Anything but forgivable

I should be something else but just like having a hungover, you have to throw up everything so you can be sober again.

Let me puke this at you. Here goes.

I got this text text message from someone this morning saying she wanted to see me some time because she's said 'cause she broke up with her boyfriend. And this person who sent this message is the same person who told me before that she wanted to see me, because her mom wanted to see me because she always uses me as an excuse. She tells her mom that she's with me when actually she's with her boyfriend. So what am I, your scapegoat? Your fall guy? Your dupe?

Fuck you. t(=__=)t

I tried forgetting what you did to me. We've been friends for almost all our lives. I've been your friend since Grade 1, and I think you've forgotten or maybe you do remember that's why you think it's okay to use your friends.

Gokouun o inorimasu

We are told that talent creates its own opportunities. But it sometimes seems that intense desire creates not only its own opportunities, but its own talents. -- Eric Hoffer

We don't grow unless we take risks. Any successful company is riddled with failures. -- James E. Burke

Victory becomes, to some degree, a state of mind. Knowing ourselves superior to the anxieties, troubles, and worries which obsess us, we are superior to them. -- Basil King

When I think of work, it's mostly about having control over your destiny, as opposed to being at the mercy of what's out there. -- Gary Sinise

There are no secrets to success. It is the result of preparation, hard work, learning from failure. -- Colin Powell
 

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I already applied for jobs through JobStreet and JobsDB.

To be successful, you must decide exactly what you want to accomplish; then resolve to pay the price to get it. -- Bunker Hunt

Tama, I remember this part from an episode in the anime series Bleach, basta something about resolve. Darn memory, I don't remember the exact lines pero it's something like if I hold the sword, I cut with it, if I cut, I kill. Basta parang ganun. Anyway...

Best of luck to me.

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We will often find compensation if we think more of what life has given us and less about what life has taken away. -- William Barclay

Whatever you vividly imagine, ardently desire, sincerely believe, and enthusiastically act upon... must inevitably come to pass! -- Paul J. Meyer

When ability exceeds ambition, or ambition exceeds ability, the likelihood of success is limited. -- Ralph Half

There are some people who live in a dream world, and there are some who face reality; and then there are those who turn one into the other. -- Douglas Everett

There is no failure except in no longer trying. There is no defeat except from within, no insurmountable barrier except our own inherent weakness of purpose. -- Elbert Hubbard

Palayaw

Na-tag ng bonggang-bonga ng Her Royal Curliness, Desiree Grace at chill out mode na rin sa bloggy world.

RULES:

1. write down names that people call you. also write who calls you such.

2. tag ten people to do the same thing. >> in this case, tinatamad akong mag-tag so kahit sino na lang maka-trip magsagawa nito, siya na lang.

Okay, let's do this.

~xoxo~

Leigs

>> I grew up by this nickname. Legend: acronym siya ng whole name ko. Ang tumatawag nito sa akin usually 'yung pamilya ko, mga kamag-anakan, mga family friends, mga kapit-bahay at ilang kaibigan.

Levy Eiva

>> Whole name. Tawag sa akin pag galit si Mama ko.

Levz

>> Tawag ng tropa. Tinatamad ata sa 2-syllable first name ko. Hehe

Ate Levy

>> Tawag ng karamihan ng friends ko ngayon na mas bata sa akin.

Levy-chan

>> Started out in Genshi. Pero my closest HF friends also call me this like Rikichan [Jheerick], Pohlee-chan [Paul], Eugene, and the Lit kids. And some DMS people call me na rin this like PJ-sama.

Reigusu

>> Japanese syllabication ng Leigs. I call myself this pati si Patricio a.k.a Synergy saka yung mga dati O.D. kids at Kujibiki Forum-ers.

Levy-boi

>> DMS Batch 11 girls call me this. Sila Marj, Annaboi, Joycen-boi at Issahtot. Hehe

Levy Man

>> Tawag sa akin ni Stan. Ewan ko dun kung bakit.

Eliziel

>> Isang tao pa lang nakakaalam nito. Hehe. Alam niya na yun. XP

Levi [lee-vay]

>> Tawag sa akin ni Sir Bertudez at ng ibang prof na sumasama ata ang loob pag Levy [le-vee] ang basa sa pangalan ko. Haha.

Livi [lee-vee]

>> Tawag sa akin ni Ellen, bisaya kasi. Peace.

Evil Eye

>> Mula sa Yvelei or binaliktad na Levy Ei[va]. Palayaw ng friends from the earlier, BCS days. Usually gamit ko to sa game. Feeling gamer kasi ako kahit di magaling.

Levoisier

>> Got this from the name of a scientist. Back in my highschool days, I used to be called Levy Genius, and I have, once, adopted the names of famous scientist [Levy Einstein Graham...]

Levy Hunter

>> Highschool, WWE days. WWF pa nun at hardcore fan ako ni Triple H.

Avril Levy-gne

>> Fotcha. Patay na 'yung huling taong tumawag sa akin nito. Bwahaha.

Backstreet Spice

>> Hardcore fan din ako ng BSB at Spice girls. Me and my cousins had this group and parang Spice Girls we had aliases like one of my cousins was Candy Spice.. Blah-blah. Basta yun.

Mrs. Domingo

>> Back in my Cogie Domingo love affair heydays. Hehehehe my friends called me this.

Kikay

>> Sa recently-concluded DMS beach party, mala-Kiko porma ko kasi I wore my pseudo-tiger tooth necklace and my wooden beads bracelets and alam naman ng lahat na lab-lab ko si Kiko so my friends coined the name Kikay for me.

Cuz-in-law

>> Kung ikaw si Eugene, alam mo na kung bakit and I really lahvet. Kinikilig ako.

Leviticus, Leviathan, Levy Celerio

>> Tropa rin.

Marinella

>> Kung ikaw si Shaira at si Dez. First day pa lang ata ng pagkakakilala namin eh nag-click na kami dahil dito. Hehe Mami-miss ko yung dalawang yun tuloy.

I Levy [love] you

>> Si bernie Mac at si Kahlil-yow. Haha

Leyvee

>> Ilang piling-piling HF people: Jeerek, Pohlee, Kibehn, Kineht, etc. Wala trip lang, yung pinapahaba yung name tapos matigas yung pagkakabigkas.

Lieve LeStat Levesque

>> My vampire name. Alias na rin sa dati kong banda. Got Lieve from Lev[y] Ei[va], LeStat from my favorite character in Gothic Literature and Levesque from Paul levesque na real name ni Triple H. Hahaha. Cool, eh?

Levy-devy

>> Tawag sa akin ng bestfriend ko from the earlier BCS days na si Bevy-wevy [Beverly]. Wala na akong balita sa kanya. :-)

~xoxo~

Well, wala na akong maisip. Kung may alam ka na wala dito or may tawag ka sa akin na wala dito, reply na lang. Hehehehe. Time to go. Nyt, everyrone!

I need some L

Just when the old battle has been ended and a new one has begun, it is now that I am losing the drive, the lust to live.

You don't really gain freedom after finishing college. It is when you have to work your ass off and earn your living. Welcome to the big, bad world of 'dignified slavery'.

Why can't I just be born rich and chew on the silver spoon in my mouth?

It hits me. Life is good but it was never fair. 

I need to shake thoughts of slack-ery and idleness off my head, and focus. Fuck. And I can't even get started with that blog that I've been wanting to write, and polishing my resume and try getting a job, that hopefully, I can turn into a career.

I should have attended that 'school-to-work transition' seminar they held last year. Now, I'm helpless and clueless.

I need some L. Lust for life.

Kamown, people. Motivate me.

Sabishii

If my heart should shatter watching you,

That would be one less thing I have to prove...

Here without you

Shiawase

let me come to you, close as I wanna be.
close enough for me to feel your heart beating fast
and stay there as i whisper,
'how i love your peaceful eyes on me,
and did you ever know that i got mine on you?'

aymishyu, shiawase ko.
orayt, buhay na naman si levy-chan. sugoi.

I'm ready

...to let go.

I'll be reformatting my USB flash disk and I will forget about all those precious files that I lost and will start anew. The problem is, even the files/software needed for reformatting is lost. The system still won't read it and I don't know what to do anymore. I tried recovering the files using a file recovery software but the recovered files can't be read. I just deleted everything. I guess I have lost mg 8-Gig flash drive to a computer virus and corruption. I have no choice to stick my older 512 flash drive. Now if anybody can help me with reformatting, I would very much appreciate it. Computer hardware just isn't my forte. Thank you very much.


I will post an entry about my weekend beach trip tomorrow or some other day but you will definitely read about it. Soon.

Time to rest for now. Card distribution tomorrow, and a lot more things to finish before 'moving on'.

Ciao!

DLSU-DMS 11th Anniversary Beach Party

DLSU-DMS 11th Anniversary Beach Party
October 18-19, 2008
Nicole Beach Resort (near Punta Fuego)
Munting Buhangin Beach Cove
Brgy. Natipuan, Nasugbu, Batangas

~These are the pictures I took of the beach before, during and after the party. I don't have pictures from the party itself and the 'trips' because I don't have a real camera. Just brought my mom's phone with me.
~Will tell you about this trip through a blog later

More photos: Ma'am Joy, Ma'am Jhen, Jill, Anna, Cenla

O, Diyos ko. Katapusan na nga ba ng mundo?

Back to zero? I need help.

Ang daming sinasabi ng mga tao na wala namang koneksyon at di naman nakakatulong.

Di ko alam kung paano nangyari pero kailangan ko ng tulong.  Nawawala na naman ang files ko. Corrupted na naman ang flsh disk? Ewan. Ginagamit ko pa sya kanina. Habang nagse-save ako, ilang beses lumabas ang autoplay. Kin-ancel ko syempre. Tapos biglang ayaw na siyang basahin ng PC. Naging RAW 'yung flash disk at kailangan i-format. Nawala na naman lahat ng files ko. Tinry ko sa ibang pc, unrecognized device na siya.

Kailangan ko ma-recover lahat ng files. Kung may nakakaalam kung paano, please... Tulungan ninyo ako. Salamat ng marami. Di ko na naman alam ang gagawin ko. May hiningan na ako ng tulong pero di naman nila masagot ang tanong ko. Wala na namang makatulong sa akin.

Ang alam ko may warranty pa sya pero di ko alam kung maibabalik ko pa yung mga files na nasa loob ng USB na yun. Di ko kailangan ng bagong USB, kailangan ko yung files ko. Importante yung lahat lalo na yung pictures ni Kiko.

Tangina talaga. tt

Hello, world.

Okay. So it freaks me out how people that I do not personally know read my blogs.

I tried to change my viewing status to 'For contacts only'. I was halfway finished with the entries on the first page of the blogs' page when I figured that it's not like I'm a public figure trying to keep my private life from the public's eye. And I feel bad when no one is viewing my post, it feels like nobody cared. Now that some people I do not know coming from I-dunno-where are viewing some of my posts, my prayers are answered. And it's not like I'm a criminal and this is my murder diaries. And  I have too many posts already and it would be bothersome to go back at them one post after the other and change the access. Waste of time and energy. And, duh, I do that too. I take peeps from time to time at some of my favorite people's site or some random individuals' when I'm searching for something. Who knows, I might even gain popularity by letting these people read the stupid things that I write here.

Maybe I'll try writing things with more sense or maybe I'll just forget about it.

I just found some 'connections' with some of the people who reads my journals and some other something-somethings that.. Gahaa~ nevermind.

With that, I welcome and encourage those people I know to read more of everything that I post here and those I don't know, to visit often. Maybe you'll find something interesting. I hope?

G'morning world!

Survivor, AYOS.

Siyeeeht. Exhilirating.

Nae-excite tuloy akong pumunta sa dagat. Nae-excite akong matuto lumangoy. Pengeng pera! Woooh. Di lang ito tungkol kay Kiko. Ayos talaga. Ramdam ko. Todo. Pati paghinga ko, feeling ko ako yung tumatakbo saka lumalangoy. Limot panandalian ang mga problema, excitement galore. Adrenalin. Lakas, pare. Natural high. Survivor Philippines ROCK.

Yeah, ilang tulog na lang [wala pa akong pera] beach party na!

The adventure begins when adrenalin kicks in. - LEiGS, 2008

Pengeng pera

Ang nagmamahal at ang panatiko

Atraksyon, paghanga sa mga TV personality, panatisismo nga lang ba? Malandi ka ba 'pag marami kang crush? Ang pamantayan mo ba ay nasusukat lang sa panlabas na anyo at pisikal na kakayahan?

Hindi kaya mas tamang sabihin na iniibig natin, napapamahal sa atin ang isang bahagi ng pagkatao ng taong hinahangaan natin na inihahain sa atin?

Hindi ba kaya tayo humahanga dahil naantig tayo sa taong ito, isang partikular na emosyon o damdamin ang pino-provoke nila, iyon bang sinasabing 'plucked a heart string' at nagdudulot ng inspirasyon.

Ang isang parteng ibinabahagi ay nagiging bahagi na rin ng pagkatao ng taong pinagbabahaginan.

Ang minsang pag-ibig at paghanga sa isang tao o bagay ay habambuhay nang tumatatak sa atin. Nag-iiwan ito ng marka, gaya ng lahat ng bagay na nagdadaan sa buhay natin. May impact o epekto sa 'tin. Sa malaki man o mumunting paraan ay binabago tayo nito. Nagiging bahagi na sila ng ating buhay at pagkatao.

Tinuturuan tayo nitong manalig, maniwala at 'wag mawalan ng pag-asa.

Sa pamamagitan nito, nabubuo natin ang ilan nating pangarap; nagkakaroon tayo ng something to look forward to sa hinaharap. Mas nadaragdagan ang lakas nating magpatuloy sa kabila ng sunud-sunod na mga paghamon.

Gumuguhit ito ng ngiti kahit sa ating pag-iisa.

Bakit tayo humahanga? Nagigising ang isang bahagi ng ating mga sarili na di pa natin natutuklasan. Marahil ay nakikita natin ang bahagi ng sarili natin na di natin alam na meron pala tayo o di kaya naman ay nakikita natin sa kanila ang di natin makita sa sarili natin. ANg pag-ibig/ paghanga sa kanilia ay nabibigyan tayo ng kabuuan, ng sense of wholeness. Mas nakikilala natin ang katauhan natin at tinutulungan naman tayo nito sa pagkilala sa iba.

Pinag-aaralan, kinikilala natin nang husto ang taong hinahangaan at masiguro natin na karapatdapat sila sa pagmamahal at paghangang ibinibigay natin. At kahit paano, di man natin ma-meet ng personal ang taong hinahangaan ay masasabi nating lubos natin itong nakilala at maa-appreciate natin ang ligayang ibinigay nila sa buhay natin. Nagiging daan din ang inspirasyon na ibinigay nila sa atin tungo sa personal na pag-unlad at pagbabago dahil naiisip nating mas magiging katanggap-tanggap tayo sa taong ating hinahangaan.

Nagkakaroon din tayo ng sense of destiny, naniniwala tayo na ang pagkakataon ng pagkakatagpo o pagkakakilala at mga pagkakapareho sa taong hinahangaan ay tinadhana. Na ang sanlibutan ay nagkukusang gumawa ng paraan na magkita kayo, muling magkatagpo.

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Ang paghanga at pag-ibig ay iisa. Kaya nga lagi kong sinasabi, I LOVE YOU, KIKO

Spoiler

Mister Tortoise

...

Sound, spirits and some sense

One of my former bandmates, Miah Manuel, is a member of Sense of Sound from UST. He's one of the best guitarist I've ever met. Knowing him personally, knowing how good he his in his craft, and knowing how far he's gone since we last played together, I can't help but be proud of him. I haven't heard from him since I last saw him during my birthday, July of last year. I only found out about the NU thingy through another friend and former bandmate, Bryan, through his bulletin post in Friendster.

Please vote for SENSE OF SOUND at NU107 ROCK AWARDS for Smart/URock College Band of the Year. Log on to www.nu107fm.com. REGISTER to VOTE! Thanks. Please repost.

You can check them out through these sites:
friendster.com/senseofsound
earsandrhymes.multiply.com
myspace.com/sosph

Grabe naman. Ako na lang ata ang di umaasenso sa amin ng mga dati kong ka-banda sa Veiled in Shadows. Si Miah, lead guitar is doing good with his band, may band din ata ngayon si Kong, bass, pati si JM, drums. At pati ata si Bryan, keyboards and 2nd guitar, currently residing in Japan ay ayos ngayon. Na-miss ko tuloy ang pagpe-perform with a band kaya lang.. May offer man na isali ako sa band pero wala na rin akong masyadong drive. Ewan. Wala na 'yung dati kong 'spirit' sa ganyang bagay. Pag naibalik ko yung spirit na yun, susubukan ko ulit. At baka yan pa ang maging sagot ko sa kahirapan. Haha, Japan-japan? Lol.

Anyway, madaming tumatakbo sa isip ko ngayon. Madami pa nga akong gustong i-blog ngayong araw pero di pa kakayanin ngayon. Gulu-guluhan pa ang drama ng utak ko. Di pa ako lubusang makapagpahinga sa pag-iisip kasi alam kong di pa ako sigurado kung tapos na nga. Sa isang linggo pa pa ang labas ng mga grades kaya di pa ako makapanatag. Ang dami pa ring kailang i-settle bago ako umalis gaya na lang ng mga utang ko. Kamown. Natatalo ng disappointment ang excitement ko. Di ko makuhang magsaya. Di na masyadong pagod ang utak ko pero nag-iisip pa rin sya, nag-aalala.

Madami pa rin akong gagawin. Bago yan, kakain muna ako.

Aylabshyu, Kiko!

..

Isang beses nagkaroon ako ng isang masayang pakikipagtalakayan sa isang mas nakababatang kaibigan. Nagka-kwentuhan ng mga alaala at pakikipagsapalaran ng kabataan. Sa mga napagusapan namin, napaisip ako. Kung hindi ako napadako sa parteng ito ng mundo, hindi ko siguro makikita ang mga nakikita ko ngayon, naisin ko man sa ibang buhay siguro gaya pa rin ako ng dati na may pagnanasa pero pasibo sa pag-abot nito. Nabanggit sa pag-uusap namin ang mga pangyayari at tanawin na amin nang natunghayan. Bundok-- napagusapan namin ang mga bundok na nakita at naakyat namin, at mga aakyatin pa. Biglang nagbalik sa akin, wala akong alaala ng bundok. Wala ata akong maalala sa kabataan ko na nakakita ako ng bundok. Hilig kong kalugdan ang mga likas na yaman at ganda ng mundo na nakikita ko sa mga larawan at sa telebisyon ngunit kahit naisip ko kung gaano kaganda ang mpuntahan ang mga lugar na yon, di ko ata naisip na gagawin. May alaala ako ng dagat, iba't ibang dagat, talon, ilog, mga hayop sa zoo pero di ko maalala kung may nakita na akong bundok noon.

What good is tomorrow without a guarantee?

Sembreak na. Break na nga ba?

Sinimulan ko ang araw na ito nang walang kasiguruhan at may pagaalinlangan. Ito 'yung mga pagkakataong iniiwan mo na lang sa mga Nakatataas na Kapangyarihan at sa kamay ng kapalaran ang kahihinatnan ng mga bagay-bagay. Halos maubos ang utak ko sa pagkalusaw at pati katinuan ko'y muntikan ko nang isuko sa langit. Ito ang araw. Ramdam ko ang bigat ng mundong ipinapasa sa akin. Nakagapos ang kamay ko sa expectation ng lahat. Labu-labo na ang tumatakbo sa utak ko. Para akong bilanggong naghihintay sa araw ng bitay. Di pa ako tuluyang makapagpaalam sa yugtong ito ng buhay ko dahil di ko pa rin alam kung ano ang dapat kong asahan o kung mayron nga akong maaasahang kahit ano. Bawat wakas ay may kaakibat na bagong simula pero tapos na nga ba? Meron na nga bang masisimulan?

Hindi ko rin alam.

Sakto.

The Judgment card came out twice and good cards came out with it. My readings are good and consistent. Things, again, are starting to go my way. You may not think it's a good  believing these things but, see, what I don't get from people [read:humans], I look for somewhere else.

Disclaimer? Well, sort of; Okay, so I'm into these things. Don't think I'm weird. I'm in my natural state. Don't even try talking to me about religion, my beliefs may not be in synch with everyone else. But, see, what makes me different, makes me beautiful. Mind your own business. Thanks. Hehe.
 

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Universal 6 Cards
This is a good reading to simply ‘get a snapshot’ of how things are with you generally, at this moment in time. It can also be used to answer specific questions.

how you feel about yourself now (Judgement)

You feel this is an end to an era or at least a certain phase of your life - you are taking stock and looking where you want to go from here. This ending is not one for regret but for rejoicing. Soon you will enjoy the rewards for your past efforts. As with any period of endings, many opportunities will present themselves and the choice that you make will have far reaching implications that could change your life dramatically. Any legal issues should be ruled in your favour.

what you most want at this moment (The Emperor)

The cards suggest that what you most want at this time is success and achievement, and the support and influence of perhaps your father, husband/partner or a man of significance in your life who you believe could help.

your fears (The World)

You are afraid of taking action and lack confidence and will power, but this is a time to be positive and proactive, otherwise you will experience loss of momentum, delays and stagnation. Completion and success are only a step away, don’t give up, lose heart or change direction when you are so close to the finish line.

what is going for you (The Hanged Man)

With patience this passive time, this time of feeling in limbo and indecision, will pass. You will know what decisions to make, what or who to let go of and how to move on. Whatever self-sacrifice you have to make you will feel a better and stronger person for it.

what is going against you (The Lovers)

Are you suffering in silence in an unhappy relationship or feeling very lonely? Do you have the courage to make the decision you really know you should make? You have a great sense of duty but are you happy? A difficult decision has to be made - have courage and you will achieve emotional happiness.

outcome (The Tower)

A period of dramatic change and upheaval, however this period of change will herald a new beginning. It is time to re-evaluate - sometimes, as difficult as the disappointment has been to take, change can create new possibilities you never dreamed of. There could be problems relating to your property, or if considering a new property or move, progress will be thwarted.

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Sorry, kids

But after this Friday, ayoko munang makakita ng computer.

'Di lang prito, roasted at well-done na ang mata ko. Konti na lang baka mamatay na 'ko. 'Di pa rin tapos ang project ko, I'm a day late for presentation at feeling ko may brain cancer na 'ko. 'Di lang mata ko ang masakit kundi pati ang ulo ko. Wala pa akong maayos na tulog. Kaya kung may commitment ako sa inyo [kung meron, huh? pag meron, okay pero pag wala, wag ninyo akong bigyan. wala kayong maaasahan sa 'kin for now. mas mahalaga ang mata ko kaysa sa inyo, haha] at may kinalaman ito sa computer, time out muna. Usap tayo ng Saturday. 'Yun ay kung mahanap niyo ko.

And I'm broke as usual. Kaya kung may lakaran, other than those na a few weeks back ko pang naplano [beach party, midyear workshop], medyo malabo. After Friday, stuck muna ako sa bahay, okay. 'Wag ninyong ipilit unless gusto ninyong kayo ang pumunta sa akin dito sa bahay at dito natin gawin yan. Okay ako dun, sagot ko merienda.

And baka ibenta ko na rin ang cellphone kong magkakalahating dekada na sa akin. Parang tao, nagma-malfunction na sa katandaan at medyo mura na lang benta sa kanya pero nevermind.Baka mawalan tayo ng means of communication. Well, SMS lang naman mawawala. Lagi pa rin akong mago-OL dito sa YM at sa Friendster. Di pa naman ngayon, sabihan ko na lang kayo. *wink*

Bad vibes? Sensya na. Bear with me, transition mode tayo eh. Alam ninyo naman siguro na last sem ko na 'to at maraming pagbabagong mangyayari kung anu't anuman. Di pa naibababa ang judgement [kamown, ang grades ko] pero umaasa ako at marami pa akong inaasahan pagkatapos nyan.

Pangunawa at pakikisama at maging masaya na lang sana kayo para sa akin. Salamat.

Happy weekend everyone.

Coming to an end

There are times in our lives when we must accept inevitable change and allow things to come to a natural end.

The Judgment card is often referred to as a time of resurrection and awakening, a time when a phase or period of our life comes to an absolute end making way for dynamic new beginnings.

It may be that a long-term relationship or marriage has had its time and whilst it may feel painful to accept this finality, the Judgment card is saying try and accept that this is a time of fast-moving, positive change and action for you.

Whether it’s the end of a career, a time when your children have flown the nest, or a turn of events that make you wish your life was different, this card represents karmic change and it indicates that bigger and better things are yet to come into your life.

Quite often, fantastic events and opportunities follow sad and difficult challenges and this card can represent any events that may feel like ‘Judgment Day’ has come.  Changes that may be indicated upon the appearance of this card can be significant, so this would not be a time for regret and fear but a time for courage and rejoicing in what you have achieved and what you are yet to achieve.

Your life may well pick up a pace when this card appears, so whatever future possibilities are indicated in your reading, these events may happen quite quickly.

If the Judgment card comes up in a reading about legal issues, it is a positive sign that any ruling will be in your favor. However, if this card is surrounded by negative cards, it may indicate legal battles ahead and the possibility of having a ruling made against you.

In general readings, if this card is surrounded by negative cards, it could be that the swift conclusions foretold by the positive aspect of this card may be delayed.  This can mean that you are fearful of such significant change and may be ignoring opportunities that may well promise a brighter future.

I also feel that when this card comes up, it’s important to and use your own judgment wisely not to judge yourself too harshly. It is a signal for you to open your heart and mind to accept that all things come to an end and nothing lasts forever, yet for each ending there is always a new beginning.

Embrace such significant and inevitable change and a whole new world of opportunity can unfold for you – the Judgment card is a calling for you to be all that you can be.

Love and Joy,
Alison Day
Lotus Tarot

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Sana this is it na nga talaga. This could be an omen, a sign ng katapusang inaasam ng maraming tao sa paligid ko. Sana makita ng mga tao ang effort kong gawin ang mga dapat kong gawin at hindi ang kahinaan ko sa paggawa nito.

Dahil jan, next time ko na itutuloy ang blog tungkol dito. May kailangan pa akong tapusin para makatapos. Goodluck.

Pandora's Box

And all that is left is...

...something I'm running out of ...

...something I need right now ...

...something you could give me ...

Hope.

Making progress

 
And the deadline is a few days away. I'm trying hard, doing the best I can.

Pray for me. Wish me luck.

Presentation, and then exams. And then, off to vacation.

Uno is all I ask for.

Now. Lemme have it. Bring it on.

I can feel

I can feel

A rope tied in slipknot around my neck

I'm running out of everything I'm running after

Time is slipping away like that chair I stand on,

Under my feet, below that hung rope

I'm thinking

Of jumping off and let it wring the life out of me

Tonight, I write my own elegy

This is poetry of some sorts 

Distraction

Disturbance

Commotion

This is everything, this is all

I can feel

Let me say 'goodbye' one last time

This is a total waste of web space but I just have to say this, got to let this out of my system.

You have proven everyone, those who have spoken against you, those who have started hating what has been done to you, right all along. I'm so frustrated, upset and disappointed. They have changed you. You lost your beauty, your essence. I used to be proud of you but they have tainted your youth and spirit with close-mindedness, childish pride self-righteousness, and immaturity. Would you blame me now why I chose not to be part of you anymore? I don't even want to remember that I was a part of you. You are not who we thought you were. You are not who you used to be. You are not the you I used to know. The you that you were don't exist anymore. I tried my best to hold on to what I found in you, only to lose it along with the faith in you that I lost too. I walked away in silence because I thought you still deserve respect. I still have some friends in your care but, seems to me they are overpowered, they are overruled. You are all engrossed with yourselves, you forgot everyone else. I left because I lost my home in you.

I'm afraid I won't be here anymore if you need me. I cannot stay where I don't belong, I cannot be where I'm not needed. I guess this is goodbye.

No more GSK for me. For me, GSK is no more.

Goodluck na lang sa inyong lahat. Ingat kayo.

One more week

 
Then it's party time.










Let it roll.

It is so. Yeah.

It's a better time to play and party than it is to study and focus. Go loosen up!

It's a better time to play and party than it is to study and focus. It's not necessarily that you aren't capable of getting serious right now, it's just that there are going to be way too many fun social things going on! You can try to resist the call to good times, but you probably won't make it past the afternoon before you've got to give in and have fun! You can get the rest of your work done tomorrow. You deserve a chance to loosen up! (Cancer - Friendster Horoscope, 02-Oct-08)

And I was planning to REALLY work on my project the day after today, Friday. Hehehehe.

Even the stars say so. Now, let's do it. Woooh.