 to May 14       Aug 05 to Aug 13	Poplar       Tree (the Uncertainty)       -- looks very decorative,       talented,       not very self-confident,       extremely courageous if necessary,       needs goodwill and pleasant surroundings,       very choosy,       often lonely,       great animosity,       great artistic nature,       good organizer,       tends to lean       toward philosophy,       reliable in any situation,       takes partnership seriously.
Feb 09 to Feb 18 Cedar       Tree       Aug 14 to Aug 23	Cedar       Tree (the Confidence)       -- of rare strength,       knows how to adapt,       likes unexpected presents,       of good health,       not! in the least shy,       tends to look down on others,       self-confident,       a great speaker,       determined,       often impatient,       likes to impress others,       has many talents,       industrious,       healthy optimism,       waits for the one true love,       able to make quick decisions.
Feb 19 to Feb 28 Pine       Tree       Aug 24 to Sep 02	Pine Tree       (the Peacemaker)       -- loves agreeable company,       craves peace and harmony,       loves to help others,       active imagination,       likes to write poetry,       not fashion conscious,       great compassion,       friendly to all,       falls strongly in love but will leave if betrayed or lied to,       emotionally soft,       low self esteem,       needs affection and reassurance.
Mar 01 to Mar 10 Weeping       Willow Tree       Sep 03 to Sep 12	Weeping       Willow (the Melancholy)       -- likes to be stress free,       loves family life,       full of hopes and dreams,       attractive,       very empathetic,       loves anything beautiful,       musically inclined,       loves to travel to exotic places,       restless,       capricious,       honest,       can be influenced but is not easy to live with when pressured,       sometimes demanding,       good intuition,       suffers in love until they find that one loyal,       steadfast partner;       loves to make others laugh.
Mar 11 to Mar 20 Lime       Tree       Sep 13 to Sep 22	Lime       Tree (the Doubt)       -- intelligent,       hard working,       accepts what life dishes out,       but not before trying to change bad circumstances into good ones,       hates fighting and stress,       enjoys getaway vacations,       may appear tough,       but is actually soft and relenting,       always willing to make sacrifices for family and friends,       has many talents but not always enough time to use them,       can become a complainer,       great leadership qualities,       is jealous at times but extremely loyal.
Mar 21 (only) Oak Tree	Oak       Tree (the Brave)       -- robust nature,       courageous,       strong,       unrelenting,       independent,       sensible,       does not like change,       keeps its feet on the ground,       person of action.
Mar 22 to Mar 31 Hazelnut       Tree       Sep 24 to Oct 03	Hazelnut       Tree (the Extraordinary)       -- charming,       sense of humor,       very demanding but can also be very understanding,       knows how to make a lasting impression,       active fighter for social causes and politics,       popular,       quite moody,       sexually oriented,       honest,       a perfectionist,       has a precise sense of judgment and expects complete fairness.
Apr 01 to Apr 10 Rowan       Tree       Oct 04 to Oct 13	Rowan Tree (the       Sensitivity)       -- full of charm,       cheerful,       gifted without egoism,       likes to draw attention,       loves life,       motion,       unrest,       and even complications,       is both dependent and independent,       good taste,       artistic,       passionate,       emotional,       good company,       does not forgive.
Apr 11 to Apr 20 Maple       Tree       Oct 14 to Oct 23	Maple       Tree (Independence of Mind)       -- no ordinary person,       full of imagination and originality,       shy and reserved,       ambitious,       proud,       self-confident,       hungers for new experiences,       sometimes nervous,       has many complexities,       good memory,       learns easily,       complicated love life,       wants to impress.
Apr 21 to Apr 30 Walnut       Tree       Oct 24 to Nov 11	Walnut       Tree (the Passion)       -- unrelenting,       strange and full of contrasts,       often egotistic,       aggressive,       noble,       broad horizon,       unexpected reactions,       spontaneous,       unlimited ambition,       no flexibility,       difficult and uncommon partner,       not always liked but often admired,       ingenious strategist,       very jealous and passionate,       no compromise.
May 15 to May 24 Chestnut       Tree       Nov 12 to Nov 21	Chestnut       Tree (the Honesty)       -- of unusual stature,       impressive,       well-developed sense of justice,       fun to be around,       a planner,       born diplomat,       can be irritated easily,       sensitive of others feelings,       hard worker,       sometimes acts superior,       feels not understood at times,       fiercely family oriented,       very loyal in love,       physically fit.
May 25 to Jun 03 Ash       Tree       Nov 22 to Dec 01	Ash       Tree (the Ambition)       --       extremely attractive,       vivacious,       impulsive,       demanding,       does not care for criticism,       ambitious,       intelligent,       talented,       likes to play with fate,       can be very egotistic,       reliable,       restless lover,       sometimes money rules over the heart,       demands attention,       needs love and much emotional support.
Jun 04 to Jun 13 Hornbeam       Tree       Dec 02 to Dec 11	Hornbeam Tree (the Good Taste)       -- of cool beauty,       cares for its looks and condition,       good taste,       is not egoistic,       makes life as comfortable as possible,       leads a reasonable and disciplined life,       looks for kindness and acknowledgment in an emotional partner,       dreams of unusual lovers,       is seldom happy with its feelings,       mistrusts most people,       is never sure of its decisions,       very conscientious.
Jun 14 to Jun 23 Fig       Tree       Dec 12 to Dec 21	Hazelnut       Tree (the Extraordinary)       -- charming,       sense of humor,       very demanding but can also be very understanding,       knows how to make a lasting impression,       active fighter for social causes and politics,       popular,       quite moody,       sexually oriented,       honest,       a perfectionist,       has a precise sense of judgment and expects complete fairness.
Jun 24 (only) Birch       Tree	Birch       Tree (the inspiration)       -- vivacious,       attractive,       elegant,       friendly,       unpretentious,       modest,       does not like anything in excess,       abhors the vulgar,       loves life in nature and in calm,       not very passionate,       full of imagination,       little ambition,       creates a calm and content atmosphere.
Jun 25 to Jul 04 Christmas       Tree	Christmas         Tree (the Love) --         quiet and shy at times,         lots of charm, appeal,          and attraction, pleasant attitude, flirtatious smile,           adventurous,           sensitive, loyal in love, wants to love and be loved,           faithful and tender          partner, very generous, many talents, loves          children, needs affectionate          partner.
Sep 23 (only) Olive       Tree	Olive       Tree ( the Wisdom)       -- loves sun,       warmth and kind feelings,       reasonable,       balanced,       avoids aggression and violence,       tolerant,       cheerful,       calm,       well-developed sense of justice,       sensitive,       empathetic,       free of jealousy,       loves to read and the company of sophisticated people.
Dec 22 (only) Beech       Tree	Beech       Tree (the Creative)       --       has good taste,       concerned about its looks,       materialistic,       good organization of life and career,       economical,       good leader,       takes no unnecessary risks,       reasonable,       splendid lifetime companion,       keen on keeping fit

Alright! C'mon! Natapos din, hahaha... Man, it looks different than when I made it Dreamweaver. But anyway, ENJOY!

"I think that I shall never see a poem lovely as a tree" [Joyce Kilmer]

"I think that you'll never see a tree as lovely as me" [LEiGS 07]

Ang ganda ko?!

This is one of the few celebrity collages I made in MyHeritage.com. I've tried some of my photos and my brothers' too. So far, this has been the best result I got [look, it's Jang Geum!]. My, my... I am... flattered? Haha.. Who wouldn't be? Look, they're all so pretty! I belong! Bwahahaha! Gotta love the angle! Well, there were 10 celebrities but I chose the prettiest and I counted out the two other including Imelda Marcos. Yes, She was part of this set's result. Haha! But I've seen pictures of her from her younger years, I must say she is pretty but her prettiness had pretty much gone to her head and... [I'd like to thank myself for my hair and make-up and my closet for my outfit, you won't see me looking like that everyday... SUGOI! ]

So I had my first meeting today as an official Graphics Apprentice today. The office is so warm and cozy. They happen to be nice, friendly people after all [they don't bite, hehehe]. The KOWAI aura of the panel interview was gone. It was nothing like being with my new blockmates. Those ITs give away their real personalities without having to speak. To cut the story short, they're cold. I dunno want to end up badmouthing them, insignificant that they are for me, so I'll leave them be. Bwahaha! Maximum tolerance. I was told that I can start hanging out in the office but I just don't want to go there by myself, alone. The place is too warm [not hot >_<] it could get lonely. I know myself very well and I know how I easily get lonely. By the way the Literary editor gave me my first assignment [I am 3/4 Graphics and 1/4 Literary Apprentice, yeahehey!].

Even my friends can tell that I've been having a hard time. I went to our kubo/tambayan/booth yesterday afternoon after class looking... I dunno how I looked like but my friend knew something was wrong. My blood has reached boiling point, my brain became molten lava and I was ready to explode. No kidding. I wish it was something I could laugh at but looking like that kind of fool isn't my kind of humor. I am not built for programming, I cannot even create a single simple program, I take jokes about that weakness personally, you have no idea what kind of hell I have to go through during my programming subjects. A little more and I could explode. It's torture but I have to hold still for a while. I just need to pass or I'll be kicked out of HF before I can even say "Junior Staff". F***!!!

I was shocked when Andrew told me what happened to Chris Benoit and his family. It's been a while since I last watched wrestling and never had news since I don't read my WWE newsletter anymore. Apparently, he committed suicide after killing his wife and child. They are dead but I don't believe he could do such thing. I don't know the man but I believe his innocence and it's not clear yet why he did it. To Chris and his family, I know God is always with you wherever you are, † May you all rest in peace †

Yay, Jet Li's in the country! Heehee...

There's no stopping now; I'm applying for DMS and auditioning for LPB, got my forms already. Oh yeah! Adik-an na 'to! Bwahaha! Oh, and ILSFA too, though I haven't really paid my membership fee yet. Hehehe! Can't stop my Rock! Yosh!

Awww.. The guys [my tropa, the boys] are planning to go to Puerto Galera at the end of the month [July]. I want to go too but I have no money [O, hindeee!]. I just need P2500 and we'll be spending 3 days if I ever get to join them but... Where will I get that kind of money? Asar! My daily allowance is only P150, and I spend P50 for the fare back and forth, which leaves me with P100 and how on earth am I going to produce that sum in time for the trip. I've never been to Mindoro and Puerto Galera and I've been wanting to go out of town since summer. Nakakaiyak naman! *sigh* PAUUUTAAAAANG!!!

Alright, the Genshiken family is growing. Woohoo! Love it! I'm enjoying their company more and more and I get too attached I find it hard to leave. I have no plans of leaving but I love them so much that I can't seem to want to go somewhere else other than where they are. I go to class for a while, my mind flies to the time when I'll be hanging out with them again. Every moment not spent with them is like a class missed, a meal skipped, and a Friendster invitation rejected. Haha.. Ahlavet, don'tcha?

Man, am I busy or what? Or what? Hahaha..


master!
             apprentice!
                                heartborne!
                                                    7th seeker!
                                                                        warrior!
                                                                                      disciple!
                                                                                                    in me, the wishmaster!
                                                                                                                                            --fantasmic, nightwish

The Apprentice

I'm READY! - Spongebob Squarepants.

You want to have an idea how depressed I am last night? I must be one very troubled/disturbed kid to be inexplicably sad last night. Well, I have reasons but the world doesn't have to know or if it really wanted to, it would have asked. I'm not fussy about sharing my troubles to those who care. Haha.. Forget it. I'm very fine now. Must be the moon. It's almost full moon. If I am right, last night was a Waxing moon or atleast that's what the Moon Phase Calendar I found on the net says. Hehe.. I don't really get to stare at the moon anymore. Waxing means "growing" since the lit surface of the moon is growing and it will be Full moon in a few days. In witchcraft, the waxing moon period is used for attraction magik, inner love spells, protection for couples and healing energy for couples. Wehehe.. Don't get ideas, I just thought I'd share 'cause I read it just now. I used to "research" witchcraft but never really got into it. Ahh, memories. My first bandmates, Veiled in Shadows, share the same liking for witchcraft too. Those were the dark days, the dark music we played, the dark knowledge we shared. Haha, but that's so long ago now. Relax, I'm just reminiscing. I don't think I'll be walking that path again. I was just lost back then, good thing I wasn't alone.

About the Dolphin, he's one of my favorite teachers back in highschool. We weren't close but he loves to tease esp. about my interest with Mythology and Harry Potter. He was one of those few who think I could really write and was even disappointed to know that I was taking up Computer Science in college. Maybe he thinks I would make a good AB Communication student. The last time I saw him was a few days after I graduated from highschool and only got news about him from his Friendster blog. I had plans of letting him be the first to read the material I am writing once I finish but sadly he passed away last year. I don't even know the exact month and day he died. I just found about his death a few after but I don't even remember what week of what month that is. I don't really remember the days we had in class but I can never forget what a funny guy he is. The class is always alive. There are times that I would miss class because I come late after lunch and late comers pisses him off so I'd rather not go in. Hehe.. Yesterday after the panel interview and after I got the message I remembered him. I told a friend before that I am going to write a tribute, dedication or something in his memory. I know he somehow helped me. I get terribly nervous in situations like that but I made it somehow. He must be swimming freely now where he is. Yay, dolphin! I know I have your support! Thank you very much and see you when I get there! Wait for me! Hehehe...

Today's a waxing moon and on my birthday will be a waning [shrinking] moon. My, how ironic!

How long has it been since out tv had cable? Awww... I miss the shows I used to watch at NGC, Disney and Nickelodeon. I wonder when will I get to watch them again. And it's also been long time since I last listened to the radio. Wala lang.

Hey, I'm excited about that Pinoy version of Marimar. Haha.. Don't laugh. I'm dead serious. I loved that series when it aired sometime in early or mid-90s. And I wanna see it already. Hehe.. I don't think they've started shooting it yet but yeah, I'll wait till it airs. Wooheey! Oh, and Meteor Garden too. It's coming. Maybe, it'll replace GTO Live. Dunno. But I just got to watch it again. I don't mind the new voices. It will sound weird but that won't change anything so I'm still going to watch it. Ehem. All over again. Hehe. By the way, some of my classmates who had their OJT where I had mine are in trouble. They are being held responsible for something that has gone missing. Thank goodness, I was placed in another unit or I would have been in trouble too. I just whoever did that and knew they would be blamed will be man enough to admit and clear them off it because he won't... I would wish him dead. [I'm not sorry for being evil!] I'm not close with those guys but I believe they can't and they will never do anything like that.

T A N J O U B i  ☻O M E D E T O U to me! A few days from now, I'll be turning 21! Uhh.. Hehe.. Wala lang ulit.

Yay, I'm an apprentice. It literally means "beginner" but who cares? I like that word because it makes me imagine being a Mage's assistant, like we're in the Middle Ages. Haha.. How magical! Such imaginings, making two different worlds [the real and the magical] imaginarily coexist makes it easier and more fun and adventurous to face reality no matter how harsh it gets.

Good things are coming, I just know it. I should be more positive and work hard. *Yawn* I believe my last year in college will be the best I will ever have. So..

A GRRREATO, Burrrning Day!

KOWAI!!! It was very unnerving, [First meeting: scary!] I can't think straight. This aftertoon's panel interview was more like an interrogation than an interview. My friend said the interviewers would burn/cook me alive but what happened was that they didn't even bother to light a fire and start the burning... They ate me alive! Hehe, kidding. But really, I was dazed, too nervous to speak and answer all of the questions, one after the other, thrown at me. It felt like blood was rushing into brain and about to make my head explode. I don't think I have any chance. Good thing, after the interview I saw my Genshi-friends [Greg, Dan, Jason, Scott, Alain, Ryan, Jerome and Norman] at the CSO office and went to hang out in there for a while. I was so happy to see those faces. My stress-level went down a little but my head is already aching the moment I went out of the HF office but it was only then that I was able to breathe. I didn't stay long with the guys at CSO because it was hot in there that aggravated [whoa.. strong word, hehe...] my headache plus I didn't get enough sleep since I have to wake up early for the interview [and I was very sleepy] and I was the last one to be interviewed [I patiently sat at the recieving area for hours]. The waiting isn't really that bad since I had some new people to talk to, and make friends with and saw another friend [Paul] on my way going out of school. A'right! So I got home by 5pm. I went to whip up something to eat and went on to watch Honey and Clover. I went to check my cellphone and got the good news: I GOT IN! [Uhh.. Somehow?] Banzai! It was worth all the scare, the nervousness I got from the panel interview. Despite the blunders I circumstancially committed, I still got in. Wooooo! Gambare masu! And, oh, I think my new friends ["social circle" "extended network" hehe..] passed too: Shaira, Patrick, John Paul and that freshman from HUB that Shaira named "Pinkee" because he was wearing pink. We're having our orientation Wednesday this coming week. Oh, can't wait. But I don't think I'll be telling anyone else except those that already know, let them discover for themselves. It's not like I did a  very good job anyway, or atleast not... Uhh... Nevermind.

Woohoo! Honey and Clover is KAWAII!

What's left to be worried about? Not to fail any of my subjects. I have another programming subject,  VB.net and  I still haven't taken the one that I failed, which is VB [and Physics 2]. Next up... My application for DMS and LPB and ILSFA. I know how expensive it is to be a mountaineer but I really [hounto ni, hounto ni] really want to climb a mountain for atleast once in my life. So I will do my best to be part of DMS. I said I want to prove something that's why I want to join the Pop Band right? I stand by my word and I'm not changing it. About ILSFA, I think I'm having second thoughts. Oh, and our thesis, and my birthday... Man, why did I ever tell my friends to come over? I want to back out! Hahaha.. Too many expenses without really having any money at hand. Yeah, my CosPlay too. What the- My head is swirling! I, so suddenly, want to back out on everything I work for, everything I want  to work for, and things that are waiting for me to work on. I don't understand what's happening to me.  This must be  one of my usual Fight or Flight situations. Demons inside my head with sirens' voices, they're... I don't know... But... I can't make them stop...

I'll be alright... Maybe... When I wake up tomorrow... And as long as I have something, anything, anybody to hold on to... I'll be fine... I should be happy but I can feel something within me is breaking apart... Can't wait to be with my friends again... My BCS friends... My Genshiken friends... My former bandmates... My new friends... This year can possibly the last year they'll ever find me in good condition... All this time, I feel like I've only been delaying a nervous/mental breakdown and if I can't any longer I just might have to apologize to everyone and say goodbye... And don't be stupid, I'm not and never will be suicidal... Don't ever take me for an idiot like that... I'm just burning out... But I'm still fighting.. Sorry for the sudden mood change... And the ellipses, hehe...

Dear God, I know The Dolphin is watching over me while you're watching him. Thank him for me. I know someway, somehow you had him help me today. I'm really thankful and happy, di lang halata hehehe. He's done so much for me without him knowing it, and the others who have helped me in their own ways too, you know who they are. I know you're watching over them too. Please always keep them safe. I don't know what will happen to me without them. I'm keeping my promise, that one I'll write in his memory. Give me anough strength too so I could keep fighting for my sanity. You know very well how close I am to losing it. I think too much. Help me to trust others so I don't have to endure this ordeal alone. And please make HIM realize how I feel. Amen.

Yay, my first blog prayer. Hehe.. Oyasuminasai, minna-san!

[PS: Kowai = Scary while Kawaii = Cute]

Autumn in my Heart

There's no way to stop what comes falling.

It maybe so, like how I could see myself falling, how I feel my soul falling apart and how I could hear the rain falling inside my heart.. But can't they really be stopped?

I could see myself falling... It's nothing new. I'm trying my best to get as close as I can get to him. [If you think I'm talking about you, maybe you're right so please tell me what you think.]. I've only known him for a few months but I'm sure, I know and I believe that I really, really like him [though I still like Shiawase too]. I have this friend who likes him too and I'm starting to get jealous. I can see what she's been doing to draw him near and I'm afraid I will have to hate her if they end up together [She tries to look cute, friendly and innocent, and when the guy's into him she'll play it safe. I think that's how she does it and I find it dirty. Grrr!]. I'm falling, but I can't really say that I've fallen. I wanted to tell him [and I don't have anything against girls, like myself, being the first one to confess] but I'm scared. I can't read through him and I don't want to assume things unless he tells me the things I need to hear, be it good or bad. Rejection comes fast and easy but it leaves scars in the heart and stays there for a lifetime; No matter how friendship covers up the slightest traces, the hurt will still get you once in a while. I should know, I've been on that road before and it took me a while before I can free myself, take off and fly again.

I feel my soul falling apart... Graduation Day has been getting into my head too much. I've been emotionally strained about this since classes started. I've stayed in college for more than I should have. If I don't make it to the March 2008 Graduation and have to stay in college for the same course because I failed [I don't really mind staying longer if I'll be there for another course or maybe taking my Major] I may have to force my family to send me into a mental institution. Most people think it's just a matter of not working hard enough or not taking studies seriously, they think the expression "nosebleed" is just a funny expression, and do not understand how it feels to exceed your limit and almost die from stroke from it [F*** Programming! F***, Physics and the Mathematics that goes with it! F*** those teachers that always say, "You are expected to be /should be good at this and that because you're already on your 4th year or because they are good at it too]. Right now, I feel like standing at the edge of cliff with a bottomless pit below it [just like when Light felt like he's losing to L, imagines himself jumping off from a high platform to his death but stops in midair]. Right. That's it, I've already fallen off the edge and now I'm stuck in midair. I'm being sucked down the nothingness of the bottomless pit but something kept me floating. A part of me wants to stay fighting to keep myself together while the other just wants to give it up. My spirit particles are disintegrating, hehehe...

I could hear the rain falling inside my heart... Loneliness, sadness, uncertainty, doubts, jealousy, loathe. They're raining inside of me. I wanted to love but I keep fighting against the very thing that my heart cries out for. I don't understand myself right now.

By the way, I'm watching this cute anime right now, Honey and Clover. It's too kawaii, it's lovesickening! Awww.. *Clenches fist close to cheeks and goes googley-eyed*

Yay, the panel interview's tomorrow! I can't be late. I want this so bad, [why? refer to.. Blah!]! You have no idea. I'll pray hard so I can make it and do my best to be honest, sincere, and be whatever to convince those panelists that they should have me. But if I don't, I wouldn't feel so bad because I've made my resolve: If I get in, I will never fail to do what I'm supposed to do, if I don't I will never stop. i will join every contest I can join [like I always do] and keep doing what I love and doing what I do best. I can feel a good year coming ahead of me, it's the start of something new and it feels so right [so Highschool Musical, hehe]. And, oh, Love... Ah! It's in the air, can't you smell it? *sniff sniff*

GAMBARE MASU!

My heart says...

Daisuki...

Anata ga inakute sabishii yo..

Zutto anata no koto wo kangaete iru yo..

Kanashii wa..

Sabishii wa..

[Translation: I like you very much.. I miss you.. I am thinking of you.. I'm lonely.. I'm sad...]

Genshi-KAWAII-ken

Presenting...

The Members of Genshiken DLSU-D!

Kawaii desu ne? Mwah! Mwah! Sugoi!

Animo anime!

Kulang pa to, not even half of the Genshiken Otaku Population. Update ko na lang ulit. Hehe..

NOTE: 'Yung iba jan, KJ, ayaw magpa-picture! Awwahahaha!

Updated: July 19 - Kikay pix. Hahaha..

P.A.G. Free Show

DLSU-D Performing Arts Group Free Show
@ JFH Grounds
June 20, 2007

Performances by Filipiniana Dance Company And Points 'n' Flexes

LEiGS - Pakisabi kay Cogie Domingo mahal ko siya...

http://prisoner-of-eternity.blogspot.com/
My Blogger blog, it's alive again! Forgive me for the title, I'll change it as soon as I find someone real whose name I can write on that blue bar.

I need CosPlay suggestions...

I want to CosPlay but I I haven't decided what to cosplay yet; I want this, I want that, I don't know what I want. Please reply to this post. Anybody, onegaishimasu! Anything will do. Domo arigatou gozaimashita!! If you don't know me, and have no idea how I look like and what character will match my looks, feel free to check out my Photos and if you already know me and think you know what will suit me. Post-post-post! Do it now and fast! Thank you, thank you, minna-san!!!

Thoughtless

All of my hate cannot be bound

I will not be drowned
by your thoughtless scheming
So you can try to tear me down
Beat me to the ground
I will see you screaming
- Thoughtless, KORN

Did I say my Hollow side is surging? I tried my best to look at the brighter side of things by relating it with the animes Bleach and Death Note so as not to make it look too serious and I've been restraining myself from saying and doing anything that could hurt anybody. I've been holding myself down and trying my best to keep my composure but I've had it and I'm almost at my limit. I've never loathed anybody this much, atleast not since the year I had to spend with the vile creatures I have for classmates back in my Junior year in highschool. I'm not a confrontational person, I'm not even straighforward but I fight when the need arises. But I may not even be straightforward in my way of fighting. I might strike them from behind, I'm really a Stealth person; before you know what hit you, you'll already be down. With this, I'm loving my friends more and more. They've been keeping me calm without them knowing it. As for this semester, I'll be treating it like a Summer class...

You just wait

I have this blog entry na di matapos-tapos. I hope to finish it this week. I will definitely post it once I get rid of my rivals in computer usage time. Can't wait.

GAY-shiken

Tambay-tambay sa 7/11 and our "kubo-desu" for a recuitment booth.

First week pa lang open ang classes nyan, hah?!

Gay-shiken, Hen-shiken [Hentai Shikkaku...] Dito ang saya, neh?

PS: I love the lighting at 7/11!!

Darker than Black

Tonight I will be passing on my judgement. From tonight on, I will be Justice. I will decide who lives and who dies. I will sentence anyone with the way of death I deem appropriate. My displeasure will be a crime. I will rid this world of evil, and I will be god of my new world. Human existence will be at my mercy. Fear me, bwahaha!! Man, that's so Kira. No way, there's nothing wrong. But, yeah, I will be putting my Death Note to use. The time is right and it feels just right to play pretend killing. I'm fine. I just feel like being evil today. My Hollow side is surging but on the contrary, I'm completely calm. I just want to keep my normal psychotic self intact. You can therefore conclude that Levy is not only lovesick but also a lunatic.

Have you ever felt how you were destined to meet someone and be part of each others' lives without actually having to be together. I mean, you're lives are entwined and you were born to cross each others' paths. Haha, wala lang. I'm just plain happy to have met the people and friends I have right now.

Yay, the new Genshiken members are mingling with us very well. I'm so happy and they are so nice to be with. I love them already. They aren't like the first batch of new members last semester. They don't seem interested to interact at all. I'm so happy to have more new friends. And now, I'm being too active, I've joined a lot of organizations in school. Haha. This is my last year and I have to make the most of it. Well, I still haven't paid any of the membership fees and passed the requirements but I definitely will in my own time. Haha. By the way, I got a good news today, I was considered for interview for HF's for my application. I'm still planning to take the exam for the Graphic Section but, yeah, I'm really happy. So far, the organizations I'm planning to join is DLSU-DMS, ILSFA, and [I only thought of it just now because I want to prove something; Evil in me prevails. I'm so proud of myself. Bwahaha!!] DLSU-D Pop Band. Not sure if I can still join the Pop Band but, yeah, I'm going to give it a shot. Like what the song Stand My Ground says, If I don't make it, Someone else will stand my ground...

I changed my mind again. I wanted to write down the names of the people I don't like on my death note but I could just imagine what waste it would be. I'd be writing poems there instead. People can't help themselves but keep being annoying. But, too bad, I'm too busy to hate anybody right now [but that doesn't mean I'll stop being the darkness that hides the light. Haha, Fear me. XP] and they aren't worthy of not even a single page in my precious Death Note.

I'm so excited. They're showing Meteor Garden  on GMA7 soon. The dubbing is different but it will never fail to bring back sweet memories and hopeless dreams of love. The timing's just right. I could feel something special is starting for me and I'm happy. I'm not telling anybody what it is 'cause people can be such spoilers. Haha. But when it's time and what my instinct and intuition and my heart is right, everything will just fall into place and I will not be ashamed to tell the whole world about it.

 

I was just wondering, have you counted how many "happy", "definitely", and "yeah" have I written? Haha. And just in case you don't know, this post is long overdue. My, my... And another one, I'll be cosplaying next week, using Alain's Shinigami outfit. Weeeeh! Walang agawan. May mang-agaw, batok! Ahaha...

Wawa. I have no money for the ToyCon. Poor me. Next year na lang.. Ahuhu.. Haha. Anyway, there are still upcoming events and I will definitely not allow myself to be left anymore. Hmp! Oh, oh, malapit na birthday ko. Parinig: I want that Ryuk plushie from Comic Alley. I believe it costs P680. Haha. Murang-mura lang. Haha.

Lakbay Lahi @ The Podium

Start:	Jun 12, '07 5:00p
Location:	The Podium Mall 2nd floor ( ADB, Ortigas Ave., Mandaluyong City)

You are all invited to come and celebrate our Independence Day through music and dance!

It will be a day of ethnic and organic sound art performance by Lakbay Lahi (see attachment for poster and group's profile)
@ The Podium Mall 2nd floor ( ADB, Ortigas Ave., Mandaluyong City)
June 12, 2007 (Tuesday).
5 - 6 p.m.

Free Concert!

Gerard "dok" Natividad - Hegalong, Guitar, Flute, Percussions
Ryan Kenneth Calderon - Djembe
Erick Calilan - Djembe, Flute, Bells, Kulintang
Heidi Sarno - Shekere, Shakes, Waterchimes, Bells
Francis Yabis - Djembe, Kubing, Gangsa
Roy Cruz - Bass Guitar, Fotos

with very special guest artists

Althea Mari - Traditional / Contemporary Dance
Sean Roy Yulo - Djembe, Chimes, Gong
Albert Esguerra - Djembe
Mel Araneta - Dance
Lirio Salvador - Red Wine!

Please support and spread the words now!
visit their site lakbaylahi.multiply.com

Maraming Salamat at kitakits!

On Whom the Moon Doth Shine

Hitotsu.. Futatsu.. Mittsu...

The Denouement of Lunacy

~ I had nothing better to do and I haven't had a "pictorial" for a long time.
~ The concept is obviously DN.
~ Given the quality of my phone camera, my lamp shade, somehow, helped me achieve a good lighting.
~ These pictures are still unedited [except for the Brightness & Contrast] but I will post the edited ones once I have them done.
~ I have a good friend *big hug goes to Iam* to thank for making me believe that I look good especially when I "fix" myself [and more if I should lose weight] it helped a lot.

SUGOI!

Orientation and Recruitment [Part II]

Freshmen Orientation and Recruitment [Part II]
June 6 - 8, 2007
@ Alumni Building Grounds

Three tiring days [though I wasn't there on the first day] of fun, games, laugh, chat.. Blah-blah! Everything! Hahaha.. When the time comes that I have to go, I will miss these people aww...

More photos coming...

Fantasmic Schizophrenia

Have I always been in the dark side only trying to make a torch shine bright that no trace of darkness can be found or am I just being pulled back because darkness know it belongs to me. I maybe developing an alterego. I'd like to call it Kira Complex. I know it sounds absurd, because, well, it has the word Kira, and I got Kira from Death Note but something makes me think I'm starting to become like him. For one, there are some things [I'm not telling, again, so don't ask] outwardly like, or the nicer side of my approves of but something inside me speaks to me telling me otherwise. Well, if you still don't get it, put it this way. Think of the Death Note, and I am Kira. I did the killing, and still I'm working with the authorities trying to run after the killer that they do not know which is actually me. Darn, I'm at loss for words. Mood killer! Well, the logic of it goes something like that. Ahaha.. This paragraph was supposed to be something dark but as you've read, I cannot exactly put my thoughs into words. Even in thinking, I'm not so much of an organized person. This is what you get thinking of too many things at the same time, they get mixed up in my head and... Ahh, well....

Sometimes, stupidity can be really cute.

I went to the mall last Wednesday to buy a school bag. I went to Bio Research as part of my mall routine then ran into two silly kids. Ahaha.. They were arguing whether the creature they were pointing at is a dog or a cat. I found it funny how they can't tell the difference. I decided to interfere and told them it was a dog and pointed at the tag that says Chow-chow, sheepishly smiled and ran away. It was a Chow-chow after all and it doesn't look anything like a cat [Persian Cat]. I know it's the stupid shop's fault because they can't put the tags in the right place. Ahaha.. It was really nothing serious but I just found it funny. It's been a while since I laughed at something childishly stupid.

Yay, I'm done with my Meteor Garden 2 marathon. This summer's been productive and more than the past summers I've had. Not that I actually achieved anything material, not any of my goals but the fact is that my heart's been fed more than enough. All the mangas, the animes and the dramas I've finished have somehow satisfied the discontentment of my lovesick heart and mind. Who'd want to get out when you're locked inside an inner world filled with love. Outside, the reality, Love, for most part of my life, is unrequited, unnoticed, and even, unknown. But, what the heck, who would've known that's where I get my inspiration. I live life for the loneliness of it, I find beauty in sadness, I find peace in the absence of light, I begin life with the word goodbye. Ahaha.. I don't really feel like being Goth today. I just love saying those words. They.. Uhh.. I don't know it just gives a certain color in my life and affects my whole being. I dunno. I, myself, don't understand very well so...

BUCK UP!

By the way, I've finished my first ever manga coloring. Yay, it turned out very good, atleast for my own eyes. Haha, I love my work! I also did some Photoshop tweaking with some of my newest pictures which I took the night before the full moon. Haha.. I love it. Currently watching the anime version of Hana Yori Dango and then...

Wala na! Bwahaha! Yun lang, gotta go!

Majicks

Sabi ng friend ko fairy daw... nyeee!

Edited June 18: I can do magic! Bwahaha!

Edited June 16: Newly added old artworks. Also available in my DA account. The unedited stocks are also somewhere in the older albums in the Photos section. Check it out if you're interested.

WOrld Of Photoshop!

I've posted some of my Photoshop works [and more are still coming], not sure if they're anything to brag about but, just in case, any form of reaction is welcome.

More artwork Photoshop and Non-photoshop @ http://levyeiva.multiply.com/photos/album/21

ENJOY!