First school week is almost over, weekend na! It's tough re-adjusting my sleeping patterns but I think I got the hang of it. My eyes hurt already but I haven't blogged for days and I so i will...
The Ice Age characters are still talking in my head. Awww... I wanna see it again!
I was on YM earlier with Mhel in webcam. Haha! Hi, Mhellow! You're telegenic or should I say, "webcameogenic"! He's so cute with all the making faces, and the beautiful eyes... Hehe... I replied to his latest post and he told me that it wasn't really his birthday. Hehe... I think I just didn't read the entry well or my brain is still in hibernation. Oooohh!
I was going to write something about some Pinoy celebrities but I thought I'd rather not or the others may get me wrong and I don't wanna offend certain people. I'm trying to be nice just this once. Hehe...
I haven't talked to my tropa for almost a month now and I was lucky to catch Val online and asked him how his internship was and he said, "Tataba ako sa munisipyo, pakain nang pakain", then signed off. Nice. I do see Patrick go online but I don't know what to ask, Jerome want to play FS with me but I just don't catch him but we send messages, Mac rarely goes online but he replied to my PM in Friendster, and the rest... No news. I guess bonding will have to wait till June. Haaay!
We are drifting away from each other once again, but this time I'm afraid it'll not be so far from saying goodbye forever. Not sure what will happen next but whatever it is, I pray it'll be for the good of everyone. I just hope he'll never forget that I will always care even if I sport otherwise. Sorry...
Weird, but I had/am having this dream that I do not actually remember what exactly but I do know that I love that dream. Maybe I'm thinking too much. Haha...
Statistics isn't really as hard as I thought it'd be, well atleast not for now. It was cool as breeze but this Summer class and summer itself isn't as friendly as it was last year. I've seen familiar but not so friendly faces. The aura in the classroom is just neutral. No vibe of friendliness, nothing so exciting about going to class [except seeing Edd next door, I wonder what his class is], no nothing. The people just feels so... dull. I'm glad I know someone from last Sem, Mitch from our Psychology class, another guy from the same Psych class [forgot his name], and Sonel from LAN. The rest is... Ugh! Mostly were from CLA, which I suppose explains the aura but I did imagine myself becoming a CLA student but... Grrr! I hate their [those in class] energy level because it's like +1 down to negative something. Dunno! There are lots to be discovered since it's only the first week, and till then.. I hope they change. Yun lang.
Still no sign of Cogie anywhere. I did try something crazy [one of the dozens I've plotted] to get in touch with him but it just didn't work. Well, I'm not running out of ideas but I'm not sure how to start my operations or how on earth am I going to make them work. Heck! The stars will help, they always did and I will... beg them! Waaah!
Plans fail and I've already expected it so it didn't really hurt. I don't think there will be piano lessons for me this summer. Eager as i am right now to re-learn, there are things that is totally out of my control and I just have to accept how things turn out. I'll still pray to get what I want but... basta! we'll see na lang.
Embarrassing as it is, I think it's stupid but kids make me cry. Well, It's so frustrating to see poeple younger than I am achieve more in life than I do and succeed in your frustrations. You wanna be 'this' but you can't 'cause of 'that', you compare yourself to these kids, and you start to think that if you were given the same opportunity when you were their age, you know you just would have done better. I'm not that old, I'm just turning 20 a few months from now but... Argh! *sigh* I can't help but think, "That could've been me". I believe God has plans for all of us but I would prefer to have it all, be "it"... It makes me feel too old to do things. For almost two decades now, I have been a dreamy-eyed child. I appreciate that I got the very few people appreciate my potentials but it seems that I just can't get people to help me appreciate myself and reach for my star. Too much or too little, I demand it! I blame them because I just got tired of blaming myself. I wanna make changes but... I dunno, I'm totally lost.
On the lighter side, I'm still considering a new layout, my own. I just need time to learn how to. I still haven't encoded anything on the first one that I made. Help!
It's late, gotta go to bed, maaga pa 'ko bukas! Nyty! [Umaga na pala, 12:10am] *Kisses*
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