Twelve-tide, On the First Day of Christmas

Before anything else, Merry Christmas!

So...

Okay, believe it or not, I went to hear mass this morning and yesterday morning. Before that, the last time I heard mass was when we had our retreat last June. Even before that, the last time I went to church was two to three years ago when I still had REED class. I know what others think but who cares. Anyway, so, I've seen very familiar scenes from masses from years ago; children running around, couples cuddling, teenagers talking instead of listening, adults, you know, things like that. Nothing new, aside from the tunes of some of the church songs. Actually, I wouldn't have gone if my friends didn't come with me. Even the church is too lonely when you're alone and I can pray without having to go to church. The feeling of being back in the church again wasn't any different from any other day. Maybe because my faith has turned towards a different direction, different from others, you may not understand. =)

We had cheeseburger for breakfast this morning after mass, and, man, that burger was soooo good. And I enjoyed walking along Nueno Avenue at five in the morning from the cathedral. I don't know, today's been such a sweet morning because I'm having "weird thoughts" again. Possibilities are endless. I'm having weird ideas of "possibilities". Those ideas are giving me me weird thoughts again. Erase. Erase. Erase. Hahaha.

Tried ukay-ukay for the first time today. My brothers love buying from them and I thought I'd try it too. It felt weird and uncomfortable but I found very good stuffs though I didn't get to buy them all. I saved a few hundred bucks. They were better finds than those at the mall where there are lots of skinny jeans, three-fourth shorts, skinny jeans, skirts, and more skinny jeans. You don't really expect me to wear skinny jeans, now do you?

Plans fail. A perfect example was last week's performance and party. I sang Houkiboshi at the University Christmas Party (morning) but, you see, I forgot the lyrics, I can't hear my voice very well, and I wasn't in synch with the music and I slipped as I was going down the stairs. Oh. The. Shame. Later in the evening, we our DMS Christmas party. The party didn't go as planned. Hehehe. I. Am. Sorry. *hik-hik* The food was good [I loved that mushroom quesadilla and mojos] but I had too much vegetable from the party, I got sick. I was already sick that day since morning, my head felt like splitting and having no meat and rice that night, made it worse. I threw up everything when I got home. And there are times that I really crave meat, and cannot eat anything without it. I hope I'm not offending anyone with being a true-blooded carnivore. To all the meats I ate before, I am so sorry that God made you very delicious and I can't live without you. *remembers Romaiya-sempai from Honey and Clover*

Here I go again. It's hopeless but I'm still hoping. [Umaasa kahit na wala nang pag-asa] For what? That I'd see him again. I can't shake him off my head. He has clung into my mind like some gooey, sticky matter.  Uhh, okay, I just miss him. Memories keep him near, and those memories haunt me. Why does seeing him and talking to him again seem too much too ask? I still can't let go of the idea that there must have been really "something" between us that is "naudlot" or just waiting for a chance. Awww... Bakit gano'n?

Okay, it's already New Year, next week. A lot to be expected and looked forward for; Prelim exam for VB, lots of HF work [layouting], start of working on school projects for the Finals, and I have to do something about my Physics class, G-Ken, Exit interview at the Guidance office, CosPlay? Make-up climb, and my most awaited event for 2008-- Induction climb at Mt. Pulag, and lots more other stuffs that has to be done. I don't really have a clear direction right now, as usual, but, uhh, well, bahala na.

Magulo, nagulo, at lalong gumugulo ang buhay ng mga tao. Sana may maitulong ako, sana pwedeng ako ang maging sagot, sana matapos na ang mga kaguluhang ito. Speaking of "matapos", pag ako di pa rin nakatapos ng Summer 08, fotcha! Kung hindi ako magpapakamatay baka makapatay na ako. Bwahaha! World peace. 'LUL!!!

Hindi ako manghihingi ng regalo kasi baka hingian nyo rin ako. Hahaha. Nood tayo Enteng Kabisote? KKB ah!

So, it's Christmas. Now what?