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Stuck in Twelve-tide, Third to the Seventh Day of Christmas

26th December, Wednesday

I started on some of the things that I should have started a few weeks ago. Finally had the will to fight the urge to slack off. Don't really remember much of what happened that day but what I cannot forget is that I missed an episode of Born to be Wild because of a sudden, unannounced power interruption. Huwaaah~ Garduch-samaaa!!! I didn't really mind having to eat a candlelit dinner, and I was wishing, praying hard that the current will be back in time for the show but... But... Oh! Darn, Meralco! Grrr...

27th December, Thursday

(...) Ellipses. Tuldok. Tuldok. Tuldok. 'Di ko maalala. The end. Hehehe.

Oh, yeah. Suddenly felt like hiking. I asked some of my friends if they want to join me. I want to do some physical activities this Christmas break [nainggit ako sa ibang tao jan, hehe] and I've been wanting to climb Batulao since sem break. Hahaha. The plans aren't polished yet but, yeah, we are definitely climbing Batulao! I wanted to join the make-up climb but it would be less expensive than joining them though I still might join the make-up climb. Hehehe

Got an invitation to a friend's birthday party, and bored as I am, I would never miss out on an opportunity to party with my friends. It was of short notice, but, hey, I have nothing to do so I decided to go. Partyaaay!!!

28th December, Friday

Been having sleeping problems since the Christmas break started, so I woke up late in the afternoon. Fixed myself right away and went to meet my friends for the party. I was so much looking forward to going to this party knowing someone I've been wanting to see lives within the area where we're going. I wanted to belive that the place is calling me, wishing he'll only be a few blocks away and somehow, he'd feel my presence and go to see me there. But that's just too weird to actually happen. Anyway, so, yeah, I met up with my friends and most of them were actually late because they went to play CoD.

So we got to the place. Ayos, ang daming pagkain. My fave was the chopsuey with very fresh veggies and the lumpiang shanghai. Yum! And there was everybody's all-time favorite, videoke! Hehehe. Loved the two-layer cake too, pineapple chiffon and, my favorite flavor, mocha. Everything was so good except for one of the dishes that tasted weird. Hehehe. Me and a friend thought that there was something neither fishy, porky, beefy, nor chicken-y about it. We were thinking... Hehehe, nevermind. Must be the way it was cooked or at least we'd like to think it that way. Anyway, so we sang the night away. We ate, we sang, we ate again, we played Patintero like little kids, we shared jokes, ate some more, sang again. We stayed up till morning of the next day.

29th December, Saturday

It was a sleepover without the 'sleep' part. Some of us strolled while the others watched Code Geass. When we got back, we ate some more, we started noticing that the moon was forming a big arc around it.  We called the others to see it too. It was becoming more and more visible as the night [or day, since it's past midnight]. The sky is clear, and the moon was so bright, the stars were too. I wished, again, that I had an SLR. We brought out a sheet to lie on and watched the moon and stars. Yosh, I imagined this scene more dreamy and even romantic, if only HE was there, and we were above the mountain, under the stars, Awww... Dreamy-eyed child being TOO dreamy again. So there, everyone was wide awake, not a blink of sleep. We talked about our own theories on the 'halo': 1) the ozone layer has opened, and the end has come, 2) it is a portal in which a Kuuma gunship will penetrate and start invading earth, 3) the moon is starting to form its own icering like that of Saturn and other planets, 4) it is a blackhole, and it going to suck us all in 5) it is a window to another world, and aliens are going to suck us in, 6) it is an aura borealis in Asia?, 7) A new galaxy is forming, and lots more stuff. Yes, we all came up with weird-enough-to-be-funny conclusions on how that ring came to be. After stargazing, and the others, playing PlayStation, we went to the playground and talked about more stuffs, theories, and philosophies. We went back to the house and raided the kitchen, and made something up for breakfast. I ate cake. Hehehe. The others are still playing PS. Very few had a chance to doze off a little, but most of us were very up and very much alive. Had this mini-meeting about G-Ken while the others were still glued to PS. A few more games and then we're off. We were each given freebies since it was a debut we went to. Then we went to another friend's house and stayed for a while. Still no neither blink nor wink of sleep but up and almost-still alive, with the thoughts of seeing him again still wide awake inside my head. Then we went to 7/11 for breakfast then Migueebytes for a game of CoD and DotA. Till we finally went home with circles under our eyes and happiness in our hearts and sleepiness in our heads, hehehe.

Got home at about 5pm. I was away and awake for more than 24 hours. I took a bath, got dressed, brushed my teeth, and then slept right away. Woke up 9pm. Ate dinner and stayed for a few more hours. Got the details for the hike and I am very excited. I started writing this post until it was 3am again and I didn't finish so I decided to call it a night and continue writing the next day.

By the way, I'd like you all to meet Leonidas, my dæmon. See that flash animation below, that's him. If you wanna know more about dæmons, read His Dark Materials [The Golden Compass/ Northern Lights, The Subtle Knife, The Amber Spyglass] by Philip Pullman, watch The Golden Compass or just go to goldencompassonline.com. Hehehe Cool, neh?

30th December, Sunday

I woke up a few hours past noon. Finally had the sleep I missed for a day. Still have my trademark under-eye circles but I look better now than last night. Not sure I remember what I ate for lunch or dinner, after that I watched tv, did a little vocalizing, took a bath then went back to sleep. Got a message from a friend informing us that the phenomenon we've witnessed the other night is called 'moon halo'.

I woke up at 11pm and made something for late night dinner or midnight snack? Watched Strong Words. Went online to continue writing this entry and search for more information and pictures on moon phenomenas. Had conference with friends about our Post-New Year trip. Up to this hour, I am still writing this post. Haaay...

So it's morning again, and it the 31st of December, Monday. A few more hours and it will be 2008. My brother still hasn't come home since he went somewhere a few weeks ago. The boy has issues and... Uhh! Never mind! He's old enough to know what's good for him. Anyway, I did this little Friendster thingy out of boredom and it turned out, well, quite amusing. Here are the results:

1 7 - my lucky number
2 5 - no. of people I like
3 **** **** - the one I love
4 **** - person I care most of
5 **** - person who knows me very well
6 **** - my lucky star?
7 ****** - person I like but relationship cannot work
8 Downpour - song for person no. 3
9 Somewhere - song for person no. 7
10 Memories - song that most tell about my mind
11 Inconsolable - song that tell how i feel about life

Gazing at the skies was quite an experience. It made me think of a lot of things, a lot more things than I usually think of. Like things I do, places I want to go to, places I want to go back to, that person I care about, those kind of stuffs. Everything's vague actually. I mean, I like this person but I was thinking if it's finally time to let go of the hopes that I'll ever see him again or that we'll even be together, plans after graduation, will I even graduate, things I wanna buy for myself, stuffs I wanna do in life. Those things... Can't really think straight when i talk about these kind of things. I was also thinking of ways on how I can raise the fund I need for my major climb this January [Pulag, beybeh!] and buying the gears and equipments I need. Oh, man! Now I need a job! Hahaha.

Oops, long post. Hehehe.

A Good morning and a Happy New Year, everyone!

Twelve-tide, On the Second Day of Christmas

So, a day's past. Christmas is over and it's not like I even felt it come, just knew it had already gone. Period.

Okay, it's way past bedtime, not for me though. The day's just getting started. The mosquitoes are too. Anyway...  Productivity is so much of a problem these days. I just might die of boredom. I'm so stuck here at home, and I wanna go somewhere, do something. Climb maybe? Anywhere. Anytime. Anything. I wanted to watch a movie but I'm thinking of something else. I mean, cause and effect; if I go watch a movie blah-blah-blah.. You know, those things. I should be doing something but I can't get started. Projects, concepts, artworks, designs, fixing my room and my closet. All I'm actually doing is snoozing the holidays away. I'm bored with being bored. I want to try not being bored. I so lack inspiration, and I so lack the appetite to work on something. Hahaha, excuses! I'm just lazy. That's just it.

I had an unlikely conversation with an unlikely person. It was actually a witful conversation, at three in the morning, and it jumped from one topic to another, till it ended to the topic of Muppets and puppets. Hahaha. Thank you very much, nawindang ako sa daming facts. Hehehe

Finances, baby! I'm so broke and I have lots of expenses, not part of the family budget to worry about. Fucked up school projects, huwaaah~ Pulag, I don't even have my own backpack yet. I want to and I will invest on my gears and gadgets in time but not just yet. I don't always have money when I need it, and when I have some, it's not always enough. I'm afraid  will have to ask money to pour down from heaven. Hahaha. Love will find a way.. Hahaha. Goodluck sa akin.  Ugh...

It's almost New Year, time for Chinese Horoscopes and Forecasts again!!! I am actually reading one as I write this line. And because I have ran out of idea of what to write, I'll post what I'm reading instead. Check n'yo na lang, antok na 'ko eh. Just scroll down, beybeh!

*****

This person is White Dog, born in the year of Red Tiger.

The first character in DAY represents this person. So he or she is Male Metal-Type person.

The Birth Chart

Birthday: July 5, 1986   Birth Hour: 12 Minute: 55
The Five Element Weights and Personality Chart

People have different Five Element weights in their Birth Chart. Each element implies one kind of personality. The Wood-type personality is kind, the Fire-type personality is polite, the Earth-type personality is trustful, the Metal-type person is righteous and the Water-type personality is smart. Because a person's Birth Chart usually contains five elements, there will always be mixed personalities.

Each element has a good and bad side of personality. If the weight of an element is between 15% and 25%, that implies a good side of personality. If the weight of an element is less than 8% or greater than 30%, that implies a bad side of personality. All other weights imply mixing the good and the bad side of the personality.

This Male Metal-Type person, basically, shows Fire-type personality in the daily life.

42% Fire-Type Personality

People with Firer-type personality are courteous, eloquent, polite and expressive. They are good at compliments in speech.

Fire people are energetic, artistic, passionate, easily excitable, and have a tendency to rapidly change emotional states as well as become aggressive. They love sensation, drama and sentiment. They seek joy, gratification and the attention of others. They like to be invited to a party and dislike being alone.

People with excess Fire are often talkative, overstated, overexcited, overheated, sweet-talking, smart and restless. They tend to lecture and offend others because of their short temper.

25% Earth-Type Personality

People with Earth-type personality are trustful, steady, loyal and responsible. They are honest, religious, reliable, and keep their promises.

The characteristics of Earth are standing still, being slow and steady, and stationary. Therefore the Earth people don't like to move their body and change their mind too often. They are honest, trustworthy, and responsible. They also have good faith. They can sit in one position for a long time. They accept religion since they like rumination and meditation. They are slow to react. They like to collect things, and enjoy their collectables at home, but not outdoors.

When their ambition and optimism is overwhelming, Wood-types can become upset, nervous, unstable, impatient, intolerant, and lose their humor by the frustration of many obstacles.

14% Wood-Type Personality

People with Wood-type personality are kind, steady, sympathy-sharing, understanding and gentle. They like to help people and make donations.

The essence of Wood is a tree. The force inside the tree is like growing upward to the sky. Trees often compete with each other aggressively when growing up. Because of the characteristics of trees, Wood-type people are steadfast, organized, logical, practical, innovative, unique, assertive, fortitudinous, independent, challenging and direct. They like to plan things, take action, and go on adventures and challenges. They are perfectionists who tend to push themselves to the limit and seek out the best, and take first place in competition.

When their ambition and optimism is overwhelming, Wood-types can become upset, nervous, unstable, impatient, intolerant, and lose their humor by the frustration of many obstacles.

12% Water-Type Personality

People with Water-type personality are smart, wise, frank, and resourceful. They have good memories and think before they leap.

There are two types of Water: Floating Water and Still Water. Floating Water makes people active and restless and feel like traveling. Still Water makes people clam and peaceful.

5% Metal-Type Personality

People with Metal-type personality are righteous, faithful, gallant and chivalrous. They like to know and help people.

Metal is the substance in which internal particles squeeze and condense together. There is a force from the outside to the inside that keeps Metal hard. Metal reflects light, so it is shiny. It may have a clear sound when it's hit. Therefore, a Metal-type person has great strength, discipline and enough courage to aid needy people, which may make them famous.

People that lack Metal are quiet, cautious and nervous. They tend to think too much, and cannot make quick decisions. They do not express what is on their minds in public, but will complain about something afterwards.

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General Information for Male Metal-type people born in Horse Month

The general description about this person is opinionated, adventurous, subjective, revolutionary, persistent and forceful.

One word for people born in this month is passionate.

These people appear lively and cheerful. Others usually accept their brilliant ideas. Their intelligent statements in social situations and good conversational skills always attract people to follow their ideas. They have good inflow of money, but often spend it to show off. However, it will not cause them any financial difficulties, since they are good at seeking profitable financial opportunities. They are very self-righteous. They always express their discontent if they are not completely satisfied and always become very frustrated. If they cannot find satisfaction in work, they might quit immediately. They give up love very easily too. They make hasty decisions, as they are unable to focus and organize their thinking on a subject. They tend to change their minds very often and do not want to act. Their passions only burn for a a short time and cool down very soon in both love and career.

Source: http://chinesehoroscopeonline.com

Twelve-tide, On the First Day of Christmas

Before anything else, Merry Christmas!

So...

Okay, believe it or not, I went to hear mass this morning and yesterday morning. Before that, the last time I heard mass was when we had our retreat last June. Even before that, the last time I went to church was two to three years ago when I still had REED class. I know what others think but who cares. Anyway, so, I've seen very familiar scenes from masses from years ago; children running around, couples cuddling, teenagers talking instead of listening, adults, you know, things like that. Nothing new, aside from the tunes of some of the church songs. Actually, I wouldn't have gone if my friends didn't come with me. Even the church is too lonely when you're alone and I can pray without having to go to church. The feeling of being back in the church again wasn't any different from any other day. Maybe because my faith has turned towards a different direction, different from others, you may not understand. =)

We had cheeseburger for breakfast this morning after mass, and, man, that burger was soooo good. And I enjoyed walking along Nueno Avenue at five in the morning from the cathedral. I don't know, today's been such a sweet morning because I'm having "weird thoughts" again. Possibilities are endless. I'm having weird ideas of "possibilities". Those ideas are giving me me weird thoughts again. Erase. Erase. Erase. Hahaha.

Tried ukay-ukay for the first time today. My brothers love buying from them and I thought I'd try it too. It felt weird and uncomfortable but I found very good stuffs though I didn't get to buy them all. I saved a few hundred bucks. They were better finds than those at the mall where there are lots of skinny jeans, three-fourth shorts, skinny jeans, skirts, and more skinny jeans. You don't really expect me to wear skinny jeans, now do you?

Plans fail. A perfect example was last week's performance and party. I sang Houkiboshi at the University Christmas Party (morning) but, you see, I forgot the lyrics, I can't hear my voice very well, and I wasn't in synch with the music and I slipped as I was going down the stairs. Oh. The. Shame. Later in the evening, we our DMS Christmas party. The party didn't go as planned. Hehehe. I. Am. Sorry. *hik-hik* The food was good [I loved that mushroom quesadilla and mojos] but I had too much vegetable from the party, I got sick. I was already sick that day since morning, my head felt like splitting and having no meat and rice that night, made it worse. I threw up everything when I got home. And there are times that I really crave meat, and cannot eat anything without it. I hope I'm not offending anyone with being a true-blooded carnivore. To all the meats I ate before, I am so sorry that God made you very delicious and I can't live without you. *remembers Romaiya-sempai from Honey and Clover*

Here I go again. It's hopeless but I'm still hoping. [Umaasa kahit na wala nang pag-asa] For what? That I'd see him again. I can't shake him off my head. He has clung into my mind like some gooey, sticky matter.  Uhh, okay, I just miss him. Memories keep him near, and those memories haunt me. Why does seeing him and talking to him again seem too much too ask? I still can't let go of the idea that there must have been really "something" between us that is "naudlot" or just waiting for a chance. Awww... Bakit gano'n?

Okay, it's already New Year, next week. A lot to be expected and looked forward for; Prelim exam for VB, lots of HF work [layouting], start of working on school projects for the Finals, and I have to do something about my Physics class, G-Ken, Exit interview at the Guidance office, CosPlay? Make-up climb, and my most awaited event for 2008-- Induction climb at Mt. Pulag, and lots more other stuffs that has to be done. I don't really have a clear direction right now, as usual, but, uhh, well, bahala na.

Magulo, nagulo, at lalong gumugulo ang buhay ng mga tao. Sana may maitulong ako, sana pwedeng ako ang maging sagot, sana matapos na ang mga kaguluhang ito. Speaking of "matapos", pag ako di pa rin nakatapos ng Summer 08, fotcha! Kung hindi ako magpapakamatay baka makapatay na ako. Bwahaha! World peace. 'LUL!!!

Hindi ako manghihingi ng regalo kasi baka hingian nyo rin ako. Hahaha. Nood tayo Enteng Kabisote? KKB ah!

So, it's Christmas. Now what?

DLSU-DMS Christmas Party

DLSU-DMS Mexican Cocktail Christmas Party
December 21, 2007
@ Cantimbuhan Residence

Photos from Anna's camera

~Went to the University party in the morning to perform for Genshiken. It was kinda disastrous (forgetting the lyrics, and not in synch with the music) and I even slipped as I was going down from the stage. Good thing my friends were there. It wasn't too embarrassing. I almost didn't make it to that party because I was feeling sick. Ate carbonara and chicken at the party. After the party I went to greet the HF people Merry Christmas and then joined the meeting for G-Ken. After the meeting, I went to buy my exchange gift then had it wrapped, ate my very late (about 6 or 7 in the evening) lunch at KFC, went to the venue then we fixed the place, went to Wlatermart to buy some ore stuffs for the party, put decorations while the others were busy in the kitchen. Then the party went on. So, it didn't quite turned out as planned but I believe everybody enjoyed. I was suposed to wear my haciendera costume but I just didn't have time to fix so I went without a costume but I brough a hat, just to say I had something Mexican. It was confirmed to us that were going to Pulag for the Induction climb. Not sure about the makeup climb though. There was supposed to be a short pre-climb meeting last night but everybody's so busy. Anyway... I wanted to stay longer but I wasn't feeling very well since morning. My head felt like it was going to split into halves. Probably because I haven't had a decent sleep yet and I ate lunch late. I threw up when I got home, as if I was really drunk, when actually all I drank was a glass of water for breakfast, a bottle of coke during the univ party, a glass of mountain dew at KFC, and a few glasses of water during the Christmas party, but, oh, I had a sip of Tequila (not sure if that was actually the Tequie). The food was good, everything. I got a towel for exchange gift. I had a lot of fun and I am looking forward to more parties and celebrations with you guys. Merry Christmas, DMS!!!

Denial

mood:

iTANGgI NA aNG PHYSICS!

iTANGgI NA aNG VB6!

iTANGgI NA aNG BUHAY na YAN!

iTANGgI NA SILA!

iTANGgI NA NinYONG LAHAT!

iTANGgI NA TALAGA!

eto >> tO_ot << kayo

Yo Te Amo

Si la vida me permite a lado tuyo

Creceran mis ilusiones no lo dudo

Si la vida la perdiera en un instante

Que me llene de ti para amar despues de amarte, Vida

DLSU-DMS Christmas Party

¡Hola, amigos y amigas! Usted es invitado cordialmente al Cóctel Mexicano de DLSU-DMS. El partido empieza a las siete de la tarde. ¡Feliz Navidad! ¡Véalos allí!!!

DLSU-DMS Mexican Cocktail Christmas Party
December 21, 2007
@ Cantimbuhan Residence

PROGRAM
1900 - 2000 Registration
2000 - 2015 Prayer, Opening Remarks
2015 - 2100 Games
2100 - 2130 Intermission Numbers
2130 onwards Party Time, Exchange Gift, Awarding of Best in Costume

Notes: Come in your best Mexican outfit. Exchange gifts should be worth a minimum of 100Php. All members, alumni, applicants, even former applicants are invited. Follow the link below and spread the word. Gracias!

Copy invitation >>HERE!!!<<

¡Hola, amigos y amigas! Usted es invitado cordialmente al Cóctel Mexicano de DLSU-DMS. El partido empieza a las siete de la tarde. ¡Feliz Navidad! ¡Véalos allí!!!

DLSU-DMS Mexican Cocktail Christmas Party
December 21, 2007
@ Cantimbuhan Residence

PROGRAM
1900 - 2000 Registration
2000 - 2015 Prayer
Opening Remarks
2015 - 2100 Games
2100 - 2130 Intermission Numbers
2130 onwards Party Time
Exchange Gift
Awarding of Best in Costume

Notes: Come in your best Mexican outfit. Exchange gifts should be worth a minimum of 100Php. All members, alumni, applicants, even former applicants are invited. Follow the link below and spread the word. Gracias!

Copy invitation >>HERE!!!<<

¡Hola, amigos y amigas! Usted es invitado cordialmente al Cóctel Mexicano de DLSU-DMS. El partido empieza a las siete de la tarde. ¡Feliz Navidad! ¡Véalos allí!!!

DLSU-DMS Mexican Cocktail Christmas Party
December 21, 2007
@ Cantimbuhan Residence

PROGRAM
1900 - 2000 Registration
2000 - 2015 Prayer
Opening Remarks
2015 - 2100 Games
2100 - 2130 Intermission Numbers
2130 onwards Party Time
Exchange Gift
Awarding of Best in Costume

Notes: Come in your best Mexican outfit. Exchange gifts should be worth a minimum of 100Php. All members, alumni, applicants, even former applicants are invited. Follow the link below and spread the word. Gracias!

Copy invitation HERE!!!

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¡Hola, amigos y amigas! Usted es invitado cordialmente al Cóctel Mexicano de DLSU-DMS. El partido empieza a las siete de la tarde. ¡Feliz Navidad! ¡Véalos allí!!!

DLSU-DMS Mexican Cocktail Christmas Party
December 21, 2007
@ Cantimbuhan Residence

PROGRAM
1900 - 2000 Registration
2000 - 2015 Prayer, Opening Remarks
2015 - 2100 Games
2100 - 2130 Intermission Numbers
2130 onwards Party Time, Exchange Gift, Awarding of Best in Costume

Notes: Come in your best Mexican outfit. Exchange gifts should be worth a minimum of 100Php. All members, alumni, applicants, even former applicants are invited. Follow the link below and spread the word. Gracias!

Copy invitation >>HERE!!!<<

True Color

Now, this is WEIRD.

Meteor Shower

Tonight at 10pm onwards

Di na daw kelangan ng telescope

Mga 100 per seconds daw ang bagsakan

AYOS!

Downpour

It's hard to just stop when you're spinning around.

I have been trying my best the past few days trying to put back together my cluttered brains. It's all over the place. I've been wanting to put my thoughts together and come up with something to write but to no avail. As much as I wanted to stay in one place, I am kind of stranded in a dimension, surrounded by doors that lead to several different worlds. The feeling's like being suspended in midair. I wanted to land, but my feet just won't reach the ground. Let's see what I can get out of this...

* regress * regress *

A thousand more regrets, unraveling

Today, I felt like I'm heading for a breakdown. I was in my usual state wherein a lot is going on inside my head but today's suffocation is more felt than it has ever been feel-able. I was getting choked by my own hands. Days pass and all the more I realize the truth that I've known for the longest time. 1) The people you expect to, cannot always, will not always, and may not at all do for you what you know you can do for them; it's always man for himself. No matter how much resentment you let yourself feel cannot change anything. You are left with no option but take them down with you. Hehehe. And maybe, I will. I just might. Hahaha. 2) Weaklings are always at the bottom of the foodchain. They cannot survive without having to leech on others. And leeching does not always mean having to suck blood. And it seems to be the only way around. But you can't really expect me to beg for your "mercy", not even if my "life" depended on it. I'd rather stay stuck and do everything all over again, even if it meant having to start from scratch. 3) Some people are just too dumb to realize these things.

The flavor of life: a hint of bitterness

Finally saw him again, but only in my dream. I walk up on a lovely Tuesday from a dream of him. I have no memory of the dream but I know it was a good dream or I wouldn't have woken up with a good mood. I was finally able to reach him if only in my head. I've been thinking of him a lot. It's been a more than a month since I last saw him. I feel hopeless as it seems I woke up late again. It's only now that I started to understand the signs, the gestures, the words, everything. But he's gone and chances are, I may not see him ever again. Actually, I have no idea if it's only me or what I think exists between us is real but I'm so ready to make that big step. To think I've done it all before; I've crossed the bridge for someone who rejected me and used friendship as an excuse, stayed by someone's side who seem to have not even noticed I, once, cared for him (fell for one after the other but never for me), and fallen for several others from different times in my life and... Blah-blah. Nevermind. All I want to say is that I just want him to know that I like him a lot, and I miss him badly. All the moments we lost due to inevitable circumstances, the missed chances, all the must-have-beens and could-have-beens... Makita at makausap ko lang sya ulit, sasabihin ko talaga sa kanya. Huwaaah! Sino ba sa inyo may contact kay... Kawaii-ness ko!!! For a moment, nabuhayan ako ng loob ng makita ko yung isa sa iilang taong closest link ko sa kanya. Pero... Aww...

I know you'll always be with me, in the possibility

Our trash may be somebody else's treasure. Same as what is ordinary to us may be something big and important to other people. My point is...? Kamown, think about it.

You're not hardcore unless you live outdoor

Astig talaga ang Born to be Wild. Hindi lang dahil kay Romi Garduce [All hail, Garduch-sama!!!] kundi dahil naaalala ko ang National Geographic Channel kung saan ko nabuo ang pangarap ko na maging isang wildlife researcher. Para tuloy gusto ko na ring maging diver. Ahuhu! Wala syang kinalaman sa kursong kinuha ko, na sa wakas ay malapit ko na rin atang matapos. Passion lang, pare, passion. Hahaha.

Somehow, trying to catch up on everything especially when everybody else has left me behind

Speaking of passion... Nyahaha! Hehe, wala lang. Masaya. So far, Cristobal's been the best climb I've ever had. May kulang kasi mas maraming "sweet memories" sa Pico de Loro, maliban sa gulungan portions namin dun. Hehehe. Set back: I was not prepared for the temperature. Mga 17 degrees Celsius ata or less. Fotek. I literally had brain freeze. We were having talks/ discussion and I couldn't concentrate. My conscious mind was split into several halves. One was into listening into the discussion, one was trying to fight the cold, one was thinking how comfortable it would have been if I just stayed at home, one has finally learned to appreciate the hot weather in the big city. Hirap ng tropical person. Hehehe. I was thankful that it didn't rain though it was really foggy. I love the high winds at the peak and how we would cheer whenever there would be clearing because it was hazy when we went up the summit to take pictures and you can't see the city below. Check na lang th pictures HERE. Basta, it's been fun and I'm only one step further from Induction. Ahaha. Sugoi.

Memories keep you near, Imagined you'd be here

I've been watch Pinoy Big Brother Celebrity  Edition 2, and kinda hooked. One thing, it's entertaining for some inexplicable reason and another, Baron Geisler. Was never a fan of him, not even, from his teenybopper days. I just find him very cute and he reminds me so much of Kawaii Boy, whom I like a lot and miss so badly. Aww... Wala lang. *Hikbi* Nyaow!

You're the calm when my world is crashing, my, heart, my blood, my passion

I've tried takoyaki for the first time yesterday. Hehehe. Someone's selling them outside school. Not sure if it was a real takoyaki but it tastes really good. Yum. Already seen The Golden Compass, and I believe the book's been given justice. Can't wait for the 2nd and 3rd part, hehehe. I've finished Harry Potter and Deathly Hallows, finally. Hahaha. Still haven't bought that new BSB Album. What happens if you put 3 lovesick people into a conversation with one another? Love Rolls. Hahaha. Saka na and details, hindi ko pa rin maarok eh. Hahaha. The chances of making it into the March 08 is getting slighter by the hour. It isn't really much of a big deal but the people can't seem to wait. They're on the rush, giving me so much pressure. Probably expecting too much but only to be disappointed again. I am trying my best to rise up where I've fallen though it may not seem so to most of you but I am. I may seem to take things lightly but I am, actually, just trying to keep myself from falling apart. Everyday survival is a constant struggle. It may not be big, I, too, am making sacrifices. Christmas is just around the corner, so are Christmas parties which mean having to spend for them and also, projects to be finished. How on earth am I going to save up for Induction, my cosplay and my projects? Huwaaah!? I am planning some change of plans but I still haven't made up my mind. I have other time for that. For now, quizzes and exams muna. May nagsasabi mga nagsasabi nga palang I'm losing weight. Hahaha. Gambare masu!

I can see the edge but I can't take the fall

This is Halloween

Boys and girls of every age, wouldn't you like to see something strange?
Come with us and you will see this, our town of Halloween.

This is Halloween, pumpkins scream in the dead of night
This is Halloween, everybody make a scene
Trick or treat till the neighbors gonna die of fright
It's our town, everybody scream
In this town of Halloween

- Marilyn Manson, This is Halloween

Photo grabbed from Ana Cortes

*fiction*
L: Uy! May butiki dun, o!
G: Wag ka magulo, may nagpi-picture kaya sa 'tin.
L: Malalaglag kaya sa 'yo.
G: 'Yaan mo sya, mamaya na yan.
L: Picture, di ka naman nakangiti eh.
G: Hay..

Taken last October 29, during HF's Midyear Workshop slash Gawad Abdul slash Halloween Party. Everybody had costumes, so did we. Bwahaha! Just thought this photo's cute, mainly 'cause I'm in it, hehehe, so I posted it. Hehehe

Lost

In my great, wide somewhere

Come and find me

Within confines

Only I can find

I'll be waiting.

DLSU - DMS Batch 11 Team Chopsuey

Isang simpleng pagtatanghal sa Powerpoint. Patawad wala yatang kaakibat na musika. Hayaan nyo, next time high-tech na!

☺ ♥ ♥ ♥ ☻

You never knew, you never promised

But I'd still wait

This hurts so bad but feels so good

Something's telling me I have to stay

'Cause you'd still be coming back

I miss you badly but this pain is all I wanna I feel

Who's gonna save me, I'm already dead

Put me out of my misery

CANCER - The Beauty

CANCER - The Beauty

MOST AMAZING KISSER. Very high appeal. A Cancer's Love is one of a kind. Very romantic. Most caring person you will ever meet in your life. Entirely creative Person, most's are artists and insane respectfully speaking. They perfected sex and do it often. Extremely random. An Ultimate Freak. Extremely funny and is usually the life of the party. Most cancers will take you under their wing and into their hearts where you will remain forever. Cancers make love with a passion beyond compare
Spontaneous. Not a Fighter, But will kick your ass good if it comes down to it. Someone you should hold on to!

Evil

Disciples II: Guardians of the Light, Servants of the Dark inspired

I should be doing my programming assignment for tomorrow but look at what I just did...

Mt. Cristobal Adventures ng Batang Chopsuey

DLSU - Dasmariñas Mountaineering Society [Batch 11]
3rd Minor Training Climb
November 30 - December 1 2007
Mt. Cristobal, Dolores, Quezon

Photos from my phone and Issah's camera

Cast: Team Chopsuey's Adrian, Arnel, Dan, Erick, Issah, Raymond and Me, The DMS members: Sir PJ, Sir Royce, Sir Robin, Sir Martin, Sir Andrian, Ma'am Audrey, Ma'am Felice, Sir Louie and his guest, Sir Tad

~ AYOS! Ang lamig. You could see the fog roll. The temperature ranged from 17 to 15 degress Celsius. Gripping, biting cold. Sobrang sarap ng tulog ko, nanginginig pa. Hehehe. Maaksyon ang akyatang ito. Mabangin, mabato, madamo. I love the rocky terrain, i love the mossy trees, I love the fog. Hehehe. Wala akong nakitang wildlife maliban sa mga inseckto. Di kami inulan, yeah! Malamig lang talaga. Masakit pa rin ang katawan ko. Walang gumulong though mejo makailang beses din akong nadulas. hehehe. New faces and friends. May mga na-meet kaming ilang mountaineers paakyat at pababa. Salamat sa bonding, salamat sa tumulong na pumasan ng pasanin ko, salamat sa tumulong na magtayo at magligpit ng tent, salamat sa foodtrip, salamat sa laughtrip, salamat sa kwentuhan, salamat sa nagpahiram ng bag, salamat sa nagpahiram ng tent, salamat sa nagbitbit ng tent, salamat sa pangungulit, salamat sa mga bagong idea, salamat sa bagong sigla. Woooh! Special thanks kay Ate at Kuya from Kinabuhayan, Quezon. Kuya, you're so honest, binalik sa akin yung sobra kong naibayad at salamat din sa pagluluto ng soup ko. Maliban sa mga nakakikilabot ng mga hilik ng mga taong tulog, Cristobal is not as spooky as they say. Ayos talaga, napraning ako sa hilik kung kanino man yun. Akala ko may kung anung nilalang sa paligid. Ako pa nmn yung nasa side ng tent na medyo magubat. Hehehe. Weird. Onga pala, yung Mik-mik trips at Jjampong! Hahaha! Mga adik. Sayang naman yung mga hindi sumama. Hahaha. Ang dami nyong na-miss. Di bale, Make-up climb tayo! Tapos... Induction! Goodluck sa ating lahat!

Long Way Down

One wrong move, you fall.

~Taken while clinging to the wall trying to cross from one side to the other at a ridge at Mt. Cristobal last Friday, November 30th. Hehehe, it was very dangerous but I had to risk it so I could take a picture. Don't try that at home because you just can't unless you have a ridge at your house. Hahaha. I'll post the pictures from my phone and those from Issah's camera once she uploads it. Yosh!