Tuesday, January 29, 2008

Guess who's coming back?

When you come back, I'd [hopefully] still be here

In my dreams you are still here, like you've always been

Ikuta Toma

Ikuta Toma as Junpei Oribe of Hana Yori Dango 2 Returns
Don't you think kamukha sya ni...

Monday, January 28, 2008

Changing Route

I'm taking on a new challenge.

It's really something I used to do but haven't for a while. Not sure if I can make it on top but I think I already have the push I need to start moving. About the outcome... I guess we'll find out when judgement day comes. 

I am literally changing route. I don't think I'll be seeing or letting some people see me and hear from me for a while. They are annoyingly serious and, well, it's annoying me. I mean, they don't mind it when they're the ones doing the "annoyance" or when the "beautiful people" are doing it to them or doing it with them but if it's the just-cute-person, they treat you like thrash. Have it your way then. And you're wondering why I hardly choose being with you over being with my other friends? You tell me. I thought I've gotten over this feeling about you but I guess I never had, and never will. Goodbye for now.

Is it just me or people never learned to understand? They try to impale you with their righteousness, they try to change you with their own sense of maturity, making themselves believe that they're right and you have to listen to them without having to listen to you. My feelings has got a lot to do with my actions, everything actually. Hurt me and I bite back, use me and lie to me, and I will never talk to you again, be a good friend to me and you have my loyalty, I will take care of you and protect you with my life, those kind of things. How I treat people depends on how they treat me. I act civilly to my enemies, my anger may subside but it never dies out, betraying my friendship is the same as killing it, and when it's dead, you're forever marked and nothing can make my resentment over you change. That's just how it is. Stop. Don't. Never try to change it 'cause unless I let you, you can never change it. I just might hate you too. Don't make me because when I do, I don't regret it. I have no remorse over hating people. I only hate people when I think they deserve being hated. I don't always state my reasons but everything is not without reason. I've explained all you need to know but it's useless because you never liked reading and you will never get to read this blog and I will never hear these things directly from me. You know I'm not confrontational. You know I'm a little bit introverted. You know I keep most of everything to myself even if it kills me. Your loss.

Finally, I'm giving in to my wanderlust. Been wanting to go to different places forever but never liked travelling. I love feasting my eyes on the wonders of natures, indulging them on frail beauties but only in pictures since I've never gotten over the fear of getting lost. That's why I never travel far distances alone. I was never trained to go further than neighboring towns within the province. Well, anyway, when all of this is over, I want to go as far from home as possible with my dearest friends, of course--I can't go alone, hehehe. I just have to survive the exams this week till next week then a few more weeks, and I'll be back outdoors. Nature is my playground, and I'm actually feeling homesick. I want to smell the grasslands and forest and the earth that holds it again. I dunno, it just livens me up when I smell the aroma of open air, it feels like being back out door, out there, far, far from here. Must be what they call "passion", hehehe. I want to go hiking again but ironically, I'm not that excited as I am in the past climbs. I can't even walk livelily. My leg muscles have been aching since I had fever last week, and having postponed the supposed Induction climb kind of delayed, held off the thrill. Unlike before, I don't mind it being put off for an indefinite time. Things are going too fast though I did think it was going too slow before the day came and I'm getting opposing vibes. Not sure from whom, but I trust how I feel, so yeah, something's wrong. But, no matter what, that Puerto Galera trip has got to push through. It will be my first time there, and, I may be scared of dark shallow water and jellyfishes, I love the beach. I love the waters. And I am starting to love the sun. I don't really mind getting sun tanned and who cares about skin cancer? Hahaha.

I went with friends last weekend to party. Hehehe. It was a joint birthday celebration of Carlo, Jet and Andrew. It was fun because it's been a while since I've seen those guys, and they're still the funny creatures that they are when I've last seen him. Got almost drunk with a few shots of Absolut vodka, and a few shots of Muito, not sure what they had in there but it was good. Hahaha. Also had a pleasant sleep, eyes heavy with alcohol-induced sleepiness. There were only 10 or 12 of us. Sayang, it would been more fun if everybody's there but, hey, it's okay. They have work, they have to earn their living, and we're going to Puerto Galera anyway and the others are having their birthday bash this year. Hahahaha. See you all in a few months.

Yeah, I got this cute homemade voodoo doll from a friend today. It's so cute 'cause it looked like me. Hahaha. Love it! I think I'll bleach my hair again so me and my voodoo-chan will stay alike. Thank you very much, Kulas! Thank you very much!

Before I leave, I just wanna share this something-something that I got from somewhere this morning. It is a forecast and I think it is a GO signal to go set out for what I'm planning to get and grab it.

Your path of self-development and expression becomes more and more unusual,
Setting you apart from the crowd and from all that is traditional.

Meet Levy-voodoo-chan!




A voodoo doll made by Kulas. Thank you very much, Apo Kulas!!!

Yeah, it's me.See the highlights? And the black dress and black shoes. hehe With red eyes that others would refer to as "parang dagang costa".

I love it so much, I might wear on my neck once I figure out how to put something to hang it with. Domo, Kulas!

Sunday, January 27, 2008

Something inspirational from the sexy old guy...




I was making a transcription of this this afternoon but since it's audible, I guess there's no need for that anymore.

I have the vids of Gary V's whole set. Maybe I'll post them here some other time.

Enjoy.

Friday, January 25, 2008

[Conclusion] :: No ticket, no entry unless you have your Press ID *winks*

Ito na.

Di ko nabilang kung ilang kanta ang nagawa ng Kundirana pero matapos ang first set ay dumating na ang pinakaiintay ng lahat. Pinakilala nila ang special guest for the night. Lalong lumakas ang tilian.

Unang awit: I will be here. Hindi ko maipaliwanag ang sayang nararamdaman ko. Kanina lang, namomoblema pa ako kung paano makakakuha ng ticket at eto na ako ngayon. Kaharap ang entablado kung saan nagtatanghal ang idolo. Sa buong 30 o mahigit na minuto ng pagtatanghal, para akong lumulutang sa hangin habang minamasdan ang katuparan ng pangarap. Ito na siguro ang push na iniintay ko para ipagpatuloy ang pangarap na halos nakawin sa akin ng pagkakataon. Para bang dinadala ng langit sa direksyon ko ang mga tao upang itulak ako upang magpatuloy sa landas ng kapalaran. Malabo pero kung iisipin: kaya ko tinuloy ang pagsabak sa mountaineering dahil kay Romi Garduce, desididong magsulat ulit dahil kay Lourd de Veyra at ngayon ang matagal ko nang pangarap sa buhay, ang pag-awit.

Pagkatapos ng isang set, pumunta na ng backstage si Gary V at bumalik na ulit sa entablado ang Kundi boys. Nakitili ako, sabi nga, top of my lungs. Hahaha. Cute nila kasi. Sayang. Bakit nga ba di ko naisip ng mga panahong ito na gamitin ang press ID para makapasok backstage. Ma-interview kahit sandali si Gary V at magpa-picture. Pero hindi na bale, ibig sabihin lang nito, hindi pa ito ang huli naming pagkikita. Sana sa susunod na magkita kami, makausap ko na sya at maka-duet. Hindi ko palalampasin pagdating ng panahong iyon.

Nang matapos ang buong concert, syempre, hindi pwedeng hindi kantahin ang Alma Mater Song. Tapos nun, nakigulo ako sa backstage entrance. Buti na lang matangkad si Alain at na-video-han kahit paano ang paglabas ni Gary V. Dahil hindi ko kayang makisiksik sa mga taong nagpapa-autograph at magpa-picture kaya nakuntento na rin ako sa pag-picture sa plate number ng kotse nya. Hehehe. Nang nakasakay na sya ng sasakyan, akala ko tapos na ang gabi. Naglakad ako kasama si Kulas at Alain papuntang Gate 1 habang sinasariwa ang kaganapan ngayon gabi.



Ayos. Buti dun kami dumaan sa may Lake Park. Maliwanag ang La Casita at may mahiwagang tinig na umaawit. Napasilip kami at nakita, ang Chorale na inaawitan si Gary V habang may mga naglalakas-loob na magpakuha ng litrato. Nakuntento na ko na masilip s huling, sa ngayon, pagkakataon na makita ang napakatamis na nyang ngiti at umuwi na kami. Ang likod nya ang huli kong nakita dahil nakaharap ang likod nya sa pasukan ng La Casita at hassle naman sigurong kumain habang maraming nakatitig sayo.

Ang masasabi ko lang: Thank God for Bro. Gus and thank Bro. Gus for Gary V!

Napawi ang galit at pagkayamot na nadama ko ngayon araw na ito. Nagkaron na naman ako ng bagong sigla at bagong inspirasyon. Hindi ko alam kung paano isasara ang post na ito pero ang saya ko lang talaga na nangyari ang mga nangyari. Nandito ako para sa purpose na ito. Nandito ako para danasin ang mga bagay na ito. At masaya ako dahil dito.

Salamat sa lahat, dahil sa lahat, para sa lahat!!!

Amen.

[Part 2] :: No ticket, no entry unless you have your Press ID *winks*

Ituloy na natin ang kwento...

Yun nga may game, pampatanggal antok. Tapos... Basta! Hindi ko na maalala eh. Basta tinapos ang convention sa pamamagitan ng pag-awit ng Alma Mater Song na pinangunahan ng DLSU-D Chorale. Tapos eskapo. Nagpaalam na ako sa iba para pumunta sa opisina ng HF para "magpalamig ng ulo". Sa mga oras na ito nauna na si Alain sa ULS, pinaalis ko na rin si Kulas dahil mga alas-kwatro pa lang ay mahaba na ang pila, alas-singko na ata natapos at malamang pinapapasok na ang mga manonood. Nakarating ako ng office at inabutan sila Kuya Jonas, Travis, Vane, Paul at Rikichan. Gusto manood ng iba pero dahil napaka-ilap ng mahiwagang ticket, kaya ayun, stuck up kami sandali. Habang busy sa kani-kanilang gawain ang iba, nandun ako nakipag-kulitan sa, kanino pa nga ba, OCM na sadyang makulit din. Pisikalan to. Hahahaha. Nagsikuhan kami, nagkwentuhan, nagsikuhan ulit, kumain ng marshmallow na may filling, nag-asaran, at nagsikuhan ulit. Nagpatuloy ito nang ilang minuto hanggang isang tawag sa telepono ang bumago ng sawi kong kapalaran.

*Nag-ring ang pinagpalang telepono*

Sinagot ni Vane, si Dean Martin ang nasa linya. Tinanong kung ilan kami, kung may ticket kami at sinabing hahanapan daw kami ng ticket. Tinanong kung dala namin Press ID namin at itatanong nya daw kung pwede yun para makapasok. Swerte! Lagi kong dala ang Press ID ko. Hahaha. Nabuhayan ako ng loob. Muling nabuhay ang excitement kong nilamon ng pagkayamot. Ilang minuto pa. Inintay ulit namin ang tawag ni Dean. Ayan na't nag-ring ulit ang telepono. Halos mapasigaw ako sa natanggap na balita. Pwede ang Press ID! Huwaaah! Naunawaan ko na ang dahilan ng langit kung bakit hindi natuloy ang pag-akyat namin ng Pulag. Gusto nyang makita ko si Gary V, upang mabuhayan ulit ng loob, upang muling gisingin ang pangarap na tila ba ninakaw sa akin ng panahon. Sobrang nagpapasalamat ako sa langit. Kaya lang isang bagong problema naman ang dumating. Di kasing bigat ng paghahanap ng di mahanap dahil sobrang ilap na ticket pero problema pa rin. Gusto nga manood ng iba pero di naman dala ang ID, merong may dala ng ID pero ayaw naman manood. Huwaaah~ Ano'ng gagawin ko? Sabihin mo, magco-cover ka. Sabihin mo di ka na binigyan ng ticket dahil pwede ang Press ID. Sabi naman ni Paul, "Wag ka na magpalusot. Sabihin mo sabi ni Dean Martin pwede ang ID." Hahaha. Nahihiya akong pumunta dun mag-isa at saka baka mapahiya. Hala. Hahaha. Nagmakaawa ako kay Paul at Rikichan na samahan ako dun.

Makalipas ang ilang minuto, humayo na kami.

Napatigil ako sa may CSO bago pa man ako makatapak sa hagdan pababa. Food trip stop over muna. May nilalantakan ang Genshi na chopsuey at kanin. Sumobra ang pina-cater para sa CSO Convention at may softdrinks pa. Nakikain muna ako. Syempre pinili ko ang gusto kong kainin: cauliflower, baby corn at pusit tapos subo ng konting kanin tapos inom. Solb. Gusto ko pang maki-foodtrip kaya lang iniintay na ako ni Gary V. sa ULS. Hahaha.

Ang ganda ng gabing ito. Makalipas ng ilang pilitin, pumayag na rin si Paul na ihatid ako sa loob ng ULS. Hehehe, Salamat talaga nang sobra! Habang binabagtas namin ang covered walk patungo sa kinaroroonan ng isa sa mga pinakahahangaan kong mang-aawit, bituin. Umiral na naman ang natural na kadaldalan naming tatlo kaya medyo naging maingay kami sa daan. Hahaha, medyo lang talaga. Tinext ko si Alain na puntahan ako sa likod dahil meron pang bakanteng upuan sa pwesto nila. Nandito na kami sa harap. In-inspect ang bags namin tapos pasok. Umalis agad si Paul. Hindi ko maitago ang kaligayahan ko. Sinundo ako ni Alain sa likod at to my surprise, ang ganda ng pwesto nila. Hindi ganun kalapit sa stage pero ayos na rin ang view kaysa sa gilid-- bleachers. Ilang kanta pa lang daw ang Kundirana. Nandito na ako. Simula na ng gabing kay ganda.

Sa tv ko unang nakita ang Kundirana Batch 2008. Hindi ko sila actually na-appreciate non pero sa personal, may tatlong nag-standout sa cuteness. Merong tinilian ang mga kababaihan. 'Yung isa kamukha daw ni Richard Gutierrez at kung hindi ako nagkakamali, Paulo ata ang pangalan, yung isa namang crowd favorite din ay si Joseph, na sa aking palagay ay kahawig ni Sehn, isang kasamahan sa HF, at yung isa ay di ko kilala. Ayos ang mga boses pero di pa rin maitatanggi na si Gary V ang ipinunta ng karamihan ng mga tao dun. Isa na namang pagkakataon kung saan naiisip kong magiging mas masaya sana kung meron akong matinong, mahusay, at malupet na digital camera at video o di kaya'y mas maaasahang cellphone camera. Ang ganda talaga ng ULS ngayon. Bigla ko tuloy naalala ang kauna-unahan kong concert na napanood at kauna-unahan ko ding pagtapak sa Araneta Coliseum dalawang taon na ang nakakaraan. Reminiscent ang itsura nya ngayon sa mga araw na yun. Ang ilaw, ang tugtog, ang mga sigawan, at knowing na matutupad na naman ang isa sa laksa-laksa kong pangarap: Ang mapanood ng live si Gary V.

to be continued, last part: conclusion, hehehe...

[Part 1] :: No ticket, no entry unless you have your Press ID *winks*

Kapalaran ko na nandito ako ngayong gabi sa harap ng computer para sariwain ang napakagandang karanasan ko ngayong pinagpalang araw na ito.

Magsisimula na syang kumain ng hapunan sa La Casita nung nadaanan namin sya. Papauwi na kami pero napasilip dahil nakita ko ang kotse nya sa tapat ng kainan at narinig namin ang napakagandang awit ng DLSU-D Chorale. Tama kami. Andun sya. Hinaharana habang may ilang taong naglakas-loob na lumapit sa kinauupuan nya at magpakuha ng litrato. Kung may maganda lang sana akong camera, nagpaka-paparratzo na ako. Likod nya ang huli kong nakita bago kami tuluyang umalis at at humayo na para umuwi.

Kakaiba ang araw na ito. I almost never made it. Kung saan-saan na kami nakarating, in search of the golden ticket. Simulan natin sa simulang simula. First things first; bago ang lahat at umattend ako ng staff meeting at taliwas sa inaasahan. Hindi ako nakasaksi ng isang malupit na sermonan di gaya ng nakaraan. Late na naman ang release pero ibang vibes ang nanaig sa loob ng opisina. Nagkaroon ng ilang promotion [isang bagay na hindi ko na aasahang mararanasan], nagkabigayan ng mga bagong assignments at bagong deadline sa mga nahuling articles, at pinulong din ang mga kalahok sa CJA o Campus Journalism Awards para bukas. Good luck nga pala, galingan nyo. Keep the HF pride alive! Hehehe. Balik sa topic: yun nga. Pagkatapos ng meeting, mabilis lang yun, pinaalis na agad ako at dali-dali naman akong tumungo sa Alumni Auditorium para sa CSO Convention. Isa itong pagtitipon-tipon ng CSO o Council of Student Organizations at mga kasapi nito upang... uh... hindi ko alam actually. Hindi naman ako masyado nakinig. Nandon ang mga CSO ng iba't ibang La Salle schools at ang mga representative ng mga organisasyong sakop ng mga ito. Naabutan ko pa ang ilang mga Genshi sa baba dahil sila ata ang humawak ng registration. Sabay-sabay na kaming umakyat. Napag-alaman kong nakakuha na si Alain ng ticket at may isa pa ngunit para ito sa kaibigan nya. Hindi ko naman binalak na agawin ang kaligayahan ng ibang tao kaya okay lang ngunit, subalit, datapawat... May isang pangyayaring di katanggap-tanggap na halos sumira ng araw ko kanina; kumakanta na nga ako nung gaya kay Jack Black sa School of Rock: I didn't get no ticket today and I am really ticked off. Kung ano yun, itanong nyo na lang sa akin ng personal dahil *sa-sama-ng-ugali-ko-ay-hindi-ako-nadadala-sa-paiyak-iyak* at kung ilalahad ko pa ay baka may tamaan pang ibang dadaanin ako sa iyak at malalaman ng ibang tao kung gaano kasama ang ugali ko. Hay, naku! Hindi okay, hindi ako natutuwa at hindi ko kakalimutan ito. Pasalamat ka at nakanood ako kung hindi ay hindi ako matatahimik hangga't hindi ako nakakaganti sa'yo. Hahaha, at hindi mo yun gugustuhin. tO__ot Anyway... Na-enjoy ko dun yung presentations. Tinanghal ng Teatro Lasalliana yung *isip-isip* nakalimutan ko title basta may Bitiw-something yun, yung presentation nila na sobrang astig dahil nagsasayaw sila at gumagalaw sa stage nang may garter paikot-ikot sa kung saan-saang direksyon pero di sila nagkakabuhul-buhol. Ang symbolisms at significance nun? Hindi ko alam. May kahulugan sigurado ang bawat galaw nila dun pero hindi naman ito reaction paper para isipan ko ng interpretasyon ang naturang pagtatanghal. So yun nga, TLS, tapos may speaker from RockEd. Naisipan kong hilahin si Maric upang mag-treasure hunting. Prize: Ticket para sa Kundirana concert kinagabihan. Nilapitan na namin ang lahat ng pwedeng lapitan: advisers, CSPC na wala naman sa kanilang opisina, COSSC pero ubos na daw [pero salamat na din kay Mr. President, Ian Gutierrez for accommodating our inquiries], nagtanong na rin ako ilang kakilalang propesor, kamag-aral at kapwa mag-aaral but to no avail. Napilitan kaming mag-retreat. Bumalik kami sa auditorium na talunan, bigo at halos luhaan pero ngayon kasama na namin si Kulas, na mapalad dahil nakakuha ng ticket na pinamigay noong umaga sa College Day dahil hindi na-claim ng mga pangulo ng mga klase na sakop ng COS. Nakabalik na kami't lahat, iyon pa rin ang speaker sa harap, Ms. Gang Badoy ng RockEd Phils. Pagkatapos nun, presentation ulit, Vibrant Beat. Tapos... Basta... Hindi ko na inalala. May speech galing kay Bro. Armin, tapos sa ilang student leaders tungkol sa 5 agendas, may konting game...

to be continued na lang, inaantok na 'ko eh...

Thursday, January 24, 2008

Born To Be Wild

http://btbw-tvshow.blogspot.com/
What it takes to TRULY get to know nature is a WILLINGNESS to explore the unknown, GETTING OUT of your comfort zone, and going wild, wild, WILD!

One of Garduch-sama's blogs. One of my favorite tv shows today. *dreamy-teary-eyed* IDOL! ~ Mag-aaral din ako ng diving. Sana I get to climb and dive with you someday. Hehehe.. Nagkakamali kayo kung naiisip nyo'ng nao-obsess na 'ko. Humahanga lang... NANG SOBRA!!!

Gusto nyo ng links ng lahat ng blogs nya? I-click n'yo lang ito >> http://blogmenuniromi.blogspot.com/

More about Garduch-sama at http://www.gmanews.tv/everest/index.htm and http://www.gmanews.tv/show/borntobewild

All hail, Garduch-sama!

Wednesday, January 23, 2008

Blue Moon

Start:     Feb 21, '08
Location:     The heavens, the skies, over our heads
If the Farmer's Almanac definition of blue moon is taken (meaning the third full moon in a season of four full moons) this is when the blue moons occurs. I'll be watching the skies then. I've already seen the phenomenon of the moon halo and now, I've got to see this.

Hakuna Matata: LS Fest, Day 1

I'm okay now but I still breathe hot breath. Not that my breath smells bad but it's still as hot as last night and the other night when I still had fever. My throat's still sore as some of my muscles.  My head's okay now. *sees hugging scene from Cofeee Prince on tv. ~Wanna hug someone like that too~ gets teary-eyed*

I need tickets for the Kundirana concert on Friday. I heard it's free but very limited. Oh, no... I got have one. I want it so bad, I might even kill for it... hahahaha
 
Heath Ledger was found dead in his apartment. My... Lost one of my fantasies. No more Can't Take My Eyes Off You. Never liked that song until he sang it in 10 Things I Hate About You and then a friend started singing it for me too. Aww... Farewell, Heath. See you when I get there. And I'll definitely ask you to sing with me... And kiss me too. Hehehe... Rest in peace.

Had my Hakuna Matata day today. Never went to class, I don't think classes were held anyway. Never went to the office. Wore the blouse I got from ukay, participated in a "race" with some friends, watched cheer-dance and seen the almost perfect somersault ever and also seen someone thrown so high but wasn't caught--tough luck, ate lunch with friends, watched contest launches, seen and rocked at the best REED concert ever, ate ice cream sandwhich with friends, and went home with friends after eating ice cream. Woooh! And to think, it's only Day 1. More fun on the coming days! It's actually my tradition not to attend classes on Lasallian days. So... Wala lang. I'll have it my way, you have it with yours. Walang  pakialaman ng trips.

I saw Mhellow today! I wanted to go and greet him but he's with his friends and... Aww... Maybe, just maybe, If he comes again tomorrow, I'll come up to him and greet him. Woooh! Aymishyu, Mhellow!

I had fun today, so much fun, actually, that I got sad. Just imagine everything I'll be leaving behind. I don't wanna go. We know there's life, even a bigger one, outside school, and we all have to move on, eventually, from that stage of our life. I don't wanna go, at least, not just yet. Don't wanna let go just just, I think, given a choice, I'd still stay for a while. Please let me stay...

They're coming back. It's been exactly 2 years and three days when they were last here. And I promised when they left where there stood, that I'll still be here when they come back. But can I really keep my promise? I want to be there whenever they come back but it's uncertain if life, time and my wallet will permit me. I promise, I swear.. I really wanna be there. But will I be there? Only time will tell...

Pershirs! Hehehe. I went to see the REED concert tonight. And it was the best of all of it's kind that I've seen. It really, really, really rocked my night. The lights, the sounds, the music, the people and that freaky balloon. You see, there was this freaky green balloon that was floating straight a few feet above our heads. And it was floating from one side of the gym to the other and it was moving in a straight line, and only when it reached the other side of the gym did it flew upwards. Okay, I don't think that's normal so we concluded: someone --definitely supernatural-- was holding the balloon and it crossed the room, maybe seeking attention, and when it got to the other side, it let go of the ballon and vanished. Hahaha. Almost had GH -ghost hunt, one of the sweetest things we used to do together-- with friends today but we went home after having snacks. Anyways, that REED concert made me think again: My Kawaii Boy should've been there too. Grrrr... Nas'an ka na ba?  Asar!

Okay. Okay. I have a question to ask to you, people. What does it mean when someone close to you and you know a bit well tells you, "Ang ganda pala ng mata mo... Ngayon ko lang napansin." It could mean nothing but somehow, it freaked me out. I don't think I was too obvious but it shocked me to hear that from that person, knowing him. He took it back by saying, Galing mambola noh, but still... I'm bothered. Hehehe

Suma-side comment behind their backs na naman ang utak ko. I mean. I've been seeing things, hearing things, thinking things but not feeling them. Do you get what I'm saying? Weird. Weird.

Opportunities are presenting themselves to me again. Ahoho. Up for the grabbing, I just hope I get to them in time. Yosh!

The induction has been postponed for an indefinite time. I heard from a friend that it might be resumed during the summer, but, oh, but, I'm planning a getaway with friends to Galera and a summer job for extra income. Oh no. Hala, hala...

Done. Let me have my dinner and call it a night.

Oh, wait! Born to be wild pa. Garduch-sama!!!

'NIGHT!

Monday, January 21, 2008

Blessing in disguise

For once, natuwa akong di natuloy ang climb.

I'm burning. With fever--or flu, that is. I thought my body's just aching for adventure that why my muscles are twinging, and my head aches because I just lacked sleep. But I was wrong. I slept right away when I got home, and woke up to the heat of my fever. And my throat is sore and I lost a bit of my sense of taste. Darn.

I've been anxious excited and anxious doubtful at the same time. The thrill of climbing the second highest peak in the country, the thought of going up North to Baguio and Benguet for the first time, having to endure the biting cold [I heard it's 3 times colder than Mt. Cristobal] are all new to me, not to mention anticipating Hypothermia and AMS. And, oh, the induction program. The program! Hahaha. I've started packing already but I still haven't produced the money I need for the climb, I haven't bought any of my supplies yet, and the fear of encountering limatik/forest leech at the mossy forest--Eeek!. My pack's already heavy and my clothes aren't even packed yet. Just my thermals, the tent rainfly, my gears and the 4 liters of water, and to think that we're climbing 2000+ meters above sea level. That's about 9000+ feet ASL. I won't be home for 5 days and I still have classes to attend to as soon as we get back down to my home-sweet South. Postponed. Re-scheduled. Hehe Buti naman.

Can I ask you all favor? Please offer a moment of silence for my friend who have lost a his father to cardiac arrest, a friend who have lost his friend to an accident just recently.

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Thank you very much! Now back to regular blog-reading.

It's my longest time friend [highschool] Carlo's birthday on Thursday and he's having a little get-together on Saturday. Oh, no. I told him I'd be away for a few days and will back on Monday. Waaah! Sayang... Hehehe... Advanced happy birthday na lang, dude! I-kain at i-inom nyo na lang ako. Cheers! Matanda ka na! Hehehe

Man, tinatamad ako! Ang daming project na dapat tapusin. Lasallian Festival tapos may klase pa. t** naman! Anyways... Makakanood ako ng concert ni Gary V!!! Hahaha. And the activities.. Weeeh! Lagalag mode na 'to. Takeshi's challenge at kung anu-anong concerts... Iche-check ko yan! Awoooh!

Nakuha ko na graduation pictures ko. And excited the people na mga nakakita. Nakakainis lang dahil masasayang ang excitement nila. Pasensya na, I failed you all again. Kahit na nakakatayo na ulit ako sa pagkakabagsak ko, pilay pa rin. Di pa rin makatayo at makalakad ng direcho. Pasensya na talaga. Binigyan na rin kami ng Application for Graduation form. Wala kayong idea. Ang sarap punitin sa harap ng mga "hinayupak". Nagtatanong pa kayo? Kunwari concerned? Tangina kayo! Intayin ko na lang, mamamatay din kayo. tO__ot << Kita nyo yan? Yan kayo!

I've started y day happily nga pala. Natutulog ako sa jeep tapos nakasakay ko ba naman yung isang taong gusto ko. Ewan. Di yung sobrang gusto pero, alam mo yung ganda ng vibes pag kasama mo sya. Fotek, baka ma-inlove na ko sa'yo nyan. Hahaha! Okay na sana pero sa susunod wag kang magulo pag natutulog ako sa byahe ah! Hahaha o kaya offer mo na lang ng direcho yung balikat mo? Hahaha.. DI naman ako feeling, ano hah? Hahaha. 'Sensya na, cute mo kasi eh. Hahaha. Kita-kits sa school! <3

Dahil binuklat na rin naman ng isang tao jan, Bakit ko nga ba gusto si Shiawase? Dahil masaya ako dahil sa sayang dinadala nya sa araw at sa buhay ko pag nakikita ko sya. Well, dati yun. Gusto ko pa rin sya pero di na kasing tindi, 'sing sidhi ng dati. Stuck up ako sa pagka-lovesick sa isang taong biglang nawala na walang bakas. Nag-iintay at umaasa akong babalik pa sya, magkikita kami, magkakausap at malilinawan ang lahat. Siguro hanggang di nangyayari yun, di ako makakausad sa 'king buhay pag-ibig. Wala, korni na.

Pwede pa kayang humabol sa Palad? May sinusulat pa kong contribution na hindi ko matapos-tapos. Stuck up pa rin ako. Kamown. Onga pala, artworks pa.. Hala...

Konti na lang ga-graduate na sila! Buti naman, para di ko na sila makita at maaga ang tambay trips ko. Woooh! Ang daming planong outing. Niyayaya ko yung ilan kong HF friends na mag-hike at mag-swimming sa Mt. Pinatubo Crater Lake, yun nga Induction climb sa Mt. Pulag, Day hike sa Mt. Talamitam-- Chopsuey trips to!, Puerto Galera with my Boys-- Uuwi si Patrick ng April and we're going to the beach. Yeah! Miss ko na kayo, mga kumag! Hahaha. Uyy, Genshi-ningen-brethren, san tayo? Woooh! And nga pala, we're planning to plan for a summer job for extra income. Omigolay! Super tipiran na naman. Ipon-ipon. Hahaha.

May nakalimutan ba ako?

Paano na? Repack-an na to!

PS: Ngayon sigurado nang di ako baliw. Sabi kasi sa Meteor Garden, di daw nagkakasakit ang mga baliw. Hahaha. Nyt, all!!!

Sunday, January 20, 2008

Levy's Lullaby # 3 :: Lilium




by Kawabe Chieko, Elfen Lied

You know you want to...

Leave a comment and I'll reply by answering the following.

1. I'll respond with something random about you.
2. I'll tell you what song/movie reminds me of you.
3. I'll pick a flavor of jello to wrestle with you in.
4. I'll say something that only makes sense to you and me.
5. I'll tell you my first/clearest memory of you.
6. I'll tell you what animal you remind me of.
7. I'll ask you something that I've always wondered about you.
8. If I do this for you, you must post this on your journal.

Saturday, January 19, 2008

Yes, they did IT.


This is what Sexy Time really meant.


Shake it!

Let's Get Packing!




Packers...

We can pack anything, anytime, anywhere...

Packing is what we do best!

Now, let's pack!

hehehe...

~ kulang pa yan... at least makakapagsimula na 'ko, let's go!

Wednesday, January 16, 2008

...

You say you believe but do not trust

Just like loving without giving the heart

 

Dubiety

Doors are supposed to open

But

Walls are closing in

Bridges are still blocked

There is still no crossing

Tuesday, January 15, 2008

Inconsistency

I'm having last-minute inclinations to quit...

Looking for beauty in uncertain

Finding the strength inside the grey

Maybe I'm heading for a breakdown
Could be I'm hanging on for dear life

Maybe I need to get a grip

Tried to make nothing out of something
My resistance started cracking

I'm slowly wearing down

And there's no way out

And I just might...

Hopefully, I'll be fine again when I wake up tomorrow. I have strong tendencies to jeopardize everything I worked hard for, relationships with other people [friendships] when I see fit. When things aren't being healthy for me anymore, when they affect me too much, more than I can tolerate, I make it a point to set them aside or permanently throw them away, out of life. Yeah, so I'm letting other people's inconsistencies, even stupidity, drag me down. I'm so tired of this,  how to lose this? I wish I knew.

Why do I feel like I'm better than most people? 'Cause some of them can be so stupid.

I can never forget how that 5pts gave so much hope that I'll pass that critical subject last sem. I did pass that subject but failed the other, unexpectedly and had newer, stronger reason to resent my puny earthlings of classmates. Failure isn't so hard for me to accept but being lied about the reason why I failed? Unforgivable. It's actually good that I should see a school year without having to see a bunch of pathetic brutes. I wish I could stay longer. Anyway, I'm losing my appetite for some parts of school life again.

~ Gusto ko na naman umiyak. Humihiling sa mga bituin, sa buwan, sa ulap, pati nga mga puno sa La Salle hinihilingan ko na. Sobrang gusto na ulit kitang makita. 'Asan ka na ba? Mga alaala lang ang naiwan mo sa lugar na 'to pero di ko mabitawan yung pag-asang makikita kitang muli. Tae ka kasi! May gusto akong sabihin sa'yo, may gusto akong itanong sa'yo, may gusto ako sa'yo pero nung nandito ka pa, nakakalimutan ko ang mga naiisip ko. Masaya ako pero di ako makapagpahayag. Ni hindi nga kita mabasa. Gusto kong maniwala pero ayoko ring maniwala sa mga "katotohanang" walang kasiguruhan kung totoo nga. Di ako makausad. Lagi na lang kitang hinahanap, madalas pa nga akong sumilip sa dati mong tambayan. Naiisip ko ring kung kasama ka, mas masaya ang mga lakaran. Tae ka kasi! Di ka man lang nagpaalam. Nagbabalik lahat sa isip ko, mula sa simula, simula sa araw nung una tayong nagkita --BMC-- ang sama mo pa ngang makatingin no'n. Hahaha. Tama na ngang baka lang maluha. Kung mapapadaan ka, balita ko kasi bumibisita ka pa dun minsan, magparamdam ka. Kontakin mo ko, mental telepathy tayo. Hehehe, o kaya pag malapit anjan ka sa paligid, makinig kang maigi, tatawagin ko ang puso mo. sagutin mo ah? Hahaha, BADUY!  ~

Oh, yeah! I've got a lot of places to go to [ ^ sama ka ah? ] and I can't wait. Excited na 'ko sa mga susunod kong adventures. Hahaha. Makukuha ko na rin graduation pictures ko next week, siguro week after that, baka magpa-exit interview na rin ako kahit ang idea ng "pag-exit" ay malabo. Di bale, dadating din tayo jan, no matter how long it takes, LOL. Hahahaha. Tuloy na tuloy na ata ang Banda Guapa. Hahaha. Goodluck! My, my... Kids, young as six, are already smoking? Man, kids these days... Or should I say, adults lack guidance for kids these days. Tsk tsk. Good morning, everyone!

Saturday, January 12, 2008

Der Porzellangeiger




“After silence, that which comes nearest to expressing the inexpressible is music.” ~ Aldous Huxley

My porcelain violinist music box.

[Postponed!] DLSU-DMS Batch 11 Induction Climb

Start:     Jan 24, '08
End:     Jan 28, '08
Location:     Mt. Pulag, Benguet
DLSU-DMS Batch 11 Induction Climb
Mt. Pulag [Traverse] via Akiki-Ambangeg Trail

~ This is it! Let's do this.

What's in a name?

You are relaxed, chill, and very likely to go with the flow.
You are light hearted and accepting. You don't get worked up easily.
Well adjusted and incredibly happy, many people wonder what your secret to life is.
~ Very true. Hakuna matata is my philosophy and happiness is the core of my life. Yeah! Now, let's party! Hahaha

You are friendly, charming, and warm. You get along with almost everyone.
You work hard not to rock the boat. Your easy going attitude brings people together.
At times, you can be a little flaky and irresponsible. But for the important things, you pull it together.
~ *winks*

You are very hyper. You never slow down, even when it's killing you.
You're the type of person who can be a workaholic during the day... and still have the energy to party all night.
Your energy is definitely a magnet for those around you. People are addicted to your vibe.
~ Dunno 'bout the workaholic part but, yeah, my energy supply is inexhaustible. The force is with me.

You are a free spirit, and you resent anyone who tries to fence you in.
You are unpredictable, adventurous, and always a little surprising.
You may miss out by not settling down, but you're too busy having fun to care.
~ More than hope, more than faith. This is true, this is fate. Not a want but a need... Breaking free, baby! *kissu*

You tend to be pretty tightly wound. It's easy to get you excited... which can be a good or bad thing.
You have a lot of enthusiasm, but it fades rather quickly. You don't stick with any one thing for very long.
You have the drive to accomplish a lot in a short amount of time. Your biggest problem is making sure you finish the projects you start.
*taps own shoulder* Bwahaha!

You are usually the best at everything ... you strive for perfection.
You are confident, authoritative, and aggressive.
You have the classic "Type A" personality.
~ Nobody's perfect, so, why practice? hahaha

You are the total package - suave, sexy, smart, and strong.
You have the whole world under your spell, and you can influence almost everyone you know.
You don't always resist your urges to crush the weak. Just remember, they don't have as much going for them as you do.
~ Now, that's hot! Hehehe. Crush 'em, puny earthlings! The power is mine. Hahaha, weird!

You are wild, crazy, and a huge rebel. You're always up to something.
You have a ton of energy, and most people can't handle you. You're very intense.
You definitely are a handful, and you're likely to get in trouble. But your kind of trouble is a lot of fun.
~ Am I crazy? Am I cool? Am I mad? I'm just a fool. Hahaha.

You are balanced, orderly, and organized. You like your ducks in a row.
You are powerful and competent, especially in the workplace.
People can see you as stubborn and headstrong. You definitely have a dominant personality.
~ Balance? Orderly? Organized? *grins*
You are well rounded, with a complete perspective on life.
You are solid and dependable. You are loyal, and people can count on you.
At times, you can be a bit too serious. You tend to put too much pressure on yourself.

You are very intuitive and wise. You understand the world better than most people.
You also have a very active imagination. You often get carried away with your thoughts.
You are prone to a little paranoia and jealousy. You sometimes go overboard in interpreting signals.

You are very open. You communicate well, and you connect with other people easily.
You are a naturally creative person. Ideas just flow from your mind.
A true chameleon, you are many things at different points in your life. You are very adaptable.

Friday, January 11, 2008

The Fighting Dreamer and her Inner Demons

Now, I'm having second thoughts.

My stomach is churning in revolt and my head is spinning in slight lightheadedness. Here I am, stuck in the middle of indecisiveness whether to fight through or to fly away and escape [read: quit]. My brainwaves are currently in distress. I've always wanted this, I'm at the last leg, or at least I was when I last checked. I have been complaining how slow time moves now it's moving in a rate that I have no control of. My heart is pounding as if it'll tear its way out of my chest and I am lost in doubt. I've never been so unsure about something I wanted so bad esp. when I've tried so hard and gone as far as I have to to reach the "prize".

I'm only a few steps, a few days and a few bucks away.

The excitement has been keeping me up all night the past few nights. Now, the uncertainty will keep me up tonight and I have a lecture to attend to tomorrow. Land Navigation with Leave No Trace... Maybe I could go somewhere and get lost and just disappear with no trace. Ropemanship... Knot-tying... Maybe I could just hang myself and rid myself of my worries. Hahaha.. So emo!

I tried to sleep but the clock is stuck on thoughts of you and me.

Yes, I still am stuck in thoughts of YOU. But I won't be discussing it here. Wait for my next post. Hehehe, Ciao!


Survivor






A big grasshopper we saw a few days ago

How big/long? About the length or even longer than my middle finger. Not sure how but as you can see, it's missing its pair of tibia and tarsus. My friend even thought it was dancing when actually, it can't balance well. I don't think it can still hop and I don't think it got to the ground where we spotted it by hopping. I tried to catch it but it moved [of course it would definitely hurt to lose a leg]. I tried to swoop it with two hands and it flew.

Bye-bye goes Mr. Grasshopper.

Saturday, January 5, 2008

Happy Love Black Vanity




"I was captured by that stare.
Now, I'm shattered but I don't care.
And the people walking by don't have a clue..."

-- Unsuspecting Sunday Afternoon


Mt. Batulao, beybeh!




Mt. Batulao, Batangas
January 3, 2007

--> Issah, Anna, Marj, Raymond and Jen.

* Photos from Anna and Issah

~ Sa wakas nakaakyat din ng Batulao!
~ Sorry, 'di ko sinabihan 'yong ibang may make-up climb. Sorry talaga!
~ Bakit pag ang lakad mas natutuloy 'pag short notice kaysa planado.
~ Medyo madaling umakyat, ang problema: pababa.
~ Minaliit ko ang Batulao, "nanliit" tuloy ako.
~ Salamat sa mga di kilalang ate at kuya na tumulong sa akin paakyat at pababa galing sa summit.
~ Sa mga inimbitahang di nakasama, sumama na kayo sa susunod, hah?
~ Di pa rin alam ng kapatid ko na wala na ang cap nyang Australia, nilipad, naiwan sa kabundukan ng Batulao.
~ Ang sarap ng buko at softdrinks sa bundok, yeah!
~ Babalik ako ng Batulao, someday. O kaya any day basta hanggang Camp 5 lang ako. Hehehe.
~ Sana pagbalik ko ng Batulao, kasama na si "Kawaii Boy" Aymishyusomuch!
~ Masakit pa rin hanggang ngayon ang muscles ko.

! Wala nang caption, masyadong marami, nakakatamad. !

Thursday, January 3, 2008

Ang Tamang Daan






Saan ka pupunta?


[[Evercrest Golf Club Resort]]
[[Batulao, Batangas]]
[[January 3, 2008]]

Wednesday, January 2, 2008

Stargazers...

Meteor Shower daw ulit mamaya sabi sa news...

50 to 120 per hour, gabi hanggang madaling araw...

Tara na, sabay-sabay tumingala mamaya!