Tuesday, July 31, 2007

All Good Now

I feel good (tereret-tereret) I know that I would. Hahaha. Well, I do feel good. I feel better, a whole LOT better. I dunno. I just had enough sleep the other night [ohayou na po!], I had enough protein to keep my head working straight [I'm a carnivora, grrr.. yum], I stopped myself from stress-eating again yesterday [mind over matter], I saw Shiawase-niichan before going to class and he even waved and smiled at me. ANG SAYA!!! Ahoho.. Wala lang. Don't mind me, I'm just being my usual addictive and obsessive self. Ahihi.. Then his friend added me on Friendster, I think his friend likes me. Hahaha. Okay, okay. Makapal ang mukha ko. Hahaha. 'Wag kayong KJ. I just feel like it today. Finally got to hangout with my Genshiken friends again today after class. Na-miss ko ang Tambay Committee. Got my grade for VB.net, konti na lang pasado na but I don't feel bad. I woke up happy today and I love how that soap I'm using feels on my face. Ang ganda! Lactomelli. Haha. That fish game, Fish Tycoon, that Madel sent me during Retreat's been keeping me busy. It's so hard to breed and keep them alive, darn fishes! Ahaha... Have you seen the moon tonight? It's so round, and full and pretty.. Like me? Ahahaha. Oh, well...

GAs tomorrow, CLA and CBA. Which one will I go to? Hmm... My friends, Mannequin, will be playing at CBA and so is Lakbay Lahi, which means Rak-en-Rol na naman. CBA tayo! Ahaha. I also heard Chicosci and Hilera will be at the CBA GA. Hmm.. Bakit lagi na lang bigtime ang CBA and CET? Bakit ang COS... Ehehe.. Betsuni, minnasan. Wala lang. Hahaha. Maybe I'm just not-so active. Hehe. Oh, well...

I am facing another situation where I have to choose between two different things that I both love but this time. There isn't much difficulty since I know what will benefit me more. You see, it's between a physical activity and creative agency or something like that. Hehe. I mean, if I choose that one which will help me boost my creativity and give me new ideas, and open up new windows of inspiration for my future work but I choose the other one, I will have what I have deprived my self of since I last had my last PE class, a proper, full exercise. I want both but since they will happen at the same day, I have no other choice but choose. I choose... EXERCISE/ Physical Training. Hehe. Yeah, I know the consequence: Sores and aches all over but I will need that for my future adventures and expeditions. Well, physical/ outdoor adventures and expeditions that is. They are both about adventures and expeditions but one is that of the mind, the other of the body. I don't need to go far if I wanted to let my mind wander, I do that everyday. You have no idea how far I can go; I reach places where time and space doesn't exist. I've been through a hell lot of larking, crossing one world after the other, ever since I learned to imagine, I learned to think, and that has been like... Forever. Hehe. And I can make my mind work even in the great outdoors. Oh, yeah. I'm feeling it. Feel na feel ko na ang pagiging outdoor person. Sana lang ma-carry ko talaga all the way at saka para din maiba naman. Woohoo! Oh, yeah!

I have overeaten again today. Oh no. Hehe, you know what happens next. Wahaha. Wala lang. It's like a disguised stress-eating. Oh no, talaga. You see, look at me today, I've always been a chubby, healthy person but not as big as I am today. I have been a stress-eater these past two or three years [mostly out of depression and frustration] that's why I can't wear the clothes I used to wear. You see me wearing almost the same thing every other Wash day Wednesday since they're the only ones that would fit me now. I still have lots in my closet but they're too small now but I have no plans of giving them away [though I gave some of those that I lost liking for to my cousins months ago] because I'm still hoping that there will come a time when I can wear them again, gain the sense of style that weight-gain [my cheeks, my belly, my flabs, oh.my.blubber] stole from me and I hope that I won't be too affected by things and other people anymore so I wouldn't have to stress-eat again [esp. my favorite anti-stressor Jollibee Chicken Joy flooding with gravy, *drools* hehe].

Yay, I saw Kong on my way home today. Haha. He's with a new girl [pa'no na ko? hehe] and he has short hair now though he's still that kawaii half-Korean, Vaness Wu look alike that I've known him to be. It's funny, we didn't recognize each other, our eyes met and only after a few microseconds when we realized. Hahaha. Nasabi ko na lang, "O, nagpagupit ka na ah?!", he replied, "O' nga eh". Haha. And we were talking while walking at opposite directions. I forgot the other things he said but I was just glad I saw him. Miss ko na 'yun eh. Aiyeeeh! Sayang he didn't make it to my birthday, reunion galore sana kami ng Veiled in Shadows except for Bryan kasi nga he's in Japan. I saw din na he's in school again, sayang lang 'di na kami schoolmates. Si *bitchy Anna Leah Javier look-alike ex-girlfriend nya* kasi!?! That *toot*!? Hahaha. Well, I'm just glad it's over na between them and he looks pretty fine now. Can't wait to see Veiled in Shadows [uyy, kami 'yon ah?!] get back together again, kahit jamming lang, hopefully after thesis. Good luck sa 'min.

Well? Dito na nagtatapos ang isa na namang madamdaming tagpo sa blog ni Levy Eiva. And now? Wala lang. Magsitulog na tayong lahat. Haha. Baka patay na ang fishes ko. Hehe. Yay, malapit na birthday ni Shiawase-niichan, gagawan ko sya ng birthday poster gaya nung ginawa ko for one of my friends. Aiyeeeh! Ang sayaaaaaaaah!!!

 Happiness is just an illusion caused by the temporary absence of reality


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