Sunday, November 30, 2008

Avenir [to turn out]

I've been trying to figure out and somehow I'm getting the hang of things.

Like a monkey swinging from one branch to another, tree to tree, I am finally letting myself climb down the tree trunk and dig up the roots, and pick up the fruits that has fallen from the trees that I helped pollinate, the fruit that fell when I shook the tree, and plant up the seeds from the fruits that picked up and eaten.

I'm not comparing myself to a monkey, okay. Metaphors. Never mind.

Been thinking and being deep and hard at that. I've woken, I'm waking up, I'm putting myself back to sleep, and control my dream while I'm deep in slumber. What I'm trying to say is, I'm digging way down deep to somehow cure the pain, fill up the emptiness, and re-do everything, re-feel everything that I am feeling and forgotten to feel. I've re-traced some of my foot steps, had some time to re-think the things and people I lost, what I got to go through to get where I am, what I gained and never had a chance to get my hands on on my way, on the way I took. Everything. Not really sure where writing these things will get me but I just got to say. Not sure I can put the wrong things and make up for them, make up to the people that became 'casualties' of little twists of fate, not even sure what to write next, after these lines. Hahahaha.

I wish I could write it here. It's about this someone whom I have hurt and lied to more than I did anyone in my life. More lies and promises than I ever made with friends and family. He's one of those people who... I don't know. I just can't tell it here. Too much to take, to much to feel, to much to know... Blah-blah. The point is, I owe him more apology than I owe anyone I ever hurt and lied to in my entire life. Anyway to fix this? I have no idea. I ruined it, hopefully, I, too, can find a way to, if not mend what has been broken, at least, apologize to him for everything. *Sigh* All In due time. *faint smile*

Got nothing else that excites me right now. Well, except for that meeting with K on A Cinco de Deciembre. Eeek. Can't go out 'cause I have no money, still haven't seen Twilight, dunno how I can get to that Fan Party on the 5th, and join the rappelling on the 8th, still have to run for pre-employment thingies, got to grab myself a copy of Paul's LS Mag and HF's 1st issue for the sem, claim my diploma, come up with designs for the 'biz'... And so many other things to get done. Pfft. Not really feeling good vibes right now. I need another push of the cliff so I can get back to moving again. May the heavens and the stars that light it guide me on my way, may the sun make me wise on everything everyday, may the moon and the ocean help my emotion be just, may the earth, fire and wind, drive me to meet the ends that I long for and may the mountains... Hmm... May the mountains let me climb on them, shower from their waterfalls, bathe in their rivers, springs and stream, and eat from the trees within theirs breast.

Hahahaha. Blabbering nonsensical...Uh, nonsense. Never mind, again.

Lookey! 300 now showing on HBO. Gerard Butler, my favorite Scottish sexiness. Eeek.

Friday, November 28, 2008

Setting pace

Count 1. It's good to improve
Count 2. It's good to rest
Count 3. It's good to think
It's good to be able to progress at my own pace.
--My Pace, Sunset Swish--

I can let you into what happening in my life lately but the problem is, nothing is happening with my life lately.

Just ended training Last Wednesday and I'm back to bumming, or better said, I'm back to hunting for another job. See, they may try not to admit it, or say it straight, they don't think I'm good enough. They tried to break it gently and asked what could have been wrong and what happened to me but... Well, Yellow page ads are not for me. It's not the kind of 'graphic' work that I was expecting and I'm not really good with following standards. I don't believe in 'creative freedom' that follow rules, I don't like rules that opress freedom, and I'm not like a green sea turtle that follows the East Australian Current for migration. I don't usually go with the flow because I create my own flow. Blah. My flow might not always go where I want it to but at least, I get to make it for myself and follow it. And it's disappointing, the truth, that is. And as much as I wanted to say more how disappointing things are, have been, and are becoming, but I can't. I don't wanna sound like I'm sour-graping and bitter, and blah.. I'm still getting my pay for the days I worked for so.. who cares?  And I might get sued? Nah. I don't know. Hahahaha.

Maybe I'm just being lazy. See, for that, almost two weeks that I went to train for that work, I was having thoughts in my head. Like, what I was doing it for? All I could think of was the pressure that it being thrown at me by the world. Like how it's been telling me that I'm such a burden and I need to earn my own money. For the first few days, the thought of getting paid after two weeks of waking up early, staying up all day and sleeping on the trip home is pretty rewarding but the end of the day, you realized that you aren't really happy with what you're doing. The world is so demanding and the last thing I need in my life is a world, and a life and the people in it who are rsuhing you and trying to make you grow up fast. No amount of money as well-compensation can really cheer you up when you have no good, right and worthy reason to do things. It might excite you at first but you get tired of it, and it tires you to do things as time goes further. Conclusion: things happened for for a reason and for the better [and they don't thinkI can do it, and I think so too, and I don't really see myself doing yellow page ads for a career, not that I think low of those in that kindof business, I just don't think that kind of work is for me, and I don't need the job as bad as those who applied for it. Hehe I made so many other applications but so far, they're the only ones that called me and.. bahaa~ nevermind.

Plans fail but mine didn't really. They just got postponed to a later date, much later date and so many plans. I don't regret anything though, I was gonna quit anyway. And I didn't really make friends so I didn't really leave anything, anyone behind except for my newest new friend Jaz. He's like my closest, or my only buddy, during that period when I worked as a trainee. We literally stucked together that whole time. No malice, of course. He's cute, and nice, and likes Survivor too, but too young for me. He's 18 and just graduated from a 2-year course in Mulimedia Arts and he looks a lot like one of my friends back in highschool. Nice kids, and he know what he is doind and he'd definitely go far. Goodluck, dude.

Because of this li'l glitch in my sitch, I am missing on a lot of things. Like I said, some of my plans are getting postponed to much later dates. I am hoping things will catch up soon, I hope I can catch up soon enough, and though I might be missing some things, i am definitely not missing that Survivor Philippines Fan Party on December 5. Woohoo. Sorry kids, you can't come unless you do forums at SP.tv hehe, and they cut off the list to 75 people and I'm 47th on it. Yay for me. Not sure, how I'm going to go there but I will definitely go there. I want to also go to the Reunion Specials on Finals day but not sure if I can get me tickets but I will surely do my best to get me one. And I might pursue that 'connivance interview' with someone whom I have talked about it with. Hehehehe. Yeehah. SP, wait for me. And my love.. Weeeh. I am definitely giving Kiko a bracelet. Hehehehe. Argh. Excitement.

I miss mother.. Mother nature. Eeek..

Speaking of mother nature, isn't it weird how Richard Gutierrez is a Greenpeace advocate and endorses shampoo at the same time?

So much I want to write but.. too lazy. Next time.

Ohmyheart! KIKO LOVES YOU day on Dec 5th. He said it himself. Wah. Read it here. Grrr.. I am so going to that Grand Eyeball. Lookey, here's a photo when he posted that post:

I keep missing his tv guestings but Eeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeekkkkk. I still love him. and I once I see him in person, that will make up for everything I've missed, and they have videos of his guesting on Pinoychannel.tv, so I'd still get to watch them. Love-love. So much love for Kikomann.

So much to live for, so much to die for.. I almost quitted but it kept me going on.. Eeek, Kiko LOVE!!!

PS: @ 2127 Online at chatting si Kiko sa SP.com ngayon. Naka-chat din. Wah.

Saturday, November 22, 2008

Do or die

no
matter
WHAT
I
just
GOT
to
find
something
or
in
my
case
ANYTHING
to
HOLD
on
to
because
with
the
LIFE
I
am
living
with
the
life
I
have
with
what
I
have
no
other
CHOICE
but
to
bear
with
ONLY
one
option
of 
REALITY
that
I
have
to
accept
only
one
FATE
I
have
to
EMBRACE
and
only 
one
step
I
have
to
take
but
HANG ON
or
I
just
might
HANG MYSELF
I
hope
letting
this
OUT
gets
me
SOMEWHERE
I
am
once
AGAIN
standing
at
the
EDGE
of
a
cliff
the
EDGE
of
a
knife
pointed
at
my
throat
I
am
once
again
on
the
EDGE
of
sanity 
I
just
might
be
headed
for
a
BREAKDOWN
anytime
SOON
I
wish
SOMEONE
and
for
that
matter
ANYONE
will
do
just
SAVE ME
save
me
NOW
save
me
SOON
save
me
WHEN 
you
can
save
me
if
you
have
time
SAVE
me
if
you
WANT
to
save
me
if
you
CAN
save
me
HOW
you
want
to
as
long
as
you
SAVE
me
BEFORE
I
am
GONE.



Friday, November 21, 2008

Sa dinami-daming pwedeng makita

Si Marlon pa.

Nyak.

Nakasabay namin siyang mag-lunch sa food court ng Festival Mall kanina. May kasamang friend na sobrang mas gwapo kaysa kanya. Hahahaha. Pero in fairness, may maayos siyang tignan sa personal pero, alas, nalugi ang beauty ng lolo mo. Palingun-lingon. Wala kasing pumapansin sa kanya, ako lang. Hahahaha. Babatiin ko sana pero sakto nung tumayo kami, tumayo na rin sila kaya bumalik na kami sa opisina.

Next time, sana si Kiko naman.
 
Keep the faith.

En route

You may have gone past the
Highway to Hell
but this is not the
Road to Success
You're in the
Boulevard of Broken Dreams

Embrace you fate.
Follow the signs.
No U-turn.
Keep right.

Monday, November 17, 2008

For those who are counting....

All we did was love each other, but...our love is forbidden
Why is it a "sin"?

I tried to hold on... and I lost it... tried to turn back... and I failed...
Why can't we just be like before?

To fall in love is quick...
...but to forget a love requires what seems like a lifetime.
It's illogical.

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Got this from my friend back from highschool, Yssa Mia. Dunno why she sent this to our batch's Yahoo Group but I think this post makes sense so I decided to share it. Just want you to read. I will not try to expound the meaning of this entry and justify what it means because we should understand using our hearts and if we try to justify things, it just means we are using our heads and... Gah. You know what I mean. I just got that life lesson on reason and understanding from Kiko. Thank you so much and I love you. Hehehehe. =(--__--)=

Saturday, November 15, 2008

In retrospect

Imagine if we met in that particular time, in that particular place, and you have known me almost all your life, what do you think, would you think of me now?

Some 15 or 16 years go

I've changed so much. I've gone so far already. Well, far from where I used to be. Ahihi.  I was going to write something touchy or cute but, nah, not in the mood. XP Read on anyway.

This is, I believe, Joan and Andrian's idea: use baby pictures as avatar in Y!M. Got no scanner of my own so I just took a picture of my picture using my Mom's phone. I will get my baby photos when I get the time or, better, if I get to buy me my own scanner.

Anna thinks Me looks like a bunny. Bunnies are cute. Maybe she thinks Me is cute as a bunny. Levy cutie bunny. Me likey. So nicey.

Joan think Me is too thin a kiddo. In defense, I told her it was in college that I gained so much weight, though I wasn't as big as I am now when I was in my first and second year in college. You can ask my long time college friends if you don't believe me. Hehe.

What do you think? I got nothing new to post unless you want to read some more of my Kiko Love posts. Hehe. You will have more of it soon. Promise. Hehe.

I was supposed to get a Medical Certificate today but, hey, hey, hey, no office, nor there is clinic on Sundays. *wink*

I will post a series/ journals of my first job. Me is gonna call them DayJob Diaries. Eeek. Watch out, bwahaha. I also made a calendar that counts exactly one year so I can keep track of my 'one-year contract' with my first job. Gambaremasu.

Wah. Kiko in Showbiz Central later. Gotta watch. See yah!

A post too late

And I was going to write about my tale of The Curse of the Eternal Sembreak but the heavens had a bigger plan.

I could tell you what was supposed to be written in it, but, as one of the characters from one of my favorite stories said, we will never be told what could have happened. We make choices, what wouldn't happen because of the choices that have been made will never be known to us. All we could do is imagine.

Paningit: Live chat with Kiko and Jace, SP.


Too much said, the truth is, I was just to lazy to post that entry. I've been writing it inside my head all night for the past few nights. And when I finally found the time to write, comes a twist of fate. Boom.

I got the job I applied for a few weeks ago.

I know I said I don't want that job anymore, and wanted to try for something else. I was having my usual afternoon nap when my Mom woke me up because of a phone call. I will start training on Monday and I was told that I will have a contract for one year. I wasn't told how much I will earn but we'll get there. I will work for six days, and I will have to extend for long hours and may have shifting in work hours. Blah-blah. I know I said don't want these conditions but I thought, this is better than nothing. I will do this...

For the love of Christmas *wink*. My Christmas have lost its magic a long time ago but it's still something I look forward to. Hopefully, I will have more this Christmas than what I have in the past. I will finally get to go to places where my friends hangout where I've only been once or twice or haven't really been to. I've been to far-off provinces but have never been to popular hangout spots in Manila. I never liked partying or staying in crowded places, see, I get easily stressed when I see people running around the place, low lights hurt my eyes, and I'd rather stay at home and watch TV or read a good book but I do want to visit those places at least once. Anybody, willing to tour the geographically challenged? Heehee. Once I get to earn my own money I can go to further off places, once I get my first paycheck, I will definitely spoil myself. More money, more adventures; more adventures, more fun. Hike-hike-hike!!!

I will do what I can with the what the universe has thrown at me but I will quit once I feel I can't work any longer. And besides, a year will surely pass faster than waiting for the weekends on a hectic school week. Gahaa~ *bluff-bluff* Hahahaha.

Wah. Di ko napanood 'to:



By the way, got new photos of K from USTv's Kickoff Party. At andun pala sya sa GMA Kapuso Fans' Day sa Enchanted Kingdom. Tapos bukas nasa Showbiz Central sya, tapos may guesting din sya sa Moms at this Wednesday sa Unang Hirit. Wah. At pati Tok! Tok! Tok! Bonkers na ko. Aylahv-lab-lab-lahvet. 

Friday, November 14, 2008

The Curse of the Eternal Sembreak

I wouldn't call myself stagnant nor would I use the term stagnation to describe my current sitch. Let's just say I'm 'taking my time' *wink*. And doing so I'm taking so much time. Hehe.


Wednesday, November 12, 2008

K@BTBW




Dl ko na lang 'to sa YouTube pag sinipag ako.

Better version: --hahanap pa ako--

Other videos: UH | 24Oras

I love Wednesdays

Catch Kiko later in Born to be Wild, side-by-side with Garcuch-sama. Woooh.

Didn't get to chat with K today but it's okay. 

Matutulog na sana ako dahil sa sobrang pagod. I get to sleep a bit but I woke up after my cellphone's alarm rang. I turned the television on and slept some more. Patulug-tulog ng konti tapos masisilip ko 'yung tv tapos tulog ulit. Hahahaha. ayos. Balak ko sana hintayin ko lang Survivor tapos tulog na ako. Bigla kong naalala, Wednesday nga pala ngayon, Garduch-sama night. Hehe. Hindi pwedeng ma-miss. Parang panata ko na yan, bawal mag-miss ng kahit isang episode. Isang beses pa lang actually. Aksidente pa. Minsan kasi nag-brownout sakto pasimula na BTBW biglang bumalik kuryente, sakto rin tapos na siya. Bastos. Maliban sa mga pagkakataon na ganun, di maaaring palampasin. Woooh.

Gaya rin ng Survivor. Isang beses ko lang na-miss pero okay lang kasi birthday naman siya ni Anna. Labshyu, Anna. Hehehehe makakanood sana kami kaya lang sira 'yung tv na nasa labas nila. Pero okay lang. Nasa puso ko naman sila. Hahahaha. Cheesy pero totoo. <3

Ang saya lalong nawala ang antok ko nung makita ko 'yung commercial ng episode tonight ng BTBW. Woooh. Si K ko. Saya. Bawi ang pagod sa fun run kanina. Hehehehe.

Saka ko na ikukwento yung sa fun run kanina. Gutom na ako eh at saka kailangan maghanda. Hehe at saka nanonood ako ng Survivor.

Jah. Love and peace. Keep the faith. Photobucket

Tuesday, November 11, 2008

Kiko at UH




L loves K so much she waited for him so early in the morning. Actually, she hasn't really slept yet. Haha. Maybe that's why. She just felt like watching tv and to find out that K is on tv. Nicey. Me thinks K is sporting a Jack Sparrow look and me loving him more. Keep the faith. I'm supporting you all the way.

Recorded using a cellphone. Obvious ba? Here's a better version in YouTube and a blog entry by PinoyBiscuit.

You can chat with him and Jace tomorrow at 1400H until 1600 by logging on to www.survivorphilippines.tv and see them live through webcast using Real Player 10. Woooh. Excitement. Nyak, I don't have Real Player pala. Hehe.

Keep the faith.


L will try to find a video of 24 Oras' Chikka Minute November 11 Episode featuring K. Ayos. Aylabshyu K!!!

Monday, November 10, 2008

Tanggal na si Kiko

Grabe. Literal na napigil ang hininga ko. Oh well.

See you soon, Kiko. 

Jean Grey's Anatomy




It's my cousins' nameless gray kitty cat with gray eyes. Took these pictures when we went to Lucena a few weeks back.

Cute noh?

Twilight

Haven't read the book/ series yet. Just got this from Cherry and think it's good enough to kill time. I will read it once I get to buy it, I will buy it once I get some money. I will get some money once I get to work. I will get to work when... Hahahaha. I don't know when.

Edward Cullen You are Edward Cullen. Charming and polite yet stubborn and overprotective, your desperately adorable crooked smile bears the weight of your inner pain and self-loathing. Your salvation lies in love -- though you won't admit it, you feel you can save your soul in the arms of your true love, Bella.


Twilight Quiz
Twilight Quiz by QuizRocket.com 

Sunday, November 9, 2008

Tonight I write

The end of a love letter and the world will read about it once it's written.

It's for you and it's about you my Shiawase. I'm saying goodbye.

But I'll still see you, in my dreams. Photobucket

Friday, November 7, 2008

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Talagang binitin pa.

Grrr.

And the thrill is killing me. If having to wait for hours isn't enough, I have to wait for another 2 days to see what happens next.

Grabe. Binitin pa talaga ng Survivor Philippines kung sino matatanggal sa Tribal Council tonight. Asar. Okay, so, hindi ito ganun ka-serious na topic pero naman. Pamatay. Kasi, ganito 'yun:

Kung si Marlon ang matatanggal, AYOS. Wala nang obnoxious man-boar sa SP, na palaging sinasabi na parte ng game ang pagiging madumi, traydor, at kung ano pa man. Pero di ba, kahit anong klaseng game, mali ang pandaraya. Kaya nga game, kasi dapat fair ka. Mag-strategize ka man, di kailangan manira ng iba. At saka kahit sabihin mong sa game lang ganyan ang ugali, hindi ba repleksyon ng paglaban mo sa tunay na buhay 'yung paraan mo ng paglalaro ng ano pa mang mga bagay na haharapin mo sa tunay na buhay. At saka kahit naman may kamera, eh tunay na buhay pa rin ang SP. Maliban na lang kung may script sila. Eh, si Paolo lang naman ata ang may script dun. Kung matatanggal man sya, malay mo naman mas magkaroon siya ng mas malaking future sa pagpapatawa dahil mukha siyang tanga. Hehehehe. Peace.

Kung si Kiko naman matatanggal, SO SAD pero at least makikita na siya sa TV ng mas madalas. Mas madali ko na rin siyang maha-hunting. Pero mami-miss ko siya sa SP. Kailangan pa bang ipaliwanag kung bakit ko siya gusto manatili sa game? Aiyeeh. Wag na. Basta, keep the faith. See you soon. Ahihihi.

Hindi naman sa sineseryoso ko ang pagsusulat tungkol dito. Gusto ko lang malibang at ilihis ang pag-iisip sa mga bagay na nagpapagaan ng buhay. Ayoko munang isipin ang mga problema. Ito na lang, mas masaya. At saka pasensya na, panatiko eh.

Basta kahit anong mangyari,

kiss KIKO, Mahal pa rin kita.. SOBRA. kiss

Wednesday, November 5, 2008

Puro-strations

Ang cute ko ngayon.

Mukha akong raccoon. Or even cuter. Mukha na akong panda. Konti na lang, kulang na lang balahibo. Papasa na akong panda.

You don't always get what you want; you don't always want what you get. Kaya siguro tinutubuan ang tao ng unwanted hair. Kailangang bunutan ang kilikili at kailangang i-shave ang bigote. Ibig sabihin, kailangan kumilos para baguhin ang di mo gusto. Kung hindi, magmumukha kang ermitanyo.

Minsan may nabasa akong sulatin na nagsasabing twice beaten ka na sa laban ng buhay kung wala kang self-confidence. Pero hindi kaya mas masama naman kung mayron kang confidence na hindi mo mapanindigan? Ika nga, you talk the walk but you can't walk the talk.

Di ko na alam ang gagawin ko sa buhay ko. Ie-elaborate ko pa ba 'to?

Ganito na lang. Ang dami kong gustong ma-achieve sa yugtong ito ng buhay ko. Kung iisipin, abot-kamay na. Kung sa tyaga lang, marami akong tyaga. Pero tiwala, sa lahat lalo na sa sarili, malapit nang ma-out-of-stock. Kung ikukumpara ito sa pag-akyat ng bundok, siguro ito 'yung parteng nasa paanan ka na ng bundok. Sa tantya mo, mababa lang at kayang i-dayhike ang bundok. Hindi iyon ang unang beses na aakyat ka ng bundok. Equipped ka naman ng kinakailangang skills at tamang gears and equipments para akyatin ang bundok na nasa harapan mo pero mag-isa ka. Nasanay kang may kasama, may tumutulong sa'yo. Marunong ka naman magbasa ng trail signs pero di ka pa rin tiwala sa kung ano'ng meron ka. Dahil mag-isa ka nga, wala kang pagkukunan ng motivation. Wala kang paghihingan ng approval kung tama ang ginagawa mo. Wala kang maaasahang magtama sa mga pagkakamaling magagawa mo. Sisimulan mo ang pagte-trek pero titigil ka makalipas pa lamang ang ilang hakbang. Aatras ng kaunti at itatanong sa sarili kung gusto mo pang ituloy ito. Masukal, magubat ang daang kailangan mong suungin paakyat. Umuulan ng panakanaka. Puputik at dudulas ang daan. Lalo kang magdadalawang-isip kung tutuloy ka pa. May isa pang problema. Hindi mo pa man natatawid ang bundok na kaharap mo pero may mas mataas ka nang bundok na gustong lusungan. Ang kinalabasan: lalo ka lang naguluhan.

Hindi ako sigurado kung maganda at tama 'yung paghahambing na ginawa ko pero pretty much ganyan ang nararamdaman ko. Gusto ko mang maging mas sinsero at matapat sa mga sinasabi ko sa pamamagitan ng pagkwento ng buong kwento. Ayoko dahil kahit sa nararamdaman ko at mga bagay na tumatakbo sa isip ko eh di buo ang tiwala ko. Di buo ang tiwala kong maihahayag ko sila nang maayos, di buo ang tiwala kong maipaiintindi ko sa lahat ng tao kung ang mga saloobin ko sa mundo, hindi buo ang tiwala kong may pagbabagong mangyayari sa pagsalaysay ko nito. Kaya ngayon, ayoko na. Hehehehe.

Sira ang momentum.

Anyway, so, ano na ang dapat kong isipin ngayon?

"Kapalaran mo na ang mamatay sa mga kamay ko. Di mo ba naisip na isinilang para sa dyan, na yan lang ang silbi mo sa buhay? Kawawa ka naman." Nagmo-monologue habang hinhimay ang alimango sa aking plato. Actually di ko pa siya nasisimulan. Galing kasi sya sa seafood kare-kare na uwi nila Mama. Di ako kumakain ng kare-kare dahil ayoko ang amoy at lasa. Pero alimango naman 'to at yun ang paborito kong seafood kahit na mejo nangangati ang labi ko at nagiging kissable lips ako pag kumakain ako non. Paliliguan ko na lang sya mamaya nang bonggang-bonga tapos ay lulunurin sa powdered soup. Haha. Walang sense. Sosyal.

Susubukan kong bumili ng sleeping pills bukas. Baka sakaling makatulong sa pagtulog ko. Hindi na ako uumagahin sa pagpipilit matulog.

Ayos sira na talaga momentum. Di ko na maalala 'yung dapat kong isulat. Na-deplete na ang emotional stimulation na meron ako. Baka gutom na ulit ako. Hehehehe. Next time na lang ulit.

Hopefully tonight, no more sleepless nights. G'nyt.

Tuesday, November 4, 2008

DLSU-DMS Anniversary Run

De La Salle University - DasmariƱas Mountaineering Society is holding a Fun Run Event with a theme: DLSU-DMS, 11 Years and Still Running in celebration of their 11th Year Anniversary.

The DLSU-DMS Anniversary Run is on November 12, 2008, registration at 10:00AM and run starts at exactly 12:00 Noon. This will be a 6-loop run around the DLSU-D Campus. Registration fee is 11Php.


The De La Salle University-DasmariƱas Mountaineering Society is the only outdoor adventure organization and the longest existing student interest club in DLSU-Dasmarinas.



The goal of the event is to create awareness on the benefits of physical fitness, healthy lifestyle. This event is also a statement that after 11 years, the DLSU-DMS is still running and looking forward to more years of responsible and committed mountaineering.


Visit dlsudms.multiply.com for more info

This event will participated in by members of the Lasallaian community but is also open to participants from outside the campus. Interested individuals may inquire or confirm participation [hopefully within this week] by texting Erick Calilan at 09206045278 or Cenla Ganzon at 09063152181, so that we may provide outsiders/guests gate passes for you to freely enter the DLSU-D Campus.Spread the word, and see you all there.

Monday, November 3, 2008

Crushies

Sorry for the crappy, not-so rhyming rhyme. Just sprang out of nowhere. Can't help but write.


Tell me why

I love your pretty face

But your name is all I know

You are my friends' friends

I wanted to show

That I can be your friend too

If you let a little further go

See, I can be your boo.


Bahaa. So ghetto. Got it? Parang tanga lang. Hahaha Nevermind.

Separation Anxiety

I'm trying to get over that stage of death where you want the ones left behind to mourn for your death. But you are not so much of a loss, so staying or going would not really change so much of anything. You just got to die and stay dead. Accept being forgotten, like they say: out of sight, out of mind. Let the dead bury themselves. You're dead, so bury yourself somewhere and stay there. Rest in peace, Levy-chan, she that lay on a nameless grave. Adieu.

***

I went back to this place from once upon a time. I wanted to see someone, I wanted to do something but it was not fated to happen, or at least not yet. I wanted to see him after these years. I wanted to know how he's doing, I wanted to apologize, I wanted to say goodbye. Nobody cared for like he did before. He did not deserve what I did to him. Well, we parted as friends but far, that we already were, as I was here and he was in his part of the world were we met, I pushed him further away. I forcibly, without him knowing it, took him permanently away from my life. I broke my promise of keeping friendship. I don't expect him to run after me just like he always did way back when [...],  just want to see him, talk to him one last time. It's part of growing up, moving on stage. I want to set things straight. I wanted to make sure that he's happy now. I have no way of knowing that now. I tried my best to see him but I never found what I sought for. Loneliness seem to be my life. I'll try to see you again. I won't stop until I have finished what I have set out for to do. Till then. Wait for me.

***

I was anxious of getting started with what everyone think I should already be doing. I was up all night, stuck in thoughts of what I had to expect. At first, I was sure I wanted to do this. I was actually after the 'perks' of being a working girl. It was, in the beginning a happy trek but the burden gets heavier as you go along the way. My resume said I am willing to work on shifting schedule when actually I'm not. If I be given a choice, I'd cut working hours after lunchtime. I only placed that phrase to make it believable that I wanted the job so much. Well, I did want it but not that bad that I'd let sleepless nights pepper my face with some more pimples. Nah. And to make things worse, I was asked during my interview if I'm willing to work six days, meaning eating up my Saturday. No way, man. I will just try to find a good excuse so I take it back, reject the job offer. I was being stupid telling the HR Manager that I do when actually I don't. And the way she interviewed, or more like interrogated me, as if I was a psychiatric patient. Ugh~ Already done with my interview and my exams. I am under consideration for the job and their evaluating my application. She said she'd call me to let me know what happens. I think it's another call from her before I get the job, and I am not the only one. I hope she does not call me at all. I don't care anymore. I'll find another one. Something I could be comfortable with. No night shifts, no six working days. I would have taken that job offer that my friend recommends from where he's working but I think I'm under qualified. And I'm not really good with pressure. I tend to escape. If there's a will, there's a way and I'll find a way out of this. Don't get me wrong, I'm not being choosy.  just know what I want and I will find something to help me get it.

***

I'll see if I can drop by the University tomorrow and check on the Human Resource Management Office. Hopefully there's a job opening within the campus. I wish I had the choice of not having to leave what has been my home for half a decade. Anywhere as long as it's within her, though there's no way I'm becoming a teacher. Good luck na lang sa akin.

***

I missed so much just because of job hunting. So much time it ate when I should be doing something else. I'm so sorry, I will make it up to everyone once I have dealt with everything. See you all when I see you.

***

Sarap ng Kani Fry sa Teriyaki Boy. Had it earlier after the gruelling nine-hour famine of a job examination and interview. I didn't get to enjoy because nalipasan ako ng gutom. Pero, anyway, sarap talaga. Next time ulit. Party later at Anna's.

Kainan na naman!!!

Sunday, November 2, 2008

Videoke time: Himig ng Pag-Ibig by Asin




Went to visit my cousins last Saturday at Lucena. Sugar and I went to the mall and did videoke. Ayos.

I love Noel Cabangon's version of this song. But Yeng Constantino's version? Nevermind.

One of the few songs we did. I had so much fun. I'll be visiting them again, maybe in December. But I promised to take Sugar mountain climbing on March. Can't wait.

Bag or sack [not bagsak]

Applied for a job on Thursday,

Got a call on Friday,

Went for a one-day out-of-town vacation on Saturday,

Prepared my props on Sunday,

Having a job interview on Monday, which is tomorrow.

With fingers crossed, wish me the best of, not just luck but, everything.

It's either a bag or a sack; Either you bag it or get sacked even before you get in.

Alabang, here I come. .v..v.

PS: I applied as Graphic Artist.