Nakakainis ang ganitong buhay...

'lang 'yang buhay 'yan... Wala na namang cable. Nakakasawa ang gan'tong buhay. Sana mayaman na lang ako...



This darn fact makes me freaking sick. I wish I had so much more. I know I will, but why can't I have it now when I want it. Buti, oppotunities present themselves to me so I can somehow get some of the little things I want. My heart is happy but at the same time discontented. I usually get tired of routines and I somehow find to alter the usual things I have to deal with but this one... I can do nothing but wait. I remember a teaching in Buddhism that says something like material wants is what makes people suffer and they are right but I just can't find the heart to deny myself of these wants. It gives us a certain kind of pain when we crave for something but when we get to have it, it somehow becomes a piece of the puzzle that someday, when we get everything we want, makes us complete. I don't know. I just can't help but think how I've been living the same way of life for the last 20 years and how the situations gets more and more dissatisfying every single day. Ok, I'm lucky to be able to eat anything I want, spoil myself sometimes but I just can't get enough. Some people have nothing AT ALL and compared to them, they may think I have everything and more of what they could have wanted but I'm just too self-centered right now to think of other people. And I can't give what I don't have, the satisfaction of having just enough.



Anyway, school's, as always, fine except for Physics which is and always will be a pain in the you-know-what. Chances are coming one after the other, and I hope I'm doing the right thing of making every chance an opportunity. Time's running so fast and in a few weeks, it'll be Christmas break, BAKASYON NA NAMAN!, but of course EXAM MUNA. Wishlist, wishlist. I can have my grandparents to buy me the stuffs I want but.. but... If only I was born a sweet child, that which we call MALAMBING in Filipino, maybe I can have my way. I wasn't born as thick-skinned as my brothers, and not as malambing, sipsip and charing as my cousins. Aw-aw-aw! I wasn't even born to be confident. Nobody taught me that. Kung bibo lang sana ako... Wehehe! parang tanga. Hahaha! Intsek? Intsekure? Hehehe. No way! Naawa lang ako sa sarili ko.



Things could have been so much better and I could have had a lot more...

Eragon

Start:	Dec 15, '06
Location:	theatres near you

a gotta-watch movie from a gotta-read book

Wacom Philippines Multimedia Design Conference: Graphika Manila 2006

Start:	Dec 2, '06
Location:	Premiere Cinema, SM Mall of Asia, Bay City

Filipinos are on the cutting edge of web, flash, multimedia designs, and animation. Graphic designers and animators are quickly gaining importance in business today. Graphika Manila will gather 1200 of the brightest and most creative young artists in the industry. Wacom will give a presentation in this seminar on the benefits of Wacom products and solutions to the different segments of the design and animation industries.



http://www.graphikamanila.com/



*ILIBRE NYO NAMAN AKO PARA MAKA-ATTEND AKO DITO* sigh~

Harry Potter and the Order of the Phoenix

Start:	Jul 13, '07
Location:	At cinemas near you

5th installment.. gotta watch!

My perfect birthday gift for myself...

DLSU-D Student Idols

Start:	Nov 21, '06 4:00p
Location:	DLSU-D Auditorium

Some of DLSU-D's best solo singers belting their lungs out for the title...

I'm going to watch this to show love and support for my friend, Felson.

Angsty Rant

We all have our own set of feelings. It may all be the same feelings but comes differently to different people. I know how I feel about feelings when I feel it but I don't know how it feels like to other people hen they feel it. I claim to know it all but the truth is, I just assume that I know. Realizing how I've been for the last ten years, I've been self-centered. I cared genuinely for the people I cared for with all sincerity I can give but my priority's always been myself. I don't know. There's just so much I want to get out of life and most of the time I just had to do things myself to get it and the people around aren't always of great or not even any help. It made me independent in my own sense, a bit untrusting, and insensitive. It's not always bad but not always good either. It messes with me, my personality and my feelings, and how I interact with people, but it makes me different. Haha. Why am I saying this? Well, I just want to sympathize with the people who didn't get to see the world the way I did. At 20, I still haven't seen a lot but the very little that I've seen was shown to me by the world and my fate in a different light like a work of art; Different colors, different media, different lightings, different techniques, different angles, different expressions. You learn to appreciate beauty and make an art yourself.



Well, well. I guess that's not bitin anymore. Aw-aw! Hehe.



Christmas time is coming... my wishlist is getting longer but... You have to know what the real problem here is... Clue? It's made of special kind of paper, printed with a special kind of ink, and the other form is made of some metals. It's so unfair having to think that the people who has "it" and has more than they need just don't appreciate it and throw it some place. I wish I get to have the same kind of privilege but I can only wish. Nothing else. I wasn't born with that lifestyle but maybe if I work hard, I, too, can live the "life". Another thing annoying me right now... Those you think are less deserving gets to realize your dream earlier than you can. Seems like this is how close I can get for now from living my fantasies. Envy? Not really. I just don't understand why others have to have that much already early in their life and I don't. People younger than me have gone so much further than I already have. Makes me sick of this ordinary life. I think, I believe, I know I deserve better, there's a lot of so-much-better things.



I just wish I so much more that I already have, and things get a lot better than this. I just wish.

Ano nah?!

It's really fun having old friends around but good things must come to an end, like all the hanging out. We could still hang out but not as often as we do now in college. It's good that they took their back subjects with my present class. We had a really good time this afternoon, everybody was talking s**t and I was LMAO! Haha. Man, I'll miss these moments.



Ah! Even Westerners [Europeans and Americans] love Anime, mangas, and CosPlay. I wanna be in a CosPlay too but I have no costume, no whatsoever yet. Nothing. And I don't even know which Anime I want to portray. Darn. Inggit ako!



Been sick for two night, Tuesday and Wednesday. Wala lang.



Ok, this is so annoying. A few minutes ago, I had so much to write and now everything just slipped. I'm back to my same old cluelessness. Darn. Darn.



I remembered something. That darn Physics.. Imagine. Nose bleeding and eyes twitching. Numbers, Xs, Ys, Greek letters, mathematical symbols, and more numbers are eye sores.

the usual

The love grows stronger, my heart cries harder... I want to go Japan! Anime is the life. Man, even in my sleep I see anime. Aww...



I rocked in Halflife! It was the first time in years that I played Counter-Strike last Thursday and it's really fun playing it with friends. I didn't get to kill that much but I was dang good. Haha. I suck at DotA but I rule CS. Beat that! Hehe.



I can't lie. I'm happy at the same time I'm not. I can't elaborate. I'm not being evil, just don't know where to place my heart. Gomen ne.

HF Alipato seminar

Start:	Nov 9, '06 12:00p
Location:	CET AVR

Day 5: Graphic Designing w/ Team Manila

Back to school!

I haven't written anything in a while but actually there is and was so much to write. Just can't find the write words and it may not be enough and I might run out ending up in another Bitin post. Haha, excuses? Yeah. I am feeling kind of lazy but I've been busy the past few days window-shopping online. Anime is the life! I just have to have it! I do have to save for it, and try my best to scour Manila so I can buy all those anime stuffs I've been drooling on or have my friend, who currently lives in Japan, find it for me, or if all else fails I would have to buy it online though it's way more expensive if I get to buy it here or in Japan. I want to cry. I was earlier joking with my friend about having to migrate to Japan but I really want to. I wish I can go to Japan. It's anime-heaven there. I can go to Japan but not now. Maybe after I graduate. Oh, why can't it be now. I wish they'd send me to japan instead of Germany. Aw, aw.



Semestral break is officially over and I'll be back in school tomorrow. Man, it'll be back to work for me. Aw-aw-aw!



Yay! I love YouTube! I get to finish whole seasons of Ayashi No Ceres and Fushigi Yuugi, the 3 Sailor Moon Movies, and the 3 FY OVAs. Unfortunately, for most of the time I had to depend on reading the subtitles because the speakers still aren't fixed yet. I prefer the animes in Japanese but I prefer hearing it in Japanese while I read the subtitles. It feels dumb to watch and just read without having to hear anything. Aw. Now, I wanting those anime vids more and more. And, oh, I want the mangas too. Oh.. And posters.. Oh.. And cards.. Oh..

Third Annual Cavite Hardcore Fest

Start:	Nov 11, '06 4:00p
Location:	Part One Bistro Music Bar and Restaurant (formerly Xsopit) Near La Salle Dasmarinas, Cavite

Feud (Cavite)
Nuclear Punishment (Cavite)
Sauna (Batangas)
ChokeCocoi (Lucena)
Divided We Fall (Laguna)
Utter Dismay (Manila)
Defiant (Baguio)
Isvarah (Manila)
Bystorm (Manila)
Survival of the Fittest (Batangas)
Fist Foundation (Olongapo)
No Peace in Silence (Bulacan)
Lost of Control (Manila)
Killratio (Manila)
Censorshit (Cavite)
Play (Bulacan)
Beauty of Doubt (Manila)
Failure (Batangas)

Doors open at 4pm
Show starts at 5pm
P50 Damage