Sunday, September 21, 2008

Gusto kong matulog, matulog nang matulog.

I'm sick.

Sick of this life. I'm not yet dying but this life is killing me. Sana pwedeng i-freeze frame ang buhay, or mag-skip scene or mas maganda, delete.

Not that nothing good is happening but it's just that somebody needs a break. Too many things happening at the same time, too many things that had to be done. I almost had it the other day. Almost went to a day out.

I rode a bus bound for Tagaytay since I'm already late for school but while sitting there idle, waiting for the conductor to collect my fare, I thought why not go to Tagaytay instead. I could and almost did it but something hit me. I have nowhere to go to in Tagaytay and I only have my allowance for the day. Where can it possibly get me?

Only thing I can do: huminga nang malalim.

Had me wishing, sana life can be lent or given to the more needy. Who wants my life? I'd give it for free. Mas maraming dying people who wants to live longer. but got only a few months or days to live. Pagod na ko. Okay sana kung maipapamigay ko na lang ang buhay ko, nakapagpasaya na ako ng ibang tao, nakatulong pa ako.

I'm not sure if I mean what I'm saying. Baka stress lang ito o baka naman gutom lang ito. Late na naman ang dinner ko. Pero ilang linggo na lang tapos na ito. Judgement day. Hindi ko na mahintay.

Bakasyon. Kailangan ko nang magbakasyon. Tara.

Kahit paano nakabawi na ako ng tulog. Actually, natulog lang ako maghapon, magdamag ngayong weekend.

At kung papayagan pa ng pagkakataon, matutulog ako ng bonggang-bongga ngayong linggo.

TARA, Tulog tayo!!! zzzZ (--__--) Zzzz

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