Getting closer

June 1st. A few more days, and the end begins. Almost there, I will now take the final steps. This is, hopefully it. My college days are counted. I will have to leave this world when the time comes. I've been here so long but long will have to be cut short. Kailangan nang mag-move on. Hahahaha. Hanggang ngayon di pa rin ako nakakapag-cosplay. I said before that if I can't cosplay this convention, M3 [upcoming con when I first said this], I won't attempt/plan on cosplaying again but then I could always change my mind.  I have to cosplay atleast once before I leave college. There are a lot of characters I want to do but, I love them all, I can be indecisive at times and $__$ moolah matters. My, my...

Naalala ko tuloy yung first ever cons ko, Ozine Fest 07 at Mangaholix 07. Memories. Ahuhu.

I went to watch a Performing Arts Group show last Friday at Robinsons' after the meeting I went to. There were performances from FDC, TLS and Chorale. Buti na lang I went to watch. Kunwari nag-cover. Cover-coveran, feeling news writer ako. I wrote notes, took videos and pictures. I also got to taste that delicious pasta from one of the stalls of the Entrep students. Nooda Box. Sugoi. Penne pasta, carbonara white sauce and crab meat. Oishi! I'll try to have my folks cook that for my birthday. Woooh. I also saw some familiar faces, whom I think recognized me because she smiled at me, though we're not really acquainted, Joycen was there too, Ma'am Jen from Suvasa, so is JV a.k.a. Saint. Waaah, really loved that pasta! Got-to-have-that-pasta-again @__@

We kill and dye again. I dyed again. Bwahaha. Well, it's just bleach. But my hair is golden again. It's a lot lighter now and hindi pantay. Hahahaha. There are more color on the left side so I had to fix my hair to add more colored hair on the other side. Weird. Hahahaha.

Anne Rice won't be writing anymore vampire and witch books. Look here. Sad pero buti naman para 'di ko na sya hahabulin. Hahahaha. All the more I want those books for myself. Di pa rin ako tapos sa Vampire Lestat. Nyahaha. I still love you, Anne Rice. Thank you for bringing Lestat, Louis, Armand, Marius, The Talamasca and the others into these world. Thank you, thank you.

I so want to go home to Greece right now. I've never been there but it feels like being home just thinking about being there. I went over, a few days ago, the pictures that was sent to me. Wala lang. I want to go there. I always wanted to. Wala naisip ko lang.

Lagi na akong puyat kung kailan magpapasukan. Hahaha. Ayos. Lalong kakapal ang eyebags ko.

Greg already left for Marine School. He'll be there for who knows till when. Got a message from him yesterday morning a few minutes past four. Wala. I can just imagine how things are going to change. Wala na ang DotA boys ko, wala na si Taichou, wala na si Hao-hao, wala na si Jason ang batang emo, wala na si Counselor Jec, wala na ang talipandas na si Renan, at ang iba pang mawawala na hindi ko sasabihin dahil ayaw ipasabi ng isa sa kanila na aalis na sya. Sya na lang siguro ang magsasabi sa iba or baka hahayaan na lang nyang ma-realize nila na wala sya. Kahit gusto kong sabihin pero wala akong magawa dahil ipinagkatiwala nya ang sikretong ito. Meron pa namang natira sa mga kaibigan ko at sigurado akong madadagdagan pa ako ng bagong friends pero iba pa rin. Madaming magbabago. Ewan. Di ko mabuo yung gusto kong sabihin. Basta.

Cool change na talaga ito. Naalala ko tuloy yung cool convo namin ni Erick kanina. Coolness. Haha.

Gambatte kudasai, minna! Gambaremashou!

Ohayou!

Elevation of Elation

As much as it is preferable to keep some things ignored, I can't help but think that something's going on between these two people that I know, whose names I will not divulge because, well, it's none of my business. I just thought I'd mention because I saw a few things that cannot be left unnoticed and having a keen sense of sight, and quick wits, I can't help but take notice, and I'm not just flattering myself there. I can and do notice a lot of things around me that most people can't or chose to ignore. Okay, that sentence was long. Hahahaha. Change topic.

Had a meeting with The HF Visual Sections this afternoon. The EB room became a market of ideas. We traded, sold and bought each others' ideas. There was a storm of brains and open minds to take in strong winds of thoughts and we bathe in the rain of intellect. I never had this kind of conversation in a long time. I learned a lot today. I also gained a different view on the people whom I had this exchange of ideas with today. They seem different from themselves whom I would usually see when I see them in the office.

I already saw the Alipato proofs. Hahaha I love how they described me. You all got to have a copy when it comes out. Got two of my works published. Wahahaha. I am so loving myself right now.

HF's planning something big, by the way. Can't wait.

Finally got the good vibes flowing and creativity crawling back in my veins again. I've started writing again, just last night, hoping it can get published when I get to finish it. SO far, I like how it's progressing. I am hopefully hopeful I find my way back into where I believe I used to be, whatever it is. I'll be drawing, painting and writing some more. Hahahaha.

Just when I finally got the money I needed to attend the tomorrow [or later since it's past twelve] it's when I lost the appetite or the mood for it. No M3 for me. My friends are also inviting me for a hike tomorrow and another hike on June 1st. I still haven't gotten back that spirit, that, whatever that it, for going out. I'm only re-learning the things I've almost lost in time and I don't want to be in haste in taking in everything at the same time or I'll be stressing on them again and I just might quit them for good and who wants that? I'll be back out there, oudoors soon, just not now. I need this time for myself and 'my things'. I can always come out of my shell and out there again once I get the pieces of myself back. I'm sure they'd understand, that's why I love my friends *hugs* even the user ones, wahahaha!

Music makes the people come together. Yay, the band. The band! Wahahaha.

Someone's trying to bribe me with a gym membership. Like I need that? I mean, what could get worse than being asked if you're pregnant because you're fat? I've been gaining more weight now because I'm just at home doing nothing but once I get out climbing again and other things where I have to exert my effort, I'd definitely lose weight again. And besides, I'd rather buy something else with the money you'll use for that membership rather than pay it and attend gym. No thanks. XP

21 / 32. I'm almost done with The Vampire Lestat then ten more audio books to go. Wahaha Good luck!

Freshmen orientation coming up, I'm touring the kids again. I am so loving this. Lagot sila sa 'kin.

I'll be doing what I've promised to do this time. What's with me? The force is with me. I need the force to do what hsd to be accomplished this semester. It's my last, I have to end it with a blast. Speaing of which, my birthday is coming in two months time and I have no plans yet. ot sure how to make this birthday happy and memorable but I will definitely come up with something in time. In time. *evil laugh*

It's morning again. Got to go, kids! Good morrow.

Iisang Bangka Tayo

Iisang Bangka Tayo
Robinsons' Place Imus Fountain Area
May 30, 2008

Presented by DLSU - D Cultural Arts Office and Entrep Corner
Mayong Simula, Pistang Entrepreneur
Featuring
DLSU - D Teatro La Salliana [TLS]
DLSU - D Filipiniana Dance Company [FDC]
DLSU - D Chorale
of DLSU - D Performing Arts Group [PAG]

with the help of Visual and Performing Arts Production Unit [VPAPU]

The Videos::


Teatro La Salliana, Isip-Bitaw


Filipiniana Dance Company


DLSU-D Chorale

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So much for friendship.

Paunawa: Bitter ang mababasa n'yo. Ayaw mo ng bitter? 'Wag kang magbasa.

Kakalimutan ko na sana ang ginawa mo dati. Tinapos ko na ang marami kong ka-bitter-an sa maraming bagay mula sa nakaraan. Akala ko naman totoo. Okay sana pero binalik mo na naman at dinagdagan mo pa.

Siya: Can i see you some time
Ako: aww bakit naman?
Siya: gusto ka makita ni mama eh...minsan dalaw ka naman sa bahay
Ako: hahaha sure. bakit naman daw?
Siya: kasi may kasalanan ako sayo...ikaw ang lagi kong excuse pag kasama ko bf ko kaya yun sabi niya ikaw naman daw ang pumunta sa bahay...sorry
Ako: ah.
Siya: yeah...well...i did really wanna see you too kaya lang di mo ko nirereply pag minemesage kita...busy ka cguro...kahit hindi dumaan ka lang po dito tapos pasyal na tayo kung saan...nakakabagot din kasi dito sa bahay tsaka may kukukwento pala ko sayo a katangahan ko...
Ako: okay.
Ako: pag may time.
Siya: thanks po...

Kalmado na ako hanggang sinabi mo ulit ito. Hindi ko maalala kung kelan mo unang sinabi sa akin ito pero hindi ko sigurado kung 'yun ang unang beses na ginawa mo 'yun. Hindi ka ba kung bakit hindi na kita nirereplyan sa text at sa YM? Nagtataka ka pa ba o iniisip mong okay lang sa akin ang panggagamit mo? Akala mo ba 'yon lang? May nagawa ka pa dati at bata pa tayo noon kaya may kababawan pero ilang taon ko rin 'yong ininda. Binalewala ko na 'yon ngayon pero ito na naman. Aasa ka pa ngayong gusto ko pang makipagkita sa'yo? At lalo sa mommy mo? 'Yaan mo, dahil naging close friends naman tayo, tinago ko name mo. At saka 'wag ka mag-aalala hindi ka nag-iisa. May isa pa akong malapit na kaibigan na matagal ko nang di nakikita pero nung nakita ko na siya sa Friendster at nakuha ko na number eh... Hay, naku. Okay lang naman kung 'di kami maging textmates; Una, Globe siya at Smart ako. Pangalawa, di rin naman ako mahilig mag-text at kuripot ako sa paglo-load. Pero ang mag-text ka at sabihan akong hindi ka na makaka-text dahil wala ka nang load [ito maiintindihan ko pa] pero send-an kita ng love message para pagselosin ang boyfriend mo... Tangina. Alam ko maganda pangalan [pwede for both sexes] ko pero ano yun, ginawa mo akong tibo o ginawa mo akong lalaki? Salamat na nga pala sa friendship mo noon. So, balik sa'yo. Nagkukwento ka. Ano'ng inaasahan mo, na bibigyan kita ng advice gaya ng dati? I don't think so. Hindi ako gano'n kabait. At saka mas madami akong friends na mas tunay at totoo pa kaysa sa inyo. Sana matalino ka para maramdaman ang coldness sa reply ko dahil hindi mo 'yan maririnig kailanman galing sa 'kin. Tagal pa naman nating naging friends.

Salamat pero so much for your friendship.

Sayang hindi mo mababasa ito.

Lingon ka

...

How am I today?

Saloobin ni Madame Damin

Madami akong sasabihin ngunit, subalit, datapawat, sadyang may mga bagay, mga nilalang at mga kaganapan sa buhay na ito na magaling manira ng araw. Para bang nilikha sila para lamang sa ganoong pakinabang. Ang sarap pagdudurugin at pagmumurahin tO__ot

Nasa Alaska ngayon si Garduch-sama. Weeeh! Kung hindi ako nagkakamali, aakyatin niya ang Mt. McKinley. Konti na lang maaakyat niya na ang pitong pinakamatataas na bundok a mundo. All hail, Garduch-sama!

Last Thursday last week, nag-crash ako sa LAYA Symposium [LAsallian Youth Agenda] para kamustahin ang kaibigan kong si Anna. Naabutan ko ang cool na cool na speech, AVP, at performance ni Kuya Gerry ng GK [Gawad Kalinga]. Gusto ko na tuloy maging GK Volunteer. Sana magkaroon ako ng pagkakataon ngayong sem. Naabutan ko rin ang talk ni Bro. Arian na aminadong 'loser' [Atenean, no offense kung may Blue Eagle na makakabasa nito, siya mismo ang nagsabing loser siya]. Hindi ako nakatayo hangga't hindi tapos ang talk niya dahil sobrang naantig ako sa mga sinabi nya. 'Yon ngang tungkol sa directions at destiny. Pati 'yong AVP niyang nakuha nya galing sa YouTube. Ad sya ng Apple computers, Think Different. Sa tingin ko dapat mapanood ito ng bawat isa. Here's to the crazy ones, para sa 'tin 'to. Hahahaha. Nakaka-inspire talaga.

Here's to the crazy ones.
The misfits. The rebels. The trouble-makers.
The round pegs in the square holes. The ones who see things differently.
They're not fond of rules, and they have no respect for the status-quo.
You can quote them, disagree with them, glorify, or vilify them.
But the only thing you can't do is ignore them. Because they change things.
They push the human race forward.
And while some may see them as the crazy ones, we see genius.
Because the people who are crazy enough to think they can change the world, are the ones who do.
Think different.

Pati 'yong video ni Gary V. Syempre naman, mawawala ba 'yon? Idol. Icon. Kamown. Enough said, 'di ba?

Nakakuha na ako ng audio books ng buong Vampire Chronicles. Kaya lang gusto ko mang makinig ng tuluy-tuloy, hindi pwede kasi nasa PC lahat. Pwede ko siyang ipa-burn sa CD pero wala naman akong pagpapakinigan, wala akong cd writer, at wala akong pampa-burn. Sira ang diskman ko, wala akong iPod, wala akong kahit anong player, wala akong earphones. Wala talagang kahit ano. Kawawa naman ako. Anyway, nakakuha na rin ako ng Special Edition Soundtrack ng Phantom of the Opera. Salamat sa Torrent. Hehehehe. Ewan kung mahilig lang talaga ako magpahuli pero 2004 pa lumabas ang POTO pero ngayon lang ako nahuhumaling, ngayon lang ako nagpapakalasing sa musika ng POTO. Aww, POTO is love. Inaaral ko na siya ngayon. Wehehe, feeling Christine Daae ako ngayon, pinagpapantasyahan si Patrick Wilson/Raoul. Ewan. Natutuwa lang ako sa mga hilig ko. Wahaha. Ayos.

Freeloader ako last Friday. Naki-bonding ako sa Art Section [Rikichan, Raisa, Kenneth at Kiben]. Naki-pizza ako at cheeseburger, hehe syempre may drinks. Hindi ko alam kung sino ang nanlibre pero salamat sa kanila at nabusog ako. Nag-camerawoman ako sa kanila bago kumain. Ginawan nila ng 'commercial' ang pizza [Greenwhich Overload, sarap!] at Cheeseburger ng McDo. Nag-picturan din sa HF office at sa hanging bridge sa Gate 3, kung saan umuwi akong hilo. Nanlibre din si Rikichan ng ice scramble. Hehehe. Sugoi. Official na ata, may fear of falling na talaga ako. Confirmed na. Akala ko kasi nagiinarte lang ako sa Pulag eh, tunay pala 'yun. Hehe. O'nga pala, ang ganda ng sunset no'n. Ito o:

Takipsilim sa may Talahib

Ang hirap ng buhay kapag walang pera. Stuck up. Nagamit ko na ang huli kong pera, movie marathon courtesy of Video City, hehe. Gusto ko man mag-rent ng marami pang movie ay wala na akong talagang moolah, siguro sa pasukan na lang ulit. Miss ko na fastfood. Miss ko na dimsum. Miss ko na ang... Ano nga ba? Madami akong hindi na nagagawa simula nang naging abala ako sa maraming bagay. 'Yung mga simpleng bagay na ginagawa ko dati, ang tagal ko na palang hindi nagagawa. Linggo... Buwan... Taon. Pero paunti-unti nakakabalik na ako. Nung kailan lang nagpinta na ulit ako at kanina lang gumuhit na ulit ako ng bonggang-bonga. Haha. Hindi siya ganoon kaganda pero satisfied naman ako sa nagawa ko. Itutuloy-tuloy ko na para hindi na ako ma-stuck up. Sayang naman kung tuluyang mawala 'yung kauna-unahang talentong nadiskubre ko bago pa man ako kumanta. Wai, aja!

Ang bilis ng oras pero ang bagal ng araw. Hindi ko mapigilang mainip. Gusto ko nang magpasukan. Wala na akong magawa. Kailangan ko na rin ng pera kaya kailangan nang magpasukan. Wahaha.

Wala na talaga akong choice, uulitin ko na naman ang PC Troubleshooting. Swerte kapag si Mr. B na naman ang professor ng subject na iyon. Swerte niya. Babantayan ko siya ng maigi. Lagot sya sa'kin. Bully kung bully, bu-bully-hin ko siya. Isusulat ko lahat ng gagawin niya at ang mga hindi niya gagawin. Tahimik lang ako dati, ngayon, dahil sobrang bitter ko na ako lang ata ang ibinagsak nya, umayos sya, paglalaanan ko talaga siya atensyon. Isang pagkakamali lang, tignan natin kung saan siya makarating. 'Yung hindi niya pagche-check ng attendance, 'yung pagpapagawa ng kung anong ka-leche-han na wala sa curriculum at walang kinalaman sa lesson [hindi naman kami engineer o kaya naman factory worker na gumagawa ng piyesa ng computer], 'yung pagpasa niya sa mga manonood ng basketball. Tangina, lagot siyang bading siya sa akin. Tignan natin kabadingan mo ngayon. No offense, I have nothing against gays, I have gay friends, siya lang talaga. Siya lang. Pinakanakakairitang bading sa face ng earth. Woooh! Basta, lagot ka sa 'kin gay-ass!

Dahil sa mga kadahilanang maiiwasan ngunit hindi naagapan, hindi na ako magko-cosplay at baka hindi na rin ako maka-attend ng M3 [Mangaholix Manga Mania]. Problema? Pera pa rin mga kapatid. Ang hirap ng broke, hindi ka lang mamamatay sa boredom, madami ka pang mapapalampas na mga happenings. Potek. Sana marami na lang akong pera. Sana ipinanganak na lang akong mayaman. Sana meron akong.. Sugar Daddy? Bwahaha.

Ang dami ko nang napanood nitong mga nakaraang mga linggo. Naghahanap ako ng inspiration pero makakuha man ako ng inspirasyon, kinukulang naman ako sa diwa. Hindi ko pa rin magawa ang dapat at gusto kong gawin. Hindi naman ako nakukuntento lang sa Harry Potter lahat ng lingunan ko, lahat ng makita ko sa paligid at sa sulok ng isip ko, lahat pinipilit kong pigaan ng inspiration pero kulang pa rin. Pinipilit kong makasulat ng kahit anong sulatin pero mga salita lang, hindi mga pangungusap ang lumalabas minsan talagang wala. Potek ano na'ng gagawin ko sa buhay ko? Isa pang problema, matatapos na ako ngayong Oktubre, kailangan nang magtrabaho pero ano naman ang gagawin ko? Hindi ako marunong mag-program, hindi ako ganun ka-organized sa pag-iisip ng mga concepts at kulang sa kaalaman sa styles at techniques para maging graphics and layout artist at web designer, wala pa akong alam kahit gusto kong maging animator. Kailangan ko pa at balak kong mag-aral ng Animation sa CSB pag nakaipon. Ang daming plano, ang daming oras, kulang sa pondo. Bwahaha. Ang hirap maging mahirap. .$___$.

Gagawing pelikula ang The Alchemist. Madaming magagandang pelikula ang paparating ngayong June. Marami akong gustong bilhing libro at pelikula [na hindi pirated]. Hindi ko alam kung ano'ng dapat asahan sa darating na pasukan. Tumaas na naman ang tuition. teka, ano ba yung M.O.L.P. na dinagdag nila sa singil ng tuition? P2k din yun ah. Pero hindi man lang ata ipinaliwanag o baka hindi ko lang nalaman? Tumaas na naman ang pamasahe, hindi naman ata tataas ang baon ko lalo ngayong half-day lang ang pasok ko. One-fourth day nga lang ata. Nakakapagod mag-isip. Kain na lang tayo. Gutom na ulit ako eh.

Itadakimasu!

Schönheit

Back at it... Yay.

Engel der Musik

His voice filled my spirit with a strange, sweet sound

Seine Stimme hat meinen Geist mit einem fremden, süßen Klang gefüllt

In that night there was music in my mind

In jener Nacht gab es Musik in meinem Gemüt

And through music my soul began to soar

Und durch Musik hat meine Seele begonnen, sich emporzuschwingen

And I heard as I'd never heard before

Und ich habe gehört, als ich nie vor gehört hatte

                     

Let Me Be Your Hero, Beybeh!

You are Green Lantern

Green Lantern 95% Hulk 80% Catwoman 80% Wonder Woman 77% Spider-Man 75% Superman 70% Batman 65% Supergirl 62% Iron Man 55% Robin 42% The Flash 40%

Hot-headed.  You have strong will power and a good imagination.

Click here to take the Superhero Personality Quiz

Villainess, I am

You are Apocalypse

Apocalypse 85% Dark Phoenix 81% Magneto 76% Mystique 70% Juggernaut 66% Venom 65% Poison Ivy 65% The Joker 64% Dr. Doom 60% Lex Luthor 57% Catwoman 53% Mr. Freeze 50% Kingpin 41% Riddler 40% Two-Face 38% Green Goblin 26%

You believe in survival of the fittest and you believe that you are the fittest.

Click here to take the Supervillain Personality Quiz

Ano, shift na ba... ulit? Haha

        

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~ Sabi ko na ba't dapat tinuloy ko na yung Fine Arts o kaya yung Music ko. Hehehe Nung nagshift ako dapat Comm ako eh kaya lang.. Ewan ko ba. Next life time na lang siguro. O kaya pag nakapag-ipon ako pag nagtatrabaho na ako mag-aaral na ulit ako. Kukunin ko na yung mga gusto ko. Goodluck sa 'kin!

Cracks in the dark

Makaka-move on na rin sa buhay. Tapos na summer class, pasado na sa Physics. Six more units, two more subjects, one more semester. Bwahaha. Sugoi! You have no Idea how desperate I was while waiting for that result. Waiting for him to check the exam papers, he told one of my classmates that "only five will fail". I went to check his class record I saw five names with an X before them, mine included, while others had numbers in them. Evil thoughts came running inside my head, one of which is inflicting harm, to myself and others, as I was more than ready to do so. I waited for almost an hour, went back and forth looking for my professor, I was too worried to leave without knowing. When I finally found him, he reached for a paper from his pocket. That was it. I got what I needed, Uno lang, baby. 1.00, not that good, but enough to make me happy.

Makakatulog na rin ako ng mahimbing at mahaba. *yawn*

I can't afford to buy the book yet but I got myself an e-book of the Interview of the Vampire, first off the Vampire Chronicles series. I will buy them, all of them, this year surely. But till I can afford them, the e-book will do. Sugoi!

Am loving the 2004 movie adaptation of the Phantom of the Opera. Got myself the Special Edition Movie Soundtrack. Can't wait to get the movie CD. Wai! @__@ LOOOOOOOOVVE!!!

I got into another accident last Saturday but it wasn't as bad as the one I had last Friday. This time, the jeep that I rode to school got hit by an owner-type jeep. Good thing, only the tires were damaged and I was seated in the middle and had a couple of people to catch me as cushion when the jeep suddenly stopped. Oh, well.. Malas lang. Anyway, the photoshoot we had the same day went out smoothly despite the gloomy skies and windy weather. Not to mention the free lunch, we had KFC. Hahaha. Sugoi! Naman. Hehehehe.

Had the workout I never had in months yesterday. The magazines came the other day, we had to bring it all up the office. We stationed ourselves from where the magazines were dropped up to the office. We passed each pack to each other until it reached the last stations and was placed inside the office. It was fun but tiring, running less than a meter up and down, carrying that heavy package up and back to your station and reach for the next pack. Basta. I can still feel the strain in my arms. It hurts a little. I miss this actually. I'll be climbing again in June and I won't be training till then. Hehehehe. Atleast I had some sort of exercise after a few months. Sugoi ulit. Hehe

Tagu-taguan, maliwanag ang... BUWAN. Yeah. I could see it clear from my window. It's been raining a lot lately but my day/night would usually end with clear skies and bright heavenly light. Aww, I so love the moon for some reason, I want to believe it has power over me. I calls me, it calms me, it gives me life. Weird. Haha. Wala lang.

I am so craving for vampires and Anne Rice right now. I want to play the violin, I want to look like a vampire, I want to be a vampire, I want to meet a vampire, and have him take me away. I'm dying every now and then in this life. I want to get away from everything, live without being alive. I would become happy but loneliness is always more dominant, clouding every happy thought I have, everything, everything I would ever call my happiness. If only, some dark angel would come and take me away to another world, different from where I am today. A place where I can forget everything, and be somebody else, not who I am today. If I could be something else, other than human, I would be lonely but I would have a deeper reason, meaning to my loneliness. If only... Never mind.

By the way, I want to learn the violin not only because of my love for Lestat and his kin. I've always loved the violin. It sounds like loneliness, of weeping, of wailing. I want to be one with that loneliness, I want to play that loneliness and play my own loneliness. Yes, I am lonely. I want the violin sing my loneliness for me. Ahahaha. How many times did I write 'loneliness'? Hahahaha.

More and more everyday, I am realizing something that I never learned. LOVE. I always say I feel it for something or someone, but did I ever really mean it? Or do I not only care for them without loving them? Do I even know what the word meant? Am I not just obsessing? Looking for something, someone to feed my imagination? I know now that I won't go seeking for it again because if love wanted to be with me, it will come and find me. I've always had this loneliness even as a child but not that feeling could take away that loneliness. It cannot tell me where my loneliness is coming from, it couldn't protect me. I am more in-love with my sorrow than I have ever been in-love with anyone. Loneliness is Levy, Levy is not herself without it.

Dunno how to close this post. So before I go...

Happiness is not an antonym of loneliness. It can co-exist.

Peace

A piece off our photoshoot last May 17th.

Forgive me, I can only edit one photo at a time. I'll post the others as soon as I finish them. Peace.

Credits: Ate Nagi | www.kamuigroup.tk

Isipin mo ako

Isipin mo ako, Isipin mo ako nang may pagmamahal sa ating pamamaalam
Alalahanin mo ako kahit paminsan-minsan, ipangakong iyong susubukan
Kapag dumating ang isang araw na iyong mapagtantong nais mo nang bawiin ang iyong puso upang makalaya
Kung magkakaroon ka ng pagkakataon, isipin mo naman ako
Alam nating ang ating pag-ibig ay di gaya ng dagat na hindi nagbabago
Ngunit kung maaalala mo lamang, huminto ka sandali't isipin mo ako
Isipin mong lahat ng ating pinagsaluhan at ang ating mga nakita
Huwag ang mga mangyayari kung-lang, sana
Isipin mo ako, Isipin mo ako habang tahimik sa aking paggising at mapagpaubaya
Isipin mo ako habang sinusubukang maigi na iwaksi ka sa aking isipan
Alalahanin mo ang mga araw at ang mga landasin ng mga panahong iyon
Isipin mong lahat ang mga bagay na hindi na natin magagawa
Walang araw na hindi kita iisipin
[Kay tagal, mistulang kay tagal na nang tayo'y mga bata at musmos pa
Hindi mo man ako maalala ngunit naaalala pa rin kita]
Ang mga bulaklak ay nalalanta, mga kulay ng tag-araw ay kumukupas
Mayron silang takdang panahon, gaya din natin
Subalit, pakiusap, ipangako mo sa akin na kahit minsan
Ay iisipin mo ako

~ Just a translation I made of my favorite song off the 2004 movie adaptation of the Phantom of the Opera. Ayos. Had nothing good to do the other night, and since I'm so loving this song [currently studying it], I made a translation. Wala. Yun lang.

Pulchritudine

Maboroshi no Naka

What goes up must come down

What goes up must come down - we all know and understand this, yet when we are down, feeling low or unhappy, it can be so hard to believe life will ever get better!

THE WHEEL OF FORTUNE

Sometimes we experience good luck and good fortune unexpectedly, and when we do, oh how joyful and exciting it is!  Getting a phone call out of the blue from the person you’ve fancied for ages asking you out on a date, winning some money, getting an unexpected promotion and pay rise at work, friends and family throwing you a surprise party – all these experiences or surprises make us feel on top of the world.

Conversely, when you hear through a friend that your lover is seeing someone else, your bank surprisingly turns down your request for a loan, your boss unexpectedly announces you’re going to be laid off or you lose a loved one – these experiences and shocks can leave us emotionally devastated, feeling as though the world is somehow against us.

The Wheel of Fortune represents such unexpected turns of fate and fortune. Sometimes the wheel will turn in your favor and bring unexpected good luck and fortune, sometimes it will turn against you and you will experience bad luck and misfortune. However, the wheel suggests that these turns of fortune are beyond your control, they are part of the eternal movement and cycle of life.

When the Wheel of Fortune appears in your readings you can expect an unexpected change in your fortune … so if you have been experiencing a run of bad luck or misfortune and the Wheel of Fortune lays in your near future, then the cards are suggesting that it won’t be long before fate will come into play and your luck will start to change. Conversely, in the situation where the Wheel of Fortune is ahead and things have been going great for you up to now, read it as a warning that something unexpected may throw a spanner in the works and bring a challenging time.

The appearance of this card in answer to a question about what you should do about something or someone, can suggest that, whatever you do, fate will determine the outcome. However, if surrounding cards are negative, it could be a warning that making the wrong choice could backfire on you.

Life has its ups and downs, and understanding and accepting this helps us to hold a more realistic view of life itself. Remember that the wheel turns up, just as surely as it turns down ... it’s just the eternal and constant rhythm and cycle of life.

Alison Day
Lotus Tarot

World Sea Turtle Day

Start:	May 23, '08
Location:	All-around the world

Yes, it's true. I got this from the May E-Newsletter of WWF.

Save the Turtles!

Ikot

Nakita ko rin sya ng malapitan, sa wakas...

Somnio, Somnium

To dream, A dream

Yay! Finally. This is something I haven't done in years. I'm starting all over again. Did this just this afternoon, for about an hour and a half, took pictures with my phone, so... please be nice.

Thanks.

By the way, try looking at the reference photos carefully. Not sure how but some weird figures [or faces?] were formed from the light. Or are they just illusions of the light? Hehehe no photoshop-ing done there. I, myself, was surprised when I saw it last night. What do you think?

It hurts... Literally.

I love the rain most especially when accidents don't happen unlike today. 

After class I went to hang out for a few minutes at our official tambayan, the Genshi Kubo, with some of my Genshi-ningens. The day started out fine, until it went cloudy and I knew the rain was coming. I don't mind getting soaked. I love the rain but not today. Definitely not today. So, yeah, I went to eat lunch before going home, it was already raining when I hailed a jeepney and took my ride home. I don't want to do my usual jaywalking so I went up the footbridge. Making my way on the footbridge, I was thinking whether to bring out my umbrella or not and, man, I'm glad I didn't. I was on my way down on the other side of the bridge when I slipped, and to think I was walking as slowly and as carefully as I can. I fell a few steps down [don't ask how few those steps were]. Good thing someone who was on their way up somehow caught me, and I didn't even stop to thank her. I was too stunned to stop and think. I went to Jollibee to wash up a little because I was bleeding and I was dirty with mud because of the rain and the footbridge itself is filthy. I didn't really mind being wounded, I've had worse falls than that, but that bridge, ugh, it's a structure whose filth withstood the test of time. Anyway, so I went home and took a special trip so I can get home fast and take a bath and wash my wounds then, voila! The right side of my back is aching right now, and so is my right elbow. Nice, isn't it? Today is such a nice day to get hurt. I just hope I didn't break anything because that would definitely hurt.

FUCK!! I love the rain

Anyway, three more days and summer school is officially out, and less than two weeks after that regular semester is open again. Hahaha. Nice.

Finally, I'm back painting again. It's just one I did it in less than two hours. It's still not that good since I'm only starting again, but atleast I've started doing it again, right? And I just MIGHT give it away. Wala lang.

Somnio - To Dream

Reminds me of that scene from Spiderman when we went jumping from building to building yelling, "I'm back. I'm back", then falls into a parking lot, hitting back first on top of one the cars then yelps, "My back. My back", then laughs. Man, and my back is hurting really bad right now, oh, and my left heel.

Saw this Multiple Intelligence test from Joanne's links. Nicey, I love quizzes like this:

My Multiple Intelligences

Last Wednesday I saw my crushie Mhellow on the way home at nine in the morning while  was on my way to school. Sayang, I didn't call him to say hi. He looks tired. I told him about it the night of that day and said he's currently working on nightshift and haven't slept one wink yet. That's why. Hehehe. Wala lang. Just happy to see him again. :-)

I am so craving Anne Rice right now. I want to by the whole Vampire Chronicles series but I am broke and I am not happy about it. Can't wait for school to start. I need to have those books!

Oh, I'm having second thoughts on going to Mangaholix. Wala lang. Heh

A'right. Just went to write what happened today. Nothing's wrong, really, other than my back, and my heel and my elbow, nothing more. Hehehehe.

Gotta go!

on-nwee [ennui]

tanong ::

1) ang daming dapat at pwedeng gawin, bakit wala akong magawa?

2) ano ba dapat ang ginagawa ko ngayon?

3) ano ang pumipigil sa aking gawin ang mga bagay na dapat magawa?

4) kailangan ko ba talagang gawin ang mga gawaing iyon?

5) kailangan ko ba talagang itanong kung kailangan kong gawin iyon?

6) kung wala akong magawa, bakit ko ginagawa ito ngayon?

7) alam mo ba ang sagot sa mga katanungan ko?

8) ano kaya ang ginagawa ko ngayon kung hindi ako nagtatanong?

9) ano naman kayang maitutulong ng pagtatanong ko sa pansarili kong pag-unlad at sa pag-unlad ng bayan ko?

10) last na ito, sawa ka na ba?

~ wala yan lang iyon. wala lang talaga akong magawa. wala akong maisip. akala mo lang meron pero wala. wala. WALA.

Effeminate

Some think it's gay, I think it's

BEAUTIFUL.

Beyond the Clouds :: Memories of Pulag

DLSU - Dasmariñas Mountaineering Society
Batch 11 Induction Climb
Mt. Pulag, Benguet
Traverse via Babadac - Akiki Trailheads
March 28 - April 1, 2008

~ Credits are given to whom it is due, see the captions. Hehehe
~ Late post, sorry. Ngayon lang sinipag. Intention: bring back memories, mang-inggit sa mga di pa nakakarating sa Pulag, manghikayat na mga tao upang subukin ang mountaineering, palipasin ang isang boring na araw sa buhay ko.
~ Comments are always welcome. *wink*
~ Next up :: The Baguio Trips.

Multo

May isang di kilalang nilalang ang nag-reply sa latest post ko, yung nauna dito [hi, kuya!]. Ayos lang yun kaya lang... Kamukha nya, or atleast yung mukha nya sa mga pictures nya, ang isa pang nilalang na itatago natin sa pangalang Kawaii Boy.

Waaaah!?

Sakit sa ulo... Masaya dahil feeling ko sign yun na babalik na sya kaya lang naisip ko, kaya ko sya siguro sya madalas makita sa Admin ng sembreak last year ay dahil nag-aasikaso sya ng pagshi-shift o kaya pagta-transfer, paano mangyayaring babalik sya? Oh no!!! Baka ma-miss ko na naman sya. Ang apoy! O, hindeeeh!? Hehehe pero why not, di ba? Haha. Lahat naman tayo kailangan ng inspiration. Potek. See, tinatamad akong mag-blog hanggang nakita ko ang reply na yun. Hala. Hala. Hehehehe

Eto na naman ako... Bahala na!

Hindi na tahimik ang mundo...

SUGOI!!!


May sounds na ulit ang pc namin.

Gutom

Sakit sa ulo.





Hilo na ako.





Kalam sa sikmura.





Tara kain tayo.

Gutom na talaga ako!

Katotohanan: Wala akong mai-blog, nasa notebook lahat! I-type? Ayoko nga. Tinatamad ako. Wahahaha!

Cheer up!

Virtual Flipboards @ 1, 024 Cheerleaders

Cool, try nyo!!!

Preview :: L.L. # 5

I still lack the inspiration to sing the whole song, sorry...

But I still hope you like it, and please forgive the darkness again. Ahihi...

Levy's Lullaby # 4 :: You Are

Sino'ng vain? Bwahahaha

Wala, bigla lang akong nainsipire... Pasensya na sa dilim. Nilalang talaga ako ng dilim, kaya... madilim? Parang scandal lang yan. Hahahaha

Enjoy and please leave comments. Salamat!

Your divine feminine

Our divine feminine, the goddess within ... we all have the ability to know her, whether you’re male or female, this ‘intuition’ or ‘psychic awareness’ within is omnipresent, a ‘universal knowing’ if you like.

THIS WEEK'S CARD: THE HIGH PRIESTESS

When was the last time you went against your intuition or gut feelings just to hear yourself say ‘I knew I shouldn’t have done that, I somehow knew it wouldn’t work out’?

This gut instinct, intuition or 6th sense, whatever you want to call it, is our spirit, our subconscious or what I like to call our ‘authentic’ self speaking to us.

The High Priestess card represents this very intuitive guide we all have within ourselves, and we can always call upon her provided we have the courage to listen to her.

So often we take what appears to be the easy option, or we remain in our comfort zone, only to later realize the illusion. For example, have you ever stayed in an abusive or unfulfilling relationship, despite your ‘intuition’ telling you that you are unhappy and should leave, just to avoid being on your own?

Have you remained in a dead end job that brings no satisfaction and a poor income, despite your ‘intuition’ telling you that you could do so much better for yourself if you could find the courage to leave?

Fear of the unknown, fear of rejection and fear of loneliness are, for me, the three greatest reasons why we choose to be deaf or ignorant to our intuitive guide, and wind up staying in relationships, jobs and situations that we are far from happy with.

When this magical and enigmatic card appears in your reading, ask yourself ‘what is the secret to finding the happiness I seek?’  For The High Priestess is the keeper of secrets, your secrets, and the greatest irony is that you are the only one who can know the secrets she has to share with you.

You must develop the ability to silence the noise of your conscious fears, and allow your mind to be still and silent enough for your intuitive guide or High Priestess to communicate with you. Thus she will reveal the secret to your own happiness.

The more you learn to trust your intuitive guide, the more aligned you will become with your ‘true’ desires and your ‘true’ self. For example, if the quiet voice in your head is telling you that starting an affair with your boss is not a good idea, it may be wise to listen to it!

If that voice grows ever louder and more persistent about something you are doing or considering, see it as your own High Priestess imploring you to listen ... you need to pay attention!

So, when The High Priestess appears in your readings, it’s time to ask yourself how you really feel and think about the issue or situation? Your conscious self must learn to trust your intuitive self.

Alison Day
Lotus Tarot

Love

Yet again

lethargic. apathetic. unmotivated.

Photoshoot

Start:	May 17, '08 09:00a
Location:	All-over DLSU-D Campus

Organized by Nagi-neechan

There's no theme in particular but I'm not sure if this is open for everyone. Anyway, in case anybody's interested to come take photos or just watch, just leave a comment here so I can ask her if it's still open for more participants.

Just letting everyone know.

...

Life has no meaning any more does it?
The wine has no taste, the food sickens you,
there seems no reason for any of it, does there?
But what if I could give it back to you.
Pluck out the pain, and give you another life,
one you could never imagine, and it would be for all time.
And sickness and death could never touch you again.
Don't be afraid. I'm going to give you the choice I never had.

If ever there is meaning, I maybe blind, or dumb, or just too distracted with others things to realize, because I see none of it. I looking back, I have had things for which I was living for but I do not remember any of them now. If only some dark angel would come to me and just take away, maybe I can find and give new meaning to my life.

A new light

When someone is seeking, it happens quite easily that he only sees the thing that he is seeking; that he is unable to find anything, unable to absorb anything, because he is only thinking og the thing he is seeking, because he has a goal, because he is obsessed with his goal. Seeking means: to have a goal; but finding means: to be free, to be receptive, and to have no goal. You , O worthy one, are perhaps indeed a seeker, for in striving towards your goal, you do not see many things that are under you nose.



A path lie before you, which you are called to follow.



... I have had thoughts and knowledge here and there. Sometimes, for an hour or for a day, I have become aware of knowledge, just as one feels life in one's heart...



...I have had to experience so much stupidity, so many vices, so much nausea, disillusionment and sorrow, just in order to become a child again and begin anew. But it was right that it should be so; my eyes and heart acclaim it. i had to experience despair. I had to sink to the greatest mental depths, to the thoughts of suicide, in order to experience grace, to hear Om again. To sleep again and to awaken again refreshes again. I had to become a fool again in order to find Atman in myself. I had to sin in order to live again...



I am indeed old, but I have never ceased seeking. That seems to be my destiny...



There is no such thing as time; present only exist for it, neither the shadows of the past nor the shadow of the future.



Your soul is the whole world...



Words do not express thoughts very well. They always become a little different immediately. They are expressed, a little distorted, a little foolish and yet it pleases us. And seems that what is of value and wisdom to one man is nonsense to another

SIDDHARTHA
Herman Hesse

Left - Right Brain Person

Got this from a former schoolmate's blog.

First, identify yourself as right- or left- brain person:

1. Hold your hands together, as if you are praying. Look at your hands.


Left thumb below the right thumb: left brain

Right thumb below the left thumb: right brain


2. Fold your arms in front of you as if you are angry. Look at your hands.

Right arm above left arm: left brain

Left arm above right arm: right brain


Based on 1 and 2 (order important), below is the interpretation of your personality:

Right-Left: Considerate, traditional, indirect type. Can instinctively read others' emotions and respond friendly by nature. Although not very into taking initiatives in moving forward, this person will always take a step back in supporting others. Stable personality and considerate, gives others a 'being protected' feeling. But their weakness is they cannot say no. Regardless of how unwilling they are, they will still take care of others.


Right-Right: Straightforward. Once decided on something, they will take action right away. Very curious and love challenges. Dare to face dangers without thinking through (sometimes foolishly). Their weakness is they don't listen to others. They will filter in only what they want to hear in a conversation and very subjective. However, because of their straightforward attitude, they tend to be fairly popular.


Left-Left: Dedicated, cold, perfectionist. Very logical in all aspects. The only way to defeat (or win over) him/her is through reasons. Has a lot of pride and feels strongly about doing the right thing. If they are your friends, they are very trustworthy. However, if they are your opponents, they will be very tough to deal with. Because they can be very "anal" as a perfectionist, they usually leave a bad impression of being hard to deal with when first met.


Left-Right: Likes to take care of others, the leader type. Has a cool and keen observation ability to see through situations, yet still can be considerate in others needs. Because of their cool, calm nature and strong sense of responsibility, they tend to become head of a group. Popular among people. However, they may not be able to help themselves in meddling because they want to take care of others too much. Very concerned about how others view them, and always on alert.

Reigusu no Taikutsu

I'm trying this new online game, Cronous. Haven't played anything in a long time and I just want to try something new.

My dad got a new pet, a fighting fish. With dalawang matatakaw na pusa, goodluck sa bagong isda.

Cool Change is now on planning stage, and I'm ineffably excited.

It's so freaking hot but I'm finally getting my color back so I don't care. Finally recovering from the Benguet and Laguna series of sunburns. Hahahaha.

I've adopted T.I.T.s or the TangIna Tantrums, something my HF friends coined, a term for a condition where one curses T.I over and over again out of annoyance and frustratuion, so if I'm offending anybody with it in my posts, well... problema nyo na yun. Hahahahaha.

Eto na. This is it. Wala nang bawian. Hindi na ako sasama sa Mt. Daguldol. Pasensya na talaga. Wala lang talaga ako sa mood maglakbay nitong mga nakaraang araw kahit madami rin akong gustong puntahan, di lang talaga ngayon.

Gusto ko na matapos ang summer classes. Nagsasawa na ako. Miss ko tumunganga lang sa dilim hanggang mag-umaga. DI pwede kasi maaga pasok ko.

Miss ko na fastfood. Tumataba na naman ako pero wala akong pakialam. Gusto ko ng KARNE! Wahahaha. Magfu-foodtrip ako para walang badtrip pag sinipag akong lumabas, at yun ay... Soon. Di ko alam. Basta pag di na ako tinatamad. Hahahaha.

Sabi ko na nga ba't may kulang. Ngayon ko lang naalala kung kelan mauubos na ang halu-halo ko. Hindi ko nalagyan ng pinipig. Sayang. Sayang. Bukas na lang. Hahahaha.

I want something to feed my mind. Pero wala naman akong mabasang libro dahil wala akong bagong libro. Gusto kong manood, pero wala akong bagong video. Mahal kasi eh, and I don't buy pirated movie cds, wahahaha.

Am living The Legend and Dyesebel, and Lee Philip. Hehe I love his eyes, I love Asian men esp. Koreans, Chinese/Taiwanese, and Japanese.  Wala lang, I just wanna say I love 'em, I mean, don't you? Their eyes = LOVE. Aww

Wala na ulit akong maisip at gutom na naman ako.

*sigh* Haaayyy...

Passion is Purpose 2

Passion is Pupose 2
Art Exhibition by Bryan Ramos
AEA Gallery
May 3 - June 15, 2008

Circulations Team

March 28, the morning of the day I left for Baguio, we went to distribute the newspaper. Wala, yun lang.