Thursday, August 24, 2006

Love to Love Season 12

Start:     Sep 3, '06
Location:     GMA 7
Jazz Got Lucky

Lovi and Cogie

He's finally back!

Heart You, Hurt You

Got a new crush: Prince Andrea Albert Pierre Casiraghi of Monaco.





But then again, I'm dreaming...



My Superman, Brandon Routh is engaged but, hey, does that stop me from dreaming? No chance!



What a day?! I feel heavy with runny nose, headaches, body aches, blah-blah! What could get worse than having class on a Saturday. We are required to attend English Profiency chuva classes starting this Saturday and next 4 Saturdays and if the we'll be scheduled any time later than 8am, it means I'll be missing out on Saturday episodes of Monster Allergy for 5 weeks. F*ck! I get up early on Saturdays and saturdays so I can miss my new fave show but then comes this EP thingy. They could have scheduled it on a regular school day, can't they? Heck! Ah, ewan!



Compliment are meant to flatter but all the more I tend to pity myself. They are either consolation or plain lies, as i see it. I just wish people won't say anything anymore if they know it's not so good for the person meant to hear it, and if they know that they should know. Hay, whatever!


I'll be off for another activity when september kicks off. Micoi signed me up on a poem contest sponsored by the University Student Council. Having bagged second in Computula, I have more confidence now that I have a big chance on winning this.



Fingers point against one another as the oil spill worsen. I mourn for the wild life that is wasted but Mother Nature has her way of getting back at people. She has no remorse in avenging her children and we know innocent lives pay for the innocent lives lost. The worse is coming and no matter how ready we become, lives will be claimed. All will be punished.



Till then...

Levy the Lovesick

http://levyeivaserdoncillo.co.nr
my noob website I made as a project for my web application development project. I'll make something better next time once I get the hang of everything...

Monday, August 21, 2006

New look

New look and feel. Haha. I tweaked one of the Blogger templates a little, and that's it. Haha. I'm still working on my layering and using z-index so I can't get on with my original design just yet. It will be ready soon, as soon as I get to GET it, get it? Haha.



Ninoy day, school's out. Boring. Tomorrow, I will be out early 'because the Software Engineering teacher will be gone for a seminar. I have to leave the house early so I can do my assignment on that freaking Physics. Aw. Personal website due on friday and my homepage is the only one I got. Haven't started our SAD/SE project. Heck. I tried vectoring in Photoshop. There it is at the header. Haha. Boring, bored.



Okay, my last post said I'm lovesick. I am but not because I'm into someone [except for Cogie] but because... Ah, I can't explain. It's nothing new anyway, so if you can't then you don't have to understand. I'm plain lonely, discontented, bored, longing... Ah, me...

Sunday, August 20, 2006

State I'm In

lovesick

adj.

       1. So deeply affected by love as to be unable to act normally; laguishing [languishing - adj: amorously (strongly attracted to, disposed to love) pensive(deeply, often wistfully or dreamily thoughtful)] because of love

       2. Exhibiting a lover's yearning

I cannot think of a better word.

Some Art Much?


Puno-puno at my La Salle Dasma

Hahaha...walang sense ung title...

Saturday, August 19, 2006

Sunday

Cogie sang on SOP today. He shaved a line down his left eyebrow but didn't affect his beauty, not one bit. There's a certain infectious glow in his eyes that makes him bloom even more. He has this mystery that I want to discover but how can you demistify the secret of the Egyptian pyramids without having to fly halfway across the world and do the digging yourself. That's the logic of my 'fan' existence.



But I can dream, can't I?


High School Musical Dance Along Special

Start:     Sep 8, '06
Location:     Disney Channel
I'm never gonna get tired of watching this...

I just love 'em...

Wednesday, August 16, 2006

Histamine

*singing: Monster Allergy, oh, they make me sneeze...



With so much to do, today is no good day to get an allergy. It's my first time in over a year to actually eat shrimp [tempura]and this is what I get. I was already gagging at my first few bites, and my lips are red and itching but I ate it anyway since it was already there and I'm really hungry. The stupid Japanese resto we ate in this afternoon for lunch ran out of crab so I chose shrimp instead. I thought my allergy thingy was just a child of my imagination but here it is. The program was watching was almost done when I started sneezing like mad, and I could feel my right eye swelling. The last performers where still onstage when I ran to the school clinic to get some medicine. The nurse thought I was crying, well I was teary, but I told her about what I ate. I have decided to join the block @ Rhea's place for Ghi and Ayen's bash but had to go home so I could rest my eyes so I just told the others to tell the guys that I couldn't come because of my allergy and I believe they've seen how I looked like and I think I didn't look so goos when I came to them and told them that. So that's it. I went home and retired.



No more shrimp, again, from now on. Well, except for shrimp balls 'cause I can't take my tongue away from street food. Just love 'em, oh...



Nothing much happened today. Just had SAD, went to CSPC office to help out some friends for the preparation for today's event, had a little chatter with Saint whom I've not seen for a while, Had lunch with Cresta, Lui, She-an, and another COE friend, Watched CS Protocol and took some pictures, Went to the clinic for some aid, Drank some buko juice after taking in the medicine I got from the clinic, bid some friends goodbye, Went home and slept. My day has been cut short. Kainis!



Got news that Cogie will be in the upcoming show Bakekang with Lovi [<- awwttss!], and will be up for the next season of Love to Love [that'd be Season 11]. Can't wait for Sunday so I can see him on SOP for his belated happy birthday celebration. Ah, Cogieee...

Tuesday, August 15, 2006

....:aw:....

Somebody once said that 'if you want to grow, you have to move out of your comfort zone' but I won't be moving out anytime soon. Haha. I was once again told that the world is not only in Cavite, and I have to see it from the outside of where I already am but I'm not really in a hurry. I want to see the world outside but not because I was told to and besides, I'm too lazy to go out and about and show myself to the world. I find travelling very stressing and the world outside is a lot more polluted [all kinds] that my world here and I always take home pimples when I go anywhere outside this world.



HAPPY 21st BIRTHDAY, REDMOND CHRISTOPHER FERNANDEZ DOMINGO!!!




When will I ever meet you? Awww... I believe he's coming back bit by bit. I expect to see him on SOP this Sunday. Ah, dear perfection... When will I actually see your face? Aw, aw, aw!




I'm so hungry, I can't think any further. Hahaha...

Monday, August 14, 2006

No title

Chaos stirring in my head and all around me. I do not need this right now.



I've started writing my wish list. It feels good to write down the things you could ever want without any assurance that you'll ever have it. I may reach graduation, but I probably will not yet be finished. Patience will never be enough.



Call me sly, call me cunning. However you call it, you have still been overruled, and I manipulated you without you knowing it. I do have ways to get what I want, and nobody got hurt. Point is: I rule.



So much coming up for Wednesday. It isn't here yet but I'm already worn off. I'm not sure if I can make it to all of them. I'm not so much into staying in school till afternoon. I just don't like staying away from the house for long unless it's personal business like I want to hangout and chill with friends or there's a movie I'd like to see.



0800 - 0900 : SAD class

1200 - 1430 : CS Protocol

1500 - 1800 : Ghi and Ayen's Birthday Bash @ Rhea's

1800 - 2000 : NU gig @ school



I think I like the new Koreanovela Love Story in Harvard which piloted this evening. Wala lang. I said I'm enjoying the Tamagotchi thingy but it's starting to get old. Pets aren't so enjoyable when it's virtual and you can't touch it. That SAD project is still getting into my nerves: they ask too much when they've actually given very little. I hate it! But as if I have any choice?! And we'll be havign SAD 2 next semester, Kainis!



Birthday na ni Cogie bukas. Advanced Happy 21st Birthday, Cogs! Babatiin din kita bukas kahit dito lang sa blog. I heart you!

CS Protocol Goes Online

Start:     Aug 16, '06 12:00p
Location:     ERH Grounds
Featuring Freshmen on their online games-themed costumes and presentations.

Oh, The memories...

I gotta see this one.

Friday, August 11, 2006

Full moon, Earth tide, sleepless night. Wednesday ...

Full moon, Earth tide, sleepless night. Wednesday night is tough. The moonlight shown full force down on me through my window. I wanted to sleep early so I can go to school 30 minutes before the time so I can 'do' my Physics assignment but no matter how early I retired that night, I still rolled in and out of my bed for a good 2 hours. I love the full moon and it loves me too as I see it. Since childhood the moon's been affecting me; if I'm not into a big headache, I'm hyperactive, or I'm lonely, but one thing that never fades: I'm always sleepless. Seems like she [La Luna/The Moon] wants me to stay up with her, and wait till she falls to sleep before I do. Aw, tough love! Ahaha!



It took some 45 minutes before my Physics let me out and attend my seminar. Heck! I didn't actually fail to do my assignment. Buti na lang. Anyway, today's seminar is good. One of the things that one of the speakers said that left a mark in my head: In picking a course to take in college, you should not choose one just because you'll someday make a living out of it, but chose the one that will complete you as a person [Piliin mo ang kursong bubuo sa pagkatao mo]. It made a lot of sense because the speakers that day finished Commerce and Psychology but ended up doing what they have passion for, Literature. They did study for Literature too, even had their Doctors Degree, but my point is I know now why I'm here. You'll never enjoy it if you went for something for the wrong reasons. I took Computer Science because I want to be a digital artist, 3d animator, web designer... etc. and though I shifted to IT the mission of my quest still remained. I also wanted to take Fine Arts and Psychology but they'll have to wait for financial reasons. Hehe. That was my fourth Palad seminar [Felson was there too, and we talked about a lot of things, including the meaning of our names, and had some bonding. I haven't seen him for a while and I think he's graduating this March. so sad!] and I'll be back for my last again next year.



Friday: As usual, the seminar started late but it was worth the wait. To cut it short, i enjoyed everything about it especially watching the short films. I'll just write more when I remember.



Saturday: My brother brought some nasty kids he call his friends home to drink and get wasted.Ew!



Cogie sang in SOP for Iza Calzado's birthday and greeted her, and she greeted him too. But it's as if he wasn't there. Pero good news, they're celebrating his birthday next week. Sayang lang wala akong recorder. buti na lang nanood ako ngayon ng SOP. Ang saya ko tuloy, hehe.



Don't have much to say, I'm just tired of my S.A.D. groupmates. I'm thinking of going solo but I haven't decided yet. I have no future, or in their case, a grade, if I keep hanging on to these monkeys. Friendship is not enough to make you pass a subject. I'm not liking it a bit.



Okay, that'd be it for now.

Tuesday, August 8, 2006

Torment

As if waking up to a nightmare wasn't bad enough...



I dreamt a dream of having a dream of being killed, stabbed to death. Yes, a dream within a dream. I woke up for a moment because I had a dream that someone murdered me with a sword on my own bed, as I sleep. I woke up drowning in my tears and shaking with fear just to wake up again because I had that dream, or dreams not crying but still surging with fear. I went to school and back home fearing that today will be my last. I avoided every possible place where death may lurk and get me. I never feared anything this much for years. Not that I'm afraid to die, but I prefer painless death. Good enough that prayers can calm and I woke up again after a few more hours after I went back to sleep as if no such mental imagery came over me. Thank God!



I've always loved Science and the discovery of its wonders but Physics is definitely not one of them. It's been torture ever since the class started. The world know I'm mathematically-challenge and I have no idea how I'm ever going to get that 1.00 this term to pass but this morning I took a leap of faith, and took my chance for once. Hehe... I'm not sure what I was doing, whether it's the right way but I tried to do our seatwork without asking my classmates' "help". Well, I know I have to go back to asking "help" [you know what I mean], but atleast even for once in the history of my college Physics I tried to work on my own. Just this once. Haha! I will have to depend on those at the top of the food chain for my survival in this subject or be lag behind again like I did in Trigo [the memories are too painful to remember], which is one of the reasons that forced me to shift to another course. After this school year, I expect no more Math-related subject to make me suffer again and again. And I may be weak in Math but there are a lot more of others things that I'm good at that I do A LOT BETTER THAN YOU!



I was supposed to go to Princess' party today but I didn't make it since I had no one to go with because if they haven't left already, others are went in the after noon, and by that time I was already at home. I guess I'd just apologize to her and promise I'd make it up next time.



I didn't like that Honey-spiced chicken. I'm never buying it again. Heck! Went to Rob Imus this morning to buy a City of Angels VCD but they don't have it so I went home empty-handed. Darn! But there was this dimsum stand that stood beside the video store and I'll be some time next week to try their food. Looks really yummy. I love dimsum! I also saw some of the movies I wanted to buy but will have to wait since i don't have enough money. And these pop-ups are annoying me. I want to kill whoever invented viruses and spywares. One of my cousins stowed away from home with his boyfriend and is still in hiding that I really find dumb. Maybe she just didn't want to be separated because his dad bought a house and she'll have to leave my aunt's, and Lucena and Manila is far too distant, and maybe he loves that guy so much or... Bah! We pilot our own lives and that's the way she chose to go. She may or may not regret it but atleast she made a decision for herself. Though I still think it's dumb. Sorry!



I've been offered to join another band and I turned it down. I'm still not sure if I want to be in a band again but I'll think about it so when he asks me again, if he will, I will have an answer. Ah, choices...



Quote of the Day:

All that we are is the result of what we have thought. The mind is everything. What we think we become.


- Buddha



Maybe, we should all think about it.

Monday, August 7, 2006

Zip-zap-zup!

I went to the COSSC office to get my prize and was surprised to see the BCS41 class was all there, eating. Hehe, it's Micoy's birthday today. The food was good but I didn't get to taste the cake that looks really lush. Yum! Next time na lang!



I've a new baby, a Tamagotchi that is. I named him Vlad. Gunbound won't run on my phone but atleast the Tama did. Ahihi! Cuteness.



I got news that the guy that's beaten us in Digital Poem and got 1st place used Movie Maker. Man, I should've used Grouper. Haha! Anyway, atleast I won 2nd. I'm competing again next year. Okay, got nothing much to say. I just wanna write something about today. Hey! buh-bye!

Saturday, August 5, 2006

Seminar on Networking

Start:     Aug 15, '06
Location:     Alumni Hall
3rd and 4th year students of BCS, BIT and other Computer Courses

*Can be boring but I'd take anything to skip Physics... =P

S.A.D. stinks!

Yay for me! I won 2nd Place in the Digital Poem Contest. Hay, What a good compensation for all my pains that week. Moneeeeeey! Whehehe! About the postermaking, atleast they are giving us consolations 'cause they only chose one winner which is good 'cause I wouldn't have to feel so bad, 'cause it felt like making thrash, and the others seem to not taking it seriously, they think it's just about the fun, well I didn't have any fun at all. They do not know how much every competition means to me and I guess they never will. Who stinking cares? It'll be the last I'm having with them but of course, they're still my friends. Pft!



Doing our Systems Analysis and Design project f'n stinks. It just doesn't make sense. They ask too much but give very little like, they expect a good system when we haven't taken up any other programming languages yet other than C, C++, and Java unlike those Computer Science students. We're IT. What the f?! And the others have already done it, why do we have to? I'm really not feeling this. Lame.



Dang that PC! It is once again spyware-infested but this time I admit it's my fault. Ads' been popping up every now and then. I've got 3 softwares to sweep those nasty ads but they're persistent. F*ck! Why do humans have to be so greedy with money? They don't respect other people, all they care for is making money that's why they make these things. Someday I'll find a way to get rid of every one of them. These pop-ups are interrupting my typing. The international community should do something about this.



Anyway, I'm sketching some stuffs that I'm planning to use for my Personal Website project. The new Evanescence website layout is pretty inspiring and I'm already seeing it inside my head, it's gothic, glamorous, and fancy-looking. I'm not sure I can start and finish just in time for submission because it'll require digitally coloring it with Photoshop and having just a mouse to do thesmudging is a lot of work plus the encoding. But I really wish to finish it. Another YAY for me!



Just finished 2 books: Beast by Donna Jo Napoli and Quadehar the Sorcerer by Erik L'Homme and I plan to get another one to read. I want to write reviews but I'll just get to that when I get to have a free time.



My wishlist is growing but all I can have for the moment is patience. I just wish I live to see the day I get to by everything that I am dreaming of.

Wednesday, August 2, 2006

Palad Workshop

Start:     Aug 10, '06
End:     Aug 11, '06
Location:     CET AVR, Jose Basa Hall
Laissez Faire, Fare Hike, O si Fairy Godmother.

Interesting...