I did something I should never have done last night. The price: I've been rolling like an armadillo trying to sleep. I should've done something productive instead of trying to get sleep. Now I'm reminded of something that I should never have forgotten: Never drink anything with caffeine from 6pm onwards if I don't wanna stay up till morning. I have no problem with coffee since I don't drink coffee, it's just carbonated drinks that I can't get enough of. A little dose can keep me up till 7am of the next day. I just hope I get a decent sleep tonight 'cause I have to go to school to get my grades tomorrow morning. No more softdrinks tonight, or maybe just a little since I chilled a bottle of Pepsi for tonight. Hehe... Sleeplessness is all in the mind... I think! Haha! And I think I already look like a raccoon because of my eyebags.
I recall from a few weeks back, having played with one of black kittens [actually it's more of dark brown]. It was purring outside my window, perhaps calling out to its mother, so I went out to get it and play with it. I got one of my shoe boxes and put it in. Whenever I lifted the box up, the kitten would tremble terribly. Now I know what "scaredy cat" means. I never expected something to shake that hard. I thought only humans can get that scared. I remembered the time i went to GMA for auditions. I shook like that little kitten. I was cold in and out [because their aircon fanned freezing cold]. That was the first time in my life that I ever got so shaking scared. I wanna be braver this time. No more shaking when I try it one more time. And how exactly am I going to do that? I have no idea.
Isn't it about time somebody save my life? Just wondering. Been trying to be a hero to some of the people who thinks they need me but I don't get the support back. Not totally but I get only a little of the lot that I need. My mind set has always been: if nobody's going to be giving it to me, I'll be getting it for my self, but I'm becoming too weak to do things for myself. But, hey, don't take what you read literally. Don't be dumb! Haha!
I know now what's not-so ineteresting about my blog: it's mostly ranting and who would actually want to come back to read me rant? I don't make sense. Not that I don't really make sense but not the sense that society-conscious, facts, observant, analytical, and earth-friendly sense of sense plus the fact I'm not even a celebrity. If I was famous... Ah! Nevermind 'cause I'm simply not. But I'm not losing hope that I make it someday.
About the layout, I'll be working on something new. This time, I'm asking Boris for help. Hi, Boris! I'll meet you na lang in May for the software I promised. I will text you, I promise! I'm just too lazy to buy load and much more lazier to get my fingers to text. I prefer typing on the keyboard. Hehe...
I told Bev I'm getting a makeover. Not total, just planning to have my hair dyed. I'm doing it before May, and hopefully, I can find ways to lose weight so I can look better when I visit my friends in Lucena for the fiesta. I wish to get my other clothes to fit me again. Awww... And I hope I can bring a friend with me. But it will have to take time to convince him to come, we'll see but I will have to do it stealthily. He will be coming with me without him knowing it. Haha, kidnap na 'to!
Been camwhoring the other night, and I love the results. I just need a real digicam with a good resolution. Awww... Plus, I need new makeup sets. I want more color 'cause those I have need more coats before you can see results. And I also need a bluetooth for the PC, a scanner, and a printer so I can show the world my creations. I'm getting 3 of my films developed this summer and hopefully I can get the pictures scanned, printed and uploaded. And I do have artworks I want to share in Deviantart.com. but until then...
I'm expecting to have passed all 5 subjects I took this sem or if not, I will have no choice but to take it again but this time with my blockmates and less vacant time for me the following sems.
I still have to years to prove myself. I don't wanna be doing something just for the fun of it. I wanna be do something because I'm good at it and I wanna prove myself and something at that field. I hope they'd understand. If I get to do what I had to to prove myself, I will come back but if they just won't let me then i'll call it quits...
Pray for me, show me love, and give me some skin!
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