Holiday Greetings

I was going to write something touchy for Christmas and the New Year but..

NAH.

A simple greeting will do. I'll save the reflection before the year ends and when the year starts.

Blessed Christmas, Everyone.

Bonding with Raymund and Reynaldo

* LSS si Reynaldo sa Miles Away. Sobrang paulit-ulit nya kinakanta yun sa byahe pati na rin ang Where is the Love na mali-mali ang lyrics
* Ang saya mapagitnaan ng 2 magkasing kulit na tao at sobrang daming kwento
* Looking forward to bond with you guys again, Ahmishyu, mga pare hahahaha

Happy Birthday, Christian Aurelio

O, ayan na ang video message mo galing kay Nikki. Sensya na nakatagilid hehe, di kasi ako sanay sa phone na ginamit ko jan eh.

Advanced Happy Birthday!!!

*moments*
L : N, pwede ba humingi ng video message para sa friend ko? Birthday nya kasi.
N : Oh, sure. Ano name nya?
L : Christian.
N : Christian? Baka ex- ko yan ah. Haha 'Chos.
*video-video*
*end ng moment*

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Lunch Date 121808 *wink*

December 18, 2008
Central BBQ Boy Grill
Mandaluyong City

* Late si Reynaldo.
* Ang kulet ni Raymund at Reynaldo.
* Binigyan na ako ng baller ni Raymund.
* Tinirhan ako ng buko juice ni Raymund na binili nya bago kami umalis.. Sweet. Aylabshyu, friend.
* Binigyan ako ng bracelet ni Reynaldo.
* Madami akong nalaman tungkol dun sa dalawa lalo na ang pagiging vain
* Close na kami lalo na ni Raymund
* Binigyan ako ni Reynaldo ng ringtones ng themes galing sa palabas na kinabibilangan nya. Ayos. Aylanshyu, Reynaldo.
* Exposed kung exposed. Araw ito ng exfoshur
* Ang ganda talaga ni Leona at ni Veronica
* Nakakilala ako ng mga bagong Friendsters


Miles Away Syndrome

This is my December. Ayos.

Levy's Love Song

Sing for me, my dear Enchantress

Drown me in your burning eyes

Call me in your calming silence

Free me of all worldly ties


I vow to you eternity,

The world beyond life

Come with me

Cover me with your wings

Spread wide unto the heavens

Seek my soul with your song,

Bring me my lovely end 

And I actually won?

This is most unbelievable. I just wanted to take my chance. I gave it a shot. And...

Poof! There it is.

I am actually going out with Jace on Thursday. I was rooting for Kiko but I won Jace which doesn't really matter 'cause it's still a date.

Man, I'm still shaking. I prayed so hard for that date and I can't believe that I really won. How did it happen? Well, I joined GMA's Date-a-Survivor contest. Sent my graduation picture and wrote why I should win the date. I wrote: Pinanood at sinuportahan ko sila sa simulang simula pa lang. Gusto ko silang mas makilala pa nang mabuti. Gusto ko marinig ang mga kwento ng experiences nila sa isla at sa buhay at matuto mula dito. Gusto ko rin sana silang maging kaibigan kung mabibigyan ng pagkakataon. Nothing fancy, just something real and straight to the point.

I got this phone call from iGMA.tv earlier tonight at 7:41 telling me that I won and it's with Jace [though I would really much prefer Kiko, hehe]. I already got the details thru email. I am still shaking and my heart is throbbing loud and fast. And it's true, I'm not being pranked. Man, now I need a camera. I've already asked some people but if nothing would work, I'll just settle for my dad's phone. I will have him lend it to me. Hehehehe. Well, my friend says N95 is good enough. I do good with my Mom's 2-megapixel phone camera, and with my Dad's 5-megapixel, it would be great.

Can't wait. Really can't wait and the excitement is really killing me. Though  would be much happier if the date was with Kiko but I think Kiko's date would be at the same venue so I'd still get to see him. And the place where they're meeting us is the same place, so, yeah. I'll still see him. Yeehah!

Not sure how I'll prepare for this but I'll get there. For now, I have to eat so I could think. And you, friends, will have to wait for my next entry and the pictures I will post after me datey-date. It's just Jace, I mean, I met him before and had him take our picture, but I am still very excited. After all, even if he's younger than I am, he is a hottie-hot hottie.

Dinner time then thinkey time. Think-think-think.

What else can I say?

Manalo, matalo, cute ka pa rin.

*wink*

Miles Away - Jace, Nikki & Kaye

*Jace can sing and he's so cute.

SP Finale and Reunion

Survivor Philippines The Finale and Reunion Special
December 12, 2008
Studio 7, GMA Network Studios
Jamboree St. [near MRT Kamuning Station]

*fun-fun-fun day. stories to be posted soon, but not today. hahahaha. these are the only photos from my phone but i'd still be asking for more pictures from other people esp. those with you-know-who though I won't be posting it here. hehehehe love and peace to us all!

D. S. Much

I've heard rumors and I just had to find out for myself

I didn't need stealth to execute my plan. He was so busy.

I closed in from behind. This will only take a quarter of a second.

It would be finished before he finds out, so I went for it.

So it is true, all they say. Now, even I can attest to it. Mission accomplished.

*some scratchy back-to-reality background music plays*

Okay, so that's not what actually happened. Hahahaha. After the taping of SP's Finale Show, we went to him like all groupies do to the object of their idolatry. Then talkey-talkey, then picture-picture. I was sitting beside him at the right side of the stage while he was busy taking pictures and signing autographs.

L : *touchy-touchy the dreadies*
K : *turns his head* O?!
L : Wala hinawakan ko lang.
K : *goes back to his business*
L : *still playing with the dreadies* Pahiram ng buhok mo, ah? *takes pictures*
K : *still busy with all the celeb stuffs*
L : *sniffs dreadies* Hmm, mabango nga. *hehe*
K : *haha* Oo, ginamitan yan ng makabagong beeswax.
L : *super smiley then hands camera phone to friend* Pa-picture naman. *poses. grabs a dready and uses it as moustache*
K : *smiles*


D. S. story one, the end. D.S? You must be wondering. It's Dreadlock Sniffer. And that's just story one. Read on.

Okay, so I was just hanging around him while he was doing his celebrity work. Signing autographs and taking pictures with the fans. Someone comes up to him and tells him to get his tarp. He takes leave for a while to take it himself.

K : Sandali lang. Kunin ko lang tarp ko, ah. Pabantay. *leaves L the pictures he was signing, a newspaper that features him, and his most precious journal*
L : Sige, akong bahala dito. *hehe with matching evil smile*
K : *went for the tarpy*

*scary, horror movie plays then dum-dum-dum-dum*

So, I had it all to myself.

I flipped it open. It as so tempting to read at least an entry.

But I dare not read what it contained. At least not without his permission.


Well, he always brings it everywhere with him.


I'll just ask him the next time I see him.

D.S. story two, the end. Still wondering? D.S. is for Diary Snatcher though I didn't, actually, snatch it. I love that journal. Genuine leather is so nice to touch, reminds me of my hiking shoes, made of the same material. I am going to buy one for myself. Same brand, hehe. Well, not just because he has it but I love journals, or anything that can be written on. I even have a few in my collection. And I love the look of his journals and, you must all know by now, I love to write.

I still have more Kiko Love post to write but let me spoil you for now, like I usually, or always do. Let me savour it and keep it to myself for now.

Love and peace everyone, good night!

More faith than ever I had

I call upon all the Highest Powers of the Universe,

I'm opening my heart,

I'll keep crossing my fingers,

I need your aid,

Please help me with this


Please let me win.

RIKICHAAAN!

Ito na yung favor desu!

Yung isa whole body tapos: yung damit nya katulad nung sa number 1 tapos yung pang-ibaba skinny jeans, yung mukha nya katulad nung sa number 2, ung kamay nya number 3, tapos yung buhok nya number 4.

Yung isa pa: mukha lang pero chibi din tapos may peace sign. parang headshot.

gawa ka din ng chibi mo at chibi ko. yung katulad nung nilalagay natin sa white board sa office para lalagyan ko ng credits. ipapa-print ko syang t-shirt hehehehe

bawi na lang ako sayo. salamat ng sangkatutak!!! tenkyu tenchu!

Faith in Fate: My Survivor Weekend [part 1]

I just have to write this now lest I get lazy and never find time and energy to ever write it. I already wrote the first part last night and I am kind of editing and writing some of the other things [in my story] as I read back and type it down. *wink*

For most part, it was a game of survival but the Higher Powers are on my side and I am favored by the Universe. Three words: written in the stars. [Oops, okay, so that was four XP]

The first time I heard about it, I just had to sign up right away. It was exclusive and limited to only a number of attendees but luckily I made the cut. This isn't something I would miss out for the world so I took the challenge with my eyes locked on the prize: a chance to meet him. The first problem I had to encounter was where to get funding. I can tell you the whole sitch but that would take up most of the post and I don't wanna be posting too much details. So there, fast forward, got my Dad to lend me some money, write me down the directions because it's not really a secret that I am 'geographically-challenged', and went on my journey to the ultimate Survivor experience. With my props ready since the other night, all geared up and ready for battle, I took off at almost 1500 hours. The travel was gruelling and the city is such a bigger and more dangerous terrain than the wilderness that I get to enjoy when I go out for an outdoor adventure. After almost three and a half hours of travel time, two smokey bus rides with two equally annoying conductors, and few blocks walk, I touched down at 1830 hours. To my surprise, I came very early. There was only one of the staffs and one attendee when I got there. I kind of had the place to myself and I was able to take pictures of the place, the tribal banners, and get to choose my seat. Lucky, lucky me.

And the others started pouring in

The very first person I met there was Sir Joey, known in SP.tv  as adventurer. He looks a lot like Sir Gigit and almost the same age, only beefier, even beefier than the obviously buff Jace. Had little chitty-chat while taking pictures and we were the first ones to register when Forum Admin Garuda, who's very nice and pretty, came. I seated at the first table at the left of the hall, near Garuda, and near the 'stage' where the Castaways [CAs] will be sitting. Comfy on my seat until the others started coming and I was invited to join some of my newest new friends at their table at the right side of the room. They were broombroom, a boy in his teens, zaikenhuo, who sat beside me to the right, infront of me was bgkqueen, and the perky airatotzkie who sat beside her to the left and puccapooh to the right, also, beside me to the left was angalamat. I was supposed to meet with other attendees during the earlier part of the day but I just woke up on the time that we were supposed to meet so I said I'd just go straight to the venue to meet them there.

Good food, though we were a little short of rice and drinks

Then the party begins. They took out the food and fed us as we wait for the CAs because some of them were already in the vicinity but they weren't complete yet. Some ten to fifteen minutes after, we were asked to clean up the tables, and the staffs came in with black plastic bags to place the food containers that we used. The time has come, the Castaways came one at a time. Screams filled the room. My heart stopped and everything stood still when Kiko finally entered the room. I had that strange feeling. It felt like waking from a dream and realizing that the dream was really happening and you were actually there. I don't even remember winking. Just like when I went to see BSB for the first time and they were just a few steps away from where I was standing. That moment was reminiscent of that scene when time paused as everything did along with it from the movie Bigfish. He was wearing this black and gray vest, skinny jeans, slippers and his signature armlace, necklaces, and bracelets. [I suddenly remembered this episode of Fairly Odd Parents where Timmy , Jorgon, and Cosmo was talking about how vests worn over a plain shirt attracts women. Well, he doesn't need a vest to attract women and he's not even wearing a shirt under it. Just the vest and pure, natural, Kikomann sexiness.] Okay, back to the topic. So there the real party began. They were first asked to give a message to the fans [Oh, by the way, there were live cameras because GMA-NMI provided live streaming for the SP.tv forumers who can't come, ang hopely they show it again, I wanna see what happened then, and you know, we had a lot of "exfoshur" during the party]. I ran for mybag and got my phone so I could record it. I wasn't really going to record it because I was to enthralled to think, but after Emerson [the second CA to be booted out, and who didn't really get much attention [obviously not one or very few fans during the event, and is really the least interesting among the CAs, in-game or voted-off] and first to speak because Chev couldn't make it because she went to her home town in Iloilo] spoke and it was Sir Gigit's turn, I seemed to have woken up and recorded their messages. Sorry, Emerson. They spoke when their turn came but my eyes were locked on only one person. Then I had them sign my tickler with my shiny, blue glitter pen, starting with the Emerson and told him to pass it to the other CAs when his done. After the messages, we were all given to ask questions. By this time, we were all infront trying to get a good shot of the CAs.

And there they came.

The questions were thrown here and there. Everyone started to get fan signs for themselves. Surprise. Surprise. I was more than prepared. I made this little card and wrote a little note for Kiko. I asked Emerson to pass the letter and bracelet to Kiko but he was kind enough to actually stand up and hand the letter directly to Kiko. You may think that the note I made is a love letter but it isn't really. It's just a little note saying how much I admire him and appreciate his existence.. basta those things. I also told him in the letter that I wouldn't give him a bracelet because I know he'd be getting a lot of it from his supporter but, well,I still gave him a bracelet off my collection that brought because I-dunno-why. When he got the letter he went, like, hey, who is this from? [O, kanino 'to galing?]. He wore this surprised, wondering face. He searched for that face in the crowd, then when I finally caught his eyes, I waved at him. He signaled, is this from you? [sa'yo galing 'to?], I nodded. He gestured a thank you, and I gave him a two thumbs up. He raised the bracelet and said using hand gestures that I'll put the bracelet on him, I smiled and gave another thumbs up. He smiled back and thanked me again. Ang galing because I actually got to talk to him without speaking. We just spoke to each other using facial expression and hand signals. Now that's connection, hehe.

I am very lucky to have found a photo of him reading the note I gave him. Look, and it looks quite the same as the card I made for my friends to sign for me before I officially left school. Actually, it was the other half of it, because it was so big so cut it to two. And there, I wrote a few of the many things I wanted to say to him on that note. Life is good.

There he is, reading the letter I wrote him. Credits: geopad22

I didn't get to take a picture of it before I gave it to him but it kinda looks like this one:

Back to the story. The Q&A was shortly interrupted when Kaye made a grand entrance and when Paolo Bediones made a grander entrance. Like everybody else in the party, I took the chance to take the pictures of the CAs. When it was time for Survivor to go on air. The Q&A was cut for a while then the hunt began. The CAs stood up from their seats and we began tailing and running after them so we could get our pictures with them taken. People were everywhere I was hot and crowded but after a few chases I finally got to reach Kiko. I was already behind him while he was taking pictures with his fans. I was so close, I can't help but study his detail. Like, the way he looks on back view; his hair, his face, his skin. When I had my turn to take a picture with him and there we started talking. I don't really remember everything we talked about but I'm sure it included Eugene, his cousin, and my friend [Hi, Cuz!--We kinda call each other cuz-in-law, and I'm kinda liking the idea hehe]. Of course, I can't really keep him to myself for a long time, as much as I would have wanted to, so he told me that he'll get back at me, he would just have his picture taken [Teka, dyan ka lang ah. Papa-picture lang ako--forgive my translation XP]. So, I said okay, 'cause it isn't like I have any choice, and just went on chasing after the other CAs so I can take pictures with them.
                                                                                   Lookey, got his arm around me :">

All the CAs are so nice. Like when I asked Jace for a picture, he took our photo himself 'cause he's tall, and I didn't ask him to do it. Nanay was so sweet, I was already talking business [she said something about Networking] with her until we were interrupted. Marlon granted me a video message I asked of him for my friend Anna. Basta it was fun. I had to take a break for a while and take a sit and rest because it was really exhausting and I am starting to get a migraine attack. I just sat for a few seconds and followed Kiko again. When I found him free again, I got to sit with him and talk again. He sat beside me, so close, that his knees were leaning on mine, just like when I'm talking to my closest friends. He signed autographs, answered calls for the fans who asked him to talk to some people on their phones. I showed him the bracelets that I brought. He said the one I gave him was small. Told him, I made it for myself, it's my size so it's small. It won't fit him, so he's putting it in his journal instead. We talked some more, had him sign something for Issah, I went to observe his details some more. Like his armlace, his arm, his bracelets, his nose, his face, his facial hair, his dreadies, his big eyes, everything.
 See that, he's holding my tickler.

*Isang flashback mula sa maraming pwedeng mai-flashback*

K: Saan ka pa galing nyan?
L: Cavite.
K: Layo ah. *shake hands* Salamat at sinadya mo pa talaga dito. Sino kasama mo papunta dito?
L: *hehe* Wala. Ako lang.
K: Oh? Mag-isa ka lang? Paano ka nakarating dito?
*turo ng left and right middle at index fingers ng both hands sa temples*
K: Telepath?
L: Teleport. *tawa*
K: Ah, oo nga, teleport. Telepath, iba nga pala yun... *tawa*

*Bitin ka. End ng flashback*

For a while I got to follow him around, tailing like a mouse. Again, can't keep him to myself for long so he left again to talk to other. I stayed seated because I was already tired and he was just in front of me so I didn't have to run around and stalk him. I continued staring at him from behind. Took some pictures while studying him, while painting his image in my head. When he took off, I moved and followed him again.

He moves his arms a lot so it's hard to take a good shot of it without having to disturb him. That is why it's blurred.

By this time, the people are starting to leave. I sat still together with my newest new friends  [chezka, queen_blair, dzkate, tsona, bgkqueen, pinaytunay, lockheart] in one corner and talked. It was now time for the CAs and PB's time to eat. We waited for them to finish their dinner. After their meal, Kiko  went to we were and had another chat, this time with us, who were the only ones left. There were still some people from the other SP site on the other side of the room, and the CAs and PB was still there. Mingling with the others. He opened up about a certain issue that I will not disclose here. We got to talk to him some more. Well, I will tell you more about this encounter on my next post esp. that goodbye kiss. For now, I have to go 'cause it's really late and this post is too long already. You'll read more tomorrow. Goodbye for now.

Keep the faith!

Life is so short

Isn't it funny how time seem to slip away so fast? - Moffatts, Life is So Short

Just found out that Marky Cielo was found dead in his room this morning. Not a fan of his but he is a loss for Philippine Showbiz. My point is, you can't really expect and know who goes next. Life is short and we should make the most of it. Do what makes us happy, so if we die while doing it, or if we die knowing we did what we had to do, what we wanted to do with our life, even if we end up failing or succeeding, we'd die happy. We will die knowing we fulfilled our destiny. We wrote our own history. We had faith in our fate and followed the path towards wholeness.

Goodbye, Marky.

SurvivorPhilippines.tv Fan Party

SurvivorPhilippines.tv Fan Party
December 5, 2008
Forest Grill, 11th Jamboree St, QC

*related blog entry and video, to be posted later. eeek. details: so exciting.

A message for Anna G.

And it's from Marlon.

I think she's still sad about the loss of one of her friends.

Wag ka na malungkot, I hope this cheers you up.

Come Friday

Magkikita na rin tayo. Yeeeh. Excitement.

Finally meeting Kiko on Friday. I made the cut. See, SP.tv is having this Fan Party and attendees are limited to 75 forum members only, since the venue has limited capacity. And, lucky me, I made it to 44. I was actually on the 47th, but because some people backed out, I became 46th, now I'm 44th. Doesn't matter as long as I'm on the list. Ahahaha.

Heart, oh, heart.

I can tell you about my realizations these past few days and nights but, nah, can't have realities and realizations spoil my excitement about meeting Kiko on Friday, but I will tell you all about it. As a matter of fact, I am writing it all tonight on my ticky-tickler hahahaha. And I will give you an account on what happened before, during and after the party. Eeeek.

I was going to tell you that I went to school this afternoon to get my diploma but just so happens that mr. brother-president hasn't signed it yet, so I have to come back again on Friday but I can't 'cause I have somewhere else to go on Friday and you know where. Hehehehe. I wouldn't miss that for the world. Also went to hangout at the HF office for a while. Had the usual- chitty chat that I missed with my friendly friends. Also had takoyaki after a long time. Also had a few realization, that you will not read jsut yet because this is a Kiko Love Post with a little what-happened-today sidey-sidetrip. Hehehehe.

I'm still trying to let it all sink in. Gotta get my groove on so I can do what I must on Friday and must get a fansign for Issah and myself. Must prepare my props tonight, that is after I watch Born to be Wild 'cause Kiko took over for Garduch-sama because he went to Machu Pichu, Peru for Pinoy Meets World, which I will watch on Sunday naman.

Love-love-love. Come Friday 'cause I can't wait. Woooh.

Avenir [to turn out]

I've been trying to figure out and somehow I'm getting the hang of things.

Like a monkey swinging from one branch to another, tree to tree, I am finally letting myself climb down the tree trunk and dig up the roots, and pick up the fruits that has fallen from the trees that I helped pollinate, the fruit that fell when I shook the tree, and plant up the seeds from the fruits that picked up and eaten.

I'm not comparing myself to a monkey, okay. Metaphors. Never mind.

Been thinking and being deep and hard at that. I've woken, I'm waking up, I'm putting myself back to sleep, and control my dream while I'm deep in slumber. What I'm trying to say is, I'm digging way down deep to somehow cure the pain, fill up the emptiness, and re-do everything, re-feel everything that I am feeling and forgotten to feel. I've re-traced some of my foot steps, had some time to re-think the things and people I lost, what I got to go through to get where I am, what I gained and never had a chance to get my hands on on my way, on the way I took. Everything. Not really sure where writing these things will get me but I just got to say. Not sure I can put the wrong things and make up for them, make up to the people that became 'casualties' of little twists of fate, not even sure what to write next, after these lines. Hahahaha.

I wish I could write it here. It's about this someone whom I have hurt and lied to more than I did anyone in my life. More lies and promises than I ever made with friends and family. He's one of those people who... I don't know. I just can't tell it here. Too much to take, to much to feel, to much to know... Blah-blah. The point is, I owe him more apology than I owe anyone I ever hurt and lied to in my entire life. Anyway to fix this? I have no idea. I ruined it, hopefully, I, too, can find a way to, if not mend what has been broken, at least, apologize to him for everything. *Sigh* All In due time. *faint smile*

Got nothing else that excites me right now. Well, except for that meeting with K on A Cinco de Deciembre. Eeek. Can't go out 'cause I have no money, still haven't seen Twilight, dunno how I can get to that Fan Party on the 5th, and join the rappelling on the 8th, still have to run for pre-employment thingies, got to grab myself a copy of Paul's LS Mag and HF's 1st issue for the sem, claim my diploma, come up with designs for the 'biz'... And so many other things to get done. Pfft. Not really feeling good vibes right now. I need another push of the cliff so I can get back to moving again. May the heavens and the stars that light it guide me on my way, may the sun make me wise on everything everyday, may the moon and the ocean help my emotion be just, may the earth, fire and wind, drive me to meet the ends that I long for and may the mountains... Hmm... May the mountains let me climb on them, shower from their waterfalls, bathe in their rivers, springs and stream, and eat from the trees within theirs breast.

Hahahaha. Blabbering nonsensical...Uh, nonsense. Never mind, again.

Lookey! 300 now showing on HBO. Gerard Butler, my favorite Scottish sexiness. Eeek.

Setting pace

Count 1. It's good to improve
Count 2. It's good to rest
Count 3. It's good to think
It's good to be able to progress at my own pace.
--My Pace, Sunset Swish--

I can let you into what happening in my life lately but the problem is, nothing is happening with my life lately.

Just ended training Last Wednesday and I'm back to bumming, or better said, I'm back to hunting for another job. See, they may try not to admit it, or say it straight, they don't think I'm good enough. They tried to break it gently and asked what could have been wrong and what happened to me but... Well, Yellow page ads are not for me. It's not the kind of 'graphic' work that I was expecting and I'm not really good with following standards. I don't believe in 'creative freedom' that follow rules, I don't like rules that opress freedom, and I'm not like a green sea turtle that follows the East Australian Current for migration. I don't usually go with the flow because I create my own flow. Blah. My flow might not always go where I want it to but at least, I get to make it for myself and follow it. And it's disappointing, the truth, that is. And as much as I wanted to say more how disappointing things are, have been, and are becoming, but I can't. I don't wanna sound like I'm sour-graping and bitter, and blah.. I'm still getting my pay for the days I worked for so.. who cares?  And I might get sued? Nah. I don't know. Hahahaha.

Maybe I'm just being lazy. See, for that, almost two weeks that I went to train for that work, I was having thoughts in my head. Like, what I was doing it for? All I could think of was the pressure that it being thrown at me by the world. Like how it's been telling me that I'm such a burden and I need to earn my own money. For the first few days, the thought of getting paid after two weeks of waking up early, staying up all day and sleeping on the trip home is pretty rewarding but the end of the day, you realized that you aren't really happy with what you're doing. The world is so demanding and the last thing I need in my life is a world, and a life and the people in it who are rsuhing you and trying to make you grow up fast. No amount of money as well-compensation can really cheer you up when you have no good, right and worthy reason to do things. It might excite you at first but you get tired of it, and it tires you to do things as time goes further. Conclusion: things happened for for a reason and for the better [and they don't thinkI can do it, and I think so too, and I don't really see myself doing yellow page ads for a career, not that I think low of those in that kindof business, I just don't think that kind of work is for me, and I don't need the job as bad as those who applied for it. Hehe I made so many other applications but so far, they're the only ones that called me and.. bahaa~ nevermind.

Plans fail but mine didn't really. They just got postponed to a later date, much later date and so many plans. I don't regret anything though, I was gonna quit anyway. And I didn't really make friends so I didn't really leave anything, anyone behind except for my newest new friend Jaz. He's like my closest, or my only buddy, during that period when I worked as a trainee. We literally stucked together that whole time. No malice, of course. He's cute, and nice, and likes Survivor too, but too young for me. He's 18 and just graduated from a 2-year course in Mulimedia Arts and he looks a lot like one of my friends back in highschool. Nice kids, and he know what he is doind and he'd definitely go far. Goodluck, dude.

Because of this li'l glitch in my sitch, I am missing on a lot of things. Like I said, some of my plans are getting postponed to much later dates. I am hoping things will catch up soon, I hope I can catch up soon enough, and though I might be missing some things, i am definitely not missing that Survivor Philippines Fan Party on December 5. Woohoo. Sorry kids, you can't come unless you do forums at SP.tv hehe, and they cut off the list to 75 people and I'm 47th on it. Yay for me. Not sure, how I'm going to go there but I will definitely go there. I want to also go to the Reunion Specials on Finals day but not sure if I can get me tickets but I will surely do my best to get me one. And I might pursue that 'connivance interview' with someone whom I have talked about it with. Hehehehe. Yeehah. SP, wait for me. And my love.. Weeeh. I am definitely giving Kiko a bracelet. Hehehehe. Argh. Excitement.

I miss mother.. Mother nature. Eeek..

Speaking of mother nature, isn't it weird how Richard Gutierrez is a Greenpeace advocate and endorses shampoo at the same time?

So much I want to write but.. too lazy. Next time.

Ohmyheart! KIKO LOVES YOU day on Dec 5th. He said it himself. Wah. Read it here. Grrr.. I am so going to that Grand Eyeball. Lookey, here's a photo when he posted that post:

I keep missing his tv guestings but Eeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeekkkkk. I still love him. and I once I see him in person, that will make up for everything I've missed, and they have videos of his guesting on Pinoychannel.tv, so I'd still get to watch them. Love-love. So much love for Kikomann.

So much to live for, so much to die for.. I almost quitted but it kept me going on.. Eeek, Kiko LOVE!!!

PS: @ 2127 Online at chatting si Kiko sa SP.com ngayon. Naka-chat din. Wah.

Do or die

no
matter
WHAT
I
just
GOT
to
find
something
or
in
my
case
ANYTHING
to
HOLD
on
to
because
with
the
LIFE
I
am
living
with
the
life
I
have
with
what
I
have
no
other
CHOICE
but
to
bear
with
ONLY
one
option
of 
REALITY
that
I
have
to
accept
only
one
FATE
I
have
to
EMBRACE
and
only 
one
step
I
have
to
take
but
HANG ON
or
I
just
might
HANG MYSELF
I
hope
letting
this
OUT
gets
me
SOMEWHERE
I
am
once
AGAIN
standing
at
the
EDGE
of
a
cliff
the
EDGE
of
a
knife
pointed
at
my
throat
I
am
once
again
on
the
EDGE
of
sanity 
I
just
might
be
headed
for
a
BREAKDOWN
anytime
SOON
I
wish
SOMEONE
and
for
that
matter
ANYONE
will
do
just
SAVE ME
save
me
NOW
save
me
SOON
save
me
WHEN 
you
can
save
me
if
you
have
time
SAVE
me
if
you
WANT
to
save
me
if
you
CAN
save
me
HOW
you
want
to
as
long
as
you
SAVE
me
BEFORE
I
am
GONE.

Sa dinami-daming pwedeng makita

Si Marlon pa.

Nyak.

Nakasabay namin siyang mag-lunch sa food court ng Festival Mall kanina. May kasamang friend na sobrang mas gwapo kaysa kanya. Hahahaha. Pero in fairness, may maayos siyang tignan sa personal pero, alas, nalugi ang beauty ng lolo mo. Palingun-lingon. Wala kasing pumapansin sa kanya, ako lang. Hahahaha. Babatiin ko sana pero sakto nung tumayo kami, tumayo na rin sila kaya bumalik na kami sa opisina.

Next time, sana si Kiko naman.
 
Keep the faith.

En route

You may have gone past the
Highway to Hell
but this is not the
Road to Success
You're in the
Boulevard of Broken Dreams

Embrace you fate.
Follow the signs.
No U-turn.
Keep right.

Kissu

Almost lost just like

For those who are counting....

All we did was love each other, but...our love is forbidden
Why is it a "sin"?

I tried to hold on... and I lost it... tried to turn back... and I failed...
Why can't we just be like before?

To fall in love is quick...
...but to forget a love requires what seems like a lifetime.
It's illogical.

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Got this from my friend back from highschool, Yssa Mia. Dunno why she sent this to our batch's Yahoo Group but I think this post makes sense so I decided to share it. Just want you to read. I will not try to expound the meaning of this entry and justify what it means because we should understand using our hearts and if we try to justify things, it just means we are using our heads and... Gah. You know what I mean. I just got that life lesson on reason and understanding from Kiko. Thank you so much and I love you. Hehehehe. =(--__--)=

In retrospect

Imagine if we met in that particular time, in that particular place, and you have known me almost all your life, what do you think, would you think of me now?

Some 15 or 16 years go

I've changed so much. I've gone so far already. Well, far from where I used to be. Ahihi.  I was going to write something touchy or cute but, nah, not in the mood. XP Read on anyway.

This is, I believe, Joan and Andrian's idea: use baby pictures as avatar in Y!M. Got no scanner of my own so I just took a picture of my picture using my Mom's phone. I will get my baby photos when I get the time or, better, if I get to buy me my own scanner.

Anna thinks Me looks like a bunny. Bunnies are cute. Maybe she thinks Me is cute as a bunny. Levy cutie bunny. Me likey. So nicey.

Joan think Me is too thin a kiddo. In defense, I told her it was in college that I gained so much weight, though I wasn't as big as I am now when I was in my first and second year in college. You can ask my long time college friends if you don't believe me. Hehe.

What do you think? I got nothing new to post unless you want to read some more of my Kiko Love posts. Hehe. You will have more of it soon. Promise. Hehe.

I was supposed to get a Medical Certificate today but, hey, hey, hey, no office, nor there is clinic on Sundays. *wink*

I will post a series/ journals of my first job. Me is gonna call them DayJob Diaries. Eeek. Watch out, bwahaha. I also made a calendar that counts exactly one year so I can keep track of my 'one-year contract' with my first job. Gambaremasu.

Wah. Kiko in Showbiz Central later. Gotta watch. See yah!

A post too late

And I was going to write about my tale of The Curse of the Eternal Sembreak but the heavens had a bigger plan.

I could tell you what was supposed to be written in it, but, as one of the characters from one of my favorite stories said, we will never be told what could have happened. We make choices, what wouldn't happen because of the choices that have been made will never be known to us. All we could do is imagine.

Paningit: Live chat with Kiko and Jace, SP.

Too much said, the truth is, I was just to lazy to post that entry. I've been writing it inside my head all night for the past few nights. And when I finally found the time to write, comes a twist of fate. Boom.

I got the job I applied for a few weeks ago.

I know I said I don't want that job anymore, and wanted to try for something else. I was having my usual afternoon nap when my Mom woke me up because of a phone call. I will start training on Monday and I was told that I will have a contract for one year. I wasn't told how much I will earn but we'll get there. I will work for six days, and I will have to extend for long hours and may have shifting in work hours. Blah-blah. I know I said don't want these conditions but I thought, this is better than nothing. I will do this...

For the love of Christmas *wink*. My Christmas have lost its magic a long time ago but it's still something I look forward to. Hopefully, I will have more this Christmas than what I have in the past. I will finally get to go to places where my friends hangout where I've only been once or twice or haven't really been to. I've been to far-off provinces but have never been to popular hangout spots in Manila. I never liked partying or staying in crowded places, see, I get easily stressed when I see people running around the place, low lights hurt my eyes, and I'd rather stay at home and watch TV or read a good book but I do want to visit those places at least once. Anybody, willing to tour the geographically challenged? Heehee. Once I get to earn my own money I can go to further off places, once I get my first paycheck, I will definitely spoil myself. More money, more adventures; more adventures, more fun. Hike-hike-hike!!!

I will do what I can with the what the universe has thrown at me but I will quit once I feel I can't work any longer. And besides, a year will surely pass faster than waiting for the weekends on a hectic school week. Gahaa~ *bluff-bluff* Hahahaha.

Wah. Di ko napanood 'to:

By the way, got new photos of K from USTv's Kickoff Party. At andun pala sya sa GMA Kapuso Fans' Day sa Enchanted Kingdom. Tapos bukas nasa Showbiz Central sya, tapos may guesting din sya sa Moms at this Wednesday sa Unang Hirit. Wah. At pati Tok! Tok! Tok! Bonkers na ko. Aylahv-lab-lab-lahvet. 

The Curse of the Eternal Sembreak

I wouldn't call myself stagnant nor would I use the term stagnation to describe my current sitch. Let's just say I'm 'taking my time' *wink*. And doing so I'm taking so much time. Hehe.

K@BTBW

Dl ko na lang 'to sa YouTube pag sinipag ako.

Better version: --hahanap pa ako--

Other videos: UH | 24Oras

I love Wednesdays

Catch Kiko later in Born to be Wild, side-by-side with Garcuch-sama. Woooh.

Didn't get to chat with K today but it's okay. 

Matutulog na sana ako dahil sa sobrang pagod. I get to sleep a bit but I woke up after my cellphone's alarm rang. I turned the television on and slept some more. Patulug-tulog ng konti tapos masisilip ko 'yung tv tapos tulog ulit. Hahahaha. ayos. Balak ko sana hintayin ko lang Survivor tapos tulog na ako. Bigla kong naalala, Wednesday nga pala ngayon, Garduch-sama night. Hehe. Hindi pwedeng ma-miss. Parang panata ko na yan, bawal mag-miss ng kahit isang episode. Isang beses pa lang actually. Aksidente pa. Minsan kasi nag-brownout sakto pasimula na BTBW biglang bumalik kuryente, sakto rin tapos na siya. Bastos. Maliban sa mga pagkakataon na ganun, di maaaring palampasin. Woooh.

Gaya rin ng Survivor. Isang beses ko lang na-miss pero okay lang kasi birthday naman siya ni Anna. Labshyu, Anna. Hehehehe makakanood sana kami kaya lang sira 'yung tv na nasa labas nila. Pero okay lang. Nasa puso ko naman sila. Hahahaha. Cheesy pero totoo. <3

Ang saya lalong nawala ang antok ko nung makita ko 'yung commercial ng episode tonight ng BTBW. Woooh. Si K ko. Saya. Bawi ang pagod sa fun run kanina. Hehehehe.

Saka ko na ikukwento yung sa fun run kanina. Gutom na ako eh at saka kailangan maghanda. Hehe at saka nanonood ako ng Survivor.

Jah. Love and peace. Keep the faith.

Kiko at UH

L loves K so much she waited for him so early in the morning. Actually, she hasn't really slept yet. Haha. Maybe that's why. She just felt like watching tv and to find out that K is on tv. Nicey. Me thinks K is sporting a Jack Sparrow look and me loving him more. Keep the faith. I'm supporting you all the way.

Recorded using a cellphone. Obvious ba? Here's a better version in YouTube and a blog entry by PinoyBiscuit.

You can chat with him and Jace tomorrow at 1400H until 1600 by logging on to www.survivorphilippines.tv and see them live through webcast using Real Player 10. Woooh. Excitement. Nyak, I don't have Real Player pala. Hehe.



L will try to find a video of 24 Oras' Chikka Minute November 11 Episode featuring K. Ayos. Aylabshyu K!!!

Tanggal na si Kiko

Grabe. Literal na napigil ang hininga ko. Oh well.

See you soon, Kiko. 

Jean Grey's Anatomy

It's my cousins' nameless gray kitty cat with gray eyes. Took these pictures when we went to Lucena a few weeks back.

Cute noh?