Count 1. It's good to improve
Count 2. It's good to rest
Count 3. It's good to think
It's good to be able to progress at my own pace.
--My Pace, Sunset Swish--
Count 2. It's good to rest
Count 3. It's good to think
It's good to be able to progress at my own pace.
--My Pace, Sunset Swish--
I can let you into what happening in my life lately but the problem is, nothing is happening with my life lately.
Just ended training Last Wednesday and I'm back to bumming, or better said, I'm back to hunting for another job. See, they may try not to admit it, or say it straight, they don't think I'm good enough. They tried to break it gently and asked what could have been wrong and what happened to me but... Well, Yellow page ads are not for me. It's not the kind of 'graphic' work that I was expecting and I'm not really good with following standards. I don't believe in 'creative freedom' that follow rules, I don't like rules that opress freedom, and I'm not like a green sea turtle that follows the East Australian Current for migration. I don't usually go with the flow because I create my own flow. Blah. My flow might not always go where I want it to but at least, I get to make it for myself and follow it. And it's disappointing, the truth, that is. And as much as I wanted to say more how disappointing things are, have been, and are becoming, but I can't. I don't wanna sound like I'm sour-graping and bitter, and blah.. I'm still getting my pay for the days I worked for so.. who cares? And I might get sued? Nah. I don't know. Hahahaha.
Maybe I'm just being lazy. See, for that, almost two weeks that I went to train for that work, I was having thoughts in my head. Like, what I was doing it for? All I could think of was the pressure that it being thrown at me by the world. Like how it's been telling me that I'm such a burden and I need to earn my own money. For the first few days, the thought of getting paid after two weeks of waking up early, staying up all day and sleeping on the trip home is pretty rewarding but the end of the day, you realized that you aren't really happy with what you're doing. The world is so demanding and the last thing I need in my life is a world, and a life and the people in it who are rsuhing you and trying to make you grow up fast. No amount of money as well-compensation can really cheer you up when you have no good, right and worthy reason to do things. It might excite you at first but you get tired of it, and it tires you to do things as time goes further. Conclusion: things happened for for a reason and for the better [and they don't thinkI can do it, and I think so too, and I don't really see myself doing yellow page ads for a career, not that I think low of those in that kindof business, I just don't think that kind of work is for me, and I don't need the job as bad as those who applied for it. Hehe I made so many other applications but so far, they're the only ones that called me and.. bahaa~ nevermind.
Plans fail but mine didn't really. They just got postponed to a later date, much later date and so many plans. I don't regret anything though, I was gonna quit anyway. And I didn't really make friends so I didn't really leave anything, anyone behind except for my newest new friend Jaz. He's like my closest, or my only buddy, during that period when I worked as a trainee. We literally stucked together that whole time. No malice, of course. He's cute, and nice, and likes Survivor too, but too young for me. He's 18 and just graduated from a 2-year course in Mulimedia Arts and he looks a lot like one of my friends back in highschool. Nice kids, and he know what he is doind and he'd definitely go far. Goodluck, dude.
Because of this li'l glitch in my sitch, I am missing on a lot of things. Like I said, some of my plans are getting postponed to much later dates. I am hoping things will catch up soon, I hope I can catch up soon enough, and though I might be missing some things, i am definitely not missing that Survivor Philippines Fan Party on December 5. Woohoo. Sorry kids, you can't come unless you do forums at SP.tv hehe, and they cut off the list to 75 people and I'm 47th on it. Yay for me. Not sure, how I'm going to go there but I will definitely go there. I want to also go to the Reunion Specials on Finals day but not sure if I can get me tickets but I will surely do my best to get me one. And I might pursue that 'connivance interview' with someone whom I have talked about it with. Hehehehe. Yeehah. SP, wait for me. And my love.. Weeeh. I am definitely giving Kiko a bracelet. Hehehehe. Argh. Excitement.
I miss mother.. Mother nature. Eeek..
Speaking of mother nature, isn't it weird how Richard Gutierrez is a Greenpeace advocate and endorses shampoo at the same time?
So much I want to write but.. too lazy. Next time.
Ohmyheart! KIKO LOVES YOU day on Dec 5th. He said it himself. Wah. Read it here. Grrr.. I am so going to that Grand Eyeball. Lookey, here's a photo when he posted that post:
I keep missing his tv guestings but Eeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeekkkkk. I still love him. and I once I see him in person, that will make up for everything I've missed, and they have videos of his guesting on Pinoychannel.tv, so I'd still get to watch them. Love-love. So much love for Kikomann.
So much to live for, so much to die for.. I almost quitted but it kept me going on.. Eeek, Kiko LOVE!!!
PS: @ 2127 Online at chatting si Kiko sa SP.com ngayon. Naka-chat din. Wah.
Just ended training Last Wednesday and I'm back to bumming, or better said, I'm back to hunting for another job. See, they may try not to admit it, or say it straight, they don't think I'm good enough. They tried to break it gently and asked what could have been wrong and what happened to me but... Well, Yellow page ads are not for me. It's not the kind of 'graphic' work that I was expecting and I'm not really good with following standards. I don't believe in 'creative freedom' that follow rules, I don't like rules that opress freedom, and I'm not like a green sea turtle that follows the East Australian Current for migration. I don't usually go with the flow because I create my own flow. Blah. My flow might not always go where I want it to but at least, I get to make it for myself and follow it. And it's disappointing, the truth, that is. And as much as I wanted to say more how disappointing things are, have been, and are becoming, but I can't. I don't wanna sound like I'm sour-graping and bitter, and blah.. I'm still getting my pay for the days I worked for so.. who cares? And I might get sued? Nah. I don't know. Hahahaha.
Maybe I'm just being lazy. See, for that, almost two weeks that I went to train for that work, I was having thoughts in my head. Like, what I was doing it for? All I could think of was the pressure that it being thrown at me by the world. Like how it's been telling me that I'm such a burden and I need to earn my own money. For the first few days, the thought of getting paid after two weeks of waking up early, staying up all day and sleeping on the trip home is pretty rewarding but the end of the day, you realized that you aren't really happy with what you're doing. The world is so demanding and the last thing I need in my life is a world, and a life and the people in it who are rsuhing you and trying to make you grow up fast. No amount of money as well-compensation can really cheer you up when you have no good, right and worthy reason to do things. It might excite you at first but you get tired of it, and it tires you to do things as time goes further. Conclusion: things happened for for a reason and for the better [and they don't thinkI can do it, and I think so too, and I don't really see myself doing yellow page ads for a career, not that I think low of those in that kindof business, I just don't think that kind of work is for me, and I don't need the job as bad as those who applied for it. Hehe I made so many other applications but so far, they're the only ones that called me and.. bahaa~ nevermind.
Plans fail but mine didn't really. They just got postponed to a later date, much later date and so many plans. I don't regret anything though, I was gonna quit anyway. And I didn't really make friends so I didn't really leave anything, anyone behind except for my newest new friend Jaz. He's like my closest, or my only buddy, during that period when I worked as a trainee. We literally stucked together that whole time. No malice, of course. He's cute, and nice, and likes Survivor too, but too young for me. He's 18 and just graduated from a 2-year course in Mulimedia Arts and he looks a lot like one of my friends back in highschool. Nice kids, and he know what he is doind and he'd definitely go far. Goodluck, dude.
Because of this li'l glitch in my sitch, I am missing on a lot of things. Like I said, some of my plans are getting postponed to much later dates. I am hoping things will catch up soon, I hope I can catch up soon enough, and though I might be missing some things, i am definitely not missing that Survivor Philippines Fan Party on December 5. Woohoo. Sorry kids, you can't come unless you do forums at SP.tv hehe, and they cut off the list to 75 people and I'm 47th on it. Yay for me. Not sure, how I'm going to go there but I will definitely go there. I want to also go to the Reunion Specials on Finals day but not sure if I can get me tickets but I will surely do my best to get me one. And I might pursue that 'connivance interview' with someone whom I have talked about it with. Hehehehe. Yeehah. SP, wait for me. And my love.. Weeeh. I am definitely giving Kiko a bracelet. Hehehehe. Argh. Excitement.
I miss mother.. Mother nature. Eeek..
Speaking of mother nature, isn't it weird how Richard Gutierrez is a Greenpeace advocate and endorses shampoo at the same time?
So much I want to write but.. too lazy. Next time.
Ohmyheart! KIKO LOVES YOU day on Dec 5th. He said it himself. Wah. Read it here. Grrr.. I am so going to that Grand Eyeball. Lookey, here's a photo when he posted that post:
I keep missing his tv guestings but Eeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeekkkkk. I still love him. and I once I see him in person, that will make up for everything I've missed, and they have videos of his guesting on Pinoychannel.tv, so I'd still get to watch them. Love-love. So much love for Kikomann.
So much to live for, so much to die for.. I almost quitted but it kept me going on.. Eeek, Kiko LOVE!!!
PS: @ 2127 Online at chatting si Kiko sa SP.com ngayon. Naka-chat din. Wah.
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