Wednesday, July 18, 2007

Sore wa futatsu no kataomoi

These were two unrequited loves. [Or atleast I want to think it that way]

I don't know how I feel. I know I've lost and I admit defeat but I don't want to give up. I know you're lost but when you get back I want to be here. I will be here when you get back from being lost. Here's hoping the demise of this woe, and I hope, too, to see you on the other side. [Blah! As if one of us is dying, wahaha!!!]

WHEN YOU COME BACK I'D STILL BE HERE, IN MY DREAMS YOU ARE STILL HERE LIKE YOU'VE ALWAYS BEEN.


Oh.the.shame. I like it but it's embarrasing. The picture: you wrote something about someone you never expected to read what you wrote only to find out that he was the first one to view that post. Oh.no. According to my observations, he wouldn't read any of my post unless the title is catchy. Is Listen to the Rain [refer to my last post] catchy? Oh.my. Not sure if he really read the post but he was the first one to view it and he didn't reply. Oh.hinde. Gyaaah! Ah.men. Nakakahiya talaga. And if he gets to read this post too.. Huli! Hi, kuya! Hehehe

Alright, this time I'll pass. I wanted to compete in that logo-making contest but I can't. I wasn't able to work on my design. Too many distractions. I mean, exams, the layouting, juggling with HF and my friends, working on designs, reading my book, doing this and that... Blah-blah. Quite impossible. And then I'll be having busy weeks ahead of me. I can't even finish my edits as fast as I used to.

July 19, 2007

Friday night *sigh* I don't know. It's good that my friends aren't having that sleepover this Friday but my other friends are planning to go swimming Friday night till Saturday. Oh my. I lied. If I don't see my friend, who called for the outing, on Friday and Saturday, I won't be seeing him in a couple of years or worse more than that but I wanted to perform on Friday night and I'm broke [Actually, I always am] and even if I didn't have that commitment, I still wouldn't be able to join them. It's true that when I told them that my dad's leaving for Germany on Saturday but I didn't tell them about that Friday gig. I hope they don't find out or if they do, I hope they'd understand. I wanted to join them, I've been wanting to go swimming since Summer but right I had to chose. I made my choice and.. Sorry...

I went to watch Harry Potter with some friends. Before that, we went to BioResearch and I saw silly little turtles. Haha. I pointed my finger at them and they would try to bite my finger from the aquarium. Haha. Kulit. Well, HP is good though it's.. uhh.. I dunno.. It was fast. It's like, it skipped a lot of scenes. Jump.. Jump.. Well, the effects are as magical as usual but I was really disappointed about Sirius' death. It's not as dramatic as it's been written in the book and not as heart-wrenching as the death of Cedric Diggory in the fourth movie. Well, I enjoyed that Daniel-Katie smooching, Haha. La-la-la... The ending is not so satisfying. I guess I'd have to wait for the last two movies. Then after the movie we went to National Bookstore and Toy Kingdom. Man, I was drooling at the books I saw at NBS. Book of the Stars by L'homme. Man, I've only read the first book, Quadehar the Sorcerer, since it's the only one available in school when there's actually three. Kainis, the titles they have there.. Sh*t, if only I had a lot of money, I would buy all of them right away, then and there. Sucks man. Then we went camwhoring at Toy Kingdom. I saw toys that I wanted to buy but then again, I don't have any money. Oh, well. It was a school holiday so the everybody had their own plans for that day. I went to watch HP with Scott and Jerome, Alain and Ian went to Festival Mall, Maki and the Bratatat boys went to play Call of Duty [And I'll be joining them soon. Hehe] and the other.. I dunno. Hehehe.

Another folk of my fantasy has been brought to life, Raoul and Erik from Phantom of the Opera. Aww.. Suki desu!

I did something I've never done before yesterday, make a wish in a well. I wish for this certain someone to find his way because, as I said, he's lost. I wanted to be there for him but all I can be is a friend. I've said it before [Yeah, I did. I said it in German in my last post] and I'll say it again, I know you're lost but when you find you're way back, and as long as I feel this way, I'll be waiting here for you.

I wish I may, I wish I might be that certain someone you wish for every night
[[if.you.knew.what.i.knew.BSB]]

17 comments:

  1. actually,,, this is the saddest wish evr T_T

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  2. *sighs*

    I know. Esp. when you know that the chances you have are very slight to almost nothing, no chance at all.

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  3. remember takemoto's unrequited love? I think we should learn from him (yey natapos ko na ang honey and clover 2!)

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  4. Oh, well... siguro in another lifetime na lang. 'cause I do believe what wasn't meant to be wasn't meant for now... la-la-lah..

    hahaha.. in the end si hanamoto-sensei ang nanalo...

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  5. in one way or another, I was thankful I fell in love with...uhm...that girl. I was badly hurt but I learned a lot.

    but what do we know? we really can't say. and their story (H&C) didn't really end. the author just finished telling it, but the story didn't. I guess she doesn't really know what happens next because the characters grew and had lives of their own. and maybe she just doesn't want to know. (hoy paul, sobrang out of topic ka na ah hehe)

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  6. In a world I can't enter, there's no distance to that place.

    I remember him saying that. Betsuni... Oh well...

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  7. Are you talking about Takemoto or yourself? You're confusing me.. hehehe

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  8. I said "I" didn't I? of course I was talking about myself. but pay me no mind...I'm spacing out to another time again. -_-

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  9. and she's a member of HF now. hahaha like what are the odds. ^_^

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  10. hmm.. now I'm curious.. who could she be.. hmm...

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  11. the new art staffer who hasn't shown up for ages now. go figure, hehe

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  12. you'll find out soon enough. if she shows up at all. hehe

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  13. I think I know her name.. I heard you talking to someone about her one time... Hehe.. "E" right?

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