Saturday, October 22, 2005

Red

I woke up from an afternoon nap at 8 in the evening and I was surprised something red around my mouth. I forgot what I eaten before I went to sleep and thought, my addiction with vampires and their stories has gotten me. I must've drunk blood while I was in my unconscious state. Let me think... I had breaded squid for lunch, munched on a pack of Cream-Os for merienda, drank only water and took my medicine, I chewed on Mentos dragees and... That's it. I don't remember putting on lipstick today. Hmmm... Waaah! Am I actually turning into a vampire, the way I read it in books? But then I noticed a healing wound on my lips, My chappy must've bled again. Imagine anybody sucking blood from my chappy lips... Nyeeh! It always dries up, peels and ocassionally bleeds. F*ck! Haha! I remember my brother telling me he's having artificial fangs. He said it was going to be dentures, I knew my idea was better. I've wanted vampire fangs for so long [I was still in highschool when I decided I wanted to have fangs and look like a real deal vampire] and I saw on tv that I can have fangs by pasta. I already had pastas on my teeth because the school dentist recommended prophylaxis and I think pastas can make good fangs too. I can't wait to see my vampire self! I've already tried vampire make up but not the fang thingy and the getup just yet. Vampire get up need research and a lot of window shopping. I love wearing black but leather... Aw! I will never wear leather because the temperature, whatever the weather, is always hot. This is rad!



I'm editing a picture with my Photoshop CS 2, I'm trying to add wings to my picture but I can't get it right. It's already morning so I'll try to get it done tomorrow or the next days to come.



By the way, I got my grades and as I've expected I never failed any of them. I knew it but I have an old friend who mourns at her failing grade. She's studying AB Comm at St. Scholastica's. I told her not to take it seriously but I can't have her see my point. I just wanted her to see the brighter side of college life 'cause it seems to me that she hasn't just yet. She's stuck; She doesn't do anything other than study, go home, do her school work, meet her boyfriend, and all that over again. I could've never survived such dull life! She's still imprisoned in that kind of living like she was when i first met her and got to know her back in our gradeschool days. She shouldn't have let her parents chose her school! If she only went to the same school where I am, life could've been a lot better for her. I'm not a bad influence anyway. I can get very lazy and I have my fair share of downs and lowness but I can proudly say MY LIFE WAS NEVER DOWN BECAUSE MORE OFTEN THAN NOT, I MAKE MY OWN CHOICES. Which reminds me of Professor Dumbledore telling Harry that it's not the abilities that we have that determine what become but our choice of what to become... something like that and having watched Showbiz Stripped's Reign of the Songbird episode tonight and thinking things through... I knew he was right! The first have of the sembreak has already done so much to help me think things over, decide on my survival strategies for next sem, and all the blah-blahs I need. Thank God for giving me such disposition... Haaay! AMEN!



Just came from reading a broken-hearted's blog post before I came here to write and... Man! I'm not in the mood for understanding such things! Haha! I feel fine and should I say no emotions at all. I wonder why. Not that I'm becoming numb again but ever since I adopted this somewhat Gothic manner of thinking, my concept of love has totally changed. I'm not into the normal teenybopper love stuff like I had, like some 3 or 4 years ago. The word eternity has never left my mind since then... Uh, oh! Here I go again! My world has been filled with so much death but all the love I have has helped me through. Haha! I'll try to express these things, one of these days in a better post. I have to go now; Got a plane to catch, bound for dreamland... See you all there!



A pleasant morning to one and all.

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