Wednesday, October 19, 2005

Terminal

What have I to post today?



I was utterly annoyed by some parasitic people's inconsiderate dependence on other people. Man, friendship is not ground for relying on other's about your survival. You should know what to do by yourself. Always keep in mind that they will never be around for you always no matter how close your closeness as friends are. I'd love to tell them that but I'm not tactless and I'm not straightforward. This is one of the many things that almost got the best of my sem last sem. Last sem was so filled with sickening reliance and flaccidity. It's about time I let out what I feel. I've been keeping this for so long and now I had it with them. It's about time... Now, blame me for being what I am. You made me like this. [Sorry if I'm making "iwan" some friends, I just can't help it and isolations seems best as not to all my negative energy on you. Bear with me.] I'm not only talking about myself when I say people are being reliant but I've grown so tired of such acts that I don't wanna hear any of it anymore with myself, those close to me or anybody. It has got to stop so I'm making my move. I'm putting myself out of another situation same as is so... that's it. Come what may, now; let them say what they want. I'm sick of it so I'm taking my medicine. Buh-bye, newbie!



Three months...



Cogie will be away from P.I. for 3 months and... Sigh! I was talking to his friend last night, Dawn and said he's leaving in Nov. 19. By the way, she's a really nice girl. She talked to me like we know each other well though we don't. Haha! It was fun teasing her. I wish I can get that close to Cogie. But anyway, I'm 2 degrees away from him through her. Aww! Thank God I found her on the net... I found her site.. I found her friendster... I found her YM... Cogie na lang ang kulang! Ohhhweeeeee!!!



Anyway, friends about the first paragraph of my post, I'm not angry but I despise what they've been doing but not the people themselves. I'm also a parasite at times but I can't imagine doing it in excess. Am I doing that? You tell me. I depend on people to do stuff for me when I feel lazy, or when I think I can't do it or when I'm not in a good mood or I'm just not in the right trip to work with certain people but I give effort when I really want something and rarely blame people when I fail. How would you feel if you were blamed for something you didn't do when they could've done something to do what has to be done while you are away? Choices has to be made and you should not let your feebleness get you... Do something! Ask me about the story behind this that you may understandmy sentiments better. Hint: You are a Computer Science student and you know you will be failing anytime in your major subject, will you still choose Speech over it? Oh, come on!?



I've been talking too much. I dunno how I feel about this, I'm not angry but I'm neither enjoying it. Can you handle that? Grrr! I'm outta here.

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